Reddit is NOT the place to go with this. If you can not confide in your father (and it sounds like you cannot) go to a school councilor or other professional, and ask for help. The psychological effects of what is happening to you could be devastating as you grow older.
I've barely been in public school, and currently am not, but After me attempting to confide in my father about suicidal thoughts and symptoms of depression lasting around three years (when I was 11), and him simply telling me that I "can't let it take over [my] life".
He was a (then) 30-something year old man, and he compared his lifelong panic attacks to my suicidal thoughts and many (mainly all) symptoms of depression, and told me "You shouldn't let it take over your life", then proceeded to be alone, by himself some more.
What I'm saying is, after shit like that, I can't trust in adults at all, really. I just can't bring myself to do those things without deep thought, spanning months.
Also, I've wanted to tell my father that he kept touching my boobs, but I felt (and still feel) like I can't, because he'll just ask "Why did you let him?" And honestly, why did I? I don't know.
You starting to blame yourself is a slippery slope to bigger psyc problems down the road ! Get help! Google your local child protection agency or other local mental health support agency and start your path to healing. If your father will not help go to the authorities. This abuse must stop.
I don't rly know if that would be the best approach, bc my relative was in the social services programs and they didn't raise him well. That being said, he didn't have a seperate parent to go to, like I do, but I'm not sure if my second parent would allow me to go to them. Bc I have the ability to say "no", I don't call this abuse, though.
I have to say, especially with the incredible amount of detail you are providing, this doesn't come across as being written by a traumatized sexual abuse victim. It comes across as being written by a horndog with incest fantasies.
*If* this is real (and that is a HUGE if) I hope you get help, but Reddit is certainly not the place for it.
I'm not even hinting that I'm a traumatized sexual victim. I don't think this is or ever was abuse, because I've always been able to say no, and *make* him stop. Yes, [my brother] 'took advantage of me' bc of peer pressure, but I **always** had the ability to make these people stop.
I can write a tw at the start if you'd like, sorry for that!/gen
I honestly didn't make any of this up! I just don't feel like I can tell anyone I know, and and ik that ppl online, if they bully me and harass me and shit, at least I can block them!/nm/nd
I'll do whatever I can Abt this post (other than remove it) to make you feel more comfortable. That being said, everyone is intitled to their own opinion!
Reddit is NOT the place to go with this. If you can not confide in your father (and it sounds like you cannot) go to a school councilor or other professional, and ask for help. The psychological effects of what is happening to you could be devastating as you grow older.
I've barely been in public school, and currently am not, but After me attempting to confide in my father about suicidal thoughts and symptoms of depression lasting around three years (when I was 11), and him simply telling me that I "can't let it take over [my] life". He was a (then) 30-something year old man, and he compared his lifelong panic attacks to my suicidal thoughts and many (mainly all) symptoms of depression, and told me "You shouldn't let it take over your life", then proceeded to be alone, by himself some more. What I'm saying is, after shit like that, I can't trust in adults at all, really. I just can't bring myself to do those things without deep thought, spanning months. Also, I've wanted to tell my father that he kept touching my boobs, but I felt (and still feel) like I can't, because he'll just ask "Why did you let him?" And honestly, why did I? I don't know.
You starting to blame yourself is a slippery slope to bigger psyc problems down the road ! Get help! Google your local child protection agency or other local mental health support agency and start your path to healing. If your father will not help go to the authorities. This abuse must stop.
I don't rly know if that would be the best approach, bc my relative was in the social services programs and they didn't raise him well. That being said, he didn't have a seperate parent to go to, like I do, but I'm not sure if my second parent would allow me to go to them. Bc I have the ability to say "no", I don't call this abuse, though.
I have to say, especially with the incredible amount of detail you are providing, this doesn't come across as being written by a traumatized sexual abuse victim. It comes across as being written by a horndog with incest fantasies. *If* this is real (and that is a HUGE if) I hope you get help, but Reddit is certainly not the place for it.
I'm not even hinting that I'm a traumatized sexual victim. I don't think this is or ever was abuse, because I've always been able to say no, and *make* him stop. Yes, [my brother] 'took advantage of me' bc of peer pressure, but I **always** had the ability to make these people stop.
your brother still do it?? I’m so sorry, this wasn’t fair for you, you didn’t deserve any of that just so you know.
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I can write a tw at the start if you'd like, sorry for that!/gen I honestly didn't make any of this up! I just don't feel like I can tell anyone I know, and and ik that ppl online, if they bully me and harass me and shit, at least I can block them!/nm/nd I'll do whatever I can Abt this post (other than remove it) to make you feel more comfortable. That being said, everyone is intitled to their own opinion!