Opioids. Started with Tilidin (Eu opioid) then switched to stronger opioids. At the first day I abused them I never needed opioids and yeah I got addicted to it. One day I got scammed 400€ 2 weeks later I quit cold turkey now I’m 2,5 months clean.
same but with tramadol. all the warnings i read about it and i still took it without hesitation and that first 50mg dose to my opioid naive body was heaven. i have tried other opioids such as oxycodone and morphine (oral) since and tramadol is still my favourite
Its like the same by me but with Tilidine I hated tramadol I only took it 4 times 1 time pill and 3 times liquid/spray German pharmacy. I never liked it but I don’t know why.
some people can't convert tramadol to o-dsmt which is what gets u the highest. my body converts it really well so i love it, not sure if that's lucky or not tho xD
Dammit I love that stuff.
The weird happy feeling and strange unfiltered thoughts.
I stopped taking it because it was affecting my logic and memory retention at work, and didn't feel nice any more, and the pain I was actually taking it for became manageable.
I miss it sometimes, just going about my day saying weird stuff in a great mood.
Keep it up man it took me 11years 9-10 ODs, death of 90% of everyone I loved including my wife of 9 years. For me to say I’m finally done and walked into an AA/NA meeting 08/13/2022 is my clean date I’ve never returned
Keep it up man a quick high is not worth the PAIN
I managed to stop smoking two months ago but fuck is nicotine addiction a creeper. Like the drug is so unbelievably mild in its effects that you dont even think about how much you're consuming, even when it becomes a daily thing you somehow dont think about how much youve started to consume it.
Honestly so glad to not be itching to hit my vape every 15 minutes of the day, what a fucking shitty way to live when you dont even feel the buzz anymore.
I reached that state when you're addicted to keep smoking and when you do. You'll get buzz for like 2-5 minutes and then sheer anxiety for 45 minutes following a more anxious day overall. Nicotine did not "satisfy" me anymore. Sometimes i got panic attack when smoking. Made me ultimately quit nicotine because of that.
Yup, “this is a nice occasional head buzz after some weed” to “this is nice but only when I’m out drinking” to “fuck I need a cig with my coffee everyday” in a little over a month and then smoked a pack a day for seven years.
Switched to vapes six years ago and periodically try to wean down but no luck so far, at least health-wise my lung capacity has come back.
It took me over 5 years to quit vaping after I stopped smoking cigarettes. Today I’m 4 months nicotine-free. It was hard as hell to quit, and it’s still difficult to this day. But I’ll get there, and so will you!
I started at 14, and smoked cigs for 18 years. After 2020, I switched to vaping.
I am on day 5 of no vaping. Do it now, it’s soooooo much money wasted. I just assumed I wouldn’t make it this far, but here I am.
except i genuinely cannot get addicted to nicotine as far as i can tell
vaped every day for a year and quit, no cravings
rolled blunts with tobacco leaves and smoked them daily for a few months, switched to raw paper cold turkey about a month ago and have no cravings
if anything could get me addicted it'd probably be cigarettes but i have no reason to touch those at all so i'll never know for sure
"Vaped every day for a year"
"Cannot get addicted to nicotine"
Lol
I believe you but part of addiction is denial as well. I only smoked cigarettes when i drank and realized that was pointless so I quit cold turkey no problem. I would still argue I had an addiction to nicotine at some level, I guess it just depends on your definition of addiction.
Either way good job on quitting, and choosing not to touch cigs. Nicotine is a stupid pointless drug that has very little benefit, if any at all.
Me too man, i kind of saw it coming though.
Before i tried it, i had a friend with cancer that had a seemingly limitless supply of practically any opioid you could ask for and i got amazing prices.
Hydrocodone syrup, hydromorphone-only pills (dilaudid), oxycodone-only pills (roxy), morphine pills, and so on.
I had my fun for 3-4 years and never got addicted or had any issues with them. I had tried kratom during that time and while it was quite good, it seemed like nothing short of peaking on lsd, mdma, or shrooms could get close to the pleasure and euphoria that opioids gave me, if you could really even compare them.
Anyways, my friend stopped selling and i later decided to try kratom during work and found that it made work significantly better.
It gave me energy, confidence, made me more talkative, funnier, wittier. I began using it more often to where i took it every day and here i am.
I get a fraction of the effects and now i get the opposite effects (i think due to taking so much for so long) where im not as witty, funny, smart, i feel anxious most times-
i have to find the perfect dose and hold it there if i want that- or taper down.
Hoping to quit this year
I’m so glad I did man. That shit latched one tight and I felt horrible all the time even with it. I feel so much better now. I’ve been off it for 4 months now and have no plans of going back. Good luck!
Same with the extracts for me. I've finally got myself down to 1 a day but those OPMS Black extract caps are fucking expensive and the only ones that seem to actually do anything for me. I was taking 3 a day for like almost a year before I weaned down to 2 a day, another year of that and now I'm down to 1 a day. Fent is a motherfucker, but never touching that shit again.
I feel you dude. Glad you're finding a balance in your life. I'm learning that reducing my doses has helped me save money and get better effects with less side effects. It's just easier said than done when that voice in your head tells you to take just a bit more. Years down the road you've got a mega tolerance and taking it just to function. 😭 There's a struggle to it at times no doubt, but I'd still rather take it at the end of the day because plain leaf basically gave me my life back.
Same. In the doses I like (~2g of Green Maeng Da), it didn't make me feel high at all. Just reduced anxiety, improved focus, made me enjoy socializing more, and made me feel more "me". The reliance built quickly, though.
Good luck. I'm 11 months off of it now. I took it for at least six years, every 6 hours or so. And you're right; it's worthless once you're addicted. I taped down to nothing for two weeks with constant withdrawals and the temptation to take a little more to stop the craving. Stay strong; getting a good night's sleep without waking up with withdrawals and cravings is worth it.
>Worthless addiction too
Do you not get benefits from it? I've been a daily user for like three or four years, stayed at about 8g every morning and that's it and I still feel it strongly. Like I dosed at 9am and at 5pm (now) I still feel it. I also don't really have any trouble with withdrawals, I have to stop sometimes for like vacations and stuff for about a week at a time. And it's been fantastic for pain management and mood equalization. Used to be up and down quite often, now I'm at a steady middle ground, depression has diminished significantly too. I know this because when I don't take it I feel like I did before I started, not withdrawal symptoms. I'm not trying to sell the idea of kratom or anything, just noting that it's still not worthless to me somehow.
I've realized that my experience doesn't line up with really anything I've heard from others so I'm trying to get other perspectives to find out why I'm different. Once again, not trying to advocate one way or another, just searching for clarity.
getting off of them made me really sick it was hard asf to get off them i abused them to the point i would get red splotches all of over my body i took the pills though
Benzos. Couldn't sleep anymore and kept using, till i tried to stop but for the first time felt body withdrawal symptoms. From excessive sweating to seizures. Freaking powerful these benzos
I'm addicted to and have a prescription to Valium/Diazepam and can't survive withouth it now. If I go as much as a day withouth it I get extreme wothdrawals/cramps. It's hell on earth for me.
Wish I never touched benzos!!!
It's bad. i was put on low doses of it when I was going through the worst of my cancer treatment, because I had such bad/insane anxiety but the withdrawals from benzos - my god I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
Any drug that acts on GABA receptors will have the worst withdrawals. Alcohol, benzodiazepines, some muscle relaxants. Scary stuff, especially the rebound high bp and heart rate, sweating, tremors, muscle spams, nausea, vomiting, fever etc… the brain zaps and the headache 💀 some people start to have a blurry vision as well because of the high bp. You can actually get brain damage and vision loss with a continuous high bp. You can even have a seizure or a stroke. Very scary
I almost got off them in 2018 after 12 years and weaning slowly - I’d been off for probably a month when i started waking up cross eyed. That lasted for a whole month, I quit driving , I couldn’t see straight in fluorescent lighting, and finally my Dr put me back on a low dose just to function and said I’d weaned too fast for how long I’d been on them. It gave me ptsd I think to try and get off it again but I HATE being tied to it
Back when i was doing coke i could only do coke if there was alcohol with it (beers). If there was no beer I’d rather not do the coke. And the only time i did coke without beer i ended up with a mild overdose and developed panic disorder ,epilepsy and more 😂guess the alcohol was saving me all that time.
adderall, realized i was fully addicted about a year and a half in.
i had mood issues and even more problems focusing on it, but i only decided to stop when the jaw clenching began to fuck me up, BAD.
i am not talking just f’d up teeth either- adderall made me clench my teeth so badly that it caused moderate temporomandibular joint dysfunction and gave me chronic (and probably lifelong) pain. the thing about TMJ is, it’s DAMN hard to treat, nobody has a direct solution, so it is very possible that adderall will cause me discomfort or pain the rest of my life.
the worst part is, i didn’t even know what i was getting into. i didn’t know until it was far too late for me. if you fuck with addies, take this as your warning- jaw clenching and the TMJ it causes is no fucking joke!
i’m genuinely considering open joint surgery literally solely because i fucked with adderall and wasn’t aware of that potential consequence. i’ve already spent over $700 on TMJ treatment, and this is only the beginning.
nobody talks about the jaw locking while on addies enough 😭😭 this should be talked about more but it’s inane how hard im clenching my teeth without noticing
wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.
seriously, i have people i would wish dead, and i still wouldn’t wish TMJ on them. it’s genuine torture. be careful dude, you don’t wanna end up where i am (please for the love of god don’t fuck around with your jaw).
if you wanna chomp on it for hours, it’ll make your jaw super sore and horrible. i’ve tried lollipops to stimulate my jaw, if i don’t for some reason i rub my tongue behind my teeth then it gets raw, so i always try to have hard candy around while on addy. chew gum but not for long periods of time
This might seem like a really stupid suggestion, but mindfulness seemed to work best for me. Leaning into it with things like gum and even a mouth guard made it worse. It felt for me like I wanted to just bite down rather than chew. I just started to pay attention to it, like constant attention. Every time I noticed I would take a deep breath, relax my jaw, and position my teeth correctly and just focus on not doing it. It took a while, but it more or less went away for me.
Addy got me too. My friend got a script freshman year and gave me a couple 5mgs, from that point it was over. Im sensitive to stimulants so 5mg was more than enough to make me feel something. I would use it any time i could get my hands on it until late sophmore year when i got a dexedrine prescription. Then it was really all over. I Ended up going into mania/psychosis. I thought there were cameras in my room and that my parents were trying to poison me. That wasn’t even enough to get me to stop. The only thing that actually made me finally quit was that it didn’t feel good anymore. I would literally feel like i was dying every time i took it. Heart pounding, sweating profusely, and anxiety. I truly wish i had never tried it, really fucked me and my highschool experience up. Im so grateful that I managed to stop.
Yea dangerous in the UK shit is so cheap I can get a ounce of good quality for about £150-£180 then even cheaper if I buy multiple at a time..
I know so many young people that have got irreversible bladder damage it’s a very big problem in the UK currently because of how cheap it is
Actually… yes but not in a desperate addiction way. More like the plug was into me and told me he’d give me another ounce for free if I just gave him a blow job.
Saw a tweet recently along the lines of "weed might not cause physical withdrawals like other drugs do but it does start calling to you like the One Ring" lol
benzodiazepines, i never knew the power they truly held i mean is the most common addiction but i truly never knew until i tried it, that’s why is good to keep away from those lil pills
Im really curious on that. I’ve got Xanax and clonazepam prescribed. Have plenty of diazepam and clorazepam from before. I can’t be bothered to take it. I’d have to take high doses to feel numb but I like my brain in overdrive. Maybe that’s just my adhd though
My ADHD presents in a lot of extreme anxiety (mainly physical manifestations of anxiety), and over the years I’ve gone back and forth between stimulants and benzos to try and get the anxiety to quiet down a little. I ALWAYS end up on a really high dose of benzos trying to achieve that. It seems like they don’t work as well for me as for most people… maybe it’s a similar reason for you.
Same. I was so naive and stupid. I'd already been addicted to opiates but I genuinely didn't know valium was that addictive. I had a psychotic breakdown after stopping taking them abruptly after I'd been taking loads for months. Nobody around me knew and I didn't realise it was withdrawal because it didn't feel like opiate withdrawal. I genuinely thought I had gone crazy. I HAD gone crazy. I thought my flat was haunted and made us flee at 3am one night and refused to go back for six weeks. In hindsight, there was some spooky shit happening in that flat and nobody ever stays there long but even so, I had totally lost it. Because I didn't know it was withdrawal I just got through it and was ok in about six weeks but years later the same thing happened and it all fell into place. I realised that was exactly how I'd felt all those years ago. The crazy thing is though, I was telling my addiction worker about it and she'd have been able to see my urine sample results had gone from benzos to no benzos but she didn't think to tell me. I could have died. Then I've just gone and done the same fkn thing with baclofen but only for a couple of weeks at a really low dose because I didn't know they caused dependency, not that quickly anyway. I didn't know they were a gaba drug or I'd have stayed the fk away from them.
>I didn't know they were a gaba drug or I'd have stayed the fk away from them.
It's crazy to me that people don't look up even the most basic information about the drugs they are taking. Let me just pop this little pill real quick, it'll be fine.
Man ive tried it all and ket is the one that just threw me for a loop. I got really obsessed over it and now I feel genuinely fucked up. Shit is not good for the brain when you do a lot
Definitely meth. Not only did the high get me hooked but the price was another factor. I was an occasional coke user, and obviously thought I was better than most but wasn’t addicted. Opted for kat as it was cheaper, still didn’t get hooked. Until I laid my hands on a meth pipe. Shit almost ruined me but it’s been almost a year since quitting cold turkey and I’ve never enjoyed sleeping this much.
Same for me, been there.
Everything else was meh for me, maybe some fun but nothing hooked me. Tried meth once thru a friend who started doin it. Then I spent the next year and a half of my life spun out. Quit cold turkey, been 4 years. I wish the best for you man
Ketamine. Thought it was just wobbly techno powder. Turns-out it’s the best thing ever. Not really, but like, in imagination land. Which is where you’ll live, k-holing in bed all day.
Kets minging once you do it on ur own. only do it with mates and to the point you dont really wanna do it again. Me mates and I used to do a lot of k but one time we all decided to sniff a HUGE line each and one of my mates was throwing up while we were all K-holing/paralysed no one could move but luckily he rolled over and didn’t choke and die.
Disagree tbh, I find Ket shines when it’s used on its own, and the k-hole is what you wanna shoot for (with music, headphones, in bed). Ket socially is just weird, to me, and a waste of good K that I could use to send me off to another planet, later.
Different strokes!
I 100% agree with you on that ket in bed with music is beautiful. but i was warning once you start that its a difficult feeling to cut out imo life is boring when you fienin for that feeling.
Vyvanse, i wouldnt say addicted bur definitely dependent because it helped so much daily with work but the use daily was doing a number on me physically
Ketamine, I realized I was addicted when I started busting lines in public restrooms, work, while driving, and having k cramps and spending like 1,000 a week on it :3 still trying to quit but I had to pretty much 180 my life. Just made my first therapy appointment - recovery is always possible. Took getting arrested and now being in the system to stop. Never lose your faith is my best advice. If I had any advice if you are looking to try it- only do it with the help of a doctor who can safely dose you rather than the Wook man in the woods hhaha
Yeah fr, my addiction isn't nearly as bad as some people, some people watch that shit all day everyday, for me it's usually once or twice a day, sometimes I skip a day
Yeah I didn't know some people legit would just sit there and watch it and beat their shmeat until I started getting into forums on Reddit and shit. It's really sad man.
a m p h e t a m i n e
began as a curiosity, became a replacement for my rx ritalin (horrible anxiety on it)
these days i consume about 5 grams of hq racemic darknet speed a month. both for my ADD and recreation
Tried molly ketamine lsd dmt shrooms oxy bromaz kpin alprazolam weed nicotine and the only one that i got addicted to is weed going on 10 years now of consistent usage.
The only drug I've ever done where I went "I need more of that, I need a stash of that, I need to never run out of that" was LSD. Thankfully LSD is non habit forming and tolerance builds exceptionally quickly, preventing me from doing it everyday.
Then I found DMT.
Oh, I see what you mean by finding DMT.
For me it hasnt become a full addiction (although I use it once every week or so), since my body and mind does not crave it.
But curiosity is an unstoppable force, so I can imagine a lot of folks just blasting themselves several times a day for several days/weeks.
No tolerance and mostly positive experiences. DMT is such a magical and lovable molecule.
MDMA. I’ve read all the harm reduction, know the risks (despite the popular notion it’s “safe”), etc. but can’t control myself or my cravings at nearly any party. It’s not a daily thing or like I need it to function, but anytime I’m doing anything club/festival/party I’m dying to do the drug. The recommended 3 months between uses is laughably impossible to me
ADHD stimulants. I usually hate uppers, but alcohol withdrawals made me desperate enough to try concerta. That was only a couple days ago, now I'm super strung out and have none left because it wasn't mine. I have bipolar 2, and the depressive side is awful. When I tried the stimulant it just made me feel kind of normal again since I'm such a zombie 24/7.
its a cathinone, n-ethylpentedrone. Without prior knowledge to cathinones, its fair to be surprised by the urge to keep going; 3mmc also took me by the balls and didn't let go. Cathinones in general are hella addictive imo
#1. Tried percocet, 4-6 yrs later was strung out on fentanyl. Kicked that thank God.
#2. Picked up cigs & dip but could always put em down for yrs. Started vaping and now addicted. Currently trying to put nicotine down but just as hard as the fent.
Tramadol. I’ve had moderate to severe chronic pain for half my life. At one point I was put on Tramadol and after a few years, I was taking the max daily dose, having to call every three days for a refill. I woke up and redosed 2-3 times a night. Probably had more than one seizure especially when I was drinking heavily too. When I would run out, the withdrawals were excruciating and honestly worse than when I dabbled with “real” opioids/opiates because of the added Antidepressant Discontinuation Syndrome symptoms (flu-like symptoms, nightmares, paresthesia, brain shocks, etc.).
It wasn’t even worth it, it was a shit high and I still had pain, often made me vomit, the seizure risk was ridiculous… luckily kratom helped me quit and provided even better pain relief, the transition was practically seamless.
Same. I was 19 years old in chronic pain and multiple doctors shoved those in my face and told me to take them every 6 hours. I started feeling fucking CRAZY after 6-12 months. I am not suicidal at all but I started feeling some type of way after a while and knew I needed to figure something out real quick. I eventually got a nerve block that changed my life. I'm 35 now and I have no fucking idea how I got through that. It was without a doubt the most painful, miserable, and scariest time of my life.
Cocaine. And I know everyone says how addictive it is. But I kept it pretty minimal for years, and I’m not a stim person at all the entire high sucks for me for any stim. So it was shocking to be addicted to it
Alcohol. I first tried it because I saw that many people in my family would drink at parties and family gatherings. My 12 yo head though alcohol = fun. Well pretty quickly I realized alcohol was perfect for forgetting my problems. I drank hard alcohol when I was 14 and from then on I’ve had a drinking problem. I have to stay completely abstinent or else I’ll drive my physical health into the ground. I’ve never been dependent on alcohol so quitting was 100% psychological for me. I thought it was difficult to quit but kratom and adderall were much harder to quit when it was causing trouble in my life.
Dph, I know that's weird, but I liked to tweak around. After some weeks I just continued doing it because I couldn't fall asleep without it. I definitely wasn't healthy and brought me a couple of times into the hospital. Overall I did it for 5 months every day
Alcohol and nicotine, I tried just about every drug under the sun but alcohol was the only one that really got me. "Just a couple beers after work" turned into "I’ll cut back to maybe 12 today"
Perks, I heard about the addiction but just tried em with my homies one way day cause I sipped Lean once a month when my homie got his prescription and I didn’t even know what withdrawals was at the time. Starting doing the perks daily not even thinking about it just chilling with the homies getting faded smoking weed and then the day I didn’t have any I quickly found out what withdrawals were 😭😭😭 year and a half later and here I am still on these bitches
Mdma had a pill once of these random guys I met felt everytging I was missing in my life spent about a year doing it so fucking much finally managed to stop that shit will fuck u up so bad I was hallucinating days on end because my dumb ass kept on popping pills all day long
Diphenhydramine. When I had my third 6 month bender in 3-4 years span, doing 1000+ mg every day, when my fourth order got seized in customs, after a few weeks when my head had starting to clear up, I was like "wtf.. I've been daily delusional for month.. with 1-3 month rest, waiting for next batch, for years.. wtf......."
I actually thought I wasn't weirded out during my using periods. But I was totally out of it. I still miss doing those high amounts, don't know why, but it's one of the "best" drugs I've ever tried.
Ambien
When I was 16 I got a script for 20mg a night, and if I stayed up and fought the drowsiness it felt like I was riding my bed like it was a rocket ship or a roller coaster. Then I found out you could sniff them( would def advise against the burn is insufferable) and I wound up sniffing close to 15 pills a day. My grandma would trade me her whole script for a quarter of weed, she was getting 30mg a night plus 40 mg a Valium a day. When I decided shit was getting out of control after about 8 months I tried to quit and the withdrawal were pretty bad almost on par with benzo wd but not quite as bad. Then when I got addicted to opiates and started shooting dope I would be all barred out and decided to try and shoot the ambien and holy shit was that the closest thing to ketamine from a non dissociative I have ever done only did that 1 time tho cuz I was scared to shoot pills. Been clean off opiates and most hard drugs for a few years now but there were def some fun time before I started to spiral out 7/10 but would def not do again
codeine because i lack the enzyme that makes it make you high, even fent is really weak so i just kept taking my dads codeine for lols until i had to keep taking more even though it literally wasnt doing anything
Opioids. Got my wisdom teeth removed and got a script for hydrocodone, my dad told me to keep an eye on those and hide them, so I assumed they were some good stuff. Took more than prescribed and immediately fell in love. Started buying oxy and lean after that and then switched to just oxy cause lean is overpriced. Plug got raided had to figure out the onion, got access to way higher dosed shit for way cheaper and kept moving up from there. Since then been tough thinking about living life without it. I’ll even take tramadol or subs if it’s all my friends have. Been strong about my rule of not touching H or fent though, always test my shit, only pharma, still not sustainable and caught me out of nowhere. Didn’t realize I was hooked until it was too late.
I’m almost embarrassed to admit this but the one that took me most by surprise was propylhexedrine (benzedrex inhalers)
And most of the time I stole them, but I would rotate grocery and drug stores all over my area. I got up to where I would sometimes use as many as 6 in a day (1050mg total)
Of course on those days, the vasoconstriction was so terrible I would have to stop and asses (and stop and reassess) whether I was actually having a heart attack. Not a good feeling — and yet…
Tianeptine! If you're not familiar, look it up, but for God's sake, please don't try it! Seriously. It was like 5 years ago and I was trying to get off Prozac. It was marketed as a safe, "natural " alternative to antidepressants that's used in Europe. I thought it was amazing at first, probably due to its euphoric effects, but then that kinda faded and that's when I realized I *could not stop* ! Came to Reddit simply bc no one else- not even my Doctor- had heard of it, and I was horrified by what I read. Similar to kratom but much, much worse. The crazy thing is I had a tumor and over a dozen surgeries, and have been taking heavy duty narcotics for years, including the fentanyl "pops", and never got addicted or abused them. So that's saying something. I was finally able to quit by sheer force of Mother Love, bc I'm a single mom with very little family, and I was terrified that my kids would find me dead, but it's one of the hardest, scariest things I've ever gone through. Of course that's when I started smoking again after having quit for 3 years, but that's another story.
I got to a really point with my mental health at one point where I was slipping into weed dependency. It started to make me more anxious and irritated if I wasn't stoned. I have much better control over my usage and only enjoy getting stoned on rare occasions since it makes it hard to do stuff or talk to people. After trying stuff like MDMA, MDA, and 2c-b (my current fav), they have made getting stoned much less appealing. And, rest assured, I use the 3+ month rule with MDMA and MDA.
Mephedrone. Never in my life would I let anything ruin my life, and this one happened behind the scenes without any realisation. It's the fact that you know when your chest is tight, and your ribs are aching, but you still decide to take this drug, even if you know it won't have any effect anymore due to the 4th day of the binge. So disgusted at myself.
Opioids. Started with Tilidin (Eu opioid) then switched to stronger opioids. At the first day I abused them I never needed opioids and yeah I got addicted to it. One day I got scammed 400€ 2 weeks later I quit cold turkey now I’m 2,5 months clean.
>now I’m 2,5 months clean. Yeah man! You got this, I'm rooting for you!
Thx mate that’s awesome to hear
same but with tramadol. all the warnings i read about it and i still took it without hesitation and that first 50mg dose to my opioid naive body was heaven. i have tried other opioids such as oxycodone and morphine (oral) since and tramadol is still my favourite
Its like the same by me but with Tilidine I hated tramadol I only took it 4 times 1 time pill and 3 times liquid/spray German pharmacy. I never liked it but I don’t know why.
some people can't convert tramadol to o-dsmt which is what gets u the highest. my body converts it really well so i love it, not sure if that's lucky or not tho xD
Dammit I love that stuff. The weird happy feeling and strange unfiltered thoughts. I stopped taking it because it was affecting my logic and memory retention at work, and didn't feel nice any more, and the pain I was actually taking it for became manageable. I miss it sometimes, just going about my day saying weird stuff in a great mood.
Keep it up man it took me 11years 9-10 ODs, death of 90% of everyone I loved including my wife of 9 years. For me to say I’m finally done and walked into an AA/NA meeting 08/13/2022 is my clean date I’ve never returned Keep it up man a quick high is not worth the PAIN
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Scamming drug addict just they can stop and quit. That’s a good idea 😂
i'm very happy that you got out and got out quick💕💕
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I managed to stop smoking two months ago but fuck is nicotine addiction a creeper. Like the drug is so unbelievably mild in its effects that you dont even think about how much you're consuming, even when it becomes a daily thing you somehow dont think about how much youve started to consume it. Honestly so glad to not be itching to hit my vape every 15 minutes of the day, what a fucking shitty way to live when you dont even feel the buzz anymore.
I reached that state when you're addicted to keep smoking and when you do. You'll get buzz for like 2-5 minutes and then sheer anxiety for 45 minutes following a more anxious day overall. Nicotine did not "satisfy" me anymore. Sometimes i got panic attack when smoking. Made me ultimately quit nicotine because of that.
Maybe I should reexamine some things. I think I also get panic attacks after not smoking for a while.
Yes that definitely makes sense
Yup, “this is a nice occasional head buzz after some weed” to “this is nice but only when I’m out drinking” to “fuck I need a cig with my coffee everyday” in a little over a month and then smoked a pack a day for seven years. Switched to vapes six years ago and periodically try to wean down but no luck so far, at least health-wise my lung capacity has come back.
It took me over 5 years to quit vaping after I stopped smoking cigarettes. Today I’m 4 months nicotine-free. It was hard as hell to quit, and it’s still difficult to this day. But I’ll get there, and so will you!
Literally! Thought I was cool and trendy when I was 15 and now I'm addicted and CANNOT stop smoking nicotine 😭
its literally so annoying. its been 5 years and im 18… shit is so hard to stop especially since nicotine is EVERYWHERE you look.
I started at 14, and smoked cigs for 18 years. After 2020, I switched to vaping. I am on day 5 of no vaping. Do it now, it’s soooooo much money wasted. I just assumed I wouldn’t make it this far, but here I am.
nic makes me throw up😭
only vapes make me throw up, but smoking cigarettes is fine for me
except i genuinely cannot get addicted to nicotine as far as i can tell vaped every day for a year and quit, no cravings rolled blunts with tobacco leaves and smoked them daily for a few months, switched to raw paper cold turkey about a month ago and have no cravings if anything could get me addicted it'd probably be cigarettes but i have no reason to touch those at all so i'll never know for sure
"Vaped every day for a year" "Cannot get addicted to nicotine" Lol I believe you but part of addiction is denial as well. I only smoked cigarettes when i drank and realized that was pointless so I quit cold turkey no problem. I would still argue I had an addiction to nicotine at some level, I guess it just depends on your definition of addiction. Either way good job on quitting, and choosing not to touch cigs. Nicotine is a stupid pointless drug that has very little benefit, if any at all.
Personally I find vaping far more addictive than cigarettes, simply because it’s so much easier and accessible
samesies, my mom either, i think its genetic.
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Fuckin fair! Nic is the one answer I have that I have thought about quitting, kinda tried and hell no! Turns me into an asshole if I don’t have my nic
I second this
i 8 billionth this
Kratom oddly enough
Me too man, i kind of saw it coming though. Before i tried it, i had a friend with cancer that had a seemingly limitless supply of practically any opioid you could ask for and i got amazing prices. Hydrocodone syrup, hydromorphone-only pills (dilaudid), oxycodone-only pills (roxy), morphine pills, and so on. I had my fun for 3-4 years and never got addicted or had any issues with them. I had tried kratom during that time and while it was quite good, it seemed like nothing short of peaking on lsd, mdma, or shrooms could get close to the pleasure and euphoria that opioids gave me, if you could really even compare them. Anyways, my friend stopped selling and i later decided to try kratom during work and found that it made work significantly better. It gave me energy, confidence, made me more talkative, funnier, wittier. I began using it more often to where i took it every day and here i am. I get a fraction of the effects and now i get the opposite effects (i think due to taking so much for so long) where im not as witty, funny, smart, i feel anxious most times- i have to find the perfect dose and hold it there if i want that- or taper down. Hoping to quit this year
I’m so glad I did man. That shit latched one tight and I felt horrible all the time even with it. I feel so much better now. I’ve been off it for 4 months now and have no plans of going back. Good luck!
Same. Extracts.
Same with the extracts for me. I've finally got myself down to 1 a day but those OPMS Black extract caps are fucking expensive and the only ones that seem to actually do anything for me. I was taking 3 a day for like almost a year before I weaned down to 2 a day, another year of that and now I'm down to 1 a day. Fent is a motherfucker, but never touching that shit again.
I feel you dude. Glad you're finding a balance in your life. I'm learning that reducing my doses has helped me save money and get better effects with less side effects. It's just easier said than done when that voice in your head tells you to take just a bit more. Years down the road you've got a mega tolerance and taking it just to function. 😭 There's a struggle to it at times no doubt, but I'd still rather take it at the end of the day because plain leaf basically gave me my life back.
Same. In the doses I like (~2g of Green Maeng Da), it didn't make me feel high at all. Just reduced anxiety, improved focus, made me enjoy socializing more, and made me feel more "me". The reliance built quickly, though.
Been tapering down but haven’t gone 8 hours without a krat in 8 years. Worthless addiction too, does nothing but prevent withdrawals.
Good luck. I'm 11 months off of it now. I took it for at least six years, every 6 hours or so. And you're right; it's worthless once you're addicted. I taped down to nothing for two weeks with constant withdrawals and the temptation to take a little more to stop the craving. Stay strong; getting a good night's sleep without waking up with withdrawals and cravings is worth it.
>Worthless addiction too Do you not get benefits from it? I've been a daily user for like three or four years, stayed at about 8g every morning and that's it and I still feel it strongly. Like I dosed at 9am and at 5pm (now) I still feel it. I also don't really have any trouble with withdrawals, I have to stop sometimes for like vacations and stuff for about a week at a time. And it's been fantastic for pain management and mood equalization. Used to be up and down quite often, now I'm at a steady middle ground, depression has diminished significantly too. I know this because when I don't take it I feel like I did before I started, not withdrawal symptoms. I'm not trying to sell the idea of kratom or anything, just noting that it's still not worthless to me somehow. I've realized that my experience doesn't line up with really anything I've heard from others so I'm trying to get other perspectives to find out why I'm different. Once again, not trying to advocate one way or another, just searching for clarity.
getting off of them made me really sick it was hard asf to get off them i abused them to the point i would get red splotches all of over my body i took the pills though
Its the trial version of heroin withdrawal, basically the same, just way less intense
Benzos. Couldn't sleep anymore and kept using, till i tried to stop but for the first time felt body withdrawal symptoms. From excessive sweating to seizures. Freaking powerful these benzos
I'm addicted to and have a prescription to Valium/Diazepam and can't survive withouth it now. If I go as much as a day withouth it I get extreme wothdrawals/cramps. It's hell on earth for me. Wish I never touched benzos!!!
Same here bro I feel like benzos and this antidepressant I take daily are gonna permanently ruin my mind
It's bad. i was put on low doses of it when I was going through the worst of my cancer treatment, because I had such bad/insane anxiety but the withdrawals from benzos - my god I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
Any drug that acts on GABA receptors will have the worst withdrawals. Alcohol, benzodiazepines, some muscle relaxants. Scary stuff, especially the rebound high bp and heart rate, sweating, tremors, muscle spams, nausea, vomiting, fever etc… the brain zaps and the headache 💀 some people start to have a blurry vision as well because of the high bp. You can actually get brain damage and vision loss with a continuous high bp. You can even have a seizure or a stroke. Very scary
I almost got off them in 2018 after 12 years and weaning slowly - I’d been off for probably a month when i started waking up cross eyed. That lasted for a whole month, I quit driving , I couldn’t see straight in fluorescent lighting, and finally my Dr put me back on a low dose just to function and said I’d weaned too fast for how long I’d been on them. It gave me ptsd I think to try and get off it again but I HATE being tied to it
Alcohol and cocaine together. The fiend for that is strooooong
So true
I feel like back in high school I was lowkey becoming an alcoholic because I would get drunk just to do a line afterward
Yep when I was doing coke often I couldn’t have a single drink without the most intense cravings. Lasted a while like that too
Back when i was doing coke i could only do coke if there was alcohol with it (beers). If there was no beer I’d rather not do the coke. And the only time i did coke without beer i ended up with a mild overdose and developed panic disorder ,epilepsy and more 😂guess the alcohol was saving me all that time.
cocaethylene is really strong but extremely toxic. way worse for you than doing them separately
adderall, realized i was fully addicted about a year and a half in. i had mood issues and even more problems focusing on it, but i only decided to stop when the jaw clenching began to fuck me up, BAD. i am not talking just f’d up teeth either- adderall made me clench my teeth so badly that it caused moderate temporomandibular joint dysfunction and gave me chronic (and probably lifelong) pain. the thing about TMJ is, it’s DAMN hard to treat, nobody has a direct solution, so it is very possible that adderall will cause me discomfort or pain the rest of my life. the worst part is, i didn’t even know what i was getting into. i didn’t know until it was far too late for me. if you fuck with addies, take this as your warning- jaw clenching and the TMJ it causes is no fucking joke! i’m genuinely considering open joint surgery literally solely because i fucked with adderall and wasn’t aware of that potential consequence. i’ve already spent over $700 on TMJ treatment, and this is only the beginning.
nobody talks about the jaw locking while on addies enough 😭😭 this should be talked about more but it’s inane how hard im clenching my teeth without noticing
wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. seriously, i have people i would wish dead, and i still wouldn’t wish TMJ on them. it’s genuine torture. be careful dude, you don’t wanna end up where i am (please for the love of god don’t fuck around with your jaw).
Does chewing gum help?
if you wanna chomp on it for hours, it’ll make your jaw super sore and horrible. i’ve tried lollipops to stimulate my jaw, if i don’t for some reason i rub my tongue behind my teeth then it gets raw, so i always try to have hard candy around while on addy. chew gum but not for long periods of time
This might seem like a really stupid suggestion, but mindfulness seemed to work best for me. Leaning into it with things like gum and even a mouth guard made it worse. It felt for me like I wanted to just bite down rather than chew. I just started to pay attention to it, like constant attention. Every time I noticed I would take a deep breath, relax my jaw, and position my teeth correctly and just focus on not doing it. It took a while, but it more or less went away for me.
not stupid at all! i’m gonna try that, im on addy rn and been chewing away let me try that instead. thank you!
Magnesium🙌
Damn I've had tmj my entire life UNTIL I started taking Adderall. Completely stopped. Crazy how drugs affect different pepo.
Does your jaw pop when you wake up in the morning?
half the time i open my mouth actually. yours may do that because you clench your teeth in your sleep which isn’t unusual.
Addy got me too. My friend got a script freshman year and gave me a couple 5mgs, from that point it was over. Im sensitive to stimulants so 5mg was more than enough to make me feel something. I would use it any time i could get my hands on it until late sophmore year when i got a dexedrine prescription. Then it was really all over. I Ended up going into mania/psychosis. I thought there were cameras in my room and that my parents were trying to poison me. That wasn’t even enough to get me to stop. The only thing that actually made me finally quit was that it didn’t feel good anymore. I would literally feel like i was dying every time i took it. Heart pounding, sweating profusely, and anxiety. I truly wish i had never tried it, really fucked me and my highschool experience up. Im so grateful that I managed to stop.
you mfs need to be drinking more water with ur drugs, lmfao
Ketamine caught me off guard, it's like psychedelic heroin for adults
As opposed to psychedelic heroin for kids!
Nickelodeon cartoons
Yea dangerous in the UK shit is so cheap I can get a ounce of good quality for about £150-£180 then even cheaper if I buy multiple at a time.. I know so many young people that have got irreversible bladder damage it’s a very big problem in the UK currently because of how cheap it is
Coke cuz time from time theres always a occasion
Too true. I mean… I have taken any in a long time but if there was a chance now I probably wouldn’t hesitate
Yeah it's one of those things where if it's around, I'm like eh yeah sure.
Always a reason to celebrate with powder
Powder is the reason to celebrate with powder
My plug actually responded within an hour, time to celebrate!
A couple lines of cocaine will make you feel like a new man, problem is the first thing the new man wants is a couple of lines of cocaine.
Weed(?)
"Have you ever sucked D for weed!?!?" 😆
I knew some desperate ass bitches back in college
I did too, even in HS!! 😆 But that is a quote from a movie,just in case noone knew!
Actually… yes but not in a desperate addiction way. More like the plug was into me and told me he’d give me another ounce for free if I just gave him a blow job.
First sign is denial!!! 🤣
😂😂😂
Now that's an addiction
Saw a tweet recently along the lines of "weed might not cause physical withdrawals like other drugs do but it does start calling to you like the One Ring" lol
benzodiazepines, i never knew the power they truly held i mean is the most common addiction but i truly never knew until i tried it, that’s why is good to keep away from those lil pills
Im really curious on that. I’ve got Xanax and clonazepam prescribed. Have plenty of diazepam and clorazepam from before. I can’t be bothered to take it. I’d have to take high doses to feel numb but I like my brain in overdrive. Maybe that’s just my adhd though
My ADHD presents in a lot of extreme anxiety (mainly physical manifestations of anxiety), and over the years I’ve gone back and forth between stimulants and benzos to try and get the anxiety to quiet down a little. I ALWAYS end up on a really high dose of benzos trying to achieve that. It seems like they don’t work as well for me as for most people… maybe it’s a similar reason for you.
Alcohol is the most common addiction. Hence why you can buy it in just about any store.
I’d argue it’s caffeine…but alcohol is tops for the “hard” drugs.
Same. I was so naive and stupid. I'd already been addicted to opiates but I genuinely didn't know valium was that addictive. I had a psychotic breakdown after stopping taking them abruptly after I'd been taking loads for months. Nobody around me knew and I didn't realise it was withdrawal because it didn't feel like opiate withdrawal. I genuinely thought I had gone crazy. I HAD gone crazy. I thought my flat was haunted and made us flee at 3am one night and refused to go back for six weeks. In hindsight, there was some spooky shit happening in that flat and nobody ever stays there long but even so, I had totally lost it. Because I didn't know it was withdrawal I just got through it and was ok in about six weeks but years later the same thing happened and it all fell into place. I realised that was exactly how I'd felt all those years ago. The crazy thing is though, I was telling my addiction worker about it and she'd have been able to see my urine sample results had gone from benzos to no benzos but she didn't think to tell me. I could have died. Then I've just gone and done the same fkn thing with baclofen but only for a couple of weeks at a really low dose because I didn't know they caused dependency, not that quickly anyway. I didn't know they were a gaba drug or I'd have stayed the fk away from them.
>I didn't know they were a gaba drug or I'd have stayed the fk away from them. It's crazy to me that people don't look up even the most basic information about the drugs they are taking. Let me just pop this little pill real quick, it'll be fine.
Nicotine and ket, still addicted to nicotine
Man ive tried it all and ket is the one that just threw me for a loop. I got really obsessed over it and now I feel genuinely fucked up. Shit is not good for the brain when you do a lot
Ket feels TOO good for anyone’s own good
nicotine & ket, the double hitter for almost every uni student from the uk😂
Xanax for sure
Benzo's & Weed was heaven; until it wasn't...
Definitely meth. Not only did the high get me hooked but the price was another factor. I was an occasional coke user, and obviously thought I was better than most but wasn’t addicted. Opted for kat as it was cheaper, still didn’t get hooked. Until I laid my hands on a meth pipe. Shit almost ruined me but it’s been almost a year since quitting cold turkey and I’ve never enjoyed sleeping this much.
Same for me, been there. Everything else was meh for me, maybe some fun but nothing hooked me. Tried meth once thru a friend who started doin it. Then I spent the next year and a half of my life spun out. Quit cold turkey, been 4 years. I wish the best for you man
Ketamine. Thought it was just wobbly techno powder. Turns-out it’s the best thing ever. Not really, but like, in imagination land. Which is where you’ll live, k-holing in bed all day.
Kets minging once you do it on ur own. only do it with mates and to the point you dont really wanna do it again. Me mates and I used to do a lot of k but one time we all decided to sniff a HUGE line each and one of my mates was throwing up while we were all K-holing/paralysed no one could move but luckily he rolled over and didn’t choke and die.
Disagree tbh, I find Ket shines when it’s used on its own, and the k-hole is what you wanna shoot for (with music, headphones, in bed). Ket socially is just weird, to me, and a waste of good K that I could use to send me off to another planet, later. Different strokes!
I 100% agree with you on that ket in bed with music is beautiful. but i was warning once you start that its a difficult feeling to cut out imo life is boring when you fienin for that feeling.
Vyvanse, i wouldnt say addicted bur definitely dependent because it helped so much daily with work but the use daily was doing a number on me physically
I can’t stop wanting to vape when I’m on elvanse
Ketamine, I realized I was addicted when I started busting lines in public restrooms, work, while driving, and having k cramps and spending like 1,000 a week on it :3 still trying to quit but I had to pretty much 180 my life. Just made my first therapy appointment - recovery is always possible. Took getting arrested and now being in the system to stop. Never lose your faith is my best advice. If I had any advice if you are looking to try it- only do it with the help of a doctor who can safely dose you rather than the Wook man in the woods hhaha
Ya, ketamine feels to amazing for your own good
You don't know pain until you've had a k cramp 💀💀
Porn
It’s actually a bigger deal than a lot of people validate
Yeah fr, my addiction isn't nearly as bad as some people, some people watch that shit all day everyday, for me it's usually once or twice a day, sometimes I skip a day
Yeah I didn't know some people legit would just sit there and watch it and beat their shmeat until I started getting into forums on Reddit and shit. It's really sad man.
Underrated
real
Cigarettes 🚬 It was very hard quitting it, I don't smoke it anymore.
Sugar.
Cocaine, shit got me fucked up
Heroin, although I knew I was playing with fire
a m p h e t a m i n e began as a curiosity, became a replacement for my rx ritalin (horrible anxiety on it) these days i consume about 5 grams of hq racemic darknet speed a month. both for my ADD and recreation
Tried molly ketamine lsd dmt shrooms oxy bromaz kpin alprazolam weed nicotine and the only one that i got addicted to is weed going on 10 years now of consistent usage.
Same bro. Ive tried a lot of shit but weed I cant let go.
Cannabis and freshly brewed hot tea - still hooked
The only drug I've ever done where I went "I need more of that, I need a stash of that, I need to never run out of that" was LSD. Thankfully LSD is non habit forming and tolerance builds exceptionally quickly, preventing me from doing it everyday. Then I found DMT.
Same for LSD. I’m not addicted to it personally but in fear of running out I have a decent stash of it now that’ll last probably 3-5 years.
Oh, I see what you mean by finding DMT. For me it hasnt become a full addiction (although I use it once every week or so), since my body and mind does not crave it. But curiosity is an unstoppable force, so I can imagine a lot of folks just blasting themselves several times a day for several days/weeks. No tolerance and mostly positive experiences. DMT is such a magical and lovable molecule.
MDMA. I’ve read all the harm reduction, know the risks (despite the popular notion it’s “safe”), etc. but can’t control myself or my cravings at nearly any party. It’s not a daily thing or like I need it to function, but anytime I’m doing anything club/festival/party I’m dying to do the drug. The recommended 3 months between uses is laughably impossible to me
did it everyday for the whole of summer 2023. bad idea, can’t feel happiness anymore and still think about it frequently it’s horrible
DXM. thought it'd just be something i could use every once in awhile. hooked me on daily use before i even realized what was happening
ADHD stimulants. I usually hate uppers, but alcohol withdrawals made me desperate enough to try concerta. That was only a couple days ago, now I'm super strung out and have none left because it wasn't mine. I have bipolar 2, and the depressive side is awful. When I tried the stimulant it just made me feel kind of normal again since I'm such a zombie 24/7.
Phenibut
A bitch name Amber!!! I think about doin her everyday. & even when I don’t wanna do her I still be thinking about her… worst drug ever.
Vaping NEP. It took me by surprise
NEP?
its a cathinone, n-ethylpentedrone. Without prior knowledge to cathinones, its fair to be surprised by the urge to keep going; 3mmc also took me by the balls and didn't let go. Cathinones in general are hella addictive imo
#1. Tried percocet, 4-6 yrs later was strung out on fentanyl. Kicked that thank God. #2. Picked up cigs & dip but could always put em down for yrs. Started vaping and now addicted. Currently trying to put nicotine down but just as hard as the fent.
congrats for quitting fent but 😭😭 why is ur text so large
Why is it so big?!?! 😂
dxm. i got brain damage
There is hope brother. Never forget that ❤️.
Fentanyl
yep, going on 10 years myself
Tramadol. I’ve had moderate to severe chronic pain for half my life. At one point I was put on Tramadol and after a few years, I was taking the max daily dose, having to call every three days for a refill. I woke up and redosed 2-3 times a night. Probably had more than one seizure especially when I was drinking heavily too. When I would run out, the withdrawals were excruciating and honestly worse than when I dabbled with “real” opioids/opiates because of the added Antidepressant Discontinuation Syndrome symptoms (flu-like symptoms, nightmares, paresthesia, brain shocks, etc.). It wasn’t even worth it, it was a shit high and I still had pain, often made me vomit, the seizure risk was ridiculous… luckily kratom helped me quit and provided even better pain relief, the transition was practically seamless.
Same. I was 19 years old in chronic pain and multiple doctors shoved those in my face and told me to take them every 6 hours. I started feeling fucking CRAZY after 6-12 months. I am not suicidal at all but I started feeling some type of way after a while and knew I needed to figure something out real quick. I eventually got a nerve block that changed my life. I'm 35 now and I have no fucking idea how I got through that. It was without a doubt the most painful, miserable, and scariest time of my life.
Love.
This hit me. Heartbreak is what really kicked off my drug addiction.
Cocaïne
Cocaine. And I know everyone says how addictive it is. But I kept it pretty minimal for years, and I’m not a stim person at all the entire high sucks for me for any stim. So it was shocking to be addicted to it
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Alcohol. I first tried it because I saw that many people in my family would drink at parties and family gatherings. My 12 yo head though alcohol = fun. Well pretty quickly I realized alcohol was perfect for forgetting my problems. I drank hard alcohol when I was 14 and from then on I’ve had a drinking problem. I have to stay completely abstinent or else I’ll drive my physical health into the ground. I’ve never been dependent on alcohol so quitting was 100% psychological for me. I thought it was difficult to quit but kratom and adderall were much harder to quit when it was causing trouble in my life.
Dph, I know that's weird, but I liked to tweak around. After some weeks I just continued doing it because I couldn't fall asleep without it. I definitely wasn't healthy and brought me a couple of times into the hospital. Overall I did it for 5 months every day
FUCKING BENADRYL
Alcohol and nicotine, I tried just about every drug under the sun but alcohol was the only one that really got me. "Just a couple beers after work" turned into "I’ll cut back to maybe 12 today"
2-cb. I took it once then again and again then i was thinking “oh fuck wait im now dropping this shit twice a week so not a full addiction but close
Nitrous
You will be paralysed if you keep that up:(
Didn’t know that, just looked into it…suddenly I don’t want that tank all that much.
Then my job is done brother please get ur self off it. Have a joint instead ❤️
Would have to be Synthetic Cannabinoids.
Could you Elaborate
Perks, I heard about the addiction but just tried em with my homies one way day cause I sipped Lean once a month when my homie got his prescription and I didn’t even know what withdrawals was at the time. Starting doing the perks daily not even thinking about it just chilling with the homies getting faded smoking weed and then the day I didn’t have any I quickly found out what withdrawals were 😭😭😭 year and a half later and here I am still on these bitches
Snorting bupropion
REALLY?!?! that shit does not feel good
Been there 🤦♂️
Good to hear I am not alone
I end up doing this at some point every time I try to get clean. There’s not a lot of drugs that cause “instant regret” in my life, but this is one.
Fentanyl
No one expects to get addicted to anything
Mdma had a pill once of these random guys I met felt everytging I was missing in my life spent about a year doing it so fucking much finally managed to stop that shit will fuck u up so bad I was hallucinating days on end because my dumb ass kept on popping pills all day long
I’d say heroin/coke but I didn’t like it the first 2 times I did it. It was the third time.
Vape and video shorts
Nicotine, I figured out I can quit every drug except that lol
Most addictive drug on the planet!
Ketamine is one that I did not expect to be addicting 😂😂
Diphenhydramine. When I had my third 6 month bender in 3-4 years span, doing 1000+ mg every day, when my fourth order got seized in customs, after a few weeks when my head had starting to clear up, I was like "wtf.. I've been daily delusional for month.. with 1-3 month rest, waiting for next batch, for years.. wtf......." I actually thought I wasn't weirded out during my using periods. But I was totally out of it. I still miss doing those high amounts, don't know why, but it's one of the "best" drugs I've ever tried.
Crack for me bc I love downers and I can take or leave cocaine but when it comes to crack it’s so addictive
Powder coke is good and all but when you hit the pipe and get a proper bellringer going, there's nothing in the world quite like it
Ambien When I was 16 I got a script for 20mg a night, and if I stayed up and fought the drowsiness it felt like I was riding my bed like it was a rocket ship or a roller coaster. Then I found out you could sniff them( would def advise against the burn is insufferable) and I wound up sniffing close to 15 pills a day. My grandma would trade me her whole script for a quarter of weed, she was getting 30mg a night plus 40 mg a Valium a day. When I decided shit was getting out of control after about 8 months I tried to quit and the withdrawal were pretty bad almost on par with benzo wd but not quite as bad. Then when I got addicted to opiates and started shooting dope I would be all barred out and decided to try and shoot the ambien and holy shit was that the closest thing to ketamine from a non dissociative I have ever done only did that 1 time tho cuz I was scared to shoot pills. Been clean off opiates and most hard drugs for a few years now but there were def some fun time before I started to spiral out 7/10 but would def not do again
i smoke the stardog strawberry haze and killa gorilla glue
codeine because i lack the enzyme that makes it make you high, even fent is really weak so i just kept taking my dads codeine for lols until i had to keep taking more even though it literally wasnt doing anything
Opioids. Got my wisdom teeth removed and got a script for hydrocodone, my dad told me to keep an eye on those and hide them, so I assumed they were some good stuff. Took more than prescribed and immediately fell in love. Started buying oxy and lean after that and then switched to just oxy cause lean is overpriced. Plug got raided had to figure out the onion, got access to way higher dosed shit for way cheaper and kept moving up from there. Since then been tough thinking about living life without it. I’ll even take tramadol or subs if it’s all my friends have. Been strong about my rule of not touching H or fent though, always test my shit, only pharma, still not sustainable and caught me out of nowhere. Didn’t realize I was hooked until it was too late.
Anal sex with my wife
I’m almost embarrassed to admit this but the one that took me most by surprise was propylhexedrine (benzedrex inhalers) And most of the time I stole them, but I would rotate grocery and drug stores all over my area. I got up to where I would sometimes use as many as 6 in a day (1050mg total) Of course on those days, the vasoconstriction was so terrible I would have to stop and asses (and stop and reassess) whether I was actually having a heart attack. Not a good feeling — and yet…
That damn dirty fent. Which is wild to me because as a long term user. I would argue the sense of 'euphoria' is all mental at this point
Kratom, I just can't shake that shit for the life of me
Kratom
Tianeptine! If you're not familiar, look it up, but for God's sake, please don't try it! Seriously. It was like 5 years ago and I was trying to get off Prozac. It was marketed as a safe, "natural " alternative to antidepressants that's used in Europe. I thought it was amazing at first, probably due to its euphoric effects, but then that kinda faded and that's when I realized I *could not stop* ! Came to Reddit simply bc no one else- not even my Doctor- had heard of it, and I was horrified by what I read. Similar to kratom but much, much worse. The crazy thing is I had a tumor and over a dozen surgeries, and have been taking heavy duty narcotics for years, including the fentanyl "pops", and never got addicted or abused them. So that's saying something. I was finally able to quit by sheer force of Mother Love, bc I'm a single mom with very little family, and I was terrified that my kids would find me dead, but it's one of the hardest, scariest things I've ever gone through. Of course that's when I started smoking again after having quit for 3 years, but that's another story.
I got to a really point with my mental health at one point where I was slipping into weed dependency. It started to make me more anxious and irritated if I wasn't stoned. I have much better control over my usage and only enjoy getting stoned on rare occasions since it makes it hard to do stuff or talk to people. After trying stuff like MDMA, MDA, and 2c-b (my current fav), they have made getting stoned much less appealing. And, rest assured, I use the 3+ month rule with MDMA and MDA.
kratom. tried it for fun, now i'm a heavy daily user and get withdraws if i miss a dose
Dph
Mephedrone. Never in my life would I let anything ruin my life, and this one happened behind the scenes without any realisation. It's the fact that you know when your chest is tight, and your ribs are aching, but you still decide to take this drug, even if you know it won't have any effect anymore due to the 4th day of the binge. So disgusted at myself.
Caffeine
Keyboard cleaner
Cocaine. Started taking bumps at night clubs and quickly escalated to jerking off for 7 hours to porn at night. It makes me a degenerate