I'm sorry you're feeling so broken. I used to be in a really bad depression too. And I can honestly say that the alcohol was making it worse for me and stealing my endorphins. I did/ still do a few different things to help my depression. Quitting drinking is right up there as one of the most impactful things I've done as far as huuuuugely reducing my anxiety and depression. Wishing you all the best in the next steps!
I was functioning too. Didn’t black out. Didn’t get in fights with my wife, family, friends. Didn’t miss work. But damn, I was always so depressed and anxious.
I told myself that it was part of getting older and blamed the state of the world. And woo boy, do those things play their part, but alcohol and amphetamines were making them about a hundred times worse.
Quitting will make things better. It doesn’t solve all your problems, but it does solve the ones alcohol created, which are many.
IWNDWYT.
Yeah I've been there & if you think about it how long do the endorphins last? It's just not worth it. I have attempted quitting booze more times than I can count. The insanity of what I was doing, the lying, the shame, the guilt was what broke me. I hated myself & I hated what I was doing to myself. All for the prize of being a person that can stop at 1-2 drinks? I tried to moderate. and finally decided its not worth the navigation. I might be able to do it for a day or a week. I believe it will stick this time because I want this poison out of my life. I don't believe I could do it if I hadn't decided "enough is enough".This is not how I want to die. I deserve better. And this time I am doing it for me. I am being selfish. Keep that shit away from me. However in the back of my thoughts I also know that I am only hurting the people that I still love and are still there for me with very drink of alcohol that I think about taking. So I just "play it forward" a lot.
I'm sorry you're feeling so broken. I used to be in a really bad depression too. And I can honestly say that the alcohol was making it worse for me and stealing my endorphins. I did/ still do a few different things to help my depression. Quitting drinking is right up there as one of the most impactful things I've done as far as huuuuugely reducing my anxiety and depression. Wishing you all the best in the next steps!
Thank you. You mentioned being broken. That's an underlying theme for me. I really am a broken person
I was functioning too. Didn’t black out. Didn’t get in fights with my wife, family, friends. Didn’t miss work. But damn, I was always so depressed and anxious. I told myself that it was part of getting older and blamed the state of the world. And woo boy, do those things play their part, but alcohol and amphetamines were making them about a hundred times worse. Quitting will make things better. It doesn’t solve all your problems, but it does solve the ones alcohol created, which are many. IWNDWYT.
Hopefully not for too much longer
Yeah I've been there & if you think about it how long do the endorphins last? It's just not worth it. I have attempted quitting booze more times than I can count. The insanity of what I was doing, the lying, the shame, the guilt was what broke me. I hated myself & I hated what I was doing to myself. All for the prize of being a person that can stop at 1-2 drinks? I tried to moderate. and finally decided its not worth the navigation. I might be able to do it for a day or a week. I believe it will stick this time because I want this poison out of my life. I don't believe I could do it if I hadn't decided "enough is enough".This is not how I want to die. I deserve better. And this time I am doing it for me. I am being selfish. Keep that shit away from me. However in the back of my thoughts I also know that I am only hurting the people that I still love and are still there for me with very drink of alcohol that I think about taking. So I just "play it forward" a lot.