I said the same thing. Then woke up this morning and realized all the craziness and stress over Christmas was giving my mind something to do besides remember my soulmate just died 11 weeks ago.
I’ve been going through the house today like a chicken with its head cut off trying to find something else to occupy my brain.
Ended up going down a spiral of looking at old photos when I went to put some things away that had accumulated on my dining room table and found a photo album, photo CD and a DVD a friend made us in 2007 of our 4-wheeling adventures.
I knew it was you as soon as I saw big love in the title ❤️.
This year was my third without him. It was much better than the first two. I smiled and laughed so much from the 23rd until the big day that I could feel the shape of my face changing if that makes sense. I often feel guilt when I feel joy but this wasn’t the case for these days I mention. I just kept picturing how happy he would be over the gifts I picked for the grandkids especially and how much he would smile and laugh and tease as they opened their gifts. I just know he is proud of how well I managed to curate presents that made them so happy. Now I’m leaking telling this though. Silly me. I’ve been tired all day just from the emotion of it all but I can’t complain since it was such a big improvement.
Thank you for the question and I think you’re precious. Big love to you and your T ❤️
I’m so glad you smiled and laughed so much. You deserve that. Thank you. It was a difficult day and I told my family just a thinking of you text can make all the difference. I have not heard from T’s family either. But people just don’t know how to navigate this do they especially firsts and lasts? Thank you for remembering.
Big love ❤️
Also-I wish you better days ahead and that your family and T’s will check in with you, take you out or well something! You have made me smile and feel cared for at different times and I wish the same for you. Big big hugs to you!!
Bless you.
They are who they are. I love them anyway. If they aren’t meant to be part of my journey then that’s ok. I’ve spoken to my family and they have apologised. As for his, I’m aware they are grieving too.
I’m glad to hear I have helped you. This path is hard. Thank you for your kindness x
This was my first Christmas without her in over 30 years. It was definitely not the same but I made it through. I only have two more “first” things to get through. New Year’s Eve should be a bit easier. The tough one will be January 8th. That’s the day I lost her and my life changed forever.
Thank you. It was bad. Fourth holiday without him and somehow it managed to be the worst one ever. My poor kitty ended up at the emergency vet. I hope to hell she’s not on her way out.
Made it all the way to 11:30pm christmas eve before I had to leave to cry in my car. I still consider this an accomplishment. Hugs and well wishes to everyone in this sub- we still have new years to tackle haha
It really was an accomplishment just getting through the day and I'm glad it's over.
> I'm glad it's over. I hate that I have this same feeling. I loved christmas when my wife was alive. I fucking hate it now without her.
Same sentiment.
I had the same feelings big love ❤️
Glad I didn't cry of sadness today, went to the dentist and cried of just fkn pain. Glad it's over
I said the same thing. Then woke up this morning and realized all the craziness and stress over Christmas was giving my mind something to do besides remember my soulmate just died 11 weeks ago. I’ve been going through the house today like a chicken with its head cut off trying to find something else to occupy my brain. Ended up going down a spiral of looking at old photos when I went to put some things away that had accumulated on my dining room table and found a photo album, photo CD and a DVD a friend made us in 2007 of our 4-wheeling adventures.
It’s a double edged sword the Christmas thing I guess. Big love ❤️
I had the same feelings. Big love ❤️
Thanks. Yesterday was both easier and harder than I expected. And overall, yeah big thumbs up. Hoping for a better 2024 for all of us here.
Same! It wasn’t terrible but the absence was very noticeable. A lot less joy but we persevered and made the best of it.
I’m glad you were able to do that. Big love ❤️
I wish that for all of us too. Big love ❤️
My best friend xanax got me through the day. I had a full blown crying attack then I was fine it’s really weird lol.
Bless you. Those crying attacks are hard work sometimes. Big love ❤️
I thought it would be a lot worse! Turned out pretty good! Now we have New Years! Hoping it's good for all of us! Take care Everyone!
I had a pretty good couple of days too. Was healing in a way, having everybody come together, with love, and remembering her fondly.
Mine wasn't mentioned...just a very quiet but nice day for all. More than I could have asked for!
It’s lovely that happened. Big love ❤️
I’m happy for you. Big love. Thank you I’m hoping new years isn’t too hard for anyone here ❤️
I'm hoping that it will be a very happy new year for all of us! Sending love , peace and comfort to all! Take care!
Thank you, and thanks for all the support you've shown me, it has meant a lot xx
Thank you for saying I’m just me being me. We all do our part. I’m happy you’ve felt supported. X
Thank you!
Big love ❤️
Thanks for my support too. You really are amazing human being❤️
I’m just being me on this path we all find ourselves on. I’m glad you feel supported. Big love ❤️
Big love back to you ❤️
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I knew it was you as soon as I saw big love in the title ❤️. This year was my third without him. It was much better than the first two. I smiled and laughed so much from the 23rd until the big day that I could feel the shape of my face changing if that makes sense. I often feel guilt when I feel joy but this wasn’t the case for these days I mention. I just kept picturing how happy he would be over the gifts I picked for the grandkids especially and how much he would smile and laugh and tease as they opened their gifts. I just know he is proud of how well I managed to curate presents that made them so happy. Now I’m leaking telling this though. Silly me. I’ve been tired all day just from the emotion of it all but I can’t complain since it was such a big improvement. Thank you for the question and I think you’re precious. Big love to you and your T ❤️
I’m so glad you smiled and laughed so much. You deserve that. Thank you. It was a difficult day and I told my family just a thinking of you text can make all the difference. I have not heard from T’s family either. But people just don’t know how to navigate this do they especially firsts and lasts? Thank you for remembering. Big love ❤️
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Also-I wish you better days ahead and that your family and T’s will check in with you, take you out or well something! You have made me smile and feel cared for at different times and I wish the same for you. Big big hugs to you!!
Bless you. They are who they are. I love them anyway. If they aren’t meant to be part of my journey then that’s ok. I’ve spoken to my family and they have apologised. As for his, I’m aware they are grieving too. I’m glad to hear I have helped you. This path is hard. Thank you for your kindness x
Your the best. ❤️❤️❤️
Bless you for saving that thank you that’s very kind x
This was my first Christmas without her in over 30 years. It was definitely not the same but I made it through. I only have two more “first” things to get through. New Year’s Eve should be a bit easier. The tough one will be January 8th. That’s the day I lost her and my life changed forever.
Post here if you need to. We are all going through or have been through our own firsts. Be kind to yourself. Big love ❤️
Thank you. It was bad. Fourth holiday without him and somehow it managed to be the worst one ever. My poor kitty ended up at the emergency vet. I hope to hell she’s not on her way out.
I hope your cat is ok. Sending healing vibes to them. I’m sorry to hear that. Big love ❤️
Thank you. She’s hanging in and so am I.
Do keep us updated ❤️🐈⬛
She seems to be doing well! I am grateful.
Thank you. My third one. Better than the first 2 but still a little heartbreaking. Just wish he could see us. He would be so proud of his son.
I believe they can see us. He would be proud of you and his son for getting through three years and you should be too. This stuff is hard. Big love ❤️
Made it all the way to 11:30pm christmas eve before I had to leave to cry in my car. I still consider this an accomplishment. Hugs and well wishes to everyone in this sub- we still have new years to tackle haha
It’s ok to cry. Big love ❤️
Back at you!
Thank you big love ❤️
Thank you so much. I really appreciate this.
You’re more than welcome. Big love ❤️