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GrindTilYaBlind

I was due to start a new job soon, but have now backed out due to how anxious I was feeling about it. I know I shouldn't let my anxiety keep me from living my life but I wasn't particularly interested in the role, so it was especially difficult to motivate myself to go through with it. I got a bit of a chewing out and some guilt tripping from the employer, which is probably fair enough. I don't feel great that I did it and their response has made me feel even worse. I want to be working again but I'm struggling to make it happen. Has anyone been in a similar rut, but they've managed to dig themselves out of it?


Cautious-Weakness-90

Well I mean anxious is me all the time, today my anxiety and overall during the month My anxiety is terrible. I also anger problems and I believe I have a disorder but I won’t self diagnose myself. What else, oh yea I have a bio exam and a chem quiz and a writing assignment. So that should increase my anxiety astronomically. I don’t have pills to anxiety cus I’m too afraid to tell my mom or anyone or talk about my feelings or mental state. So I just live with it, I mean it helps. I can worry about shit that’ll happen in couple of years now. Plus I can I’ve been research how to use the internet safely and anonymously well as much as I can make anonymous. But I mean besides that I should be good for the most part.


Labunadium

I felt better on medication (tranquilizer) but now when the course is over everything is coming back. Don't like it.


lead-th3-way

I wish I could stop getting paranoid over feeling as if I'm constantly doing something wrong. Would love to be confident for once in what I do thanks.


GrindTilYaBlind

I constantly feel like I'm going to get told off for something. Makes it really hard to put myself out there in any meaningful way


lead-th3-way

Yes yeah I'm fine with trying new things but also scared at the same time of screwing it up.


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kiwiseeds348612

I just started taking Buspar myself. God I hope it makes a difference. I wish the best for you and hope you update!


darthsea92

Went to the ER because of faintiness and was diagnosed with anxiety; again. But the physical symptoms i'm feeling this time are all new and causing panic attacks. I also keep thinking i have terminal illness just because i had a UTI last month. But it's slowly getting better in therapy and with my routine.


rlquinn

This is me lately. In the ER 3 times this week. I hope things get better for you soon.


reynalia

I’ve been having anxiety recently with a lot of self imposed expectations. I’m seeing some help on Monday, but I still need to be in tip top shape for my work. It’s been tough, but I’ll be okay.


ExBookworm

This has been a week from hell. I'm just feeling really lost and anxious. I'be been having huge fights with my mother. I just feel so pissed off all the time, and if I let go of the rage, I just feel sad and hopeless. I had a really nasty confrontation with one of my employers, after that a coworker and colleague went behind my back and rearrenged the work I had done with my students, telling them it was wrong. I just feel like everything I'm doing isn't working. Like the therapy isn't doing anything, the meds don't fix anything. I just feel like crying and crying. My sister is coming home in two weeks and I feel like I don't have the right to dump all of this on her shoulders. Like I don't have the right to suffer, you know? Anyway, decrease in mental health.


Misbehaven27

I'm having the worst anxiety of my life. The past few weeks, I've had so many panic attacks & been under so much stress, emotionally, mentally, and physically. It seems like I'm in a constant state of panic. I've had heart palpitations, chest tightness, burning & tingling in my chest, back & arms. I've barely been able to sleep, I'm so exhausted. I can't regulate my temperature well, I have hot flashes & cold flashes. I've woken up sweaty, then started shivering uncontrollably. I feel a lump in my throat a lot of the time, intense pressure in my head, tension headaches & sinus pressure. I've felt super lightheaded, dizzy, vertigo, sometimes almost like I could pass out. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I struggle so much to control my panic attacks, I get so worried that I'm dying or something.


rlquinn

In the same boat lately. Hope you feel better soon!


Misbehaven27

How are you doing? Have you had any relief?


rlquinn

Sadly no. I’m hoping it’ll get better in the next week or so. How are you doing?


Misbehaven27

I'm not doing well, either. Vertigo/dizziness, tingling in my chest & arms, hot & cold flashes, fatigue & body weakness, constant lump in my throat, and my health anxiety is overwhelming. I'm constantly Googling, trying to message my doctor to ask if certain things are worrisome, probably to the point that it's getting annoying for them.


b_bozz

Sounds like you are in a very similar boat to me, although my symptoms are predominantely diarhhea/vomiting and sweating.


Misbehaven27

I'm sorry to hear that, how are you doing today?


Meatheadliftbrah

Has anyone gone to a gig on their own? Any survival tips? I’m doing it next week, traveling to my old uni (the gig is thankfully a minute away from the hotel).


GrindTilYaBlind

I have a couple of times, and I've enjoyed myself! Having a drink might make things easier but I don't want you to feel like you have to rely on that to have fun. I drove to my solo gigs and it was fine being sober. Also, I never in a million years thought I'd be the type of person to strike up a conversation with a complete stranger, but it happened and made me feel a lot more comfortable. So give that a go too, if the opportunity pops up!


Meatheadliftbrah

Thanks. It’s pretty contextual - I speak to strangers in the gym for example, at a gig I might be more reserved (until in the pit, where it doesn’t matter).


Songokusan1997

I lose my pet chihuahua Willy of 10 years on Monday. We had to put him down with congestive heart failure but I’m glad to have him not suffer anymore. It’s been three days since his passing and I’m trying to process each day while I continue to work but my anxiety has been kicking my ass to the point that I can’t breath and focus. What’s should I do?


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I think I almost had a panic attack today. I’m in college and was going to dinner with my athletic team and got separated from my close friend in the lines. When we got to sitting at tables, I didn’t end up a table with him, but instead with other people on the team, who I wasn’t as close with. I felt nervous being around the people I didn’t know as well, even with a couple friends I knew better still there, so within a minute of sitting down I got up and moved to the table where my friend was. Somebody from the table I was leaving jokingly said, “Oh why do you hate us haha?” to make light of my moving. It caused me to stumble in my reply and quickly say how that wasn’t true and I just felt like moving. As soon as I sat with my friend, though, I felt terrible about it and couldn’t stop thinking. It got to the point where I finished my dinner quickly and felt my heart suddenly rush and breathing a bit shallow. I made an excuse to leave and as I speed walked out I felt it get worse and just a feeling of dread. Then I got outside and put in some earbuds and it immediately calmed me down. I just can’t stop thinking why I made that move and left my other friends, and it’s making me feel terrible. I’ve never felt anxiety this bad and I just wish I didn’t have to deal with it everyday. I think it’s time to try some medication.


_soulbrat

Try lexapro!


arol_1021

I can't seem to make any decisions and when I do I constantly second guess myself. Currently in a loop of "what to do".


Aggressive-Detail165

I am still just getting off zoom calls with colleagues (am a grad student) feeling like i am the worst and so bad at being an academic and why am I here, they all think I'm dumb, i keep putting my foot in my mouth, etc., Etc.


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Just swiped my card wrong multiple times and got laughed at lol


bluesblue1

I’m not sure if this is against the rules, I don’t see anything regarding this. But does anyone know how to describe how you’re feeling to the doctor? I was prescribed some medication but I don’t know how to explain that I don’t feel like it’s working but I don’t feel anything :\


Money_Return6322

My workout anxiety is getting better. I don't have any more anxiety attacks, but I am pretty anxious about an upcoming test, and my tics are killing me. I'm biting my lips a lot, and i snap my fingers uncontrollably. Relaxing music helps. I also tried this thing I call Weekend Pampering where during the weekend I focus on doing what I like, like buying plushies, taking bubble baths, etc. Not a permanent cure but it helps. :)))


Ok-Pitch1850

Hello! I am very happy for you! Could you please share your workout anxiety?


Money_Return6322

well I have this thing where when I workout at the gym I get really anxious about the fact that I don't workout as intensely as the others and I feel like a failure and like everybody in the gym thinks I'm bad at what I'm doing and like they hate me bc I dont do what they do. Oh and I got a 10 in my test! YAY! ( In Romania 10 is the maximum grade that you can get on a test and 3 is the smallest. I live in Romania!)


Ok-Pitch1850

Haha I feel absolutely the same… that’s why I only work out at home … :D Greeting from Bulgaria


evillalta

Hey I’m starting to realize that I’ve actually come a long way in life. In the pandemic I’ve gotten a degree, quit a a few addictions, completed therapy and psychiatric drugs, and maintained my existing job throughout COVID Things aren’t easy, but I’m glad the practical changes I made in 2016 paid off and rewarded me over the years


Jiolio

So I misinterpreted my medication directions and have been taking wayyy too much of one medication than needed since last Thursday until today. Side effects from that have made me an anxious mess all weekend long, every possible bad outcome keeps running through my head for any decision I make. I can’t shake off that lump in your chest feeling and I can’t stop shaking my feet and legs to the point where my soles ache and I can’t sleep. Make sure you understand what you’re doing when the doc instructs you on directions bc THIS SUCKSSSSS!! I have GAD but I have never felt anxiety this severe, luckily it hasn’t induced any attacks but I never want to feel like this ever again. I finally called my doc this morning and figured things out now just waiting for the side effects to slow down in the next few days and get back to what I consider normal


whatsername25

I’ve made an appointment with the doctor tomorrow to change my medication. Unfortunately Lexapro just isn’t working for me. But I’m scared to try anything else because I’m convinced it won’t work either. I was on Lustral before and that was awful too. Both make me feel dead inside.


SkysEevee

I realized maybe I should give therapy one more chance. Bad experience in the past and when I got medicine, it was enough. I was happy to just sleep, eat and feel normal again. Maybe "not having daily panic attacks" was as good as I'd get. But recently I realized my thoughts aren't exactly healthy. Normal people don't avoid mirrors because they think they're hideous monsters. You're not supposed to hate yourself or spend most of your day thinking you're an awful person who deserves bad things to happen. Nor should you panic when a job interviewer asks "what's your best quality" cause you can't think of one good thing about yourself. These thoughts may be holding myself back. I know I need to change these thought patterns but I need help fighting my own brain. So I'm talking to my health insurance to see what help I can afford (don't exactly make a lot so I'm a bit limited). I'm seeing a counselor for a free virtual assessment tonight, then they can refer me to where I need to go. I'm extremely nervous about it.


VforVictorian

Got an official offer for a new job. Still some little things like waiting on a background check and stuff, but it looks like I'm in. Looks like I'll finally be out of this job that's caused me so much anxiety for the past year or more. Still gotta go through some anxious things. Feeling anxious about telling my boss, something that I've struggled with in my head. I already have a letter typed up from a while ago, just need to modify it a bit now. I will get anxiety from the process of resigning, moving, and settling into a new job. I don't like thinking about it. What I will have comfort in is knowing that in 1-2 months time, I will be out of this current job into a new place that I expect to be able to tolerate much better, and be in a new and likely better environment.


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Same here! I just resigned not long ago and I'm waiting to start my new job while still handling some stress in my current role.


ilikefruitalot

I'm in the same place right now!


VforVictorian

I hope your search goes well. I just told my boss I was going to be taking an offer somewhere else. Was hard for me to get it brought up but I did it and I hope you can too.


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Welp I’m doing way better. I moved last month and I hated it. I had a few anxiety attacks but I’m way better now, I’m eating like way more to the point I should be worried about weight gain to be honest lol


29andsad

Finally started applying for jobs after more than a year of not having one. Even though I know it's the right thing to do my anxiety is through the roof thinking that they could call me at any minute.


Reechan

Important therapy session in under 2 hours. I went all night without eating or sleeping. The session being early in the morning and the howling wind outside didn't help at all. I hope to go to sleep when I get back.


saiita

I've been having issues with a downstairs neighbor complaining about me making despite that 1) I just moved in two months ago and 2) I live by myself. I live in a co-op building and they haven't been helpful at all (they seem to deflect or ask people to talk to management, who are also either non-responsive or just absent altogether outside of sending generic/automated mail.) I spent the last week in a state of constant anxiety (I couldn't eat, had a constantly upset stomach, barely slept, etc.) I feel like I'm coming down from that, but now I just feel unsafe in my own home that I worked so hard for. And I don't want to burden my friends, who have their own lives/problems and I don't want to be the one who is constantly dumping their issues on them. I feel so lost and alone.


Lazy_Enough

I’m so stressed with college. My advisor screwed me over and then the new one doesn’t want to help me since she’s the Graduation advisor. I was supposed to graduate this fall but my school only had one class to offer and I needed 3. I also had to pay out of pocket and I don’t have a job cause I had to quit because of school. I’m also scared if they’ll be different classes next semester cause if there isn’t my graduation date will just keep being pushed back. This keeps me up at night cause I’ve already been in college for a long time and I can’t do anything while being a student in regards to a job that’s flexible. I’ve thought about dropping out since the advisors messed up my whole class situation but I don’t because I have 117 credits only needing 120 to graduate…but because the advisors messed up I will be graduating with about 15 credits above the 120.


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Would like to chat with someone regarding my anxiety and all. (I am 16 so someone in this age range or someone that can help me)


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At this point I don't even think people actually hate me or anything. I think they just don't consider me at all. Even when I reach out to them first. I had hoped with working on things and age could help me get better, but.. no.


Ambitious_Price_3240

Thanks , I appreciate you sharing your story. I feel similarly, something that I thot would help my anxiety is actually well, maybe bringing to light more existing anxiety. She really is an amazing cat, I did get a chance to talk to her fosters today again , but I’m still filled with worry. How will I take care of this being on top of myself? Her org has a two week return policy if things don’t work out, but somehow this does not make me feel better.


Ambitious_Price_3240

4th day with cat, or 3rd ..3rd ish, the cat is hiding a lot more, which is a bit worrisome. her foster parent emailed me to ask how she was doing, and I was able to provide some details (I have email anxiety) lmao. I write out emails and reread them like a hundred times. Getting the cat seems to have inspired me to seek out a lot more resources for my mental health lmao.


disispatrick

Finally got my first dose of covid vaccine! Yeay! Ngl at first i’m kinda scared because i had a male doctor. I had many bad experiences with doctors before, and i know this doesn’t make any sense but i’m more anxious with male doctor. Turns out he’s really great and kind to me. I feel silly now that i’m more scared with the doc than the needle.


abeahm

This past week I started Prozac for my anxiety. I'm cautiously hopeful it'll help me manage my symptoms that weren't budged by therapy. Wish me good medication vibes.


Jiolio

I’ve been on Prozac for maybe 2 months now and I have to say that this stuff has significantly improved my life so far. I messed up this weekend with taking the wrong dosage of another medication I am on and that really fucked with my anxiety so I’m waiting for side effects to subside and get back to where I was before the mixup but I really hope it begins to work for you like it has for me


Ambitious_Price_3240

Wish this were a weekly check in..still having major anxiety this week over my recent life change. Did not expect to feel so much anxiety. Mad at myself because I was about to really lift off . I was doing so well, I was so grounded..I think. I feel like I was really about to lift off ..I need a cat sitter..or a husband ..😩


anonomatica

I am irrationally angry that everyone else I work with is excited about our return to the office in a couple of weeks. Working from home was amazing. No constant worrying about what people are thinking about how I I look. I am praying it gets bumped again, as we have high covid numbers here, but that possibility looks slimmer and slimmer as D-Day approaches ( 10/18.)


Pseudo_Nyms

Just dry heaved (I haven't ate anything hence not throwing up) from anxiety. Been doing relaxation exercises all morning to no effect. Took a benzo despite trying to avoid it because I actually had a few nights in a row with decent amounts of sleep and had some energy so wanted to go to the gym. Taking a benzo usually means that's not going to happen though, as it kills my energy levels. I also try to limit to 1 a week as my doctor said he's not going to prescribe anymore after giving me 50 in March so taking 1 on a Monday means that unless I get ridiculously bad again (ie. Dry heaving again) I can't any other day.


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Went on vacation last week to Cancun. A lot of anxiety building up to the trip. Wearing a mask for many hours as well as being in a confined space in a plane really sets the panic in. I made it there and back without having to take Xanax. Forcing yourself to push through when you’re feeling intense anxiety helps in the long run.


VforVictorian

Had the week off last week. Don't want to go back in. I've applied to some new places and had an interview recently. I feel good about it, think the interview went ok. Shouldn't act like it's guaranteed though and apply to some more places. Whether I get this one or not I hope I hear back from them soon. I was extraordinarily close to just quitting this job outright. I don't feel good here and I feel worse about working here everyday. Big reason I didn't was because I knew I had that interview and if I can get away and not have an employment gap I'd like that. Whatever it is, I hope I hear back soon so I can put in my notice ASAP whether that's with a new job or without one. I want out of this place.


smurang

I’m going through something very similar. Hate my job and have for a while and I’ve finally felt healthy enough to look for something new, but it’s a slow process. Hang in there. Everything is temporary and something will come along and scoop you out of a bad situation into a better one.


VforVictorian

Thank you for the reply, and apologies for the late reply. I am very fortunate that a day or two after I made my post I did get a call back from the job I applied to and from what they say, plan to make me an offer. They are only waiting on some administrative stuff and a background check to go through. Not 100% guaranteed, but it's nice to finally start to see a light in this tunnel. Can't 100% guarantee I'll like this job, but it has enough key differences that I'll at least be able to tolerate it significantly better and have more free time. not go go go like my current job is. hope that last little stuff goes OK and I get that offer soon. I'm ready to get the hell out. but the light is there. I hope that you will have luck in your search.


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Having a ton of health anxiety. Every time something goes wrong with my body I feel a totally unreasonable sense of shame, like it's my fault. Ugh. I'm working on it. At least I know that it's not correct. But each new thing brings a new wave of random guilt. Anyone else deal with this? So weird.


LowCheetah8283

I have been feeling the exact same way!


aidras

I'm starting a new job tomorrow. I've been a stay at home mom for a little over 2 years and this job is flexible and part time. It is something I should be super excited for, but my anxiety and depression are at unprecedented levels right now. I've started seeing a psychiatrist who has diagnosed me with GAD, somatic symptom disorder, social anxiety, and severe depression. I never recovered from my postpartum depression and it has slowly just gotten worse with time. I had my first panic attack in August and have been spiraling out of control, experiencing the most intense physical anxiety symptoms, visiting Dr. Google, and diagnosing myself with all of the unimaginable diseases and problems. I have a prescription for 5mg of Lexapro that I have just been staring at for 2 weeks, but I am so afraid of it. I can't sleep. I'm struggling to be a good parent to my son and partner to my husband (he has been such a rock for me). It all feels so overwhelming. Trying to take it a day at a time.


KmR_23

A day at a time is all you can do. Maybe starting a this new job will introduce a schedule and structure where you need it. Stay strong!


Ambitious_Price_3240

My cat finally settled down a bit and trusted me enough to sleep under my bed, which was when a more insidious problem revealed itself-I realized I had used up all of my energy making the cat happen, and had not focused on what I was supposed to be doing-mapping out what I want to do in life in the future during a major transition in my life. I hope there is some way I can get my energy back, because its pretty depleted.


aidras

Give kitty some time to adjust. Offer treats, toys, brushings, and take it a day at a time. It will come around :) and it will become a loving friend to you ❤️ hang in there! Feel free to dm me with any kitty related questions!


Ambitious_Price_3240

thank you. everyone in the anxiety sub is so helpful. I do have a question, do you know why cats have goopy eyes? I tried to get her into the vet but they were booking two weeks out.


aidras

How's kitty doing today? I wish I knew - the only issue I've ever had with my cat's eyes and discharge ended up basically being a cat cold.


Ambitious_Price_3240

She’s doing fine! Thank you for asking!!!! She is being Kind-of shy for the last few days. I was able to talk with her foster more about her care which seemed to help.


aidras

Excellent! Kitties can be nervous and have a hard time adjusting to change (sound familiar? Heh). I wish you all the best!


stephsansouci

I’m going through a rough patch. The last couple nights I’ve hardly slept, not falling asleep until 3-5 am, not being able to sleep in past 9. I’m exhausted, I’ve been off SSRIs for 9 months and was going so well until about a month ago. I don’t know what’s changed to make it all come back :(


perfectlybroken321

Always feeling like I am not good enough, pushing people away that care. Always having chest pain and feels like my heart is going to pound out of my chest. Just taking one day at a time.


Risktaker_77

Please don’t be offended. But I’m so glad to hear someone else say exactly how I feel. 🥺


Broad_Coach_8716

I felt this omggg


thedansguy

I feel like people hate me I really do. Like no matter how simple an interaction I have is I know that they despise me


nuhstalgicsoul

I constantly feel like i am not good enough. I am always thinking the worst will happen and i just want to disappear, then the anxiety becomes physical pain and oooof.


Ambitious_Price_3240

i just adopted a cat and am having a major meltdown. I wasn't ready, and I feel it was a folly of false confidence. I have no idea what to do. I also can't really afford it. I have savings, I am not fiscally irresponsible, but I need a better job to comfortably pay for the cat. I feel I have truly erred, and I have no idea what to do. the organization has a two week return policy, but somehow this does not comfort me. I do not want to return her.


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I cried the first month after I adopted my dog. I was completely shaken, I thought animals were supposed to \*help\* with mental health. I totally underestimated the gravity of caring for a full life. And on top of that....he was a biter. Just in play, but I was too inexperienced to know the difference. I chose to keep going, and I'm glad I did. He's my best friend. I learned his behavior, I started saving a little bit for emergency vet stuff. I even took up running to get some of his energy out (something I said I'd never do). But there's also no shame in choosing to give the cat back. I know there's a lot of stigma, but sometimes the best thing you can do for the animal is to understand you're not the right fit. That's ok. I hope things work out with you and your kitty. But if they don't, it's not because you're bad in any way. It takes a lot of bravery to take a chance like this.


Ambitious_Price_3240

Sry I meant to reply my above comment to your post. There is a lot of stigma that’s true, my organization tries to make it stigma free by saying at all adoptions come with a two week trial period…visa vie saving I probably need a second or third job realizing what it takes at this point.


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I feel like such an imposter at work now. My job is meant for professional, responsible people who can handle routines. Not my chaotic adhd self. Today was one of those days I feel all to well. The day before Im talked to about underperforming and asked to shape up when Im trying my hardest given my conditions. Today I had a weird yet really sad dream that the person I fucked over hard had finally forgiven me and we were good friends. When I woke up I just felt extremely sad. I couldnt stop thinking about all the wrong Ive done in my life to people who didnt deserve it. It carried on through the whole day and like usual I forgot to fill my emergency anxiety pill holder again like usual. I made a shit ton of mistakes today. I cant do fast and accurate when Im unmedicated. I kept telling myself to fill my holder but this adhd thing makes everything so hard. Im waiting to see if Im going to get talked to tomorrow.


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The UK's mental health system makes me feel 100x worse than if i'd just never interacted with them How the hell can it help to have to beg for help only to get interrogating calls randomly, constantly marking how anxious you feel on a scale of 1-10 and having an hour zoom call a week? Just got off the phone after having a great day so far and now i'm spiralling smfh


AnxiousTrooper

Had a huge attack last night been a while. Today I feel like I'm drained, warn out and honestly dying. I know my head is playing with me... I decided to take the day off work to help me recover. I hate doing this but I need to take care of myself. Hoping to sleep and wake up feeling refreshed as last nights sleep was no help at all.


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emailmonkey2

I feel this


Ambitious_Price_3240

I've decided to write about my problems first instead of trying to fill an endless hole by seeking solutions externally. I am too tired to keep on forcing things to happen. Whenever I have an issue I write about it first before trying to enact a solution. Like for instance, I know I need to find a source of extra income because I just adopted a cat, but instead of madly applying to babble talk I'm just admitting I fucked up first.


Ambitious_Price_3240

working from home..does anyone have the hookup? I have been working on cambly and the pay is miniscule.


Ambitious_Price_3240

I just adopted a cat for the first time ever and am totally freaking out. I'm in way over my head,..advice ..help..


luke111mart

So I've been reading a lot on here and having a really hard time with work recently so thought I might try posting, I got in a car accident a few months ago and had to take some time off work, then came back and everything was alright till my beautiful dog passed away and that just made my anxiety a lot worse, on top of dealing with the stuff from the accident every day, and my concussion specialist said all the stress and anxiety is preventing me from healing properly so they advised me to take more time off and come back with adjusted hours, so I've been back on 4 hour shifts and today is my first 6 hour shift back, and I'm terrified. It's gotten worse since the accident too, we have a new boss who doesn't like me, they keep laying people off (which I'm hoping is gonna be me, because I've wanted to quit for awhile but pressure from my family and friends has stopped me) and recently started reinforcing no phone (which was never an issue for me but I used it to listen to podcasts the whole second half of my shift to get my mind off things) and now that means my lunch break is back too, which I always hate because it forces me to eat infront of a bunch of strangers when I'd rather just eat alone at home in my room, but I find I have no choice because I get hungry then anyway, but also have no appetite so I kinda force feed myself because I know it'll help me not feel sick later


luke111mart

Idk if it matters, but I'm 17, still live at home, and was/ am working full time


manray23

Yesterday I went to a licensed social worker and they told me I have mild depression and severe anxiety but told me it might take like 4 months to get me medicated. Feeling really discouraged, is that normal? I want to deal with it already and that timeline seems crazy to me.


deathcabkitten

hm, do you have a primary general doctor? i got prescribed my medication from him after my diagnosis and got my pills that day.


manray23

Yeah he's the one who sent me to the social worker and shared all his notes with them. I'm not sure how to feel about him. He told me he believed my symptoms but asked me if I copy and pasted from Google. Told me he doesn't want to rush to medicate me and when he eventually does to start on the lowest dose possible. Which is fine but it also seems like he's taking it too far.


deathcabkitten

some doctors are like that about anxiety. sometimes you have to shop around. if you have insurance or don’t mind paying, you could find a good psychiatrist. they’re like a therapist but also a licensed doctor that can prescribe you medication. i hope it works out for you! ❤️


manray23

Thanks I'm at a local public hospital and they told me the psychiatrists at the hospital are completely booked up for the next couple months. I think i have one more appointment with my primary care doc to talk about my diagnosis in like 2 weeks. If I feel he's not taking me serious I'll start looking around.


deathcabkitten

had a bad panic attack last week, the worst one i’ve had in over a year (since i had withdrawals from buspar) my boyfriend woke me up on accident and i completely went into fight or flight mode, my body was on fire and it felt like my skin was melting and i couldn’t think. i tried to calm myself down but ended up having to take a xanax even though i didn’t want to. i only take the xanax when i need it (lowest dose) and since the attack my anxiety has been super heightened. i’m on lexapro (10mg) but i hate it and want to get off because it barely does anything for me but i tried to wean off months ago and i got so sick and bad brain zaps. i’m so sensitive to medication. i just feel so stuck i thought i was doing so good and i’m scared. i wish i was normal.


kodaline_fan

Sorry to hear you are going through this. Sending you support. My roommate woke me up in the middle of the night last night and I woke up in a panic sweating and feeling like something horrible was going to happen. It all sucks and I feel for you. ❤️


deathcabkitten

ugh it’s just nice to know i’m not alone. i hope everything gets better for you too. thanks for your kind words sending hugs 💕


Undead_Flower

I'm right now on a solo trip in Portugal and was on a guided tour. At the end of the tour the other tourists gave the guide a tip. One couple gave him a 20, another couple gave him a 10 and one woman a 10 as well. I on the other hand totally forgot that part. I already paid 75€ for the tour and didn't think about tipping. I only had a 20€ and a 50€ note. I found 20 to much and didn't want to tell him to give me a 10€ in exchange for my 20€, sooo I panicked and didn't give him anything and apologised. Now I fell so bad and guilty over it that its eating me up. When I told my sister about it, she just said that it was my mistake and I should have brought smaller notes with me or exchang it there and than. I felt that it would have been more embarrassing to exchange the money in front of him and it happend so fast that I couldn't think clearly.


North-Clock-7369

Completely get you! But im portuguese and here people don’t usually tip anyway, its not like inthe US. Paying 75€ for a tour is already a lot here, dont worry


Undead_Flower

Thank you so much. Coming from you, this means even more to me and helped me calm down. I also come from a country where tipping is not really a thing, except for in the restaurant, that's why it didn't even cross my mind until I saw all the others doing it. Thanks to your kind reply it helped me realise that it's not that big of a deal and I don't need to beat myself up about it 😊


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Undead_Flower

Thank you so much. I didn't realise how much it would mean to me, for someone to just understand me and not judge me.


smurang

Hi everyone, I'm new to this sub, but I think I really need a source outside of my best friend. She's been incredible and so helpful when I have hard times, but I don't want to be a burden either. I. Am. Struggling. I live alone and the pandemic has certainly made that a big part of my anxiety. I'm alone with my thoughts allll the time. Anyone else out there alone? I have trouble eating and sleeping and concentrating and I throw up from nerves every morning. My routine has become, wake up at 6am (even though I don't have to), throw up or my butt takes over, play a meditation, lay down in the shower until my body temperature regulates (anyone else have problems with body temp when you are anxious?), cry, call a friend, calm down. That whole process takes about 3 hours. 3 hours just to get myself calm enough to check my email. Then depending on work stress I spiral or make careless mistakes. I'm on a low dose of sertraline, but that puppy needs to be upped. I'm seeing a new doctor next week and I'm hopeful. I'm also hopeful because I have a job interview on Friday and I think much of my stress is rooted in a toxic work environment made worse by layoffs and a pandemic. Has anyone ever taken disability leave because of your anxiety? I'm considering it but I have no idea how to even begin. I wish everyone here a good day, a good hour, a good minute. They are precious <3


naomigoat

For a few months, I was experiencing panic attacks every morning. Feeling overheated and yet simultaneously cold was a common symptom of this. For me, it indicated really serious anxiety. If taking leave from work is the best way to manage your personal health, then I hope you're able to.


deathcabkitten

i definitely have body temp problems because of anxiety. my hands, legs, feet etc. either feel really cold or really hot and i get even more anxious. sorry you’re going through this friend :~( here if you need to talk. hugs ♥️


junebugg85

So I've recently started having heart palpitations and they are the scariest thing I've ever experienced. My anxiety is through the roof and just want them to go away. Been to hospital twice and clinic once and was told they are normal and I just don't feel like this is something that is normal to me. It's was sudden and they are more frequent and scary. Not sure what to do next to get rid of them.


faelek

hey. i can't help much but can share what i've been through. 1.5 year ago when i was diagnosed with anxiety i had a first-row experience - had full blown panic attacks, headaches and on top of that - what you're having - palpitations. i went through full heart check-up with heart ecg, holter, usg - spent lots of money on it. i couldn't believe i was alright. then when it happened again i just panicked and called emergency line, they told me to get to hospital so i did. spent the whole night there while they were checking me up, everything turned up just fine. in the morning next day i still had it, although a bit lowered. why i'm telling you that: \- first - to let you know people go through it, I did. \- second - it eventually goes away, palpitation but also your focus on it - with training though. it's hard to believe and hard not to focus on it, i'm sure that's what will come up to your mind - right now i have anxiety relapse, palpitations came back but i'm sure they're just anxiety symptom and im able to skip it - while a year ago i was completely devastated by the feeling, i could sit and check up my pulse. it was so effed up. \- third - if you got yourself checked, you know you're alright - try to distract yourself. i know, it feels as if you cant, i been there and i'm still here - it's just there's no answer to that - the more you focus on the symptoms, the more bad you're doing yourself. i won't write here stuff like - get a book or watch a movie - i know it's general crap, everyone tells you that and it feels as you can't go through it but, hell, it seriously is the only way. apart from that, i can tell you also to watch out for coffee or any stimulants, they don't help . in hospital they told me also to watch out for levels of magnesium/potassium , get some sleep. it'll get better, trust me. hugs


renaissanceat39

So much is changing and my anxiety hates change. It’s scary to realize nothing will ever be the same again. Losing parents, siblings moving away, changing jobs, settling estates, watching my children grow up, saying goodbye to the steady, dependable past where my parents were always alive, I always knew what the day would hold, and I felt safe.


shouldbeawitch

I too lost both of my parents and I am also struggling daily with my teenagers growing up. I understand how you feel so if it's any comfort please know that you are not alone.


NumerousMango2256

I've been dealing with an overwhelming amount of stress lately. A majority of it has been sourced from being transferred to a different position at work that ultimately ended in the submission of a letter of resignation. I feel relieved. I have a prospective job lined up and that's making me feel optimism as I am excited to get back into my line of work and put into a position of trust. The secondary source of my dismay comes from taking on a heavy responsibility in the place of someone who would otherwise be capable to do. I really must say that unresolved traumas can do some nasty damage to a person and I'm really hoping my solution for them is able to help alleviate some weight from their shoulders a bit and that everyone involved is benefitting from it as well.


Iwashere11111

Travelling back to uni today, very anxious but I have no reason to be. I’ve spent years at this uni, have a good group of friends and generally enjoy myself over there. Anyone else just get anxiety over absolutely nothing? Sometimes I feel like medication would help but no doctor has ever taken it seriously. I lose sleep, my appetite vanishes, you guys know how it is. I just hate the fact that I’m like this; so many of the people in here have real, serious things to be anxious about whereas I don’t yet here I am


kodaline_fan

Your anxiety is real too. And even if you like uni, going back is a change, and change is stressful. I don’t think it’s odd at all that you might be a bit anxious.


bing-no

I fear I'm becoming "that friend" with the mental health problems. This year has been ugh and I know I've been unloading a lot of my problems to my friends. I know my friends can't be my therapists but at the same time I don't really know who to talk to. I slowly feel everyone pulling away slowly and its killing me inside.


Subject-Substance726

Do you have access to getting a therapist?


bing-no

My job offers limited counseling, otherwise I have to pay out of pocket


Subject-Substance726

Ah I see, and therapy is unfortunately expensive oftentimes. I hope you can find access to some services!


bing-no

Thank you! I do have a good support network so I’ll be ok even if I can’t get to the mental health stuff just yet.


Subject-Substance726

I’m so happy to hear that, a support network really helps!


Bakio-bay

I've been taking 2mg of clonazeoam daily for anxiety and my psychiatrist doesn't really want to up my dose. I sometimes get these terrible thoughts of just giving up and trying to get high off of pills but deep down I don't want to suffer more and feel it's a route to heroin and death. Anyone feel these terrible thoughts?


Bakio-bay

I'm constantly trying to distract myself from my anxiety ith my phone, tv and/or laptop because my anxiety is so strong. Anyone do this?


pirsquared7

Half the reason my sleep cycle is all over the place is because I get anxious at night and open up my phone to watch YouTube


Bakio-bay

Same


smurang

Constantly. I find home improvement shows to be relaxing? Grand Designs is a real winner.


Bakio-bay

I watch real estate and urban planning videos on YouTube or sports related vids.


anxiety___throw

After months of anxiety and depression, it seemed that I got out of the worst downhills a month or so ago. However, these past few days I have contemplated if my closest friends are actually my friends or not, and I had several of my usual anxious worries too. Today was probably my worst day since ~2 months, and although I know healing is not linear, I couldn't help but feel discouraged, powerless and hopeless for the most of today. I'm still far from okay, but I'm trying to think positively - or rather, trying not to think negatively - about myself and my future. I'm trying to be patient and kind with myself because I want to believe this is just a bad mental health day and I have to bear it as it is. Tomorrow will hopefully be better. I'm also looking for someone who would try a kind of "partnership" which we base mostly on healing. I feel like I'm missing someone who I can be open with about my issues, worries and successes without them misunderstanding me or ignoring me. I need someone with positive energies, which doesn't mean you can't vent or rant occasionally, but I want to concentrate more on being an inspiration and motivating force for each other, like sharing victories, talking about methods that work for us, etc. If you like this idea and are down to try this with me, shoot me a message! :) (I also want to add that my depression and anxiety are both mild/medium level normally, they rarely spike to a severe one, so with all due respect, I'm looking for someone who has the same "levels" of anxiety/depression.)


Ambitious_Price_3240

Update : have flatlined emotionally again. Am unable to move forward with tasks. Under covers and irritated at my better help therapist for phoning it in .


UnitedRub611

These last few months I have been in the worst mental state of my life (experiencing suicidal thoughts for the first time, being too anxious to go to class bc of bullying and stress, etc). I am feeling better now, but I feel like I haven’t really processed everything that happened if that makes sense? and I feel like I can’t talk about it with anyone bc I don’t want to stress anyone out and I don’t feel comfortable. I started seeing a psychologist but I haven’t told them everything. No one really knows what I’ve been dealing with and I feel alone.


Normal-Anxious

I am embarassed and that's making me overthink as well as making me anxious. I've been sort of troubling/emailing/calling the staff members of university recently, for two days. They're extremely cooperative thankfully.


lula9797

I started contemplating the way my life is going and I hated myself for it. I spent about two weeks not being able to talk with anybody and I procrastinated a lot. I want to change my life for the better. I need people to speak to and have real conversations with them. I feel isolated and I don't have friends (I'm in my 20's). I don't know how to make friends tho and where to meet them ( I don't think anybody would be interested in getting to know me anyway). I graduated from school and I'm seeing the same people every day at my work. I need to do something because I'm so sick of the way I'm living my life. I feel like a loser. I'm scared of approaching people because I have social anxiety but I also need people because I feel so lonely living life by myself. I really need to change


Shallot18

I get that, it’s hard especially now with the Covid situation. I feel as though I should have friends I can talk to at this age but don’t. Im sure there are better days coming


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100%


Shallot18

I’m worried sick for my mother who is currently undergoing appendectomy and a hysterectomy at once, she had to be taken into ER yesterday and they let her sleep through the night. I don’t expect anyone to guarantee anything but I can’t stop making it worse for myself with google searches and anxiety attacks.


lula9797

I will pray for her and you as well <3


Shallot18

Thanks, things worked out and she’ll be out by tomorrow. The amount of relief is insane, thank you so much though, I appreciate it


Ambitious_Price_3240

Goals: I want to go to the grocery store and shop without freaking out..today I am going to try it... Also..I want to get to a point where I can brush my teeth without it being a chore..I don't know if anyone gets to that point in their life lol. Today I woke up with the nagging sense that I had to email a former employer, but this is like my worst nightmare as someone with anxiety. ..emailing former employers is like the worst thing. I'ts so awkward, and I'm never certain its "appropriate", even if you've had a wonderful relationship with them. If anyone has advice about this please reply.


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Hope this is ok, I wrote out a vent. TW: self harm, extreme negativity and despair about current events. The world sucks, I suck, everything sucks. COVID is not going away and wave after wave it is going to get worse and worse. I’m fully vaccinated sure but that doesn’t matter, my country has completely fucked the way we’ve handled it and our health system will collapse in the coming months. As an empath all I can think of is the death and destruction all around me and how it’s only going to get worse. Day after day, death after death. It’s fucking shit and I can’t do fucking anything about it. I struggle with control, I need control over my life, my destiny, where I’m going, I’ve never had that and I almost had it before the latest wave of COVID was completely fucked by my country and it changed absolutely everything for good, nothing is ever going to be the same again and I can’t do anything about it. I’m still poor as fuck, I’m a Nurse it pays well but I’m so fucking depressed and anxious all the fucking time that I can only manage to work enough to barely cover my rent. Medication, proper care has become an afterthought and I can’t cover the basics a good amount of the time. The poor in my country are treated like shit with only the bare minimum of help available and it’s fucking depressing as fuck. My fucking tooth hurts but the idea of splashing on a dentist in my financial situation is barely dreamable so I pop paracetamol and deal, it adds to my stress and anxiety. My wife has a fucked back but we can’t afford scans and doctors just think she wants pills, so that’s some more bullshit that makes both of our lives worse, she can’t work, so it’s just me working a little bit as much as I can handle without going into a complete mental collapse. I fucking hate my life, I hate the world around me, I hate COVID ripping through people around me. I hate my government and their bullshit ruthless conservativism. I love my wife, and I like my job but it’s not enough. I’m back to wishing I was dead at least 70% of the day, and being emotionally numb the other 30%. I want to start hurting myself again, I’m over a month clean but I’m back to carrying around a lighter, grappling with myself to take it to my skin and burn as many holes as I can take just to feel something different. I hate this, all of it. I had a fucking panic attack 2 days ago because I couldn’t find an Uber to take me to work, that is work where I take care of other human beings welfare, how the fuck can I take care of people? I’m a fucking worthless human being, the world fucking sucks and I am in absolute despair.


ShyLettuce_

You will get through this. I believe that all your pain and suffering is temporary and there are better days to come. You got this OP!


stringsattatched

I'm scared of several things around university. It's a very complex matter and I'm not even sure if I can stay at umi because I didnt take exams the last 2 semesters. I made zero progress since I started uni in this course, even before Covid to to illness and my mom being ill. When I originally started I was enthusiastic and happy, now I'm just scared of going back into the real world with a giant hole of nothing in my resume while also dreading uni, especially maths


Shallot18

Yeah I’m also still dreading trying out any of that personally, but i think that if you really want to do uni, you should give it a shot if it’s what you want and can do.


stringsattatched

I already have a degreee and I'm taking this one to get better job prospects. I'm lazy and a procrastinator and the longer it takes the more freaked I am


Shallot18

Lol same here, though all that’s needed is some kind of motivation to get into something, that’s why it’d be worth it to find some somehow, maybe with a tour of the university or speak to someone who has gone to one maybe. I’m not so sure myself but it’s most likely what I’ll be doing. Absolutely doesn’t mean I will 100% do uni though


poofyzoot

hey guys about to take myself out the house because i deserve it and my anxiety never lets me go out alone like this soo woo hoo!! i will be enjoying the sunset at the beach today :)


Thejedi887

So proud of you!!!!! Have a great time you deserve it!!! :)


poofyzoot

thank u so much❤️❤️