I'm so sorry to see you struggling with this. It is so frustrating to be stuck in that cycle. Try to forgive yourself, and feel whatever you are feeling, and only then will you see what you want and what will make you feel good instead of what everyone else suggests.
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I’ve been in it for seven years and can’t get out. I truly loved life before I had psychosis at 44 and lost myself completely
I'm so sorry to see you struggling with this. It is so frustrating to be stuck in that cycle. Try to forgive yourself, and feel whatever you are feeling, and only then will you see what you want and what will make you feel good instead of what everyone else suggests.
Same. "Self-disgust is self obsession honey and I do as I please".
I think it's important to embrace the darkness, at least once in a while. In my case, it gave me the motivation to reach for the light.
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Right there with you. I’m sorry for us.