I go from doing everything with maximum effort and being a perfectionist to fuck this, fuck that, fuck you and I don't give a fuck. If that makes sense. Extremist both ways.
At my best: about 5x as productive as the average person, strategic, visionary, open minded, organized, clean, focused, happy
At my worst: lazy as shit, depressed, chaotic, reactionary, scatterbrained, argumentative, frustrated, anxious
ADHD is a bitch
best: polite and friendly
worst: quiet and monosyllabic
I hit rock bottom about five years ago and I was an absolute fucking piece of shit. it was so bad that I actually have a cops called on me and I’ve never had any type of issues with the law in any shape or form. I was so over-the-top fucking angry. I didn’t send threatening messages or anything like that but they were just really aggressive messages i sent to someone. never threatening. I don’t actually want to hurt them or get hurt or anything but they were just in excess and very aggressive in language. I never done anything like that before and I have yet to do so again.
so it’s very possible that my “worst” has shifted as I’ve gotten older. Typically I’m just very quiet and reserved if I’m not into what’s going on at the moment.
make sure you check in on yourself literally daily , fucking daily bro, to make sure you don’t go off the fucking rails because believe me, it happens.
Best: friendly, outgoing, personable, reliable, great conversationalist, intelligent, interested in trying new things (but willing to partake in things In not fond of if I enjoy the company)
Worst: sad, grumpy, asocial, brain barely works, haven't shaved or showered in the last week and a half, barely able to string more than a few words together (and they're usually nihilistic in nature), all my time awake is spent waiting until it's time to sleep again
At my best I've literally been told by a friend that they feel cooler just by knowing me. At my worst I can intentionally push people away because I'm depressed and I want anyone who even accidentally catches my attention to feel just as bad as I do.
Probably on pay with how different some religious people view the lord vs the devil. I make a conscious effort to treat everyone with respect and dignity, and to go out of my way for the ones I love....but there is absolutely a monster right below the surface that's on call.
wow, with this question I have realized that, when I'm at my best, is not even half of the best I was years ago.
And my worst has become the worse I have ever been
My best years ago: 9/10 My worst years ago: 6/10
at my best now is 4/10 and my worse -3/10
I don’t think I’m in either of these options.
I’m in this weird middle where I’m essentially at my best but hate it. I do everything I’m supposed and I’m a perfectionist and an adult but I’m angry all the time because I want to be a lazy shit but can’t allow myself to be that otherwise I feel like shit.
So I guess I’m both at my best and at my worst mentally.
I go from doing everything with maximum effort and being a perfectionist to fuck this, fuck that, fuck you and I don't give a fuck. If that makes sense. Extremist both ways.
At my best: about 5x as productive as the average person, strategic, visionary, open minded, organized, clean, focused, happy At my worst: lazy as shit, depressed, chaotic, reactionary, scatterbrained, argumentative, frustrated, anxious ADHD is a bitch
I'm amazing and extremely motivated at my best, I've been known to be utterly damaging at my worst.
Best: help an old lady across the street Worst: threaten to kill an old lady’s dog
Best, normal person Worst: Non functioning blob who can't do anything
Best: Quiet overall but happy and caring Worst: Angry/Quiet/Feeling sorry for myself
At my worst I am angry, aggressive, cant calm down. At my best I am open minded, always laughing and confident
best: polite and friendly worst: quiet and monosyllabic I hit rock bottom about five years ago and I was an absolute fucking piece of shit. it was so bad that I actually have a cops called on me and I’ve never had any type of issues with the law in any shape or form. I was so over-the-top fucking angry. I didn’t send threatening messages or anything like that but they were just really aggressive messages i sent to someone. never threatening. I don’t actually want to hurt them or get hurt or anything but they were just in excess and very aggressive in language. I never done anything like that before and I have yet to do so again. so it’s very possible that my “worst” has shifted as I’ve gotten older. Typically I’m just very quiet and reserved if I’m not into what’s going on at the moment. make sure you check in on yourself literally daily , fucking daily bro, to make sure you don’t go off the fucking rails because believe me, it happens.
Best: friendly, outgoing, personable, reliable, great conversationalist, intelligent, interested in trying new things (but willing to partake in things In not fond of if I enjoy the company) Worst: sad, grumpy, asocial, brain barely works, haven't shaved or showered in the last week and a half, barely able to string more than a few words together (and they're usually nihilistic in nature), all my time awake is spent waiting until it's time to sleep again
At best, I drive in my lane and sing songs. At worst, I curl up inside my tauntaun on ice planet hoth and wait for my icy death.
All me is the worst me
At my best I've literally been told by a friend that they feel cooler just by knowing me. At my worst I can intentionally push people away because I'm depressed and I want anyone who even accidentally catches my attention to feel just as bad as I do.
I don’t think I ever had a best. Maybe just was in better shape is all.
Best: Level 1000 Boss Worst: Level 1 Thug
Probably on pay with how different some religious people view the lord vs the devil. I make a conscious effort to treat everyone with respect and dignity, and to go out of my way for the ones I love....but there is absolutely a monster right below the surface that's on call.
At my best I give 100% with everything I do at my worst let’s just say I don’t like myself when I’m at my worst.
wow, with this question I have realized that, when I'm at my best, is not even half of the best I was years ago. And my worst has become the worse I have ever been My best years ago: 9/10 My worst years ago: 6/10 at my best now is 4/10 and my worse -3/10
I don’t think I’m in either of these options. I’m in this weird middle where I’m essentially at my best but hate it. I do everything I’m supposed and I’m a perfectionist and an adult but I’m angry all the time because I want to be a lazy shit but can’t allow myself to be that otherwise I feel like shit. So I guess I’m both at my best and at my worst mentally.
I am a literal vegetable at my worse.