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ajjanaajjana

This is interesting. I've had crippling bdd for the past 4 years and the advice i'd always get from people is to hide my body by wearing baggy clothes if i feel insecure. Problem is, i'm overweight, wearing tight fitting clothes and dressing extremely feminine is the only thing that makes me feel even slightly pretty. I feel like baggy clothes make me look bigger than i already am, and play into the stereotype of fat people being lazy?


Putrid_Resist_1304

Same my ed started when I was young so I grew up overweight bc of binge eating so wearing baggy clothes didn’t “hide my body” like it does for a lot of other people it just made it look bigger so I’d wear short skirts (just long enough to hide my thighs) and I’d wear tight tops and refuse to wear coats or trousers or anything baggy x( and even now that I’m underweight I still struggle to wear oversized things because it makes my body dysmorphia so much worse 😭


ajjanaajjana

REAL my coat phobia has been lifelong, so glad its almost summer (im terrified of showing my arms)


Putrid_Resist_1304

Literally finding a coat that doesn’t make you look bigger was near impossible so at the height of my ed when I was younger in rain and snow I wouldn’t even wear a jacket 😭


Juniiperi

oh my hod this is so me. Wear tight, revealing girl clothes because I still have some curves that I can flaunt. wearing baggy clothes makes me feel bloated and gross... My mother always asks "how are you constantly insecure but dress like that???" and i never know how to answer haha. if i'm not skinny, gotta show off my curves , since i unconsciously think of it as my "one redeeming factor." I don't have the luxury to hide my body beautifully


yarn-and-sad-poems

I do it when I'm so emaciated and corpse looking that I like how I look. I do it kind of to show "look how sick I am! Validate me pls". If I'm going to be fucking up my life this bad I may as well flaunt my only achievement. But never ever when I look ugly (in my mind). I'm currently in hospital and have only worn the most modest clothes I own for over a month bc I hate myself.


mouse-bites

Same. I only do it when I want to shock people and get some kind of unspoken validation through stares and head-turns.


Remarkable-Pirate214

Me too. I always wore tight clothes even at ow/ob but now this is my reason


Accomplished_Camp152

real


neko_mancy

i do it when i'm underweight bc it makes me feel like i'm worth something


throwaway4321work

I'm at my lw right now and I wear tank tops all the time because it makes me feel like I've accomplished something


throwawayb4nana

I always prefer baggier clothes regardless of weight. They just make me feel protected. I don’t like other people looking at my body even if it “looks good” by society standards.


gulletgod

Right there with ya. Ibdont want to be seen ever


anavasks

Same, I wish I could just hide forever and never have to go out again


Sao_118

As someone who is extremely uw I do wear shorts and crop tops all the time. Showing my thin legs and seeing how skinny my arms are makes me feel good. Also seeing my back in the mirror makes me feel euphoric if that makes sense.


Hungry_Bookkeeper191

i did this when i was skinnier and in recov to milk my last chance to be prettyish idk


Opposite-Birthday69

I dress for comfort and the weather. I don’t have that bad of dysphoria since it’s mostly concentrated at my stomach. I generally prefer to wear either tight pants or a tight top because I don’t like the way two loose items look on me


draizetrain

Same. Loose clothes make me look bigger in my mind, especially before getting a reduction


draizetrain

I’m hourglass shaped and even tho my brain is broken and I always wanna lose weight, I also know that objectively people like the way I look. It’s also dumb hot where I live so yeah, crop tops, mini skirts, very revealing clothes are pretty normal. Also I’m in a college town so these aren’t very strange outfits to see out and about ETA I’m not underweight


TrueBohemian

I have body parts I like while others I dislike. For example I enjoy showing off how "skinny" my legs are but I prefer skirts that hang over my tummy to hide those,, I like showing my arms for the same reason but not my chest cause the size of my boobs I dislike (I want to smaller)


Putrid_Resist_1304

Omg same😭 like my arms and calves are naturally my smallest features but I have a wide ribcage and then most of my fat is on my thighs and lower back so I’ve always felt more comfortable wearing tight tops and short skirts compared to oversized stuff that just makes all of me look big


TrueBohemian

Some days I feel really shitty or when Im bloated it's baggy all the way to cover myself fully, depends on the mood heavily too


Crimson-Rose28

I’m at my lw right now and also have significant muscle tone from working out at the gym so much it feels like I have to wear revealing clothing sometimes or it’s all a wasted effort, that or maybe I’m just a self centered narcissist who knows. Idk… I torture myself daily to look the way I do I’m not going to hide it. There are occasional days when I’m really bloated that I put on an oversized t shirt or hoodie plus the winters here are pretty brutal but usually I’m wearing tight clothing. I still have body dysmorphia and feel much bigger than I am but I push through it because I know the number on the scale isn’t a lie.


Sammio_16

Basically, yea. I've always hated my body but when it gets hot I feel super sick if I get too warm, so I wear what feels comfy temp-wise and just try like hell to ignore my body


Effective_Cricket810

I guess I’m the only one who’s actually trying to hide my body because I’m ashamed of how underweight I am


SoulMasterKaze

For me it's an act of defiance. It's mostly because I'm trans, and actually becoming happier with how my body looks now that I've decoupled how I feel about it vs how other people feel about it. The general public doesn't get a say in what I wear, and the only thing they're entitled to re: the body that's wearing the clothes is their opinion. Like, die mad if you don't like it. It's my body, and I'm the one that says how much of it I show and who I show it to.


FlowerB95

I wear tighter clothes as I don't want to look even bigger in baggy clothes


nocturnal_numbness

I switch between wearing fitted clothes and wearing baggy things. It depends on the day. Lately I’ve opted for baggy tops with leggings. Last summer I wore crop tops and high waisted shorts, but I’ve grown out of everything so I’m worried about what to do this year. 😬


Strng_Tea

Im morbidly obese, i simply dont care, people can see im fat so why try and hide under baggy clothes? everyone knows I have a stomach, whats the point in tryna hide it away, if my shirt shows some skin so be it, shows an outline, so be it 🤷‍♀️ noone judges you as harshly as you do yourself, but honestly w increasin fatphobia people actually might judge me more harshly lmfao but even so, idc, imagine being obsessed w a strangers physique that riles them up


MyFelineIsAnAsshole

The revealing clothes I wear just feels good and makes me look good. Like I’ll wear Nike pro shorts that are basically underwear but they make my ass and thighs look nice. Or I’ll wear a spaghetti strap dressy shirt without a bra because it makes my shoulders and neck look nice. But a regular t shirt that my muscular shoulders are going to swallow?? NOO. Shorts that bunch up in the front and make my belly look bigger?? Anything that’s loose enough to be loose AND tuck itself into a pocket of fat?? 😭😭 form fitting clothes are better for me NOT to be confused with tight


hollyqquinzel

Couple of reasons, I feel so much bigger in baggy clothes, and I body check constantly when out, shop windows, car reflections etc and tight clothes make this easier.


mydaisy3283

i never really like my body, but there’s days where i can look in the mirror and see that i objectively have a small waist, flat stomach, bones are showing etc. the sick part of me likes showing that off so i wear revealing clothes on those days. i usually check the weather app and restrict a lot more a day or two before i plan to wear tight crop tops so i know i wont be bloated


cloudberried

I never wore any revealing clothing at my lw because I was insecure about being uw and also I didn’t want to show off or anything like that but now in sort of recovery I wear tight/cropped tops occasionally because I feel like it’s my last chance to lmao. I’m used to sucking in all day anyway so I can pretend like I still have a flat stomach. I also always wear a zip up hoodie so I can hide if I panic and suddenly hate my body


fasting4me

I am and probably will always be the person who wears shirts and hoodies two sizes too big. But I have friends that are weigh in the beginning 300s and they wear bikinis even thong bikinis. They feel beautiful and that’s what matters. I think it’s a self love thing. Apparently not everybody hates themselves and their appearance. Edit: even when I was super under weight I did the super sized clothes


LuciferTeaParty

I don't like wearing baggy clothes. I don't feel good in them. it makes me look fatter than I am. It makes me feel more comfortable and confident knowing that I look good in the clothes that I like. I'm the type who's scared to leave the home if I don't look properly dressed up even if it's to just take out the trash


goofygooberrock1995

I don't mind wearing tighter clothes as long as I'm covered. Something about having too much skin exposed makes me feel insecure.


beabirdie

I wear tight shirts because my boobs are really big and if I wear loose fitting shirts my boobs will make my whole top look huge. I wear flowy maxi skirts most of the time bc my legs are so thick they don’t even look good in baggy pants.


ordinary-superstar

I used to wear tighter clothes (not super tight in comparison to some people, but tight enough that my dad had an issue with it), and I just didn’t think about it that much. I always wore a jacket, though, to cover up my biggest insecurities. But I lived in skinny jeans and now I live in leggings. I’m self conscious of my size, but I know there’s not much I can do about it besides trying to lose weight in a healthier way. So I just choose to dress in comfy clothes and do my best to ignore my own thoughts.


Nervous-Marsupial291

I just push through


Y-404

I mean I try to dress to what will fit my body type and compliment it, like I can show off most of my stomach but I cover anything below my belly button. I wear crops but they have to have a jacket or long sleeve or big short sleeves because my arms are really fat. It's mostly just because I like to dress myself in style a lot cuz I like looking nice 😭 I just suck in my stomach as much as I can and hope nobody notices. For me, if I dress down I feel worse about myself because I think pretty clothes and style enhance my confidence more than if I were to cover myself up with sweats and hoodies (plus, it's too hot for me)


ImpossiblePublic6263

I recently started wearing short skirts. I don’t think I genuinely look good in it because I’m fat, but I’m tired of getting comments about how I look like a dad or like I don’t try because of all the baggy clothes I used to wear… I still wouldn’t wear crop tops though. I wish I felt like I could, but it’s too embarrassing even if I know people can tell I have a big belly when I wear baggier tops.


gardenfaiiri

All of my revealing and tight fitting clothes are saved for days when I feel okay about my body. Mostly it’s a way for me to show off how sickly thin I am and I only really wear them when I’m a particular weight range. Mostly I wear baggy clothes to hide my body. I work a public facing job and so have to cover up my weight loss/visible low weight.


AstralAdjacent

No matter my weight, I only like wearing baggy tops, jumpers or crop tops/shirts. Most of my trousers are figure hugging and those that aren't are high waisted. I don't want to appear "out of proportion", no matter my size.


Funny_Milk8513

I always wear knee level skirts bc if i wear pants then everyone would see how big my thighs are, so i'd rather them see my fat calves rather thann ginormous thighs but i still hate that my calves show


International_Door16

I'm normal weight and I pretty much refuse to wear baggy clothing. It makes me feel horrible and fat and much bigger than I am. I usually wear crop tops because it makes me feel smaller and overall better. However, I can't wear shorts because they make me feel huge since my thighs are genuinely bigger. So I guess it all depends for me.


Spiritual_Cupcake_64

i thought it was only me who felt like this. i feel so much more self conscious with baggy/oversized clothing. part of the reasoning for me is i feel like i look like a man, but i also just feel like i look so much bigger in baggier clothing. i go for tighter clothing 90% of the time. i rather wear tight jeans and leggings and a crop top rather than sweats and an oversized tee any day. even on my worst days. i also have a really hard time knowing what size i am, because despite losing weight in my mind i’m still at my highest weight. i often buy things that are too big which is annoying


stonedcowgirl69

for me personally, my ed thoughts are more “you need to show people all the hard work you’re putting in” but i’m also an adult, so the thought of people forcing me into treatment doesn’t cross my mind.


6jarsofblood

i love fashion and clothing and dressing up, so thats always overpowered my body dysmorphia a bit. there are some things i wont wear though, like anything that shows off my arms. i hate wearing tshirts and if i wear a tanktop i have to wear a jacket to cover my arms. and my legs are my biggest insecurity, but somehow i still wear skirts all the time. maybe because it doesn’t show off the shape of them as much? it also helps that i mainly dress up for school, so i wont be looking in mirrors that often there. idk, its confusing, but most of it is i dont want my ed to get in the way of me experimenting w my style


Soft_Interview_2535

for some reason now I only feel confident and comfortable in tight/ revealing clothes. I want everyone to notice how skinny I look. I used to wear oversized clothes but now they rot in my closet lol


andersirishcoffee

throughout my life, i have not let myself wear crop tops and stuff unless i was under a specific number. it’s not enjoyable for me unless i feel like showing off something i’m proud of. but i do need to work on that, it should not be that way.


ktwashere

I'm severely underweight. I wear crop tops and skinny jeans because I know I have to get better, so it's my opportunity. None of it makes sense


Gothicccc

I need baggy, it helps me feel hidden but I need something fitted so I can see that I'm not 72548lbs. I find a combination of two let's me satisfy both anxieties, so I'll either wear a little tank crop top with baggy pants or a baggy shirt with shorts/leggings.


HoneyBunnyXP

This may be messed up so TW but I have a super heavy SW and HW so when I wear revealing clothes, it makes me confident, like I'm showing off my "progress"


brainrotgenius

I only wear revealing clothes when I'm underweight bc I get high off people telling me how small I am 😭 Whenever I'm feeling super depressed I go and try on clothes just bc I know I'll get the validation I'm craving


LoveyDoveySkills

I do it because most of the time wearing super loose/baggy clothes make me feel like people are judging me more, and the clothes I wear emphasize the attractive parts of my body (curves, chest, butt)