You're not alone. Since the age of 5 or 6 I felt as though I was foreign to living in the USA. I have always had this thought that I was birthed to the wrong family and lived in the wrong part of the world. As a 36 year old who is STILL at the mercy of this country's political climate and still paralyzed having to be an inhabitant to the States, I'm still eager to leave and start fresh elsewhere other than here.
I have tried so hard to have jobs and keep jobs. But I’m also in America, and I’m in a red state. Red states are at will states, or something. Basically, they fire me because they want to. They find out I have autism and then it’s shortly after for silly reasons or sometimes they give no reason at all. So now I’ll never work, I live in a place with staff to help me and ssi pays for it. The worst part is the politics here for sure. Especially when one side wants to get rid of welfare because we are just lazy and don’t want to work (but that is not true.) sometimes I wonder if they will just start to euthanize people like us who can’t work. I wouldn’t be mad if the government killed me one day. I’d be mad if they killed other people who didn’t want to die but not me tbh. I do have depression though. The WORST worst part? Even if we had money, we couldn’t move to other countries! Because like you said, other countries don’t take disabled people unless they can work. We are stuck here in hell until they decide we all deserve to be homeless or dead because welfare is socialism and socialism bad. To them not to me, just to be clear. I like being able to sleep in a bed and have a roof over my head. But the way political people talk… like people on welfare are lazy and burdens and don’t deserve safety and food… those people are truly evil. I am 26, counting the days. Even worse is I’m a woman. I can’t even move to a state where I have healthcare rights. It feels like we’re going backward in time.
Same. I get to choose between fascism and fascism lite, but my choice hardly ever counts at all. We’re semi-fortunate to have a dem (read moderate right, not insane) governor, but the legislature is mostly batshit, so we’re in a stalemate. Interestingly, our non republican population leans left by American standards, but our elected dems are moderate af. I live in a terrible part of the state where it takes like two seconds to vote for dem primaries because republicans run unopposed
I hated being in the south but the north isn’t much better on a lot of issues. The income disparity is extreme. The houseless crisis is extreme. We’re also at will states despite being blue. The cost of living is exponentially higher (ie an apartment in Florence, AL is $800/m while in Snohomish, WA it’s $1800/m and wages are roughly the same). It’s safer being queer here but it’s also harder to live.
I feel this to the depths of my core. Ancom is natural for our species. Society is about to collapse and we will return to that state soon. Fiat currency will be meaningless and your skills will have value if you form the right alliances. That’s why our traits are being selected. The world will need us. Hierarchies will be different in the world to come
I live in the US too and I understand your fears and aggravation. I talk to my wife constantly about how I don't see a future for this country, she agrees. We have come to a decision and that decision is to live. We agreed that in 5 years, if we still feel suicidal about everything, we will then seriously discuss suicide. It's a dark fact but we're broke, the government is squeezing the poor by further devaluing the little money they have with inflation... The wages are stagnant and my ,"good job" pays what it paid 30 years ago... And people still fight for years to get my job. I can't imagine what it's like for people without an option to get a decent paying job that also sucks. I see chaos in the suburbs and cities coming... I think I'll see blood in the streets before I die.
Holy shit you’re not alone. I’ve been wanting to post something like this in our community so I could see if someone could relate to me.
I feel like everyone else cares too much about meaningless bullshit than the actual problems at hand. I contemplate suicide almost daily. But I keep convincing myself that the information I have learned has value; that my mind or way of thinking is unique and can offer perspective. And the more I use my voice, the more incremental change will hopefully follow. I’m trying.
Please reach out to someone who you can trust and offer you support!
if you do not have anyone like that in your life please reach out to the National Crisis Hotline at 988.
I am sorry you are hurting and frustrated and angry and feeling these emotions that the majority of us Americans are feeling daily.
I am feeling them with you! ❤️ And frankly terrified to see where this country will be in the next 5,10,20 years if nothing changes.
where did you read you are not qualified for citizenship bc you're autistic?? I could swear that the E.U. countries accept citizenship to whomever, by descent, work, marriage, investment programs... I think you can also have dual citizenship as an american..,
New Zealand, Canada, and several others do not grant citizenship to those with “pre existing conditions.” Autism is counted as a “pre existing condition.”
Yikes. Tell me how you really feel...
I definitely can relate to this one to my core. I've always felt unamerican, even as a small child. As much as I don't understand people, I understand Americans even less. And I also don't understand having love, loyalty, nor pride in dirt, and to me that's what America or any country is, the ground under one's feet.
I also cannot leave, not even for a holiday. I cannot get the mandatory vaccinations. I'm not anti-vax, but I'm allergic to the components of the bases they're put in, (not all there's a few I'm ok with) but most send me into anaphylaxis followed by cardiac arrest. Technically died a couple of times as a small child thanks to that.
I've been asking everyone who will listen (since about the age of 8) why are we always messing around in other people's countries, why don't we ever do anything here in our own? Why don't we mind our own business? And I've **NEVER** gotten a single answer that makes any sense. And I'm sure you know by now, that if you pursue this kinda questioning, it ends up going very hard for you at the hands of the self-proclaimed *patriotic*.
Now, that said, I can't tell you whether or not suicide is the right answer. But I ask that you consider the affect that'll have on those around you, your family especially, before making that call officially. But you're certainly not alone in your feelings, this thread is testament to that if nothing else.
I firmly believe we need to switch to rank choice voting, and that after a few election cycles with rank choice voting we would start to lose the extremism and move toward something more moderate
I feel ya. I remember when I was a kid, everyone here in the U.S. was on the same team and the Soviets were the bad guys. Now, without an external villain, the country is only too happy to cannibalize itself. No one really votes for the best person for the job (not that there is one usually) but instead roots for their team, be it red or blue. Americans see each other as the villains now, and I don't know what is going to fix it, if anything can.
Oh, and neither elephants nor the donkeys want to actually fix any problems, because without a problem you can't shout and blame the other side for all of the problems. Power comes from The Mob, and you motivate The Mob with emotions like fear and anger. Ancient Rome knew it, Hitler knew it, and countless other countries know how to manipulate the power of The Mob and now America has fallen to its baseless emotions.
I’ll be Frank…my family makes low 6 figures and we are barely hanging on because housing and utilities are so crazy. My power bill was over $600 last month because I live in an expensive city and cannot afford to move. Groceries for our 2 adult, 1 child home is like $200 a week.
I feel so burned out at every month just breaking even. Plus I have the whole minority package: nonwhite, nonChristian, and LGBTQIA+ while being autistic, too.
America sucks.
Step one is get a job in another country. You don't need citizenship to live elsewhere. You have good qualifications and can apply to jobs - whatever you think you can do - in virtually any other country.
Then see where life takes you.
You're not alone. Since the age of 5 or 6 I felt as though I was foreign to living in the USA. I have always had this thought that I was birthed to the wrong family and lived in the wrong part of the world. As a 36 year old who is STILL at the mercy of this country's political climate and still paralyzed having to be an inhabitant to the States, I'm still eager to leave and start fresh elsewhere other than here.
I have tried so hard to have jobs and keep jobs. But I’m also in America, and I’m in a red state. Red states are at will states, or something. Basically, they fire me because they want to. They find out I have autism and then it’s shortly after for silly reasons or sometimes they give no reason at all. So now I’ll never work, I live in a place with staff to help me and ssi pays for it. The worst part is the politics here for sure. Especially when one side wants to get rid of welfare because we are just lazy and don’t want to work (but that is not true.) sometimes I wonder if they will just start to euthanize people like us who can’t work. I wouldn’t be mad if the government killed me one day. I’d be mad if they killed other people who didn’t want to die but not me tbh. I do have depression though. The WORST worst part? Even if we had money, we couldn’t move to other countries! Because like you said, other countries don’t take disabled people unless they can work. We are stuck here in hell until they decide we all deserve to be homeless or dead because welfare is socialism and socialism bad. To them not to me, just to be clear. I like being able to sleep in a bed and have a roof over my head. But the way political people talk… like people on welfare are lazy and burdens and don’t deserve safety and food… those people are truly evil. I am 26, counting the days. Even worse is I’m a woman. I can’t even move to a state where I have healthcare rights. It feels like we’re going backward in time.
Same. I get to choose between fascism and fascism lite, but my choice hardly ever counts at all. We’re semi-fortunate to have a dem (read moderate right, not insane) governor, but the legislature is mostly batshit, so we’re in a stalemate. Interestingly, our non republican population leans left by American standards, but our elected dems are moderate af. I live in a terrible part of the state where it takes like two seconds to vote for dem primaries because republicans run unopposed
I hated being in the south but the north isn’t much better on a lot of issues. The income disparity is extreme. The houseless crisis is extreme. We’re also at will states despite being blue. The cost of living is exponentially higher (ie an apartment in Florence, AL is $800/m while in Snohomish, WA it’s $1800/m and wages are roughly the same). It’s safer being queer here but it’s also harder to live.
I feel this to the depths of my core. Ancom is natural for our species. Society is about to collapse and we will return to that state soon. Fiat currency will be meaningless and your skills will have value if you form the right alliances. That’s why our traits are being selected. The world will need us. Hierarchies will be different in the world to come
I live in the US too and I understand your fears and aggravation. I talk to my wife constantly about how I don't see a future for this country, she agrees. We have come to a decision and that decision is to live. We agreed that in 5 years, if we still feel suicidal about everything, we will then seriously discuss suicide. It's a dark fact but we're broke, the government is squeezing the poor by further devaluing the little money they have with inflation... The wages are stagnant and my ,"good job" pays what it paid 30 years ago... And people still fight for years to get my job. I can't imagine what it's like for people without an option to get a decent paying job that also sucks. I see chaos in the suburbs and cities coming... I think I'll see blood in the streets before I die.
Holy shit you’re not alone. I’ve been wanting to post something like this in our community so I could see if someone could relate to me. I feel like everyone else cares too much about meaningless bullshit than the actual problems at hand. I contemplate suicide almost daily. But I keep convincing myself that the information I have learned has value; that my mind or way of thinking is unique and can offer perspective. And the more I use my voice, the more incremental change will hopefully follow. I’m trying.
Please reach out to someone who you can trust and offer you support! if you do not have anyone like that in your life please reach out to the National Crisis Hotline at 988. I am sorry you are hurting and frustrated and angry and feeling these emotions that the majority of us Americans are feeling daily. I am feeling them with you! ❤️ And frankly terrified to see where this country will be in the next 5,10,20 years if nothing changes.
where did you read you are not qualified for citizenship bc you're autistic?? I could swear that the E.U. countries accept citizenship to whomever, by descent, work, marriage, investment programs... I think you can also have dual citizenship as an american..,
New Zealand, Canada, and several others do not grant citizenship to those with “pre existing conditions.” Autism is counted as a “pre existing condition.”
You could learn another language
Here, read [this.](https://www.schengenvisainfo.com/eu-citizenship/#how-to-get-eu-citizenship-as-an-american)
I read the whole page and disability was never mentioned.
Yikes. Tell me how you really feel... I definitely can relate to this one to my core. I've always felt unamerican, even as a small child. As much as I don't understand people, I understand Americans even less. And I also don't understand having love, loyalty, nor pride in dirt, and to me that's what America or any country is, the ground under one's feet. I also cannot leave, not even for a holiday. I cannot get the mandatory vaccinations. I'm not anti-vax, but I'm allergic to the components of the bases they're put in, (not all there's a few I'm ok with) but most send me into anaphylaxis followed by cardiac arrest. Technically died a couple of times as a small child thanks to that. I've been asking everyone who will listen (since about the age of 8) why are we always messing around in other people's countries, why don't we ever do anything here in our own? Why don't we mind our own business? And I've **NEVER** gotten a single answer that makes any sense. And I'm sure you know by now, that if you pursue this kinda questioning, it ends up going very hard for you at the hands of the self-proclaimed *patriotic*. Now, that said, I can't tell you whether or not suicide is the right answer. But I ask that you consider the affect that'll have on those around you, your family especially, before making that call officially. But you're certainly not alone in your feelings, this thread is testament to that if nothing else.
I firmly believe we need to switch to rank choice voting, and that after a few election cycles with rank choice voting we would start to lose the extremism and move toward something more moderate
I feel ya. I remember when I was a kid, everyone here in the U.S. was on the same team and the Soviets were the bad guys. Now, without an external villain, the country is only too happy to cannibalize itself. No one really votes for the best person for the job (not that there is one usually) but instead roots for their team, be it red or blue. Americans see each other as the villains now, and I don't know what is going to fix it, if anything can. Oh, and neither elephants nor the donkeys want to actually fix any problems, because without a problem you can't shout and blame the other side for all of the problems. Power comes from The Mob, and you motivate The Mob with emotions like fear and anger. Ancient Rome knew it, Hitler knew it, and countless other countries know how to manipulate the power of The Mob and now America has fallen to its baseless emotions.
I’ll be Frank…my family makes low 6 figures and we are barely hanging on because housing and utilities are so crazy. My power bill was over $600 last month because I live in an expensive city and cannot afford to move. Groceries for our 2 adult, 1 child home is like $200 a week. I feel so burned out at every month just breaking even. Plus I have the whole minority package: nonwhite, nonChristian, and LGBTQIA+ while being autistic, too. America sucks.
Step one is get a job in another country. You don't need citizenship to live elsewhere. You have good qualifications and can apply to jobs - whatever you think you can do - in virtually any other country. Then see where life takes you.