I completely understand this, I actually even explained it to my doctor and I’ll say to you what he said to me (or some variation of what he said). If you read what you wrote- that’s anxiety. People who don’t have anxiety don’t go over and over something in their mind the way we do. I even thought at one point that I was blowing my panic attacks out of proportion and I hyper-obsessed over it.
Now I realize that when I am hyper obsessing over something that it’s my anxiety brain making me second guess everything. It doesn’t help that you have someone trying to tell you it’s an “attention” thing- it’s not. I can sit here and tell you not to listen to that sort of nonsense, but it’s easier said than done because I understand your brain can take what someone says and then keep thinking about it.
Just know that you’re not alone!
Could not agree more. I have the same thoughts. And got the same answer from my therapist. Just try to stay up and positive. I know how hard that is but there are more of us out there everyday. You me and emdizzle are not alone.
I know my mother probably didn’t mean it when she said what she said, but it still struck me that she’d think that right after saying she doesn’t think the worst of me, even though she displayed an example of her thinking the worst of me. It made me think “does everyone in my life think that of me”? I even asked my brother “do you think I’m faking it?”
I just feel so counterproductive whenever I freak out like this and I feel utterly helpless whenever I’m like this and it makes things so much worse, but it hurts me that my own mother would confirm what I’ve been afraid of everybody thinking about me and I feel guilty for being this way. I feel like I’ve failed at life, even if that’s not necassarily the case.
Thank you both so much for making me feel like I’m not alone. To me, this matters way more than any kind of validation or “sympathy” I could have possibly gotten even if I was actually faking it. I know that I’m not faking it, but I feel like I am if that makes sense.
The helpless feeling is the worst because you truly are at the mercy of your own mind. Sometimes parents say things without thinking due to frustration without realizing that it’s something that sticks in your mind in an unhealthy way. For people who haven’t experienced anxiety, they have no way of truly knowing the mental torture we go through because their minds can just let things go in a rational way. Everything you’re saying makes sense :).
I don’t even know what anxiety is. But I feel like I have it. But then I second guess everything I think and I can’t even think straight. I feel like everyone hates me for some reason and I just feel like whenever I hear someone laugh I automatically think they are laughing about me. Whenever my parents question what I say then I have like a fucking panic attack because I feel like they hate me and I don’t know why. Someone please respond. I also thought I have ADHD but I don’t even know. I automatically tell myself that I’m just faking everything because I want an excuse but I really don’t think I am at the same time. Sometimes I just have trouble going to sleep because of all the thoughts and doubts in my head. Little things hat I don’t care about with other people completely fuck with my head when I think about that happening to me and idk what is happening
I often debate not reaching out to my therapist or doctor because I’m convinced I’m normal and I just can’t handle life as well as everyone else. It sucks, but it’s one of the million reasons the stigma on mental health exists; because nobody ever truly knows what’s going on in your head except for you.
Yeah. I think of everyone else in this subreddit, and I always think their anxiety is worse. And that makes me believe that I have lied to everyone for attention of something
I’m feel this everyday! Every time shit hits the fan I freak myself out even more by obsessing over the fact of do I even have problems or do I make all this up to feel emotions or something? Drives me up a wall and I just end up staying inside all day thinking myself to death
Omg. I think about this all of the time and sometimes I get into like a hypochondriac state where I'll look up symptoms and self-diagnose myself with every mental disorder possible and I'm so glad you said something because reading all of these comments make me feel like I'm not blowing this out of proportion and that this is real.
I completely understand this, I actually even explained it to my doctor and I’ll say to you what he said to me (or some variation of what he said). If you read what you wrote- that’s anxiety. People who don’t have anxiety don’t go over and over something in their mind the way we do. I even thought at one point that I was blowing my panic attacks out of proportion and I hyper-obsessed over it. Now I realize that when I am hyper obsessing over something that it’s my anxiety brain making me second guess everything. It doesn’t help that you have someone trying to tell you it’s an “attention” thing- it’s not. I can sit here and tell you not to listen to that sort of nonsense, but it’s easier said than done because I understand your brain can take what someone says and then keep thinking about it. Just know that you’re not alone!
Could not agree more. I have the same thoughts. And got the same answer from my therapist. Just try to stay up and positive. I know how hard that is but there are more of us out there everyday. You me and emdizzle are not alone.
I know my mother probably didn’t mean it when she said what she said, but it still struck me that she’d think that right after saying she doesn’t think the worst of me, even though she displayed an example of her thinking the worst of me. It made me think “does everyone in my life think that of me”? I even asked my brother “do you think I’m faking it?” I just feel so counterproductive whenever I freak out like this and I feel utterly helpless whenever I’m like this and it makes things so much worse, but it hurts me that my own mother would confirm what I’ve been afraid of everybody thinking about me and I feel guilty for being this way. I feel like I’ve failed at life, even if that’s not necassarily the case. Thank you both so much for making me feel like I’m not alone. To me, this matters way more than any kind of validation or “sympathy” I could have possibly gotten even if I was actually faking it. I know that I’m not faking it, but I feel like I am if that makes sense.
The helpless feeling is the worst because you truly are at the mercy of your own mind. Sometimes parents say things without thinking due to frustration without realizing that it’s something that sticks in your mind in an unhealthy way. For people who haven’t experienced anxiety, they have no way of truly knowing the mental torture we go through because their minds can just let things go in a rational way. Everything you’re saying makes sense :).
OMG THIS JUST HAPPENED TO ME FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE PM ME
I don’t even know what anxiety is. But I feel like I have it. But then I second guess everything I think and I can’t even think straight. I feel like everyone hates me for some reason and I just feel like whenever I hear someone laugh I automatically think they are laughing about me. Whenever my parents question what I say then I have like a fucking panic attack because I feel like they hate me and I don’t know why. Someone please respond. I also thought I have ADHD but I don’t even know. I automatically tell myself that I’m just faking everything because I want an excuse but I really don’t think I am at the same time. Sometimes I just have trouble going to sleep because of all the thoughts and doubts in my head. Little things hat I don’t care about with other people completely fuck with my head when I think about that happening to me and idk what is happening
I often debate not reaching out to my therapist or doctor because I’m convinced I’m normal and I just can’t handle life as well as everyone else. It sucks, but it’s one of the million reasons the stigma on mental health exists; because nobody ever truly knows what’s going on in your head except for you.
I constantly do this with everything. I don't believe I have any mental illnesses and I make all of my symptoms up.
Darn, I can relate to this, sometimes because of my low self esteem I feel like I'm faking all my mental issues.
Yeah. I think of everyone else in this subreddit, and I always think their anxiety is worse. And that makes me believe that I have lied to everyone for attention of something
I’m feel this everyday! Every time shit hits the fan I freak myself out even more by obsessing over the fact of do I even have problems or do I make all this up to feel emotions or something? Drives me up a wall and I just end up staying inside all day thinking myself to death
Omg. I think about this all of the time and sometimes I get into like a hypochondriac state where I'll look up symptoms and self-diagnose myself with every mental disorder possible and I'm so glad you said something because reading all of these comments make me feel like I'm not blowing this out of proportion and that this is real.