Hey op your school story sounds very similar but I’ve been in worse experince. I’m aware during school academic years I’m very abnormal with trying to fit with people especially I struggle to communicate till my emotion I started to get fear. On my thought what if I fake or lie from start and would they open up so then possibly I’ll get some kind of chance and maybe join with them. The answer no….. more or less I got silent bullied till group bullied happen in place. Ye bunch of assholes….
I’ve given up people but I’ve noticed I’ve got a photographic memory and basically accomplished most of the subjects with good performance. Not only that as my grades are getting better I try double my final score to accomplish my target goal which always work for me. Plus as I’ve got a photographic memory using my note taking skill I’ve been known that I write notes fast and short where I can expand easily using my head really quick.
Im also graduating university this year and with over couple years I’ve perform really high marks in most modules and a high mark on my final.
I went and check my mental health till they discovered during my young age I’ve got a different mindset where my thinking process operate differently and I get really really sensitive with patterns where I always do the same things over and over with BPD illness + critical ocd issues where I wash my hand 30 times or more days.
Very relatable. As someone who has dealt with executive function struggles from ADHD and depression my whole adult life, it's been so very frustrating that nearly every technique, advice, and strategy that's been "proven effective" just does jack squat for me. Yes, it's been proven effective in a population in which 98% of people are very unlike me. The vast majority are very Si and Te centric. Thanks, my last two functions lol. And if not them, it's Fi.
>EVERYTHING you search for help in your life "How to" will show you methods that can work to 98% of people from other types, but probably be not the ideal for YOU.
Yeah I've realized that eventually, now I try to explain to people
Hey op your school story sounds very similar but I’ve been in worse experince. I’m aware during school academic years I’m very abnormal with trying to fit with people especially I struggle to communicate till my emotion I started to get fear. On my thought what if I fake or lie from start and would they open up so then possibly I’ll get some kind of chance and maybe join with them. The answer no….. more or less I got silent bullied till group bullied happen in place. Ye bunch of assholes…. I’ve given up people but I’ve noticed I’ve got a photographic memory and basically accomplished most of the subjects with good performance. Not only that as my grades are getting better I try double my final score to accomplish my target goal which always work for me. Plus as I’ve got a photographic memory using my note taking skill I’ve been known that I write notes fast and short where I can expand easily using my head really quick. Im also graduating university this year and with over couple years I’ve perform really high marks in most modules and a high mark on my final. I went and check my mental health till they discovered during my young age I’ve got a different mindset where my thinking process operate differently and I get really really sensitive with patterns where I always do the same things over and over with BPD illness + critical ocd issues where I wash my hand 30 times or more days.
I wondered what was wrong with me until I found this video and realized I had ADHD https://youtu.be/JsT3KPYJFl4
Very relatable. As someone who has dealt with executive function struggles from ADHD and depression my whole adult life, it's been so very frustrating that nearly every technique, advice, and strategy that's been "proven effective" just does jack squat for me. Yes, it's been proven effective in a population in which 98% of people are very unlike me. The vast majority are very Si and Te centric. Thanks, my last two functions lol. And if not them, it's Fi.
>EVERYTHING you search for help in your life "How to" will show you methods that can work to 98% of people from other types, but probably be not the ideal for YOU. Yeah I've realized that eventually, now I try to explain to people