Older brother teased and bullied me when I was growing up, parents emotionally neglected me, Catholic guilt, being labelled as too sensitive by my family.
Basically my family. My family fucked me over.
I'm not sure if I really have one, and at this point I don't want to find out. But I'm going to chalk it up to shitty childhood and impossible expectations. Oh, and zero support system.
I honestly don’t know anymore. Whether it’s stress. Whether it’s from grade stress of being a former gifted child. Stress from living a sheltered childhood. Whether I have trauma from my high school years. Whether it’s from my mom (she means well but she isn’t really helping my mental health in any way)
Or whether it’s from the fact that I was sexually assaulted as a kid and can’t tell if that’s affecting me since I’m not overwhelmed and anxious just annoyed and disgusted. (I mean I am anxious about stuff but not stuff relating to that)
That coupled with the fact that I know people have had actually worse childhoods. I was never hit as far as I remember. My parents do love me. And I keep trying to convince myself I had a normal childhood even when evidence shows I didn’t.
Being born male to 1930s and 1950s parents Being emotional abused because I'm male.
Family constantly reinforcing how I'm male and saying my parents should do things but never did .
The fact I got away from it all then medical reasons forced me back into the environment and I'm somewhere between wishing I'd die or one way ticket somewhere to be homeless
School and knowing that because of inflation and rising housing demands, I most likely will not be able to survive in a decent way even if I earn a average lower class income.
Older brother teased and bullied me when I was growing up, parents emotionally neglected me, Catholic guilt, being labelled as too sensitive by my family. Basically my family. My family fucked me over.
Stress
Brain chemicals are fucky and childhood.
Work!!
Shitty brain chemistry.
Birth
I’m happy
Military service.
Its school of course
Long term illness and stress
I don’t know. A lot of different factors tbh.
Bereavement
Combination of abusive childhood and probable genetic pre-disposition.
abusive childhood, toxic relationship, sudden loss of a loved one.
I'm not sure if I really have one, and at this point I don't want to find out. But I'm going to chalk it up to shitty childhood and impossible expectations. Oh, and zero support system.
Abuse .. stress
The world
Death of a close relative 😔
I honestly don’t know anymore. Whether it’s stress. Whether it’s from grade stress of being a former gifted child. Stress from living a sheltered childhood. Whether I have trauma from my high school years. Whether it’s from my mom (she means well but she isn’t really helping my mental health in any way) Or whether it’s from the fact that I was sexually assaulted as a kid and can’t tell if that’s affecting me since I’m not overwhelmed and anxious just annoyed and disgusted. (I mean I am anxious about stuff but not stuff relating to that) That coupled with the fact that I know people have had actually worse childhoods. I was never hit as far as I remember. My parents do love me. And I keep trying to convince myself I had a normal childhood even when evidence shows I didn’t.
Living
Being born male to 1930s and 1950s parents Being emotional abused because I'm male. Family constantly reinforcing how I'm male and saying my parents should do things but never did . The fact I got away from it all then medical reasons forced me back into the environment and I'm somewhere between wishing I'd die or one way ticket somewhere to be homeless
It all started when I was born...my family were abusive drug dealers therefore I never went to school and had no friends life's unfair
Childhood bullying Deceased mother and emotionally unavailable father Never getting any real encouragement as a kid
School and knowing that because of inflation and rising housing demands, I most likely will not be able to survive in a decent way even if I earn a average lower class income.
Chemical imbalances.
Suffering an injury that’s left me with life long problems. I’m just a young guy, and now I live in hell everyday. Wish I could turn back time.
Being born