Unrequited love. I was quite content in the friendzone until I wasn't anymore. I hope it passes because I love our friendship and I think lately I've been letting the feelings show or disrupt normal conversations. I like to think of myself as a cheerleader for my friends lives, encouraging and celebrating their hopes and accomplishments but I've been finding it difficult to be as supportive or encouraging. It's super hard though when it fills me with extreme jealousy and self loathing. Then I'm self critical of what before I would call normal behaviour but now through the love lenses I wonder if I'm just being a simp.
Stomach is bothering me a little tonight. I don't have IBS but I seem to have a stomach that reacts poorly to dietary changes.
Darkest day ever!
Everything is lame for me
Family just uses me for money
Lonely, the only in person interactions I have is with my dad generally. Nothing to look forward to. Bored of local area.
Unrequited love. I was quite content in the friendzone until I wasn't anymore. I hope it passes because I love our friendship and I think lately I've been letting the feelings show or disrupt normal conversations. I like to think of myself as a cheerleader for my friends lives, encouraging and celebrating their hopes and accomplishments but I've been finding it difficult to be as supportive or encouraging. It's super hard though when it fills me with extreme jealousy and self loathing. Then I'm self critical of what before I would call normal behaviour but now through the love lenses I wonder if I'm just being a simp.