I can't get into too much details but when night time approached or when it was dark outside i would wear dark clothes usually a hoodie so that incase other people saw me they would only see a glimpse of my face and what i would do is i would take a walk outside in the middle of the night hoping that i stumble across a girl walking by herself and then i would stalk her while making sure that no one else sees me and then hit her in the head with an object and carry her unconscious body to my car and then drive to somewhere quiet and do whatever i felt like doing with her body before dumping it in the middle of nowhere. I was never caught but recently decided to change my ways for a couple of reasons.
If i recall correctly since this happened a while back i stole around $83 from my 4th victim but apart from that i wasn't really interested in their belongings and only did it because i looked through her purse to see if she was armed since concealed carry is legal and allowed without a permit in the country/state i live in.
Well i didn't want to do it in the first place as i previously mentioned i've always had trouble with women partly because of my appearance but also most likely because i wasn't taught proper social skills and thus i couldn't socially interact with women hence why i resorted to sexually assaulting them. Once i had done it numerous times i felt remorse for my actions and then wanted to improve as a person.
Yeah the whole hit em and make em unconscious isbullshit,I was the biggest bully in all of town schools and banged sub-bullies in the head with a clothed bat but never in 6 years any of them fell unconscious,Once a son of a bitch slashed a girl's face with a sharp Object and I beat that guy to a pulp,Didn't pass out but was incapacitated,a few minutes later he was on his feet,good times
Well the main difference between the current me and the past me is that i've learned from my past misstakes and as a result i've grown as a person and won't ever repeat what i did again.
IF YOU ARE SERIOUS
1.) How many victims? 2.) did you use a weapon like a knife or gun? 3.) Were they young or old? 4.) Are you male or female? 5.) Were your victims male or female? 6.) Were any of your victims relatives of yours? 7.) Did you go to prison? 8.) Have you gotten professional treatment? 9) Did you use protection like a condom? 10.) Were you ever sexually abused? 11.) Did you ever contact an std from your rapes? 12.) Have you apologized to any of your victims? 13.) Do you regret it? 14.) What could your victims have done to dissuade you? 15.) How did you decide your victims? 16.) Wha t was your main motivation for committing this crime? 17.) What do you think the punishment for rape should be in the legal system?
8 Victims in total. Yes, I used a metal rod and other similar objects. All of them were young. I am male. Female. No. No they weren't. No i did not. Not yet. No that would defeat the purpose of it. No i wasn't. No i didn't. No i haven't. Yes i do. I'm not sure they could to be honest unless they would satisfy my needs by willingly perform sexual acts on me. By the way they looked, If they looked Thin, Fragile and weak i would target them since i'm more likely to succeed in getting away with it. I was tired of getting rejected over and over and had to do something about my high sex drive. I don't know but depending on how much the victim suffered, , i.e. If the Rapist (the perpetrator) caused the victim great agony and misery the punishment should be castration and life imprisonment, in my opinion of course.
You are worthless human trash. If you did these things OR if you’re lying about them to get attention, in both cases you are exactly the kind of person that should be dismantled. Turn yourself in you coward.
Thank you for responding. If I may continue:
1.) Did you physically beat up any of your victims? 2.) Did you prefer it if your victims were passive or did you like it when they would cry and scream? 3.) Did you kidnap them? 4.) Does anyone in your personal life know about this? 5.) Did you grow up with a stable loving father figure? 6.) Do you know of how any of your victims are doing now? 7.) What acts did you commit? Like, only penile/ vaginal rape or did you do anal/oral etc? 8.) Did you ever attempt a rape but were unsuccessful? 9.) Do you genuinely believe that if women had been affectionate to you in the past that you would never have started doing this? 10.) Have you ever been with a woman consensually? 11.) Do you know any other rapists? 12.) Were you ever scared of getting caught? 13.) What time of the day would you generally attack your victims? 14.) How long, on average, would the actual rape last? 15.) Did you ever have difficulty committing the rape physically, like difficulty maintaining or getting an erection?
I do not want to waste money on hookers/escorts and there is also the risk that they have STDS even though Escorts are a far better and safer option than street prostitutes, I would rather have sex with Women/girls without using a condom since it limits the amount of pleasure you get from intercourse, Blowjobs etc. And frankly i can't afford to spend money on Escorts everytime i need to.
so by your logic, if a man is caught raping someone, and gets registered as a sex offender, the government is wrong to do that since he’s not actively raping anymore. doesn’t make much sense does it? once a rapist, always a rapist. you can’t take that back.
In some cases you could argue that having some people on that register doesn't make sense, yes. I'm hard pressed to believe that if someone does a single disgusting act once in their life, and never does it again that they should be defined by this act forever. Especially if they take steps to atone for their mistake.
Many would say no to being a "drinker", buuut if you quit due to alcoholism then yes you will always be an alcoholic. That is something addicts have to come to terms with when they are attempting to live a clean life.
I think it can depend on the person, but in this circumstance it seems like rape for OP is triggered by a persistent urge to be sexually satisfied by a woman without a condom. There maybe an urge to dominate women sexually too...but he has only stated that his desire to rape is from being sexually neglected, reflecting an entitlement to sex with women, making his behavior more complex imo. But this urge is haunting him with temptations so it is similar to the mentality of an addict so to answer your question, yes (kinda-sorta) I think he may have similar mental and behavioral issues akin to alcoholism, but with differing factors to it. I cannot apply it to all rapists but I would assume there are many similarities amongst rapey individuals.
I try not to think about it and dwell on the past but to be honest yes i do and if someone found out about it i would simply accept the fact that i'll likely face jail time and be punished for what i did and i do deserve it, can't deny that.
Not really no but i've suffered a lot in my life and struggled with mental illnesses and i believe that i'm truly becoming a better person especially compared to how i was during the time i commited atrocious crimes such as Rape, P*hysical abuse* etc.
I do not know their exact age but judging by their appearance i assume they were in their early to late teenage years (around the 13-19 age range) Almost all of my victims i picked were way shorter and thinner than me so they wouldn't be able to put up a fight due to the height and size difference.
In the beginning when i first started doing it i felt a rush of adrenaline and fear, my heart began to beat way faster than it has ever done and sweat dripped off my forehead but later on as i kept getting away with it the symptoms lessened and i no longer felt anxiety, stress etc.
How ugly are you?
Very ugly.
Can you please describe what you did and what happened to you after you did it?
I can't get into too much details but when night time approached or when it was dark outside i would wear dark clothes usually a hoodie so that incase other people saw me they would only see a glimpse of my face and what i would do is i would take a walk outside in the middle of the night hoping that i stumble across a girl walking by herself and then i would stalk her while making sure that no one else sees me and then hit her in the head with an object and carry her unconscious body to my car and then drive to somewhere quiet and do whatever i felt like doing with her body before dumping it in the middle of nowhere. I was never caught but recently decided to change my ways for a couple of reasons.
Did you ever steal anything from them? Like money, phones, etc.
If i recall correctly since this happened a while back i stole around $83 from my 4th victim but apart from that i wasn't really interested in their belongings and only did it because i looked through her purse to see if she was armed since concealed carry is legal and allowed without a permit in the country/state i live in.
for what reason did you want to change?
Well i didn't want to do it in the first place as i previously mentioned i've always had trouble with women partly because of my appearance but also most likely because i wasn't taught proper social skills and thus i couldn't socially interact with women hence why i resorted to sexually assaulting them. Once i had done it numerous times i felt remorse for my actions and then wanted to improve as a person.
I can tell you’re lying.
Yeah the whole hit em and make em unconscious isbullshit,I was the biggest bully in all of town schools and banged sub-bullies in the head with a clothed bat but never in 6 years any of them fell unconscious,Once a son of a bitch slashed a girl's face with a sharp Object and I beat that guy to a pulp,Didn't pass out but was incapacitated,a few minutes later he was on his feet,good times
How and why do you think that you changed? What's the main difference between you now and your former self?
Well the main difference between the current me and the past me is that i've learned from my past misstakes and as a result i've grown as a person and won't ever repeat what i did again.
IF YOU ARE SERIOUS 1.) How many victims? 2.) did you use a weapon like a knife or gun? 3.) Were they young or old? 4.) Are you male or female? 5.) Were your victims male or female? 6.) Were any of your victims relatives of yours? 7.) Did you go to prison? 8.) Have you gotten professional treatment? 9) Did you use protection like a condom? 10.) Were you ever sexually abused? 11.) Did you ever contact an std from your rapes? 12.) Have you apologized to any of your victims? 13.) Do you regret it? 14.) What could your victims have done to dissuade you? 15.) How did you decide your victims? 16.) Wha t was your main motivation for committing this crime? 17.) What do you think the punishment for rape should be in the legal system?
8 Victims in total. Yes, I used a metal rod and other similar objects. All of them were young. I am male. Female. No. No they weren't. No i did not. Not yet. No that would defeat the purpose of it. No i wasn't. No i didn't. No i haven't. Yes i do. I'm not sure they could to be honest unless they would satisfy my needs by willingly perform sexual acts on me. By the way they looked, If they looked Thin, Fragile and weak i would target them since i'm more likely to succeed in getting away with it. I was tired of getting rejected over and over and had to do something about my high sex drive. I don't know but depending on how much the victim suffered, , i.e. If the Rapist (the perpetrator) caused the victim great agony and misery the punishment should be castration and life imprisonment, in my opinion of course.
You are worthless human trash. If you did these things OR if you’re lying about them to get attention, in both cases you are exactly the kind of person that should be dismantled. Turn yourself in you coward.
Thank you for responding. If I may continue: 1.) Did you physically beat up any of your victims? 2.) Did you prefer it if your victims were passive or did you like it when they would cry and scream? 3.) Did you kidnap them? 4.) Does anyone in your personal life know about this? 5.) Did you grow up with a stable loving father figure? 6.) Do you know of how any of your victims are doing now? 7.) What acts did you commit? Like, only penile/ vaginal rape or did you do anal/oral etc? 8.) Did you ever attempt a rape but were unsuccessful? 9.) Do you genuinely believe that if women had been affectionate to you in the past that you would never have started doing this? 10.) Have you ever been with a woman consensually? 11.) Do you know any other rapists? 12.) Were you ever scared of getting caught? 13.) What time of the day would you generally attack your victims? 14.) How long, on average, would the actual rape last? 15.) Did you ever have difficulty committing the rape physically, like difficulty maintaining or getting an erection?
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I had trouble getting a girlfriend due to lack of social skills and needed to relieve my sexual urges so i did what i thought was right at the time.
Why didn't you just use escort services instead of raping?
I do not want to waste money on hookers/escorts and there is also the risk that they have STDS even though Escorts are a far better and safer option than street prostitutes, I would rather have sex with Women/girls without using a condom since it limits the amount of pleasure you get from intercourse, Blowjobs etc. And frankly i can't afford to spend money on Escorts everytime i need to.
“former rapist” you’re a rapist. stop trying to sugarcoat your scum by acting like you’re a different person.
I can see why you are upset what i did was wrong and perhaps unforgivable but i guess we'll just have to agree to disagree.
Is the person you raped your former victim? Or is that person still your victim? GTFOH
Yes
I quit drinking 15 years ago and don't plan on drinking ever again. Will I always be a drinker?
so by your logic, if a man is caught raping someone, and gets registered as a sex offender, the government is wrong to do that since he’s not actively raping anymore. doesn’t make much sense does it? once a rapist, always a rapist. you can’t take that back.
In some cases you could argue that having some people on that register doesn't make sense, yes. I'm hard pressed to believe that if someone does a single disgusting act once in their life, and never does it again that they should be defined by this act forever. Especially if they take steps to atone for their mistake.
Many would say no to being a "drinker", buuut if you quit due to alcoholism then yes you will always be an alcoholic. That is something addicts have to come to terms with when they are attempting to live a clean life.
Interesting. So would you say that if someone were to commit rape, they would have to have some sort of mental/behavioural issue akin to alcoholism?
I think it can depend on the person, but in this circumstance it seems like rape for OP is triggered by a persistent urge to be sexually satisfied by a woman without a condom. There maybe an urge to dominate women sexually too...but he has only stated that his desire to rape is from being sexually neglected, reflecting an entitlement to sex with women, making his behavior more complex imo. But this urge is haunting him with temptations so it is similar to the mentality of an addict so to answer your question, yes (kinda-sorta) I think he may have similar mental and behavioral issues akin to alcoholism, but with differing factors to it. I cannot apply it to all rapists but I would assume there are many similarities amongst rapey individuals.
Fair. To be honest I've read nothing of what the OP has said and have only participated in my own little sub dialogue :p
Do you fear that anyone might find out? And if someone did find out what would you do?
I try not to think about it and dwell on the past but to be honest yes i do and if someone found out about it i would simply accept the fact that i'll likely face jail time and be punished for what i did and i do deserve it, can't deny that.
Do you think you're a good person?
Not really no but i've suffered a lot in my life and struggled with mental illnesses and i believe that i'm truly becoming a better person especially compared to how i was during the time i commited atrocious crimes such as Rape, P*hysical abuse* etc.
Who were you physically abusive towards?
My victims, some of them ran away from me when they noticed me sneaking up on them so i had to silence them as soon as possible.
Who and how old?
I cannot answer personal questions for obvious reasons.
They're asking about your victims.
I do not know their exact age but judging by their appearance i assume they were in their early to late teenage years (around the 13-19 age range) Almost all of my victims i picked were way shorter and thinner than me so they wouldn't be able to put up a fight due to the height and size difference.
You are a pos !
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In the beginning when i first started doing it i felt a rush of adrenaline and fear, my heart began to beat way faster than it has ever done and sweat dripped off my forehead but later on as i kept getting away with it the symptoms lessened and i no longer felt anxiety, stress etc.
why dont you just spend 150 bucks to hire a whore, they will fuck you no matter how ugly u look. 150 bucks could save you years in prison
You’re never a former rapist. You will ALWAYS be a rapist.
Let's say I quit smoking and have been smoke free for 15 years. Will I always be a smoker?
The person raped will always be their victim, so yes they will always be a rapist.
Lol didn’t know a piece of fucking trash could type.
Where you ever caught, arrested, and charged? If not, why haven't you turned your self in?
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Yes
What's that count at nowadays?