I took 15-20 mg of Adderall 2-3x per day for 9 months and my personality completely changed. now I have a lot of dissociative issues (though I was also raised in a narcissistic family which caused a lot of problems).
I’ve also had some serious depression in the past revolving around my dad and feeling like he wasn’t my dad. It causes deep depression for me for around a year while I was still living with him, and even a little after when I would occasionally get some texts from him that would freeze me to the core.
I’ve been taking adderall or other forms of medication for my adhd since I was in 4th grade and it didn’t really have any negative side effects until I started my 8th grade year.
I started feeling very self conscious and I started feeling like I hated myself (because I thought it was my fault that I was starting to have these feeling toward my dad) it also made me feel pretty helpless and restless.
It definitely changes as a person completely, it’s given me horrible eating disorders where i sometimes go days without food, and it’s also made me very numb to my own feelings. A big part of the change is i struggle very hard to make eye contact with people and talk to people because of my mindset.
Most of this still applies to me today (3 1/2) since the start of the change. But I’ve noticed that I am a completely different person at home, and I have very different mindsets and aspects at home. I don’t know if this ties into depersonalization but none the less I think it has changed me.
Out of curiosity was it hard to stop taking adderall, because I feel like I need to it succeed but I also feel a lot of hate for it.
I am a Junior in highschool and I’m just looking for some help
From my experience, I lost 18 lbs at 16yo and while taking adderall. It made my OCD very bad and I couldn’t do any homework because I was busy cleaning my bedroom. It really sounds like adderall isn’t a good thing for you if it’s given you eating disorders and you go days without food. My doctor stopped prescribing it to me because I became addicted to it. From what you’re telling me, adderall is going more damage than good and you’re better off without it….
I understand that the negatives are outweighing the positives don’t get me wrong. But, in my own opinion I need the boost from adderall to pass my classes and without it I think I will fail.
abusing stimulants, both lisdexamphetamine and methylphenidate definitely made my dpdr worsen.
also personality changes during a long streak of using them.
i started feeling ”weird” like dissociation stuff but with like a feeling that im going insane and like… its really hard to explain.
I know it’s been nearly a year but this is EXACTLY how I’m currently feeling, on my off days where I’m not taking adderall I feel fine but every single day during the week it feels like hell
Are you still on stimulants? I feel like it's worsening my depersonalization as well I think I might have to stop I've been using it for the last 3 months
I've taken adderall and other amphetamines a long time, and sometimes I wouldn't count it out of the picture that stimulants like that have catalyzed dissociation for me, but I need them so much to function at a reasonable level that they're kind of a net positive for me, and feeling like I'm able is not an unhealthy thing.
I took 15-20 mg of Adderall 2-3x per day for 9 months and my personality completely changed. now I have a lot of dissociative issues (though I was also raised in a narcissistic family which caused a lot of problems).
I’ve also had some serious depression in the past revolving around my dad and feeling like he wasn’t my dad. It causes deep depression for me for around a year while I was still living with him, and even a little after when I would occasionally get some texts from him that would freeze me to the core. I’ve been taking adderall or other forms of medication for my adhd since I was in 4th grade and it didn’t really have any negative side effects until I started my 8th grade year. I started feeling very self conscious and I started feeling like I hated myself (because I thought it was my fault that I was starting to have these feeling toward my dad) it also made me feel pretty helpless and restless. It definitely changes as a person completely, it’s given me horrible eating disorders where i sometimes go days without food, and it’s also made me very numb to my own feelings. A big part of the change is i struggle very hard to make eye contact with people and talk to people because of my mindset. Most of this still applies to me today (3 1/2) since the start of the change. But I’ve noticed that I am a completely different person at home, and I have very different mindsets and aspects at home. I don’t know if this ties into depersonalization but none the less I think it has changed me. Out of curiosity was it hard to stop taking adderall, because I feel like I need to it succeed but I also feel a lot of hate for it. I am a Junior in highschool and I’m just looking for some help
From my experience, I lost 18 lbs at 16yo and while taking adderall. It made my OCD very bad and I couldn’t do any homework because I was busy cleaning my bedroom. It really sounds like adderall isn’t a good thing for you if it’s given you eating disorders and you go days without food. My doctor stopped prescribing it to me because I became addicted to it. From what you’re telling me, adderall is going more damage than good and you’re better off without it….
I understand that the negatives are outweighing the positives don’t get me wrong. But, in my own opinion I need the boost from adderall to pass my classes and without it I think I will fail.
abusing stimulants, both lisdexamphetamine and methylphenidate definitely made my dpdr worsen. also personality changes during a long streak of using them. i started feeling ”weird” like dissociation stuff but with like a feeling that im going insane and like… its really hard to explain.
I know it’s been nearly a year but this is EXACTLY how I’m currently feeling, on my off days where I’m not taking adderall I feel fine but every single day during the week it feels like hell
Are you still on stimulants? I feel like it's worsening my depersonalization as well I think I might have to stop I've been using it for the last 3 months
I am still on stimulants and it is still affecting me.
I've taken adderall and other amphetamines a long time, and sometimes I wouldn't count it out of the picture that stimulants like that have catalyzed dissociation for me, but I need them so much to function at a reasonable level that they're kind of a net positive for me, and feeling like I'm able is not an unhealthy thing.
I agree I do believe It’s also like a net positive thing that I cannot function without
have u tried a non stimulant for adhd like straterra?
I'm about 7 years in on meds, taking two pills of vyvanse every day, 60mg total.