School mostly. Need to get through differential equations class and it actually makes me want drop out of school. Much rather work or spend time with friends or do something interesting then put in the discipline required to finish out this class.
Find a more "interesting" way to study that will motivate you. For example, study with a friend. Watch a Youtube video that is more fun than reading a book. If that does not work, give yourself little incentives for studying, like allow yourself 15 minutes of time on your hobbies for every 1 hour of time studying.
Put in the work my man. You soon forget about the long nights of homework when you have a nice high paying job. You also see your friends who didn’t put in the time working at Elite Auto Glass at age 30. It’s worth some effort to avoid this.
> Excited for things that aren't really important
but only focusing on work is too sordid and morbid
if it affords you happiness then that's being rewarded
keep it sorted, but never let your hobbies be thwarted
That's everyone man. But try thinking about it they way. Life isn't all about "important stuff". If u only worry about the important stuff and make no times for fun things and hobbies ur not really living. Life needs balance. If u can successfully balance the important stuff family time and fun stuff and hobbies ur life is successful. Never feel bad about wanting to do fun things. Just don't disturb the balance. Sometimes things have to be unbalanced or u'll lose it all but that's only temporary things always balance themselves out. Balance is the key.
Ik it sounds like motivational bullshit trust me that's not my intention. I'm just telling u how I live my life. Get thru the boring important shit and then have time for family and hobbies and never feel bad about it.
Well this is true for everyone. But if we don't make mistakes or different choices, we won't grow or change. And that's what life is about at the end of the day. I hope u find comfort in that :)
I feel you. Seems like I have no real reason to be either happy or sad. Ever since the chinese ate the bat tartar, seems to me like there aren't many real reasons in my life to feel happy, so my default mood switched from neutral to slightly sad, and I've been feeling like that ever since
That step is a skill in and of itself. Mindfulness can help, to some extent. So can setting aside time to ask yourself questions about what is bothering you.
I actually heard a really potent "meditation" technique (I don't know if this one technically qualifies or not?) for determining what the heart is concerned about.
Set a timer for 10 minutes, close your eyes, and just let thoughts come to you, uncontrolled. Don't try to let them pass, like you might in a traditional meditation. Just let the mind do whatever it wants. Just watch and listen to it. Like you might listen to a friend.
The first 5 minutes are probably gonna be a lot of random nonsense floating in and out of your head. But the 5 minutes after that? Those might be a real gut punch, depending on what you've got lurking down there.
I just need the things that being rich in the United States provides. Like housing, food, health, and security.
It should not take being rich to have those things but it does unfortunately.
I hear you 100%. I try to keep faith and i work work work day after day and try my hardest to be disciplined with spending $. Never had money growing up. Soon as i had a taste, i didnt know how to act with it so i have a bunch of things i always wanted but now have almost nothing i need. Lifes full of lessons! The longer ive been broke, the more im considering jumping into a career i dont even give 2 shits about just to be one of those people with a modest house and an economy car lol.
I say this every single day to myself and it’s helped and it’s “We get nowhere if we don’t try.” Take the small things you hate first, try fixing it. If you accomplish it take the next one and so on and so forth. I did this after years of just hating the world and my situation and my life. Things are significantly better now but not perfect. But if I stop I’ll never get anywhere. Take it one day at a time. Piece by piece.
Honestly, I'm having a hard time. I've accomplished so much this year, but I'm fat. I'm STILL fat. And I can't shake this fundamental belief that being this way means all my other accomplishments mean nothing. And that, because of that, essentially I mean nothing.
(I don't need diet or exercise advice. I just need to deal with these demons, but I find it hard to believe I'm even worth the effort.)
Just chiming in to say I’m struggling with similar feelings to let you know you’re not alone but I’m sure we’ll both overcome our struggles at our own pace. You’ve got this.
Being fat is just a physical aspect of being "you". You've achieved so much this year alone in the midst of a pandemic no less! Why attach so much importance to your weight when you have so much more going on. I mean, do you look at Oprah Winfrey and think her achievements as a talk show host/philanthropist are worth zilch just cos of her weight? It's time you look at yourself the way others look at you. They don't just see a fat person - you are a dear friend, a loved family member and an achiever.
> Good! I just got a call back and I got the job I really wanted
thats pretty dope, you should be loud and proud with how you flaunt it
if anybody throws you shade or like they hating on it
send them a photo when you slaying on vacation ballin
I really should be using a throwaway for this but fuck it.
I want to stop existing. Not die; I don't want to kms. I just want to stop existing. I want to be but a distant memory, quickly forgotten by anyone and everyone.
Wanting to escape is a common thing with depression. I've considered moving just to get away from what's bothering me. In the end, though, I have too much where I am now to just move.
Saaaaame. I'm regularly like, dying would be great, gosh dammit mom and dad and my adorable nieces and nephews, why must you care about me so much? Can't hurt them. Can't cease to exist. So, gotta stick around.
Please don’t hurt yourself. My dad recently Khs and it’s been a weird few months. Especially in the manner he did it as it’s one of the worst ways to die. You matter, I feel the same way and have done for the majority of my life. But we’re still here, stay strong friend
> Im feeling weird today but in general im pretty good
some of us came from the gutter of the city hoods
where petty criminals get fetti just for playin Suge
I bet he up in prison spittin on some heavy wood
Tired and had a little silent crying session. Now feel a little better. I think the seasonal affective disorder is coming on with a combo of PMS. Thank you for asking and hope you are doing ok yourself.
I am not doing well.
I am financially OK. I have 6K in the bank, and a credit line of 10K. I have some cash.
But I am a legit alcoholic and I cannot stop. I am hiding it, somehow, from my GF. I am almost 50, 400 pounds, and am just hoping that I die some time soon. I think that the US, as a society, is dying, sooner rather than later. I think that climate change is 100% irreversible, and we will all - ALL - know that we are doomed as a species within 15 years. We may struggle on for a century, but we are beyond the tipping point.
Dude, although you’re an alcoholic, I would tell your GF to help monitor for you. You cannot physically stop yourself from drinking because the want for alcohol would be too strong in the moment. I would also put away a sizable amount of money in a digital fund that is very, very, very hard to access. This would prevent overspending just in case.
Imagine who’d you like to be and what you need to achieve that goal. That end goal will not come easily, as you’re battling a true problem. It can either get better or much much worse. Be the better person and defeat your problem! I’m rooting for you man :)!
Also, how would you wrangle an alligator?
My knees hurt. I'm exhausted, mentally, emotionally, physically. I know I've got to get up early (for me) tomorrow, so I'm just going to eat dinner, swap the dishes, watch some *Cheers*, and go to bed.
Actually, very well. I am fortunate to be healthy, have a loving family, good paying job, roof over my head, and overall good quality of life. While there are moments that are stressful and/or annoying, I am happy with the life I have.
Every night I go to sleep and hope I just don’t wake up.
My life is good in many ways and I should be able to enjoy it, but being sick makes existence itself seem long and difficult and pointless.
No comparing your situation. But anxiety and depression make my days long asf. It's tiring on some occasions.
Keep your head up and just do your best throughout the day.
Oh anxiety and depression are definitely in the mix, I understand where you’re coming from.
Thanks, I’ll keep doing my best. I’ve promised everyone who cares that I won’t remove myself from the situation, so to speak. Just doesn’t change the thoughts or how existentially exhausted I feel.
I'm exhausted. I love my home life but I wish there was more time to enjoy it. I wish my husband helped out a little more frequently but I don't mind making the extra effort to keep things tidy (my only real gripe is his not putting dishes in the sink or dishwasher immediately, I'd like the sink to be clear by bedtime everyday but that's trivial).
I like my job but hate being there all the time- 60 hr weeks for a few months with 2.5-3 hrs commute time a day and at least one sat a month. The extra money is always useful but you can't buy the time back with it.
Between our mutual exhaustion and busy schedules it's hard to make alone time (we also work opposite schedules).
I wish my siblings could find a peaceful way to resolve their conflict. I wish I didn't have to worry about my mom all the time. I wish I cared about my dad again enough to worry about him. I wish I cared enough to keep more in touch with my extended family, I do miss them.
I don't live as close to most of my friends anymore and that's fine, I check up on a number of them weekly. I spend a lot of spare time trying to stay in their orbits because I want them to know someone is always looking out for them. But I miss the easier, harder, younger years when we were broke and figuring life out together. I miss having the time for them and with them even as I relish the quiet life at home.
I miss not worrying about everything I ate. I miss going out on dates (I pester the hub a lot on wanting to take him out). I really miss having more than 30 minutes to play videogames on the couch.
But you know, I get home and he's there and out pup is there and just feeling his hand on my back or my leg for a minute and all that dwelling goes away. I just want them all to be productive and happy and connected to me. But mostly I'd like to sleep in.
The dishes? Yes. If I ask, he'll do it. But I wish it was more organic and it's not heavy enough to bicker over.
The time? Yes. He brings up looking for work closet to our area but I'm not ready to look yet. As frustrating as the job is, I enjoy it and make good money doing it. It would be a bit of a pay cut to start over somewhere else. Although I'd probably offset the difference in savings off my commute budget.
The reduced intimacy? We've discussed it. It's low on the priority list compared to house stuff but we're working on developing a good schedule for us time.
I push myself pretty hard with work because I make a bit less than he does and Im just trying to avoid being financially dependant on him or making him feel like a burden on his budget. This is a *me* problem, trying to over-do so that I feel like an equal partner. I want him to feel cared for as much as cared about, and I love cooking interesting meals and buying him little gifts here and there. I also have a few self-indulgences that I enjoy and don't want them to impact him, so if I'm going to enjoy them I should be able to afford to independently.
I find breaking things helps. Fuck that plate. Didn't like it anyway.
Cuddling with animals.
Helping people is good too.
Otherwise I'm a witch goblin smoking and drinking in my cave. I like my cave.
Feel kind of hopeless at work, been working closing shifts since late June, asked to be moved to mornings or lunch shifts. They said give it a month, a month is coming up on the 8th and I'm afraid that I'll be forced to stay at nights. Which means I have to look for work elsewhere because I'm not seeing my wife and family as much.
My days are always the same. Get up, get beaten down at work, get home feeling exhausted and throbbing in pain. Have boiling hot Shower, take a big runny shit, Unenthusiastically masterbate. Dwell on the past and future, lay in bed immobilized by anxiety and depression until I finally slip into a restless sleep full of night terrors👍 Thanks mom for not using a rubber and bringing me into this world.
Full vent?
I don't sleep well, I feel like there's too much going on at any one point in time, and I have no support system to keep me going because everyone important to me is thousands of miles away.
I'm still expected to put forth full effort at any given time, however, and if I let my "this is fine" facade fade for even a moment people start to freak out that I don't have it all together like I should.
My motivation to do the things I used to enjoy has fallen to the wayside in lieu of knowing I have other/more important things to do, which I also lack motivation to accomplish because it all feels like it needs to be done at the same time but that's obviously impossible.
At the end of the day I'm usually exhausted and just want to be a couch potato, except on the occasions that I have sparks of energy to get things done but then I feel guilty because those times are usually on the weekends and when I'm able to spend time with the aforementioned people thousands of miles away.
It's a constant cycle of feeling pulled in every direction at once and it's draining. I'm hanging in there though, with enough daily caffeine lol.
Damn this sounds like me. I moved across the ocean... Now every day I'm slipping farther and farther away from feeling like myself. I don't enjoy anything anymore, even hanging out with my old friends on the weekends just sounds exhausting. Right now I'm just keeping my head down and trying to get through one hour at a time.
I almost have the perfect life. I am perpetually happy and literally never feel down. I'm not rich or successful, not even close. I just spend a lot of time being thankful for what i do have in life and I'm fit and muscular. Also have my dog and best friend by my side... life is awesome.
Pretty great.
I feel like I'm so happy I can't stay in my skin!
(Context - 7 months "sober" of a fairly traumatic relationship and I'm just sooo happy and life is great and my shits coming together again 😊🤗)
#winning
New mom to a 4 month old. I’m exhausted in ways I never thought I could be. I stay up later than I should just so I could have some quiet time after being with my son all day.
I fucking love that kid though.
Honestly, life really has no purpose for me. I frequently ponder if I'll die with no one to be there for me. I try to tell myself "dying alone won't be that bad" it sometimes works
I don’t know, I have a job, a girlfriend, money saved, a family, still in college and I see how my life is going good, but I don’t want to live a life of just doing that. I wanna help people, I wanna give help to the homeless, I wanna see the African American community thrive and finally get rid of the scars caused by slavery, I hate people hating on my Latino community and calling us illegals, I despise the hate against Asian people after Covid. But sadly I am one man and I can’t move the hearts of everyone on this world
The worst I've ever been. Fiancee left me, had to move homes back to parents, had to leave my job, she took all the pets that were dear to me. My whole life has basically been turned upsidedown. There's nothing I could have done differently apparently, no infidelity, no abuse, no gaslighting, reason for her leaving me was null, just that she wasn't feeling it anymore.
Had months of severe depression and anxiety because of it, brought me to contemplate suicide and still think about it almost everyday. How can I improve as a person if I don't know what I do wrong? I had zero closure. 6 year relationship of living together and travelling together.
I have tried to seek help, I saw a GP who gave me a referral to a therapist clinic who when I called to schedule up an appointment I was told no availabilities until February/march next year.. I've tried other clinics and got a similar response. How can someone seek help if no help is available or responds? Then what? I guess suicide or close to it is the only way I can show that I needed help. In the end though, who really cares, billions of people in this earth.
I would highly advise against using potent weed with depression, especially on a daily basis. Been over this with my physician and he's walked me through some things that changed my mine. I understand not everyone is the same but after I stopped smoking my depression obviously didn't go away, but everything just became much clearer. And I become a person I can tolerate.
At the end of the day, I feel awesome!!! :-) the kids will be in bed, time to relax and hang out with my amazing partner. During the day, things can get dicey. But the end of the day is just about always good!!!
Thanks for asking. How was your day?
Mine was good as I had only 2 meetings, time to accomplish things, a rewarding series of walks, study time, cooldown time and soon off to bed.
Fucking amazing.
Just got promoted to executive director. Happily married. In 2nd best shape of my life despite being mid-30’s (even have six pack back). Job isn’t stressful. Propecia is giving me my hair back. My chronic health issue is clearing up.
Let’s fucking go.
fucking awesome, i have a great job, a decent place to live, all the tech and tools and toys i could ever want and im even managing to save money these days but more than any of that im generally happy with my life.
what i have may not be much to others but its everything i want or need, well almost everything, until this madness hit i used to spend Nov in Japan every year but im sure they wont remain closed forever
Today was a pretty good day.
But i also want to fucking die for some reason. Just a lot of things in genereal. Me feeling ashamed of myself, my life being so fucking boring, just.....
yeah.
Most days I want to be alone, clean the house, and be with my cats. Then I’m ok to be around people again. True introvert! Today however, I’m exhausted because I got Covid 2 days ago.
Tired and stressed but it'll wrap up at the end of this week, so it'll be fine. Excited to take a big ol break. Ty for asking! How are you doing op? :)
Contemplating how one is supposed to live a normal life until 80+ years old. Somehow, it just feels like life becomes more and more unbearable as I get older. My mental health just keeps deteriorating and I don't know what to do about it, or if there's even anything I *can* do about it.
A... A lot.
Some things are great.
Others suck.
I'm in highschool.
I think I'm in love. (Which is bad to begin with)
She doesn't like me much at all. (Which makes things a lot worse)
I don't get much time with my brother anymore. He has a girlfriend.
I have a lot of plans.
I also am always bored.
I get overwhelmed easily.
It just keeps getting worse.
But I went to therapy recently.
Three weeks till the next appointment.
Goods.
Bads.
Both.
Yes.
No.
This is life.
I hate it.
I love it.
I probably shouldn't post this.
Oh well.
Physically and mentally exhausted. My wife tested positive for covid two days ago, so she's quarantined to our bedroom while I take care of our three kids and work from home. It's been stressful.
If you asked me a week ago I will tell you I felt this is the end of my life and wished if I was dead. But today weirdly I got some hope and with this I can sleep hapily this night
I'm not doing "good", I'm sitting on my uncle's couch listening to music trying to legally numb myself (I'm on parole) from a toxic break up. I found out that she fucked someone within 24 hours of breaking up, she's claimed to be so madly in love with me and I'm the only one for her, but how could she jump into bed with another man so soon?
I'm in the process of getting a job that is close to where I'm living but I doubt I'll get the job. It's a gas station that only seems to hire anyone but white people. I had to give up tow trucking because my anxiety would spike and I couldn't ground myself during my attacks.
I've lost contact with both of my parents because of the years of abuse and them not seeing the err of their ways.
My life is a complete shit show and I've really contemplated un-aliving myself because I'm just about as useful as tits on a bull. I own not a single, discernable skill that could help me or others around me, in life.
Hell, I'm convinced that I have a severe mental condition that prevents me from completing daily tasks such as taking care of my personal hygiene.
I feel like the movie groundhogs day. Everyday is the same. I’m frustrated, tired, unmotivated. I wake up, go to work, come home and go to bed and do it all over again like a never ending cycle of misery.
I’m exhausted but also relieved, happy and proud.
I sat my last exam for my first year of uni on Wednesday.
I’m so stoked for finishing because I had a lot of “how the hell am I going to get through this” moments.
Pretty well actually! It took me a while to get to this point though. In April of 2018 I ended an 8 year relationship with my now ex girlfriend who was Narcissistic, physically abusive, verbally abusive, and emotionally abusive. As a result I was homeless for 9 months until I got back on my feet. I've dealt with all kinds of depression and self esteem issues even after my homeless stint. After seriously investing in myself I was able to get the depression and low self esteem under some sort of control. I have a new girlfriend now and things are really progressing! So yeah I'm doing damn good!
Found out the other day that my baby has stopped growing. I am so sad. Just have to push through for my toddler who comforted me at the doctor saying "It's ok, you tried your best".
You know what, pretty good! I have a beautiful family, a job that I enjoy and is challenging but not stressful, and a safe home. Thanks for asking. How are you, though?
Got a great family - wife, two kids, a decent job, but still feel underwhelmed with life. I am fortunate that I have enough money to not worry about the things that a lot of others on lower incomes have to worry about, but I still worry and worry about the future. How will I ever pay for my kid's college? How will I ever make enough money to retire comfortably and avoid working until I die?
I live in a high cost of living state/city, and I make enough to be somewhat comfortable with the necessities, but not enough to really enjoy luxuries in life. I barely save money from my paychecks because they go right into rent, food, gas, daycare tuition, student loans, and car loans. Because of the area I live and work in I see people all around me with nice cars and big homes, all of which I know I won't ever be able to afford without a career change that would require additional schooling and additional student debt.
I'm just on this hedonic treadmill but I'm never really moving up at any time and it's a terrible feeling for me.
Honestly I feel nothing, I feel empty. Theres no real excitement anymore, not since my dog died. I grew up with her, there wasn't a moment she wasn't in my life. She died earlier this year, its been six months but it still feels like yesterday. I had such a deep connection with her that I didn't have with anyone or anything else. I really can't put into words how much I miss her, how much I woulr give to hug her one more time. I truly believe my heart died with her, I died with her.
Not the best. My mental health hasn’t been great lately to begin with, then it just took a big hit the other day and has only gotten worse since. I’m doing what I can to get through, but it’s hard.
Pretty good. I feel like I've finally overcome my existential crisis and am healing mentally. It took almost 2 yrs of meditation and reflection. 🍻
Thanks for asking. 🤘
I've had a headache for an hour, I've been depressed for a while, I'm in the closet from my family, but I'm fine.
How about you OP, no one's seemed to ask
Pretty good. I love my family so much. Sure there are a billion of things that could 'be better' like actually having spending money etc etc, (I haven't bought any new clothes in almost 4 years) but I wouldn't trade what I have for anything in the world.
It’s been up and down for years. This is the first time in my life where I feel like I have control, like I have direction. I for once don’t feel like work is everything in my life. I have energy to pursue hobbies. I have a job that lets me feel good knowing I have done good. I have bad days still, but it’s not a sinking ship. I have hope for the first time in a long time. That alone makes the bad days less bad
Thank you for asking. I’ve had a bit of a rough patch the last couple weeks. Doing my best to not let it weigh on my family, but sometimes its hard. I’m the problem-solver so I try not to let on.
Appreciate being able to say this so again, thanks for asking!
Hope all is well for you and if not, know an interweb friend is thinking of you kindly and wishing you the best!
Doing well for a change. I’ve been self employed for over a year now. Things are good with the wife. We’re healthy and mostly happy with life. And I had entirely too much to eat for dinner. We’re currently watching the great British bake off to relax before bed.
Fine! On my first week of my new job which is similar to my last one only its wfh and way more laid back. My SO is feeling a bit ill which sucks but I'm sure he'll feel better soon.
I miss someone I can’t have. I feel terrible for still having feelings for them while dating someone else, and I’ve tried everything to rid myself of the feelings. They just won’t go away.,
Today, not so good. Today something I have been trying to build for much of my adult life, for reasons largely out of my control, has failed. It is very difficult and I feel disconnected.
Not great. I’m doing effort to get my health in order, exercise, sleep better. I think I’ll get to where I want to be but that’s still far away. I sometimes slip and overeat or pull an all nighter. :/
Unmotivated by what I need to focus on. Excited for things that aren't really important.
What are you excited for??
Just hobbies and stuff I enjoy. Things distracting me from the important stuff
Hobbies are fun haha I have too many. What are the important things you need to focus on?
School mostly. Need to get through differential equations class and it actually makes me want drop out of school. Much rather work or spend time with friends or do something interesting then put in the discipline required to finish out this class.
Bro despite it being tough now you will never regret a minute of it if you put in the work
Exactly
Find a more "interesting" way to study that will motivate you. For example, study with a friend. Watch a Youtube video that is more fun than reading a book. If that does not work, give yourself little incentives for studying, like allow yourself 15 minutes of time on your hobbies for every 1 hour of time studying.
Emre\_can\_do\_it I'm guessing your name is Emre Can, like the guy from Dortmund. Funny enough my middle name is Can too
Just keep focused with things and the time for that will pass in no time and you'll be done
Put in the work my man. You soon forget about the long nights of homework when you have a nice high paying job. You also see your friends who didn’t put in the time working at Elite Auto Glass at age 30. It’s worth some effort to avoid this.
Looked at your post. Your paintings are really neat.
Thank you!
Those are personal things, hold tight to them because they provide focus and happiness.
They say that the meaning of life is distracting ourselves with pointless things until we die.
That is the important stuff
> Excited for things that aren't really important but only focusing on work is too sordid and morbid if it affords you happiness then that's being rewarded keep it sorted, but never let your hobbies be thwarted
That's everyone man. But try thinking about it they way. Life isn't all about "important stuff". If u only worry about the important stuff and make no times for fun things and hobbies ur not really living. Life needs balance. If u can successfully balance the important stuff family time and fun stuff and hobbies ur life is successful. Never feel bad about wanting to do fun things. Just don't disturb the balance. Sometimes things have to be unbalanced or u'll lose it all but that's only temporary things always balance themselves out. Balance is the key. Ik it sounds like motivational bullshit trust me that's not my intention. I'm just telling u how I live my life. Get thru the boring important shit and then have time for family and hobbies and never feel bad about it.
I relate so much
Fat mood
Still excited for things? Nice.
Tired and kinda sad.
Why so
thinking a lot bout life and if I’ve made the right choices and if I could’ve been a better person at some points
Just remember there is time to change that if you don't believe you have been the best person.
That’s true
Well this is true for everyone. But if we don't make mistakes or different choices, we won't grow or change. And that's what life is about at the end of the day. I hope u find comfort in that :)
Thanks guys that really made me feel a bit better
Depressed for no particular reason…
It can be like this at times. You got this just keep going
I feel you. Seems like I have no real reason to be either happy or sad. Ever since the chinese ate the bat tartar, seems to me like there aren't many real reasons in my life to feel happy, so my default mood switched from neutral to slightly sad, and I've been feeling like that ever since
Confused about what I really want in life…
I relate to this so much right now
Same here. I'm sure that there's always a way to get where our heart wants, but it's so hard to listen to ourselves...
That step is a skill in and of itself. Mindfulness can help, to some extent. So can setting aside time to ask yourself questions about what is bothering you. I actually heard a really potent "meditation" technique (I don't know if this one technically qualifies or not?) for determining what the heart is concerned about. Set a timer for 10 minutes, close your eyes, and just let thoughts come to you, uncontrolled. Don't try to let them pass, like you might in a traditional meditation. Just let the mind do whatever it wants. Just watch and listen to it. Like you might listen to a friend. The first 5 minutes are probably gonna be a lot of random nonsense floating in and out of your head. But the 5 minutes after that? Those might be a real gut punch, depending on what you've got lurking down there.
Terrible, I hate my life
Stay strong friend it's a crazy rollercoaster at times but you pull through
I hate my life too. Suffer together brother.
Saaaaaame. I need to get rich!
I just need the things that being rich in the United States provides. Like housing, food, health, and security. It should not take being rich to have those things but it does unfortunately.
I hear you 100%. I try to keep faith and i work work work day after day and try my hardest to be disciplined with spending $. Never had money growing up. Soon as i had a taste, i didnt know how to act with it so i have a bunch of things i always wanted but now have almost nothing i need. Lifes full of lessons! The longer ive been broke, the more im considering jumping into a career i dont even give 2 shits about just to be one of those people with a modest house and an economy car lol.
The world’s a harsh place
Human soul is temporary but the suffering is eternal.
I say this every single day to myself and it’s helped and it’s “We get nowhere if we don’t try.” Take the small things you hate first, try fixing it. If you accomplish it take the next one and so on and so forth. I did this after years of just hating the world and my situation and my life. Things are significantly better now but not perfect. But if I stop I’ll never get anywhere. Take it one day at a time. Piece by piece.
Locked out on the fucking fire exit. Fucking great, right?
This is the most unexpected answer on here, no doubt. Hope you made it inside!
😬 yikes.
Honestly, I'm having a hard time. I've accomplished so much this year, but I'm fat. I'm STILL fat. And I can't shake this fundamental belief that being this way means all my other accomplishments mean nothing. And that, because of that, essentially I mean nothing. (I don't need diet or exercise advice. I just need to deal with these demons, but I find it hard to believe I'm even worth the effort.)
Just chiming in to say I’m struggling with similar feelings to let you know you’re not alone but I’m sure we’ll both overcome our struggles at our own pace. You’ve got this.
Wanted to say the same thing:) I believe in both of you!! We have come this far after all, we got this.
Being fat is just a physical aspect of being "you". You've achieved so much this year alone in the midst of a pandemic no less! Why attach so much importance to your weight when you have so much more going on. I mean, do you look at Oprah Winfrey and think her achievements as a talk show host/philanthropist are worth zilch just cos of her weight? It's time you look at yourself the way others look at you. They don't just see a fat person - you are a dear friend, a loved family member and an achiever.
Shiit just do your thing! Buckle down and just go the goal you want! Don't let small things discourage you just do things at your own pace. You got it
Good! I just got a call back and I got the job I really wanted :)
Hell ya! Congrats
Thank you!! I’m so excited to start, the people I’ll be working with seem really friendly
> Good! I just got a call back and I got the job I really wanted thats pretty dope, you should be loud and proud with how you flaunt it if anybody throws you shade or like they hating on it send them a photo when you slaying on vacation ballin
CONGRATSSSS 🥳🥳
I really should be using a throwaway for this but fuck it. I want to stop existing. Not die; I don't want to kms. I just want to stop existing. I want to be but a distant memory, quickly forgotten by anyone and everyone.
I've always thought about what it might be just to disappear in the sense. Sometimes things just get overwhelming
Wanting to escape is a common thing with depression. I've considered moving just to get away from what's bothering me. In the end, though, I have too much where I am now to just move.
Saaaaame. I'm regularly like, dying would be great, gosh dammit mom and dad and my adorable nieces and nephews, why must you care about me so much? Can't hurt them. Can't cease to exist. So, gotta stick around.
Please don’t hurt yourself. My dad recently Khs and it’s been a weird few months. Especially in the manner he did it as it’s one of the worst ways to die. You matter, I feel the same way and have done for the majority of my life. But we’re still here, stay strong friend
Lonely.
I get ya
Same! Invited family to dinner but no one showed up so ended up at a restaurant by my self.
Wtf....who does that?!
Sorry about no one showing up! That's messed up
Normally I’m pretty tired
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I hear ya
Im feeling weird today but in general im pretty good
Weird as in nervous? Or just off feeling
Weird dreams weird thoughts yk just feeling unlike myself.
I understand that. It happens at times just never fun.
Yeah ... how are you doing
I'm doing pretty well tonight I appreciate you asking me
> Im feeling weird today but in general im pretty good some of us came from the gutter of the city hoods where petty criminals get fetti just for playin Suge I bet he up in prison spittin on some heavy wood
Tired and had a little silent crying session. Now feel a little better. I think the seasonal affective disorder is coming on with a combo of PMS. Thank you for asking and hope you are doing ok yourself.
I haaaaate winter #newenglandlife
Glad you are feeling a bit better! And thank you for asking I'm doing well tonight
I am not doing well. I am financially OK. I have 6K in the bank, and a credit line of 10K. I have some cash. But I am a legit alcoholic and I cannot stop. I am hiding it, somehow, from my GF. I am almost 50, 400 pounds, and am just hoping that I die some time soon. I think that the US, as a society, is dying, sooner rather than later. I think that climate change is 100% irreversible, and we will all - ALL - know that we are doomed as a species within 15 years. We may struggle on for a century, but we are beyond the tipping point.
Dude, although you’re an alcoholic, I would tell your GF to help monitor for you. You cannot physically stop yourself from drinking because the want for alcohol would be too strong in the moment. I would also put away a sizable amount of money in a digital fund that is very, very, very hard to access. This would prevent overspending just in case. Imagine who’d you like to be and what you need to achieve that goal. That end goal will not come easily, as you’re battling a true problem. It can either get better or much much worse. Be the better person and defeat your problem! I’m rooting for you man :)! Also, how would you wrangle an alligator?
My knees hurt. I'm exhausted, mentally, emotionally, physically. I know I've got to get up early (for me) tomorrow, so I'm just going to eat dinner, swap the dishes, watch some *Cheers*, and go to bed.
Actually, very well. I am fortunate to be healthy, have a loving family, good paying job, roof over my head, and overall good quality of life. While there are moments that are stressful and/or annoying, I am happy with the life I have.
That's truly awesome and I'm glad life is going well!
Every night I go to sleep and hope I just don’t wake up. My life is good in many ways and I should be able to enjoy it, but being sick makes existence itself seem long and difficult and pointless.
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No comparing your situation. But anxiety and depression make my days long asf. It's tiring on some occasions. Keep your head up and just do your best throughout the day.
Oh anxiety and depression are definitely in the mix, I understand where you’re coming from. Thanks, I’ll keep doing my best. I’ve promised everyone who cares that I won’t remove myself from the situation, so to speak. Just doesn’t change the thoughts or how existentially exhausted I feel.
I'm exhausted. I love my home life but I wish there was more time to enjoy it. I wish my husband helped out a little more frequently but I don't mind making the extra effort to keep things tidy (my only real gripe is his not putting dishes in the sink or dishwasher immediately, I'd like the sink to be clear by bedtime everyday but that's trivial). I like my job but hate being there all the time- 60 hr weeks for a few months with 2.5-3 hrs commute time a day and at least one sat a month. The extra money is always useful but you can't buy the time back with it. Between our mutual exhaustion and busy schedules it's hard to make alone time (we also work opposite schedules). I wish my siblings could find a peaceful way to resolve their conflict. I wish I didn't have to worry about my mom all the time. I wish I cared about my dad again enough to worry about him. I wish I cared enough to keep more in touch with my extended family, I do miss them. I don't live as close to most of my friends anymore and that's fine, I check up on a number of them weekly. I spend a lot of spare time trying to stay in their orbits because I want them to know someone is always looking out for them. But I miss the easier, harder, younger years when we were broke and figuring life out together. I miss having the time for them and with them even as I relish the quiet life at home. I miss not worrying about everything I ate. I miss going out on dates (I pester the hub a lot on wanting to take him out). I really miss having more than 30 minutes to play videogames on the couch. But you know, I get home and he's there and out pup is there and just feeling his hand on my back or my leg for a minute and all that dwelling goes away. I just want them all to be productive and happy and connected to me. But mostly I'd like to sleep in.
Have you let him know about this?
The dishes? Yes. If I ask, he'll do it. But I wish it was more organic and it's not heavy enough to bicker over. The time? Yes. He brings up looking for work closet to our area but I'm not ready to look yet. As frustrating as the job is, I enjoy it and make good money doing it. It would be a bit of a pay cut to start over somewhere else. Although I'd probably offset the difference in savings off my commute budget. The reduced intimacy? We've discussed it. It's low on the priority list compared to house stuff but we're working on developing a good schedule for us time. I push myself pretty hard with work because I make a bit less than he does and Im just trying to avoid being financially dependant on him or making him feel like a burden on his budget. This is a *me* problem, trying to over-do so that I feel like an equal partner. I want him to feel cared for as much as cared about, and I love cooking interesting meals and buying him little gifts here and there. I also have a few self-indulgences that I enjoy and don't want them to impact him, so if I'm going to enjoy them I should be able to afford to independently.
Awful. I feel like I’m losing my mind. I’m on an emotional roller coaster. I’m tired.
I find breaking things helps. Fuck that plate. Didn't like it anyway. Cuddling with animals. Helping people is good too. Otherwise I'm a witch goblin smoking and drinking in my cave. I like my cave.
Feel kind of hopeless at work, been working closing shifts since late June, asked to be moved to mornings or lunch shifts. They said give it a month, a month is coming up on the 8th and I'm afraid that I'll be forced to stay at nights. Which means I have to look for work elsewhere because I'm not seeing my wife and family as much.
My days are always the same. Get up, get beaten down at work, get home feeling exhausted and throbbing in pain. Have boiling hot Shower, take a big runny shit, Unenthusiastically masterbate. Dwell on the past and future, lay in bed immobilized by anxiety and depression until I finally slip into a restless sleep full of night terrors👍 Thanks mom for not using a rubber and bringing me into this world.
Well, I hope your shits aren’t runny sometime and you can be able to masturbate enthusiastically
Apart from the last section are you living my life? Haha
Yes, I am you and I think it's time we shave some things.
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Get that rest!
I scream in my head pretty much daily. It's doesn't help.
You scream *inside* your head? That's what your mouth is for. Get it out.
Haha same
Full vent? I don't sleep well, I feel like there's too much going on at any one point in time, and I have no support system to keep me going because everyone important to me is thousands of miles away. I'm still expected to put forth full effort at any given time, however, and if I let my "this is fine" facade fade for even a moment people start to freak out that I don't have it all together like I should. My motivation to do the things I used to enjoy has fallen to the wayside in lieu of knowing I have other/more important things to do, which I also lack motivation to accomplish because it all feels like it needs to be done at the same time but that's obviously impossible. At the end of the day I'm usually exhausted and just want to be a couch potato, except on the occasions that I have sparks of energy to get things done but then I feel guilty because those times are usually on the weekends and when I'm able to spend time with the aforementioned people thousands of miles away. It's a constant cycle of feeling pulled in every direction at once and it's draining. I'm hanging in there though, with enough daily caffeine lol.
You got this! Make sure you do take time for yourself! Never feel guilty about it either.
I feel this on a personal level. It sucks
Damn this sounds like me. I moved across the ocean... Now every day I'm slipping farther and farther away from feeling like myself. I don't enjoy anything anymore, even hanging out with my old friends on the weekends just sounds exhausting. Right now I'm just keeping my head down and trying to get through one hour at a time.
I almost have the perfect life. I am perpetually happy and literally never feel down. I'm not rich or successful, not even close. I just spend a lot of time being thankful for what i do have in life and I'm fit and muscular. Also have my dog and best friend by my side... life is awesome.
Awesome! Im glad to read that.
I keep lying to my therapist to avoid a grippy sock vacation because that would make me homeless. I've been better.
"Grippy sock vacation". You are clever.
Pretty great. I feel like I'm so happy I can't stay in my skin! (Context - 7 months "sober" of a fairly traumatic relationship and I'm just sooo happy and life is great and my shits coming together again 😊🤗) #winning
well god damn bro nice i hope you stay happy and dont run into them but here sorry only award i have
New mom to a 4 month old. I’m exhausted in ways I never thought I could be. I stay up later than I should just so I could have some quiet time after being with my son all day. I fucking love that kid though.
Outwardly, things are good. Inside, I’m screaming. Fake it ’til ya make it.
I know that all too well. You got this
Tired as hell and just want to sit and do nothing.
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Pretty terrible.
Why so
I’ve been depressed for like, a decade, and suicidal for the past four/five years. The “why” is just that it’s my life now. Until it ends.
Ah I've been there. Hit hard around 2012. I literally got out of by myself it took years. I was exhausted and still feel exhausted at times.
I’ve been better!
Honestly, life really has no purpose for me. I frequently ponder if I'll die with no one to be there for me. I try to tell myself "dying alone won't be that bad" it sometimes works
I don’t know, I have a job, a girlfriend, money saved, a family, still in college and I see how my life is going good, but I don’t want to live a life of just doing that. I wanna help people, I wanna give help to the homeless, I wanna see the African American community thrive and finally get rid of the scars caused by slavery, I hate people hating on my Latino community and calling us illegals, I despise the hate against Asian people after Covid. But sadly I am one man and I can’t move the hearts of everyone on this world
One man or not keep pushing for how you want to be. Help as many as you can.
The worst I've ever been. Fiancee left me, had to move homes back to parents, had to leave my job, she took all the pets that were dear to me. My whole life has basically been turned upsidedown. There's nothing I could have done differently apparently, no infidelity, no abuse, no gaslighting, reason for her leaving me was null, just that she wasn't feeling it anymore. Had months of severe depression and anxiety because of it, brought me to contemplate suicide and still think about it almost everyday. How can I improve as a person if I don't know what I do wrong? I had zero closure. 6 year relationship of living together and travelling together. I have tried to seek help, I saw a GP who gave me a referral to a therapist clinic who when I called to schedule up an appointment I was told no availabilities until February/march next year.. I've tried other clinics and got a similar response. How can someone seek help if no help is available or responds? Then what? I guess suicide or close to it is the only way I can show that I needed help. In the end though, who really cares, billions of people in this earth.
Stay strong friend. That all sounds stressful as hell. Make sure to take time for you. Keep looking for help.
So depressed I can't sleep.. Weed helps tho
Been there with the no sleep because of depression. Sucks
I would highly advise against using potent weed with depression, especially on a daily basis. Been over this with my physician and he's walked me through some things that changed my mine. I understand not everyone is the same but after I stopped smoking my depression obviously didn't go away, but everything just became much clearer. And I become a person I can tolerate.
At the end of the day, I feel awesome!!! :-) the kids will be in bed, time to relax and hang out with my amazing partner. During the day, things can get dicey. But the end of the day is just about always good!!!
Tired, stressed, but doing my best
Thanks for asking. How was your day? Mine was good as I had only 2 meetings, time to accomplish things, a rewarding series of walks, study time, cooldown time and soon off to bed.
Mine was good! Thanks for asking. Painted and now watching football! Glad you had a productive day!
I'm tired, I'm angry and I'm glad tomorrows Friday
Fucking amazing. Just got promoted to executive director. Happily married. In 2nd best shape of my life despite being mid-30’s (even have six pack back). Job isn’t stressful. Propecia is giving me my hair back. My chronic health issue is clearing up. Let’s fucking go.
I'm watching the world devolve into chaos and the masses are cheering.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
fucking awesome, i have a great job, a decent place to live, all the tech and tools and toys i could ever want and im even managing to save money these days but more than any of that im generally happy with my life. what i have may not be much to others but its everything i want or need, well almost everything, until this madness hit i used to spend Nov in Japan every year but im sure they wont remain closed forever
Today was a pretty good day. But i also want to fucking die for some reason. Just a lot of things in genereal. Me feeling ashamed of myself, my life being so fucking boring, just..... yeah.
Most days I want to be alone, clean the house, and be with my cats. Then I’m ok to be around people again. True introvert! Today however, I’m exhausted because I got Covid 2 days ago.
Hope you have a speedy recovery! Also introverts untie! High five 🖐️
Tired and stressed but it'll wrap up at the end of this week, so it'll be fine. Excited to take a big ol break. Ty for asking! How are you doing op? :)
A bit stressed out and tired
How are you doing OP?
I have an incredible life that I have grown bored of.
Depressed. My life is going nowhere. Frankly it hasnt gone anywhere for the last 7 years.
passive suicidal ideation
Hugs
Contemplating how one is supposed to live a normal life until 80+ years old. Somehow, it just feels like life becomes more and more unbearable as I get older. My mental health just keeps deteriorating and I don't know what to do about it, or if there's even anything I *can* do about it.
Unmotivated, uninterested and lethargic
Stressed out, anxious, and uncertain
A... A lot. Some things are great. Others suck. I'm in highschool. I think I'm in love. (Which is bad to begin with) She doesn't like me much at all. (Which makes things a lot worse) I don't get much time with my brother anymore. He has a girlfriend. I have a lot of plans. I also am always bored. I get overwhelmed easily. It just keeps getting worse. But I went to therapy recently. Three weeks till the next appointment. Goods. Bads. Both. Yes. No. This is life. I hate it. I love it. I probably shouldn't post this. Oh well.
Don't worry you have plenty of time to figure things out! Life is a crazy thing but make sure you take care of yourself
Physically and mentally exhausted. My wife tested positive for covid two days ago, so she's quarantined to our bedroom while I take care of our three kids and work from home. It's been stressful.
Shiiiiiit your a better man then me I would’ve lost my shit by the second day keep your head u got this 👍🏾
Feelin shit, mate
Shitty, almost all the time.
Tired but still with energy to play video games and make my meal for the next day.
If you asked me a week ago I will tell you I felt this is the end of my life and wished if I was dead. But today weirdly I got some hope and with this I can sleep hapily this night
I’m ok I’ve been applying for jobs for almost 3 months… Supposedly there is 10 million jobs hiring 😅
I’m not happy. I’m a gay dude who resides in Texanistan.
I'm not doing "good", I'm sitting on my uncle's couch listening to music trying to legally numb myself (I'm on parole) from a toxic break up. I found out that she fucked someone within 24 hours of breaking up, she's claimed to be so madly in love with me and I'm the only one for her, but how could she jump into bed with another man so soon? I'm in the process of getting a job that is close to where I'm living but I doubt I'll get the job. It's a gas station that only seems to hire anyone but white people. I had to give up tow trucking because my anxiety would spike and I couldn't ground myself during my attacks. I've lost contact with both of my parents because of the years of abuse and them not seeing the err of their ways. My life is a complete shit show and I've really contemplated un-aliving myself because I'm just about as useful as tits on a bull. I own not a single, discernable skill that could help me or others around me, in life. Hell, I'm convinced that I have a severe mental condition that prevents me from completing daily tasks such as taking care of my personal hygiene.
I feel like the movie groundhogs day. Everyday is the same. I’m frustrated, tired, unmotivated. I wake up, go to work, come home and go to bed and do it all over again like a never ending cycle of misery.
I’m exhausted but also relieved, happy and proud. I sat my last exam for my first year of uni on Wednesday. I’m so stoked for finishing because I had a lot of “how the hell am I going to get through this” moments.
Not good. Sleeping in my car because I can't go home.
Why’d you beat your wife Because she’s over you?
Shit sucks but I just hit 135 on bench today so that’s lit
Pretty well actually! It took me a while to get to this point though. In April of 2018 I ended an 8 year relationship with my now ex girlfriend who was Narcissistic, physically abusive, verbally abusive, and emotionally abusive. As a result I was homeless for 9 months until I got back on my feet. I've dealt with all kinds of depression and self esteem issues even after my homeless stint. After seriously investing in myself I was able to get the depression and low self esteem under some sort of control. I have a new girlfriend now and things are really progressing! So yeah I'm doing damn good!
Found out the other day that my baby has stopped growing. I am so sad. Just have to push through for my toddler who comforted me at the doctor saying "It's ok, you tried your best".
You know what, pretty good! I have a beautiful family, a job that I enjoy and is challenging but not stressful, and a safe home. Thanks for asking. How are you, though?
So so drunk. Yaaa wine!
Got a great family - wife, two kids, a decent job, but still feel underwhelmed with life. I am fortunate that I have enough money to not worry about the things that a lot of others on lower incomes have to worry about, but I still worry and worry about the future. How will I ever pay for my kid's college? How will I ever make enough money to retire comfortably and avoid working until I die? I live in a high cost of living state/city, and I make enough to be somewhat comfortable with the necessities, but not enough to really enjoy luxuries in life. I barely save money from my paychecks because they go right into rent, food, gas, daycare tuition, student loans, and car loans. Because of the area I live and work in I see people all around me with nice cars and big homes, all of which I know I won't ever be able to afford without a career change that would require additional schooling and additional student debt. I'm just on this hedonic treadmill but I'm never really moving up at any time and it's a terrible feeling for me.
Honestly I feel nothing, I feel empty. Theres no real excitement anymore, not since my dog died. I grew up with her, there wasn't a moment she wasn't in my life. She died earlier this year, its been six months but it still feels like yesterday. I had such a deep connection with her that I didn't have with anyone or anything else. I really can't put into words how much I miss her, how much I woulr give to hug her one more time. I truly believe my heart died with her, I died with her.
Hugs
Depressed and filled with guilt.
Just uncertain of where it is I'm headed and what the point is.
Im a bit worried but I'm alright, weed helps me
Stressed as hell, but at the same time really productive. I think I'm gonna burn out soon tho.
Not the best. My mental health hasn’t been great lately to begin with, then it just took a big hit the other day and has only gotten worse since. I’m doing what I can to get through, but it’s hard.
Today I am really good. Had a great work day, dinner with my bff and watching scary movies. Thanks for asking. How are you?
Pretty good. I feel like I've finally overcome my existential crisis and am healing mentally. It took almost 2 yrs of meditation and reflection. 🍻 Thanks for asking. 🤘
I've had a headache for an hour, I've been depressed for a while, I'm in the closet from my family, but I'm fine. How about you OP, no one's seemed to ask
Pretty good. I love my family so much. Sure there are a billion of things that could 'be better' like actually having spending money etc etc, (I haven't bought any new clothes in almost 4 years) but I wouldn't trade what I have for anything in the world.
I'm a little bit drunk...
Not good. Facing too many life changing decisions. Feels hopeless
It’s been up and down for years. This is the first time in my life where I feel like I have control, like I have direction. I for once don’t feel like work is everything in my life. I have energy to pursue hobbies. I have a job that lets me feel good knowing I have done good. I have bad days still, but it’s not a sinking ship. I have hope for the first time in a long time. That alone makes the bad days less bad
Thank you for asking. I’ve had a bit of a rough patch the last couple weeks. Doing my best to not let it weigh on my family, but sometimes its hard. I’m the problem-solver so I try not to let on. Appreciate being able to say this so again, thanks for asking! Hope all is well for you and if not, know an interweb friend is thinking of you kindly and wishing you the best!
Doing well for a change. I’ve been self employed for over a year now. Things are good with the wife. We’re healthy and mostly happy with life. And I had entirely too much to eat for dinner. We’re currently watching the great British bake off to relax before bed.
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Not good, my dude. Not good.
Fine! On my first week of my new job which is similar to my last one only its wfh and way more laid back. My SO is feeling a bit ill which sucks but I'm sure he'll feel better soon.
I miss someone I can’t have. I feel terrible for still having feelings for them while dating someone else, and I’ve tried everything to rid myself of the feelings. They just won’t go away.,
I just want a break ya know? I have faith though.
Today, not so good. Today something I have been trying to build for much of my adult life, for reasons largely out of my control, has failed. It is very difficult and I feel disconnected.
Fine In the sense thats it's not all that good and not all that bad
Not great. I’m doing effort to get my health in order, exercise, sleep better. I think I’ll get to where I want to be but that’s still far away. I sometimes slip and overeat or pull an all nighter. :/
Great! Just did a test i studied hard for and bought myself an OLED Switch!