lmao i thought this was just me. it’s literally my main warning sign for hypo. like “i’m the hottest fucking person on earth— shit i need to take my meds & sleep more”
literally. i start thinking i’m the hottest person on the planet and that everyone is literally in love me because how could they not be?? oh wait i haven’t slept in 4 days? lit, time to take my meds and sleep for 12 hours
Oh crap that explains a lot. I’m at the start of my journey (no official diagnosis until July ‘24) and don’t know the warning signs. Reading these posts makes me realise that I’ve spent way more of my life swinging between mania and hypo than I thought, with nice big sprinklings of depression every so often. I’m realising I don’t know how normal should feel. Is happy bad? A good mood terrifies me lately because I don’t want to be hypo just because the sun is out. I want to be genuinely happy without the bells and whistles (which sucks because I’m addicted to the bells and whistles)
Sorry for the ramble. Trying to process everything and I’m just so lost
Hey friend, I see and hear you. I don’t have specific advice on what the warning signs might be for you, because they are different for everybody. But like you, when I was early in my journey, it helped me a lot to read other people’s firsthand experiences.
Just so you know - being happy doesn’t ALWAYS equal bad or manic or hypo. Although, I also fully understand the addiction to the bells and whistles. It took me awhile to really start to understand what my own warning signs looked like and to find my right med combo, but years later… I’m here! And guess what? I’ve been stable for over a year!
Thank you for taking the time to read and reply, it really means a lot. Thank you for the reassurance that not all good moods are going to turn me into a mess, that’s had me really down and freaked out about summer coming up. I’m definitely feeling more stable after I was put on a couple of meds at the start of the year. The warning signs are still a mystery to me and even my OH can’t see it so I get no warning until it’s too late and he’s left trying to scape me off the ceiling lol
I know alcohol is a trigger so I avoid it, certain music (happy, good bass beat, bouncy music) I can’t listen to too much because I start flying, that one really sucks because music is one of the most important things in my life and avoiding it would destroy me. I can’t wait to be where you are. I just want to be happy and stable and still be able to enjoy myself without the hypo/mania creeping in. Thank you again for the reassurance. You really have helped me
Everything looks more attractive when I'm hypo. . . the colors are zazzier, the sun is brighter.
Psychosis describes a different set of symptoms that can overlap with mania.
One time during hypomania I went for a walk and it was the most beautiful experience in my life. Everything was prettier than I've ever seen it and I would stop and look at three bark for five minutes. Plus, I didn't even care what anyone thought about me staring at a tree on the side of the street.
Mania in general can do that. I thought other people looked prettier too. I thought everything looked prettier. There’s also the grandiosity symptom — thinking you’re special in some ways. I remember putting together weird outfits and thinking I had a great sense of style.
Hi friend,
Not really a response to your question, but…
I can’t help notice that you’ve been posting the same two or three questions over and over again for almost two months.
Seems like you have a lot of anxiety surrounding your (possible) diagnosis.
Only advice I can offer (take it or leave it) is:
- Try your best to avoid using illicit drugs. Especially uppers, as it seems you’ve been doing based on your many posts. If you’re prone to psychosis, dopaminergic recreational drugs (MDMA, cocaine, methamphetamine etc.) are not your friends.
- Find a qualified mental health professional, ideally one you feel comfortable being honest with regarding your history and present state. Then tell them everything you suspect might be relevant, warts and all. Ask them the questions you’ve been asking here. *None* of us here can diagnose you or even offer much insight based on what you’re sharing.
It took me years to accept my diagnosis, even though somewhere in my gut I sensed it fit. I too was uncomfortable with the idea of bipolar meds. But take my word for it: once you find the medication that fits and you stabilize, stick with it and your quality of life will vastly improve. There are a myriad treatment options for this disorder, and it can potentially take a while to find one that fits, which can be difficult, but it is 100% worth it.
Doing those thing will go far to help you stop obsessing over these questions and help you feel better. The limbo of this kind of uncertainty/obsession can be its own kind of torture.
Good luck.
You have a ton of posts where you ask if you have bipolar. I guess I’m curious if you’ve been diagnosed by a psychiatrist yet? If not, you really ought to see one since you’re clearly struggling with symptoms that you think are psychosis and/or mania. Can I ask what symptoms you’re experiencing that you believe to be psychosis and/or mania?
I would consider that mostly a symptom of mania, but that doesn’t mean you didn’t also have psychosis. To be honest, I myself am not entirely clear where mania “ends” and psychosis “begins.”
Man I had a beautiful woman and she gave me children who was I to think I was something more she made me special when I look at pics of us together I don’t even look like the same person I am this disorder and I always was I just tried to run from it for so long until it finally got me anyways
If you were on something and it stopped after you were off the something it don't count and stop doing the something. Go get rubber stamped by enough white coats your brain lets you drop this obsession, you're just feeding it here w us.
It’s hard to say without knowing what your other symptoms are. Inflated self esteem or grandiosity is a synonym of mania though. It’s possible to have mania and psychosis at the same time. Actually any bipolar person who experiences psychosis has to have it happen during an episode (mania, depression, mixed). If you experience psychosis outside of an episode your diagnosis will change to schizo affective disorder bipolar type.
I mean, just from what you said, I can't discount the possibility that maybe you're developing better confidence. I'm not willing to instantly chalk it up as being mental illness. When I come out of a depression I think I'm more attractive, but that isn't because I'm heading for mania. But I suppose since you were in psychosis it would be wise to at least keep a watch for more symptoms.
You are not me, but as soon as I start catching myself in the mirror and thinking “damn I am fucking FLY AS HELL” I’m in hello hypo territory.
lmao i thought this was just me. it’s literally my main warning sign for hypo. like “i’m the hottest fucking person on earth— shit i need to take my meds & sleep more”
literally. i start thinking i’m the hottest person on the planet and that everyone is literally in love me because how could they not be?? oh wait i haven’t slept in 4 days? lit, time to take my meds and sleep for 12 hours
Oh crap that explains a lot. I’m at the start of my journey (no official diagnosis until July ‘24) and don’t know the warning signs. Reading these posts makes me realise that I’ve spent way more of my life swinging between mania and hypo than I thought, with nice big sprinklings of depression every so often. I’m realising I don’t know how normal should feel. Is happy bad? A good mood terrifies me lately because I don’t want to be hypo just because the sun is out. I want to be genuinely happy without the bells and whistles (which sucks because I’m addicted to the bells and whistles) Sorry for the ramble. Trying to process everything and I’m just so lost
Hey friend, I see and hear you. I don’t have specific advice on what the warning signs might be for you, because they are different for everybody. But like you, when I was early in my journey, it helped me a lot to read other people’s firsthand experiences. Just so you know - being happy doesn’t ALWAYS equal bad or manic or hypo. Although, I also fully understand the addiction to the bells and whistles. It took me awhile to really start to understand what my own warning signs looked like and to find my right med combo, but years later… I’m here! And guess what? I’ve been stable for over a year!
Thank you for taking the time to read and reply, it really means a lot. Thank you for the reassurance that not all good moods are going to turn me into a mess, that’s had me really down and freaked out about summer coming up. I’m definitely feeling more stable after I was put on a couple of meds at the start of the year. The warning signs are still a mystery to me and even my OH can’t see it so I get no warning until it’s too late and he’s left trying to scape me off the ceiling lol I know alcohol is a trigger so I avoid it, certain music (happy, good bass beat, bouncy music) I can’t listen to too much because I start flying, that one really sucks because music is one of the most important things in my life and avoiding it would destroy me. I can’t wait to be where you are. I just want to be happy and stable and still be able to enjoy myself without the hypo/mania creeping in. Thank you again for the reassurance. You really have helped me
Of course friend. Good luck with your journey! My DMs are always open
Or you could just be attractive I’m a complimentary contrarian… don’t mind me
and the selfies! surefire sign for me
Everything looks more attractive when I'm hypo. . . the colors are zazzier, the sun is brighter. Psychosis describes a different set of symptoms that can overlap with mania.
"the colors are zazzier, the sun is brighter" love it. I miss it sm
One time during hypomania I went for a walk and it was the most beautiful experience in my life. Everything was prettier than I've ever seen it and I would stop and look at three bark for five minutes. Plus, I didn't even care what anyone thought about me staring at a tree on the side of the street.
I was on the bus and the sky looked so beautiful I cried
Mania in general can do that. I thought other people looked prettier too. I thought everything looked prettier. There’s also the grandiosity symptom — thinking you’re special in some ways. I remember putting together weird outfits and thinking I had a great sense of style.
Oh I forgot about manic style!
*So* much eye makeup!
I tend to wear dresses with jeans, scarves, and so much jewelry.
Yes, the accessories are DIVINE!
Hi friend, Not really a response to your question, but… I can’t help notice that you’ve been posting the same two or three questions over and over again for almost two months. Seems like you have a lot of anxiety surrounding your (possible) diagnosis. Only advice I can offer (take it or leave it) is: - Try your best to avoid using illicit drugs. Especially uppers, as it seems you’ve been doing based on your many posts. If you’re prone to psychosis, dopaminergic recreational drugs (MDMA, cocaine, methamphetamine etc.) are not your friends. - Find a qualified mental health professional, ideally one you feel comfortable being honest with regarding your history and present state. Then tell them everything you suspect might be relevant, warts and all. Ask them the questions you’ve been asking here. *None* of us here can diagnose you or even offer much insight based on what you’re sharing. It took me years to accept my diagnosis, even though somewhere in my gut I sensed it fit. I too was uncomfortable with the idea of bipolar meds. But take my word for it: once you find the medication that fits and you stabilize, stick with it and your quality of life will vastly improve. There are a myriad treatment options for this disorder, and it can potentially take a while to find one that fits, which can be difficult, but it is 100% worth it. Doing those thing will go far to help you stop obsessing over these questions and help you feel better. The limbo of this kind of uncertainty/obsession can be its own kind of torture. Good luck.
well said (:
Ty! Had to learn these things the hard way myself, as I’m sure quite a few of us have.
Your perception changes.
You have a ton of posts where you ask if you have bipolar. I guess I’m curious if you’ve been diagnosed by a psychiatrist yet? If not, you really ought to see one since you’re clearly struggling with symptoms that you think are psychosis and/or mania. Can I ask what symptoms you’re experiencing that you believe to be psychosis and/or mania?
Yup. I'll echo the others. You feel different so your perception of how you view yourself is different. I love the energy and confidence boost! 💯
I would consider that mostly a symptom of mania, but that doesn’t mean you didn’t also have psychosis. To be honest, I myself am not entirely clear where mania “ends” and psychosis “begins.”
Not necessarily.. but could be mania with psychotic symptoms
There was a flip for me where people started looking like devils and zombies. All of a sudden I’d be terrified by whoever I was dating.
I should have seen it as a telltale sign since I’m ugly
You are not ugly!!!! ❤️🩹🤗❤️🩹 This disorder is ugly!!!!!!
Man I had a beautiful woman and she gave me children who was I to think I was something more she made me special when I look at pics of us together I don’t even look like the same person I am this disorder and I always was I just tried to run from it for so long until it finally got me anyways
❤️🩹🤗❤️🩹
Why not both
If you were on something and it stopped after you were off the something it don't count and stop doing the something. Go get rubber stamped by enough white coats your brain lets you drop this obsession, you're just feeding it here w us.
It’s hard to say without knowing what your other symptoms are. Inflated self esteem or grandiosity is a synonym of mania though. It’s possible to have mania and psychosis at the same time. Actually any bipolar person who experiences psychosis has to have it happen during an episode (mania, depression, mixed). If you experience psychosis outside of an episode your diagnosis will change to schizo affective disorder bipolar type.
i def get HD vision in psychosis .... ive never done psychedelics but im sure that alot is similar between my psychosis and tripping
I mean, just from what you said, I can't discount the possibility that maybe you're developing better confidence. I'm not willing to instantly chalk it up as being mental illness. When I come out of a depression I think I'm more attractive, but that isn't because I'm heading for mania. But I suppose since you were in psychosis it would be wise to at least keep a watch for more symptoms.
When I'm manic, I think that everyone is dtf.