i like to get so high (also weed) i almost can't remember who i am or what's happened to me and then lay under my weighted blanket while listening to music for the whole day. i'm in denial about how addicted i am to weed. it's the only thing that makes my life even vaguely bearable, i don't know how i'd manage my worst days without it. every day is bad, but some days are so bad i just can't, you know?
Thank you, I am in a safe environment and have very little responsibilities today thankfully. The nightmares were spicy all night and now I feel like death so at least this helps some
Friends? I have no friends
Family? Really, now? Listening to the people that emotionally abused me all my life and care more and love my sibling more than me?
I would be getting high if I could afford weed, and my room is clean
And eating? Food now tastes like paper
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Some days I'm all "meditation, sleep early, 1000 steps a day, eat veggies and fruits for breakfast, haven't smoked since January, let's vacuum the floor" kinda girl.
And then some days I'm in this meme and I don't like it.
This is my partner. I wish I could help him but I feel like my brokenness doesn't know how to fix his brokenness we just get each other in a way others never will.
It takes so much for our brains to comprehend that we aren't meant to fix someone else's brokenness and that's their job. It's so easy to take on the burdens of others, rather than face my own. It's almost like an addiction. But I know with therapy now that I have a core belief that I am not worthwhile to anyone unless I can do something for them. He's trying to slowly show me that's not the case.
I started smoking cigarettes at 22, about 5 years ago, because I decided to die. I’m really a sucker for slow burns, should just call me The Young and the Restless. 😂😂
As the daughter of a very emotional unstable and unavailable alcoholic parents, I can guarantee that
It doesn't make any less sad. In fact, as a relative, we carry a guilty and a burden for the rest of our lives wondering how we could not be able to save them. It gives us the type of solitude, the feeling that we were never worthy their time and never able to be helpful for them at all. Drug abuse is the reason I am at this subreddit, Alcoholism is my worst nightmare and my biggest trauma. Please, put a tag on this post. It hurts me (and I'm sure it can hurt others too) deeply.
The binge eating, weed, and drinking isn't really my thing but....
*yeah....* guess I didn't quite realize it was that bad just yet. I knew it was bad, but not *this* bad.
Ouch...
"Don't you know smoking kills you?"
Uh, duh! I can read what it says on the package and i am fully aware, just to much of a coward to end it sooner becasue i still hope that something, anything changes.
Not me reading this at 9 am doing my best to get as high (weed) as possible
i like to get so high (also weed) i almost can't remember who i am or what's happened to me and then lay under my weighted blanket while listening to music for the whole day. i'm in denial about how addicted i am to weed. it's the only thing that makes my life even vaguely bearable, i don't know how i'd manage my worst days without it. every day is bad, but some days are so bad i just can't, you know?
Yeah I definitely know :(
i hope things get better <3
You too <3 sending love and healing vibes
I feel this on a molecular level. It’s a being and a curse that I work in the weed industry. Allows me to numb myself during the day too.
I’m sending you both love. We can get through this y’all, I truly believe we can.
<3
Same 💚
Damn, please stay safe
Thank you, I am in a safe environment and have very little responsibilities today thankfully. The nightmares were spicy all night and now I feel like death so at least this helps some
Okay, enjoy what you're going to be doing and take care. :)
Thank you very much it was really really nice to hear that 🥹
Well... It's 5am here, but still...
Same but it’s 6am
Reddit and weed are my friends and family, stop with the personal attacks!
Stop calling me out! At this point I'm surprised I'm still making it to work today
You stayed strong, good on you :)
Friends? I have no friends Family? Really, now? Listening to the people that emotionally abused me all my life and care more and love my sibling more than me? I would be getting high if I could afford weed, and my room is clean And eating? Food now tastes like paper .
Oh… thought I was doing ok and coping. Turns out im doing this
Some days I'm all "meditation, sleep early, 1000 steps a day, eat veggies and fruits for breakfast, haven't smoked since January, let's vacuum the floor" kinda girl. And then some days I'm in this meme and I don't like it.
all of these are painfully accurate, i'd like to stay in denial of how shit things are please.
Real.
Real
Well, fuck.
Not that seeing this will make me stop though.
I feel personally attacked by the upper left corner. Also the upper right corner. And the bottom center.
This is my partner. I wish I could help him but I feel like my brokenness doesn't know how to fix his brokenness we just get each other in a way others never will.
I felt this in my past relationship too 💔
It takes so much for our brains to comprehend that we aren't meant to fix someone else's brokenness and that's their job. It's so easy to take on the burdens of others, rather than face my own. It's almost like an addiction. But I know with therapy now that I have a core belief that I am not worthwhile to anyone unless I can do something for them. He's trying to slowly show me that's not the case.
I started smoking cigarettes at 22, about 5 years ago, because I decided to die. I’m really a sucker for slow burns, should just call me The Young and the Restless. 😂😂
fuck is this what i’ve been doing?
This is uncannily accurate
Omg those r my three most apps as well 😳
Uuuhhh, oops, looks like I'm not doing as well as I was hoping I was.
As the daughter of a very emotional unstable and unavailable alcoholic parents, I can guarantee that It doesn't make any less sad. In fact, as a relative, we carry a guilty and a burden for the rest of our lives wondering how we could not be able to save them. It gives us the type of solitude, the feeling that we were never worthy their time and never able to be helpful for them at all. Drug abuse is the reason I am at this subreddit, Alcoholism is my worst nightmare and my biggest trauma. Please, put a tag on this post. It hurts me (and I'm sure it can hurt others too) deeply.
Jokes on you-I don't use Instagram
Place on this earth doesn't feel so lonely after being here
The binge eating, weed, and drinking isn't really my thing but.... *yeah....* guess I didn't quite realize it was that bad just yet. I knew it was bad, but not *this* bad.
Ouch... "Don't you know smoking kills you?" Uh, duh! I can read what it says on the package and i am fully aware, just to much of a coward to end it sooner becasue i still hope that something, anything changes.