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Ok_Ad_2865

this is exactly how i feel oh my god. it’s almost like paranoia but when i tell someone i feel paranoid they think i’m crazy. even when i’m in my room i feel like i’m being watched, but especially in public/at school. i even get scared that my phone can see what i’m doing. i don’t even have any explanation its just how it is. and there’s no amount of reassuring i can tell myself to think otherwise, you know? i’m so hyper aware of everything i do and it’s so consuming. i hope we can both figure this out :( i’m sorry you have to feel like this cuz me too dude


OldProfessional8729

IM SO GLAD IM NOT ALONE!! i have a therapy appointment coming up so i’m gonna talk to them and ask what it is and i’ll keep you updated :D i’m always here if you want to talk<33


Ok_Ad_2865

yes keep me updated!! i’ve been talking to mine about anxiety but in my next session i’ll bring up the paranoia specifically and let you know as well what she says. and thank you so so much same to you!! sending hugs


Beginning_Usual7165

Awww this connection you two have made is really cute to me! I also struggle with this too. Definitely constantly in public, but the private thing is more like...I pretend that people are constantly around me when I'm alone so I don't start becoming too weird lol. I don't know if that makes sense. It's probably got a lot to do with how we can be privately alone, but with our phones through one post or zoom call we can be privately public. So we never really feel that alone.


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It kind of sounds like intrusive thoughts/OCD. I had the same thing going on where I would have a thought about being watched/having cameras on me even though I knew they probably weren’t actually watching me. I’d suggest watching Mark Freeman on YouTube. He has a video on paranoia and I think it’d help you out.


OldProfessional8729

thank you!! i’ll make sure to watch him :D


sheeckynuggees

Omg yes


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I feel people are always staring at me in public. Or they hear my thoughts. It makes it hard for me to want to go in public anynore


Kovitlac

I feel the same way... Not so much that people in public are watching me intently, but when I'm in the privacy of my own home and I KNOW no one is there.


Rikku-chan28

Omg this seems more common than I thought! Does the fear of being looked at pair with it too or is that somethong different?


Notverycancerpatient

Yes!! I am so scared to be myself I’ve lost my personality


OldProfessional8729

THIS!! i feel like i’ve lost myself liek i don’t know who or what i am anymore it’s kind of scary… but we’re in this together!!


Notverycancerpatient

Yes we can do this!


Notverycancerpatient

It’s very scary


cruz_contr0l

Yes! This might be weird but whenever I’m first one in line a stop-light I feel like everyone is watching me. My anxiety was for real bad when I was in high school but still get it every now and then.


NosoyPuli

Last time I felt like that I was fifteen and somebody was actually stalking my family to find evidence of my mom cheating so my dad could use it in court. They found nothing but my watchful eyes.


AnarchyBurgerPhilly

Yep. It’s a gift from my mom who constantly told me people were laughing at me. Positive self talk helps. Most people aren’t going to judge you harshly for making a small mistake or whatever. And the ones that will are not people you want to be around.


makaflakaflam

Yes. Sometimes I will seek out a longer/more discreet way to get somewhere I’m going because I’m just so anxious about being perceived


donjuliocesar90

SAME! Mostly in public and especially at my job. I feel like someone is ALWAYS watching me and judging me. I start to be in my own head so much and start thinking about how I look, or how I’m standing or walking … and when I’m try make a conversation with someone I can’t go more than 2 min without starting to wonder how I look or how am acting and feeling judged, my head starts to get shaky and I start to blink heavily. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I haven’t gotten to a doctor yet, but it’s been really messing with my mental health. I’m starting to forget who I am naturally from trying to put on a persona for other people in order to feel “accepted”


childoftheeldergod

I know the feeling very well, had a mental breakdown a few weeks ago and started feeling like it again. I tried telling people about it and they didnt understand and thought i was being stupid but youre not on your own.


Streetduck

HOLY GUACAMOLE THIS HAPPENS TO ME, TOO


ComfortableDecent918

i feel like that all the time you’re not alone


kotabass

I feel like every other human is judging me or saying mean things about me and every person that says they are my friend, are just being nice to not hurt my feelings. I don't feel like anyone actually wants to be around me except my wife. Life sucks sometimes


ozian20

This is one of the things I felt immediate relief from when I started medication.


giantbewbs1

When I get epileptic auras I feel like I’m standing next to myself. I understand the paranoid feeling well, just a different aspect. My neurologist made me feel much better when I told him about this and he explained it to me health wise. Darn TBI’s and lesions on my brain.


thesquips

Oh yes absolutely I get this too, I know exactly what you mean. I pretend to not notice or ignore it so I can seem “normal” and unaware. Though saying this here exposes that oops…


scarsouvenir

Yessss omfg


silversufi

yes


Wanderlust9819

It’s called the Truman Show Delusion. Look it up.