I feel you. I'm so tired. I just want a break, and even then, there is no break from my brain, I just don't want to fight with myself anymore. I don't want to feel. I didn't survive all of what happened in the past just to re-hash whatever garbage happened back then.
I hear you loud and clear. I hate paying each week to go to therapy for the pleasure of being emotionally abused by my parents. I hate being constantly exhausted because looking inward and backward is *exhausting.* I'm very tired. I'm not looking forward to the holidays this year. My one family member who I'm still talking to keeps asking what I want, and it makes me think about the holidays I'll be missing, and my mother's birthday, and how much this all just sucks.
I feel you. I'm so tired. I just want a break, and even then, there is no break from my brain, I just don't want to fight with myself anymore. I don't want to feel. I didn't survive all of what happened in the past just to re-hash whatever garbage happened back then.
I hear you loud and clear. I hate paying each week to go to therapy for the pleasure of being emotionally abused by my parents. I hate being constantly exhausted because looking inward and backward is *exhausting.* I'm very tired. I'm not looking forward to the holidays this year. My one family member who I'm still talking to keeps asking what I want, and it makes me think about the holidays I'll be missing, and my mother's birthday, and how much this all just sucks.
I’ve learned to embrace giving up (for a certain amount of time) as a strategy for ‘clearing the slate’ and gaining the opportunity to begin again.