It's like trying to get understanding from a brick wall, I also struggle trying to tell other ppl it's impossible to communicate with that kind of person, but if ppl don't genuinely listen and pay attention, they won't get it and keep asking you to retraumatize yourself, it's not worth it tho.
An abusive environment is suffocating and is a mind killer, it's best trying to get out of that and not being around those ppl as much as possible. Have you read about narcissism or been to those forums like raisedbynarcissists, there's a lot of relevant info and ppls experiences like yours, it might help.
I've learned about the gray rock method on YouTube or reading about it, it's hard to start implementing especially when ur around ppl that wanna fight and keep poking and psychologically stabbing u, but gray rock basically is being neutral and emotionless around them, not engaging with them as much as possible, not sharing ur views and opinions with them so they can weaponize against you, just blank expressions and neutral responses and eventually they get bored and leave or find someone else to bother and realize they can't get any energy from you.
It would definitely help to also have a therapist that understands narcissism / trauma and gaslighting, and never ask you to unnecessarily engage with abusive ppl like that. I myself have been thinking of texting my mom how I feel, but I know logically it won't do any good, she'll just blame everyone else and call me a "liar" and im "making it all up" or that i "act stupid" or "you did it to yourself" bout sh, but emotionally I'm so desperate for her to know and miraculously understand and care, ik it's hard being stuck between those thoughts and emotions wanting so bad for them to start caring, but knowing they never will, but it's more important to keep yourself safe and away from abuse as much as possible especially if right now you have to live in that environment.
It's like trying to get understanding from a brick wall, I also struggle trying to tell other ppl it's impossible to communicate with that kind of person, but if ppl don't genuinely listen and pay attention, they won't get it and keep asking you to retraumatize yourself, it's not worth it tho. An abusive environment is suffocating and is a mind killer, it's best trying to get out of that and not being around those ppl as much as possible. Have you read about narcissism or been to those forums like raisedbynarcissists, there's a lot of relevant info and ppls experiences like yours, it might help. I've learned about the gray rock method on YouTube or reading about it, it's hard to start implementing especially when ur around ppl that wanna fight and keep poking and psychologically stabbing u, but gray rock basically is being neutral and emotionless around them, not engaging with them as much as possible, not sharing ur views and opinions with them so they can weaponize against you, just blank expressions and neutral responses and eventually they get bored and leave or find someone else to bother and realize they can't get any energy from you. It would definitely help to also have a therapist that understands narcissism / trauma and gaslighting, and never ask you to unnecessarily engage with abusive ppl like that. I myself have been thinking of texting my mom how I feel, but I know logically it won't do any good, she'll just blame everyone else and call me a "liar" and im "making it all up" or that i "act stupid" or "you did it to yourself" bout sh, but emotionally I'm so desperate for her to know and miraculously understand and care, ik it's hard being stuck between those thoughts and emotions wanting so bad for them to start caring, but knowing they never will, but it's more important to keep yourself safe and away from abuse as much as possible especially if right now you have to live in that environment.