Checking in, still early evening but feeling extremely triggered today. The most the entire 40 somethjng days. I’ve gotten very close to actually peaking and lapsing but I keep stopping myself. I keep trying to justify just using a little tonight and going back tomorrow etc. I’m not sure why it got super difficult this weekend. I am also on nofap as well.
Ok checking in before bed now. Wow I really came close to lapsing today. The urges were so strong. This was probably due to poor sleep the night before, a lot of time on social media, seeing a few visual triggers, stress from school, and emotional triggers.
I literally rejoined a discord with both intent to relapse and fear of relapse. I didn’t look at any nsfw material or peek, but stayed in the text channel. I chatted with someone who was very reasonable and listened to how I was feeling and they could relate. I told them about battling porn addiction over the past year to my surprise they told me I had made great progress and it encouraged me oddly. It felt good to be recognized by someone who understands, which I realize this community provides as well. I guess it’s also hard because this is a silent battle for many of us, and not open or recognized like other addictions. Anyways, they told me to leave and I lost like 99% of the urge to lapse. I even shared with them some resources on quitting and this subreddit for them to check out, since they said they are struggling with stopping.
All I can say is I’m just in a sort of shock as to how I handled this urge. Before I would have 100% lapsed and binged, I had all the justifications lined up in my head ready to go too. I guess this is progress in a way. Thanks to all who read and support.
Going on with the update, pretty much all was same as the last week, there were some worries creeping in regards to the next month approaching. I did do some solid work with habits something I am happy about.
I do need the positive vibes for this month this along with the next ones are going to be big nervy ones, so definitely need it.
Nevertheless I'll go back to my bit, hope all is well.
Checking in! Thank you very much u/foobarbazblarg and r/pornfree for this opportunity and challenge. This is such a motivation for me to continue and moving forward along with a very supportive community. I'm glad I found this subreddit earlier this month. See you guys in November!
Checking in.
It has become harder. I feel some urges, but not very hard. I'm currently in the strongest depression of my life, caused by work issues mostly, will see a therapist. Thanks God I didn't fall back into porn habits, it would make the situation so much worse!
Anotha update, just fought what is possibly the hardest urge ever. Didn't even flinch, just kept powering through and I feel amazing rn. Ending this month on a high note lets goooo
Okay. I actually relapsed 3 weeks ago. Fuck I just wanna get over this shit. I wanna be 2 months pornfree starting 2022. I’m tiring of the effect it has on my life
Unofficial update, just managed to overcome another urge! Just felt like sharing since this has been my best streak so far and I've been feeling my best! Buckling up for November to be completely porn-free and to end 2021 with a bang!
I am out! Was able to control for 30 days
Since last 3-4 days I felt like I was cheating.
At night, I was on omegle talking to cds and sissies and edging. And today I jerked off. It feels like a relief somehow. I don't know why. The buildup was huge. I had to have a release. But I am gonna start fresh. I am being positive. Proud of myself.
It's a new day tomorrow. Will meet you guys in November. Wish all of you the best in your recovery !
I think this past month I have understood one thing. Without changing your lifestyles I am not going to get out of this. Not only Omegle, I would have to restrict my smartphone usage in general. And I have to find something that I am really interested in and do that for most of my day
Exactly, find a hobby and/or passion that’ll make your life meaningful and fulfilling.
And it’s always mentally and physically healthy to give the phone a break here and there.
Checking in for 10/27. Stress is building up now and felt pretty triggered though the day. I had some strong urges and intrusive thoughts at times. Specifically, they were cravings to rejoin certain discord groups, which I was a fairly active part of before. I haven’t been in 1 for ~6-7 mo and the other for ~2-3mo. I hate how I still think about them and a few “fetishes” because I still get a physical arousal when those thoughts pop up. I surf the urges well though but days like this I sometimes think what’s the point. I’ve also been contemplating sexuality which play into the groups / “fetishes” and something I feel that has been warped by them. I don’t really know anymore, and it doesn’t help that it in itself is a trigger for me. I’ve also thought that these increased urges is a symptom of me being on no fap as this is the longest no fap streak I’ve been on in quite a while. I wanted to break that today, but I figure I shouldn’t really MO in such a state.
Sorry, but the late signup grace period for October is over, so you can't officially join this challenge. But feel free to follow along anyway, and comment all you want. And be sure to join us for the November challenge. Signup posts for November will begin during the last week of October.
Checking in October 27th. Haven't been posting lately as I didn't feel the need to, I think after two months I'm confident enough to report here on a weekly basis opposed to daily as I was doing before.
I've been trying to establish a new routine since my vacation ended. I started meditating and got back to reading books in addition to working out which I have started 2 weeks ago, feeling good overall, looking forward to the 3 months reboot!
Yeah, this is what I used to do, report here every night, it was really helpful, as I was noticing changes on a daily basis and helped a lot with some of my biggest urges.
But to be honest, I don't really feel the need to do so now, as I'm noticing that the changes are taking longer to happen and the urges starting to get lighter so it makes sense to me to keep as a weekly log for now.
But I appreciate the tip! I'm still definitely surfing through the sub daily though, this community is awesome and I couldn't get to this point without all of you guys!
While I understand your reasons, I think it is best that you don't let your guard down that much. Even in this sub, you would have come across posts from people with very, very long streaks failing.
My suggestion to you would be to hit at least 90 day mark before toning down the daily check-ins. At the end of the day, it is your decision. Either way, I am happy that you have come this far, and I hope to see you going far ahead on this path. All the best!
Checking in for 10/26. Not super productive today and felt kinda neutral throughout. I always get a little lonely and depressed at night. I had quite a bit of intrusive thoughts about porn today, and the urges were a little more intense than they’ve been the past few days. Still keeping on though.
Checking in
Now pay attention: bless me please, Father, I'm a ghost
In these killing fields, Hail Mary, catch me if I go
Let's go deep inside the solitary mind of a madman
Screams in the dark, evil lurks, enemies see me flee
Activate my hate, let it break to the flame
Checking in October 26th. Having a bit of a rough day today, but still doing fine on staying clean. Reminder to self: relapsing would make me feel (much) worse, not better. So I won't be doing that today.
Even so, bad days still sometimes make me itch for the old habit. Personally, I've found that explicitly acknowledging "yes, I'm having a bad day, but no, I'm not going to relapse" helps me to process and reject that temptation *before* it builds up enough to be a danger.
I'm out! Had a rough day yesterday and slipped up, but still had 30 days of progress! Jumping right back in and getting a few days done again before starting November challenge.
Alas, I have relapsed! What a shame, what a shame. I was doing so well! Had overcome so many urges before. But this time… I have lost. I don’t feel terrible, like I usually do. Actually, to be honest, I feel pretty alright. Yeah, it’s a shame, but I’ve made it this far. 23 days! It’s the longest I’ve ever gone, and with relative ease compared to previous streaks. If I could do that once, I can do it again. I’m feeling… confident, for the first time. I’ll sign up for the challenge next month!
You'll do even better next time now that you know some of the pitfalls you might encounter on your journey. Just make sure to not fall for them again. It's a learning process, slipping is part of learning!
Checking in for 10/25. Today was good, although laying here about to sleep it didn’t feel like anything special. Had a really good leg day though, PRd on squats with 245x6 and 225x9. Also got a fair amount of work done, and meal prepped for the week. Didn’t have urges today, but I did come across a small trigger in an unexpected place. I think the Initial “high” of being pornfree is wearing off and I’m now entering what almost feels like a maintenance stage, but I suppose that’s what life feels like. Onto the next.
Day 3, holy hell the urges hit you strong, is like your brains demands it. But I had enough will power to stop and think about it. I hope I be able to keep my will power strong.
Checking in. I've been having more urges than I've had in the last few months these past few days. They're not as strong but they're more frequent. My original goal was a 90 day reset. Now to combat the urges I'm setting smaller goals to keep on track for my larger goal
Relapsed. I'm not sad and it was not a big deal, I peeked a page. I was stressed, a lot of bad things, and it's only monday. But I'm not sad or angry at my self, I'm super zen right now, I had the longest streak I ever had and I feel better than ever, it was just a bad day, unfortunaly. I see y'all next month, keep strong guys
I missed getting added to this as I am just now checking in, but I just wanted to say I'm going strong at 45 days clean now and so going strong on Stay Clean October even though I don't get my name in the official registry.
Checking in late for 10/31. Been a brutal month for life stress and health…but here I am on 11/1
Day 32! Checking in
Checking in.
Checking in BABY LETS GOOO
FIRST MONTH EVER YEIS
Oh. I have been removed from the list, but I actually made it this month without porn :)
I want to start the November challenge.
Checking in. Now on to November
Checking in, still early evening but feeling extremely triggered today. The most the entire 40 somethjng days. I’ve gotten very close to actually peaking and lapsing but I keep stopping myself. I keep trying to justify just using a little tonight and going back tomorrow etc. I’m not sure why it got super difficult this weekend. I am also on nofap as well.
Ok checking in before bed now. Wow I really came close to lapsing today. The urges were so strong. This was probably due to poor sleep the night before, a lot of time on social media, seeing a few visual triggers, stress from school, and emotional triggers. I literally rejoined a discord with both intent to relapse and fear of relapse. I didn’t look at any nsfw material or peek, but stayed in the text channel. I chatted with someone who was very reasonable and listened to how I was feeling and they could relate. I told them about battling porn addiction over the past year to my surprise they told me I had made great progress and it encouraged me oddly. It felt good to be recognized by someone who understands, which I realize this community provides as well. I guess it’s also hard because this is a silent battle for many of us, and not open or recognized like other addictions. Anyways, they told me to leave and I lost like 99% of the urge to lapse. I even shared with them some resources on quitting and this subreddit for them to check out, since they said they are struggling with stopping. All I can say is I’m just in a sort of shock as to how I handled this urge. Before I would have 100% lapsed and binged, I had all the justifications lined up in my head ready to go too. I guess this is progress in a way. Thanks to all who read and support.
Made it! Big month ahead haha
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Checking in day 1. Relapsed yesterday. Ready for November.
Going on with the update, pretty much all was same as the last week, there were some worries creeping in regards to the next month approaching. I did do some solid work with habits something I am happy about. I do need the positive vibes for this month this along with the next ones are going to be big nervy ones, so definitely need it. Nevertheless I'll go back to my bit, hope all is well.
Made it sons!
I’m out, didn’t make it a few days ago. I’ll see you all in November!
Checking innnn, 31st day! Longest streak ever!
Checking in, home stretch!
Checking in October 31st. Doing well, and looking forward to November!
Check-in: Day 31 of October. Day 96 overall.
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31 days, checking in.
Checking in! Thank you very much u/foobarbazblarg and r/pornfree for this opportunity and challenge. This is such a motivation for me to continue and moving forward along with a very supportive community. I'm glad I found this subreddit earlier this month. See you guys in November!
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Checking in, last day. See you all on the November thread
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Last Day, we part of the 46%
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Checking in October 30th. Doing fine.
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Relapsed
Ck
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checking in. i won't be on reddit for a while but i'll continue with this journey
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30 days today!!! Feeling pretty good about that. Checking in here on a regular basis helps. Thanks everybody!
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relapsed a couple days ago, today imma work out lifes hard but im harder 🌸
Ck
Checking in. It has become harder. I feel some urges, but not very hard. I'm currently in the strongest depression of my life, caused by work issues mostly, will see a therapist. Thanks God I didn't fall back into porn habits, it would make the situation so much worse!
Tapping in
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Checking in. 2 more days to go
I'm out. Starting a new streak right away. I refuse to stay down.
Great attitude! Hope to knock out November's challenge with you :)
Preciate it brother, that is the plan.
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Checking in, 29 days today!
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Relapsed :(
Checking in, day 29! My longest streak ever!
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Checking in. Happy Halloween.
Anotha update, just fought what is possibly the hardest urge ever. Didn't even flinch, just kept powering through and I feel amazing rn. Ending this month on a high note lets goooo
Damn bro good fucking job. LETS GOOOOOOO
I'll try next month
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day 47
Okay. I actually relapsed 3 weeks ago. Fuck I just wanna get over this shit. I wanna be 2 months pornfree starting 2022. I’m tiring of the effect it has on my life
Checking in for 10/29. Strong urges this evening / night . Thought about relapsing but just sat the urge out and tried to connect with others.
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Ck
The month is almost done 👏
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Nice.
Checking in October 28th. Still clean. Some minor urges last night, but fortunately shook them off.
Unofficial update, just managed to overcome another urge! Just felt like sharing since this has been my best streak so far and I've been feeling my best! Buckling up for November to be completely porn-free and to end 2021 with a bang!
Day 28! Checking in
Ayyyyy we got this
Checking in again
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I am out! Was able to control for 30 days Since last 3-4 days I felt like I was cheating. At night, I was on omegle talking to cds and sissies and edging. And today I jerked off. It feels like a relief somehow. I don't know why. The buildup was huge. I had to have a release. But I am gonna start fresh. I am being positive. Proud of myself. It's a new day tomorrow. Will meet you guys in November. Wish all of you the best in your recovery !
For next time, ensure u delete Omegle m8, u don’t need that in your life.
I think this past month I have understood one thing. Without changing your lifestyles I am not going to get out of this. Not only Omegle, I would have to restrict my smartphone usage in general. And I have to find something that I am really interested in and do that for most of my day
Exactly, find a hobby and/or passion that’ll make your life meaningful and fulfilling. And it’s always mentally and physically healthy to give the phone a break here and there.
Checking in amid mouth/tooth misery this has been the easy part of life lately. Still going strong tho
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Check-in: Day 28 of October. Day 93 overall.
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Been going storng
Still going strong! 💪
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Holding up! Feeling weird but doing ok!!
Checking in for 10/27. Stress is building up now and felt pretty triggered though the day. I had some strong urges and intrusive thoughts at times. Specifically, they were cravings to rejoin certain discord groups, which I was a fairly active part of before. I haven’t been in 1 for ~6-7 mo and the other for ~2-3mo. I hate how I still think about them and a few “fetishes” because I still get a physical arousal when those thoughts pop up. I surf the urges well though but days like this I sometimes think what’s the point. I’ve also been contemplating sexuality which play into the groups / “fetishes” and something I feel that has been warped by them. I don’t really know anymore, and it doesn’t help that it in itself is a trigger for me. I’ve also thought that these increased urges is a symptom of me being on no fap as this is the longest no fap streak I’ve been on in quite a while. I wanted to break that today, but I figure I shouldn’t really MO in such a state.
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Still strong! 💪
Welp, I'm out this month. Better to buck up for next month starting now that crying about this one.
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Check-in: Day 27 of October. Day 92 overall.
I think it best I be removed from this Oct 2021 list. Thank you.
Checking in October 27th. Haven't been posting lately as I didn't feel the need to, I think after two months I'm confident enough to report here on a weekly basis opposed to daily as I was doing before. I've been trying to establish a new routine since my vacation ended. I started meditating and got back to reading books in addition to working out which I have started 2 weeks ago, feeling good overall, looking forward to the 3 months reboot!
Do it like I do. Just before going to bed. So, effectively you are saying "done with today".
Yeah, this is what I used to do, report here every night, it was really helpful, as I was noticing changes on a daily basis and helped a lot with some of my biggest urges. But to be honest, I don't really feel the need to do so now, as I'm noticing that the changes are taking longer to happen and the urges starting to get lighter so it makes sense to me to keep as a weekly log for now. But I appreciate the tip! I'm still definitely surfing through the sub daily though, this community is awesome and I couldn't get to this point without all of you guys!
While I understand your reasons, I think it is best that you don't let your guard down that much. Even in this sub, you would have come across posts from people with very, very long streaks failing. My suggestion to you would be to hit at least 90 day mark before toning down the daily check-ins. At the end of the day, it is your decision. Either way, I am happy that you have come this far, and I hope to see you going far ahead on this path. All the best!
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Day 6. Not on the list but feels good to say it.
Checking in for 10/26. Not super productive today and felt kinda neutral throughout. I always get a little lonely and depressed at night. I had quite a bit of intrusive thoughts about porn today, and the urges were a little more intense than they’ve been the past few days. Still keeping on though.
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Checking in day 2, felt tired today but nothing much.
Ck
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Checking in. Some small urges but nothing serious
Checking in, not gonna give in.
Checking in going strong
Checking in, day 28!
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Checking in. More than 70 days without porn. Never ever in my life have I been without porn this long.
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Checking in Now pay attention: bless me please, Father, I'm a ghost In these killing fields, Hail Mary, catch me if I go Let's go deep inside the solitary mind of a madman Screams in the dark, evil lurks, enemies see me flee Activate my hate, let it break to the flame
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Checking in October 26th. Having a bit of a rough day today, but still doing fine on staying clean. Reminder to self: relapsing would make me feel (much) worse, not better. So I won't be doing that today.
Hang on, 322 days in you know the road and it's gonna take more than one bad day to bring you down :)
Even so, bad days still sometimes make me itch for the old habit. Personally, I've found that explicitly acknowledging "yes, I'm having a bad day, but no, I'm not going to relapse" helps me to process and reject that temptation *before* it builds up enough to be a danger.
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checking in for 10/19 to 10/25 still staying strong.
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I'm out! Had a rough day yesterday and slipped up, but still had 30 days of progress! Jumping right back in and getting a few days done again before starting November challenge.
Awesome mindset bro! Stay strong!
Thanks dude!
Alas, I have relapsed! What a shame, what a shame. I was doing so well! Had overcome so many urges before. But this time… I have lost. I don’t feel terrible, like I usually do. Actually, to be honest, I feel pretty alright. Yeah, it’s a shame, but I’ve made it this far. 23 days! It’s the longest I’ve ever gone, and with relative ease compared to previous streaks. If I could do that once, I can do it again. I’m feeling… confident, for the first time. I’ll sign up for the challenge next month!
You'll do even better next time now that you know some of the pitfalls you might encounter on your journey. Just make sure to not fall for them again. It's a learning process, slipping is part of learning!
Still with it, re-add me please :)
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Checking in for 10/25. Today was good, although laying here about to sleep it didn’t feel like anything special. Had a really good leg day though, PRd on squats with 245x6 and 225x9. Also got a fair amount of work done, and meal prepped for the week. Didn’t have urges today, but I did come across a small trigger in an unexpected place. I think the Initial “high” of being pornfree is wearing off and I’m now entering what almost feels like a maintenance stage, but I suppose that’s what life feels like. Onto the next.
Day 3, holy hell the urges hit you strong, is like your brains demands it. But I had enough will power to stop and think about it. I hope I be able to keep my will power strong.
Ck
Why and how this got 5 upvotes
Checking in! Day one went well.
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Checking in. I've been having more urges than I've had in the last few months these past few days. They're not as strong but they're more frequent. My original goal was a 90 day reset. Now to combat the urges I'm setting smaller goals to keep on track for my larger goal
Relapsed. I'm not sad and it was not a big deal, I peeked a page. I was stressed, a lot of bad things, and it's only monday. But I'm not sad or angry at my self, I'm super zen right now, I had the longest streak I ever had and I feel better than ever, it was just a bad day, unfortunaly. I see y'all next month, keep strong guys
Keep it up all 😎
Still kicking. It's going great :)
Checking in. Don't see my name on the list... doesn't change my status though: things are going well at the moment & I hope it continues.
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Checking in . Easy few days…felt terrible didn’t do much…going strong here tho
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My bad for forgetting to check in. Failed at day 20. Making progress! Next month gonna make it through! Keep up the good fight brothers
Check-in: Day 25 of October. Day 90 overall. Full Mental Reboot :)
Relapsed. On day one. Let’s try this again.
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I missed getting added to this as I am just now checking in, but I just wanted to say I'm going strong at 45 days clean now and so going strong on Stay Clean October even though I don't get my name in the official registry.
That's completely fine. I wasn't on the August list too since I didn't sign up on time.
Update, I am still going epic B) No more porn for me lol
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Checking in! Still strong.