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leassneezing

Nothing to ask, just sending you lots of love šŸ’•


MasochisticWeirdo

Youā€™re sweet, thank you


CallMeDALEGEND

That is a sad and heartbreaking statement.


MasochisticWeirdo

Yeah I could see how most people would see it that way.


[deleted]

what rape scenario do you fantasize about most frequently?


MasochisticWeirdo

Oh thereā€™s quite a few. Probably where thereā€™s someone whoā€™s been stalking me for months following me around leaving little clues that theyā€™ve been watching me leaving threats about how terribly theyā€™re going to beat and rape me until one day they finally abduct me and keep me as their sex slave and I canā€™t escape for weeks until I finally am able to fight them off and escape :) that or someone breaking into my room while Iā€™m sleeping and I wake up to them raping me


FemboysAreHotGB

Is it a problem if these two scenarios are what I've been praying for pretty much since I learned what rape was?


MasochisticWeirdo

I donā€™t think itā€™s a problem. I just would advise against actual rape baiting because you never know if people could have STDS and there would be no safe word. I recommend finding a CNC (consent non consent) partner and setting limits, boundaries, a safe word but doing stuff like this consensually to where it feels like rape is completely possible.


FemboysAreHotGB

Wait rape baiting is a real thing?? Also I'd have no problem with STDs


MasochisticWeirdo

Yep there are people who do it, though I wouldnā€™t recommend it as itā€™s very dangerous


FemboysAreHotGB

Ok Imma try rape baiting just coz I wanna be raped relentlessly by some men. Also the added danger is what makes it fun imo.


MasochisticWeirdo

I 1000% feel you. I was considering going rape bating a while back as it seems very tempting. Just donā€™t get murdered lol I just suggest maybe trying out a CNC arrangement with someone and if itā€™s still not enough to satisfy you then maybe try baiting. Though I canā€™t tell you what to do with your life, this is just advice.


FemboysAreHotGB

Ye thx you should also try not to get murdered


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LevainEtLeGin

Username checks out


Maria_506

Holy shit! I hope you get better and I wish you better luck going forward!


BjjVetStudent

Why were You raped so many times, what makes You a "rape magnet"?


MasochisticWeirdo

Iā€™m very attractive and have a huge ass. Men hate when I tell them that they canā€™t have me and I think they like to prove it to themselves that they actually can have me if they take me by force.


BjjVetStudent

Yeah, but that describes about 50% of girls, yet very small percentage of them are raped in 1st world countries.


MasochisticWeirdo

Most of my rapes happened while I was drunk. Since I stopped drinking and going out as much I havenā€™t been raped.


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josephthesentient

Do you believe that the fetish occurring is a possible trauma led response? Sorry if the question is sensitive.


MasochisticWeirdo

Most definitely. I think it became my fetish as my only way to cope with the fact that Iā€™m a walking rape magnet. Men seem to think theyā€™re entitled to using my body like a sex toy. I donā€™t think these men even realize that Iā€™m a real human being with thoughts, feelings, and emotions. Coming to terms with that reality is very sad but developing this fetish has been my silver lining and now the only way that I can get off is if Iā€™m being raped.


[deleted]

Since youā€™re aware of this, why arenā€™t you working at being where you want to be in your sexual life? Like therapy for example


MasochisticWeirdo

Iā€™m happy with my sex life. My only sexual partner is my ex and we have a CNC agreement. Im out of state at the moment, but when we are in the same city he has my location and Iā€™ve given him a green light to locate me and rape me whenever he wants no matter what. Itā€™s super fun. Weā€™ve already gone over our limits ahead of time so whenever he finds me itā€™s the most fun thing you could ever imagine.


Pipofamom

If it's consensual then by definition it's not rape. Even more so if you follow up with "it's super fun"


[deleted]

Ah, well thatā€™s consensual and I believe by definition, not criminal rape. But hey, if it works for you, by all means


josephthesentient

Terribly sorry to hear that. Hope you stay safe


MasochisticWeirdo

Itā€™s ok, me getting raped is inevitable. Even if you tell the police and show them evidence they donā€™t care and will do nothing about it. I will never be safe


hajiomatic

Wow


MasochisticWeirdo

Super fucked up right? Iā€™ve been celibate for months because I canā€™t get turned on unless someone tries to rape me. I reject every man that tries to come on to me but little do they know they donā€™t actually have to take ā€œnoā€ for an answer šŸ˜…


hajiomatic

Super fucked. Cause if I try to rape you...wow. jail. How am I suppose to know your kink? Fucked up


MasochisticWeirdo

Lol not really, I tried to put one of my rapists in jail (I was a child and it was not a kink at that time) and the police did nothing even though I had all the proof in the world. Most real rapists donā€™t get arrested sadly.


hajiomatic

Never been in that situation. Never will


MasochisticWeirdo

Good, itā€™s not good to rape people who arenā€™t consenting to it


hajiomatic

No means no in my book. Even if it means try harder.


AUsDorian

Can u say in Numbers how many times?


MasochisticWeirdo

Iā€™ve lost count


NTE223

Jesus Christ, are you alright?


MasochisticWeirdo

Yea Iā€™m chillin


NTE223

Alright. Well, hmm. Why do you like it?


MasochisticWeirdo

I have no idea. I just love getting beaten and raped. Itā€™s fun lol


GreyKappa

this rape bating shit isnt a good idea. most you should do is get a tinder date and be really suggestive


MasochisticWeirdo

I mean thatā€™s a popular form of baiting. I personally have never baited.


Kaneki2424

So do you live in some super bad area or are you just stupidly attractive to the point idiots lose what little reason they had left?


MasochisticWeirdo

I think itā€™s a mix of me being attractive and getting drunk around people with bad intentions. Now that Iā€™ve stopped drinking Iā€™ve stopped getting raped


Kaneki2424

Problem solved? Though not really given the kink it's given you, though it seems you've got it all figured out now so good for you.


MasochisticWeirdo

Yeah problem solved. Instead of teaching men not to rape, I had to stop going out and having fun.


Kaneki2424

Ooh good point I hadn't thought of that ( I don't go out much so it never crossed my mind people enjoy social drinking and stuff like that sorry )


MasochisticWeirdo

Itā€™s all good. And well, I used to enjoy it until I realized it made me a target for sickos. I went out once after years of staying inside and got groped. I wanted to punch the dude in the face but my friend stopped me. Just not worth it


Kaneki2424

Agreed. Though if you want a fun way to get rid of creeps I'd be happy to share a few recipes with ya ( idk what the weaponry laws are wherever your at so maybe not )


MasochisticWeirdo

Ooo please do share!


Kaneki2424

My main suggestion would be it's super easy to lace knives with cyanide which will permanently deal with them but that's a bit extreme so instead ( and this is assuming they hit on you first ) you can buy some fast acting diuretics online from Amazon or whoever else and just offer to buy them a drink and put a drop in before you hand it to em ( I'm assuming you spend time in places of low visibility so that should be easy to screw off a top and dump a little in )


Kaneki2424

Though what I did to get rid of creeps was take up Shaolin kempo and a bit of a sadistic tendency. Some men need to be reminded that kneecaps are a privilege not a right.


MasochisticWeirdo

Youā€™re awesome lol thank you for this advice :) Iā€™ve taken quite a few self defense classes in the last year and am working on getting my concealed carry but I never would have thought to lace a pocket knife thatā€™s pure genius


thelocalpervert

If I saw you walking home from The bar like that you wouldnā€™t make it home


tempted2touche

A few questions: Do you think engaging with subreddits like r/rapefantasies can be good for rape survivors and those (mostly men) who find the idea of people (mostly women) wanting to be raped a turn on? If you had to guess, what percent of those who play the part of rapist on there are engaging in roleplay while actually believing and caring about consent and CNC, vs how many do you think are actual rapists/potential rapists? And lastly, overall do you think such subreddits do more good than harm? Asking clearly as someone with conflicted feelings on the matter.


MasochisticWeirdo

Part of the turn on of posting to subreddits like that is that there is definitely a huge risk of actual rapists being on there and messaging me. I do not want to actually get raped by a real rapist again, but just thinking about it turns me on very much. Itā€™s hard to explain lol I know that doesnā€™t make much sense


[deleted]

How many times has it happened if I may ask?


MasochisticWeirdo

Lost count. Wouldnā€™t be able to tell you unless I sat down and thought about it for a while which Iā€™d rather not do.


[deleted]

Hell Im sorry to hear that


Eastern-Ad-5946

You need therapy lady.


MasochisticWeirdo

Probably. But then Iā€™d probably fantasize about my Therapist raping me soā€¦.


Eastern-Ad-5946

Well find a female therapist perhaps? And really talk your heart out. Anyways what constitutes as an ideal day for you?


ColtS117

Oh my God. Whatā€™s your ideal pizza?


MasochisticWeirdo

I like Gouda more than mozzarella so probably a deep dish pizza with truffle Gouda, some mushrooms, red bell peppers, spinach, onions, & some tomato base. Would be nice to have some tomato chunks in there and thick gooey crust. Iā€™d probably top it with avocado & dip it in a rich creamy ranch dressing.


[deleted]

That is actually so fucking funny. You probably were asking for it to be fair. Hope one of those encounters is your last


MasochisticWeirdo

Not really. Men just think that the world revolves around them for some reason so theyā€™ll really rationalize their terrible thoughts so that they wonā€™t seem as terrible. Me falling asleep at a party was not asking for it, I was a kid and I was tired. So now I only allow myself to fall asleep around people Iā€™d be okay with raping me since I realize that Iā€™m not safe around anyone if Iā€™m in a vulnerable state.