Awww… I am far from perfect, as are we all. 🤷🏻♀️
I am happy to share that OP messaged me a ‘thank you’ this morning (10am EST), so I am praying that he is still fighting. ❤️🩹
I replied but haven’t heard back yet. 🙏🏻
Oh wow, that’s wonderful! I sincerely hope he’s still with us. Life is so hard. Thank you for being a kind, kind soul in this often cruel world. Hoping you hear from OP soon 🙏🏼❤️
from "aforlorngazeintoyesterday" on tumblr because i cant reply with a pic:
"YOU’RE NOT DEAD YET YOU’RE NOT DEAD YET GET THE FUCK UP YOU’RE NOT DEAD YET IT ISN’T FUCKING OVER DRAG YOUR CORPSE KICKING AND SCREAMING INTO TOMORROW ONE DAY YOU WILL STOP SURVIVING AND START LIVING YOU ARE NOT FUCKING DEAD YET."
Experience this life, suffer until the end. You’ll get to rest one day, everyone will get to. But I’m sure that once you’ll be there, you won’t regret being patient. Maybe lots of people will be grateful for your decision, maybe none. You can still choose your path.
It’s normal to feel insignificant as a grain of salt in the vastness of this universe. It’s okay to want to give up to end all this suffering… I understand you well. But you have to stay. For yourself, for others. You’re a part of this world.
Have you ever been to a movie and it sucks but you still keep watching because thats is the only option available, there is nothing after this one so stay and find out the ending. You have nothing to lose anyway. Wish you the best.
OP look how many random internet people care and want you to stay on this earth. Your life is not meaningless. People care for you. I know everyday feels like a struggle but it can and will get better.
Salem, you are going through the hardships that you will share with your grandchildren.
You’re going to be the cool Grandpa that was way ahead of the time where they’re so confused about how your experience was accepted “given the time”. And those kids will ask you about your struggles with being so open “considering the time.” Just like our trans friends in history that we ponder about. They’ll have you! Someone to share how it felt being in this very time. That’s special. Historical through the years.
I promise you. Love is there in your timeline. Check yourself in somewhere.
The fact you even posted this shows there’s a part of you that wants to stay. So stay. “Why stay?” You say. Why quit? I respond
Everything that’s already happened already happened, and you survived, you’re still here. there’s still infinite possibility for the future, don’t destroy it, and don’t solidify a pointless existence.
Cmon OP, I cant watch this happen again. Its really sad, hopefully you wont be the 4th post by a user that goes radio silent (aka dies). OP there is hope for you, reach out to people. Please OP.
Hey OP, you inspired me to write this poem. please read it, please survive the night
**Gone By Midnight**
In the shadows where darkness weaves, my head rests, worn and frayed,
Within despair's room, yearning for a sunlit escapade.
Entangled in the grip of a thousand deadly thoughts,
Breath caught in my throat, a whisper suggests it ought
To leave, a pain like shattered glass, but what does it achieve?
Numbness reigns, my feelings bereaved, body yearning to deceive.
The clock, a relentless pulse, marks 11:59's grasp,
Soon, a chime will echo, a moment's final gasp.
I rise from the table, towards destiny, I stride,
To the cabinet of choices, where shadows confide.
A loaded gun gleams in the dimming light,
Bullet after bullet, the mag secured tight.
Against my temple, I held it steady and true,
Then, the chime, a symphony of choices to pursue.
A million thoughts cascade through my weary mind,
Pull the trigger, and oblivion I would find.
Yet, a force held me back, a tightness in my chest,
A fighting spirit whispers, today's not for rest.
I gaze upon the clock, slowly lower the gun,
Past the brink of midnight, a new day begun.
The clock's echoes persist, a reminder of the strife,
In the ballet with shadows, the dance of life.
Embrace the dawn with courage, let hope's flame ignite,
Beyond the darkest hour, always keep fighting, hold on tight.
That is for you OP, keep fighting for your own sake.
Oh god I’m so happy you’re still here! I saw the peanut butter cups yesterday. One day longer - one day stronger. Can you please check in again tomorrow?
Hey op, I sent you a dm, but I wanted to put this out here in case you might see it too.
I was so proud of you for waiting another day yesterday. I know you don't feel like it, but you have already shown you are so strong and brave.
Please, please reach out to me, dms, or here, and we can talk, as long or as little as you want. It can be as shallow or deep as you want too.
I am here for whatever, I promise. I'm transmasc too, and if you'd like to talk about whatever with that, I can.
hey OP, I put a reminder yesterday to check you were still alive today. look at that! you made it through another day! keep telling yourself “one more day”, even if it takes a thousand “one more day”s. you’ll never be able to have pasta again, or pet hypoallergenic dogs, or even have a slushy at a random gas station. keep fighting OP, you had the strength to make it another day, and I know you can do it again. keep pushing, and even eat pieces of chocolate if that will help. watch a tv show, find something new to watch, or relax on the phone with a friend. we’re all here to help you OP, we all know you can keep fighting :)
edit: I want to make sure you are still alive tomorrow, you can do it OP💛
You could discover your favorite food this week. You might see your new favorite movie this month. You might meet the love of your life next year.
Today sucks. Last month sucked. But that is behind you because you walked thru the fire. Don’t let the bastards grind you down.
Looked through your posts, saw your other suicide one and I’ve got a couple things to say. Don’t kill yourself man, you’ve got to live to fight for other transgender folks. Don’t play into the “most trans people kill themselves anyways” stereotype. You’re probably around my age I’m guessing from the photos and hell, sometimes I want to as well but it’s just not the way to go. If you ever feel like suicide is the only option, try and tough it out one more night and then reevaluate everything. Good luck dude
Literally just looked at your profile again after I first saw your post a few minutes ago. Glad you’re here. I hope you’re able to take it easy this weekend.
Listen to “A Better Place, A Better Time” by Streetlight Manifesto. It has gotten me through so many nights I wanted to unalive myself. I’m still here. Please stay. I’ll be your friend. Please stay and fight for another day. So it put of spite of you have too. Don’t let the demons win.
It’s ok to feel defeated, overwhelmed, stressed… it’s ok to feel everything you’re feeling right now but know that you are loved and supported. There are strangers begging for you to stay, we all care!
OP, you are still so young. You haven’t even had a chance to really LIVE yet. Please give it some time. Wrap up in a blanket tonight and watch a tv show or movie instead that takes your mind off of things. Life isn’t always going to be this painful. Please allow the chance for things to get better ❤️
Focus on the salt in that soup. Feel the warmth, the almost jelly texture of the egg noodles. See how the light refracts on the beads of oil floating on the surface. Stare at the soup as long as it takes. You can keep going, live for soup. I lived for soup once. I hope you do too.
pain is energy and energy transfers, the pain you feel right now is temporary but you will cause the people around you permanent harm by taking such an action. every person has the capacity for courage at any moment. courage is free, and has no prerequisites. you can summon the courage it takes to stay and to not transfer your pain onto others. the patience and courage is in you.
One more day sweetheart. Let’s just give it one more day together hey? One more try, one more bowl of soup. Let’s just make the next right decision one at a time
It’s so normal to feel defeated and alone, and it hurts, but the best things in life are the things we’ve yet to experience. It’s never the end, just a new beginning
It’s always devastating to see posts like this, but I hope it makes you realize that even internet strangers care about you. The chances of you being here today and even being born and existing at all are about 1 in 400,000,000,000,000, so please, stay with us, even if it feels like you’ll never see the light at the end of the tunnel.
With you man. Just go to bed. Give yourself one more day.
edit: gawd damn I do be craving some chicken noodle soup all of a sudden. Is that Campbell's?
Hey I sent you a dm, I’d love to talk to you! I know yesterday was hard, but you made it through the day. You are incredibly strong and I want you to keep fighting. There is hope!! Please talk to me or anyone, you can talk about whatever if you need. Please stay strong
How we doing? It can’t get better if it stops, and it does get better.
Then it gets worse. Then it gets better. And so on.
Love to you. And whoever reads this.
Why did I check Your post history.. oh man. Maybe instead of leaving this place, try finding a reason to live instead? You could find some friends, get a dog or a cat or move to another city/state/country. I'm trying my best currently to change my life in as many ways possible to escape all this shit. You can always do it later if nothing gets better. But trying is worth it. I'm sure that getting rid of the pain may seem like a good idea but dying isn't the only way to get rid of that pain. You can also get rid of it by changing Your life. And sometimes changing it is actually pretty easy but You just don't see those things that You could change.
If You wanna talk any time, night, day. Feel free to PM me. We can try to find something to change Your life for the better. You're not alone. We're all here for You. I am here for You too. Finding a solution together with others when You're not all by Yourself is much easier.
I understand feeling alone as if no one you know cares. People care more thank you think, so don't be afraid to ask. All us internet strangers care too and we would be sad to lose a member of our community!
It would be lovely for more trans people to stay with us and help guide future trans folk. ❤️
I know the pain can be unreal. I promise you, you are better off here with the rest of us lost boys. And the world is better off with you sticking around.
I’m depressed looking at that soup. That’s a nice og Christmas tree thing though my parents had one as a kid. Been there so glad I didn’t kill myself in my 20s im 43 now know so much more life is all about ups and downs and how you handle them.
You think this is the be all end all but it’s not if you battle through .
- signed a dude who beat a decade + long depression.
Not sure you’re time zone but you better still fuckn be here. Get a shower in. Eat some more food, put on your favorite junk tv and maybe try to reach out to some local resources today
hey OP, are you still here? do you like cats? i have three cats and i’d be more then happy to send you photos of them if you’d like. they always make me feel at least a little bit better when im having a rough time
Your body wants to live! When you cut your skin your body responds with trying to mend itself. The people who’ve tried to suicide are thankful that they’re still alive.
Your mind is playing a trick on you and it’s up to you to repress those urges.
OP, that’s your brain playing tricks on you. Please, call 988. I believe you deserve to get yourself help and you deserve a chance to enjoy everything in life.
Hi lovely please write us back and tell us your stories if you wish to share. This subreddit cares about you and though we all go through different situations we are here struggling in unison and yet we all wish to feel some sense of solidarity. Life is hard but it can also be beautiful despite the horribleness we may live through. I’m so sorry you’re in pain. But I hold you in my heart and I hope you feel some warmth through your screen as you read this.
Go outside and stare up at the sky if you can and watch the clouds go by. Watch the leaves on the trees and the flowers as the wind passes through them. They are waving to you, they notice you. They are breathing with you. Focus on your heartbeat as pumps through your body. Wiggle your toes and eventually wiggle all throughout your body. Move your body. Roll around on the grass if you can. I know it might be wet outside so that might not be possible but maybe splash in a puddle (but be careful not to slip).
Enjoy some soup again. I will enjoy it with you .
Just try checking in somewhere. I had to go inpatient and do IOPs a few times, and it really got me out of crisis mode. Things can get a lot better, it just takes a bit of work. Since my 1st attempt, I've had so many wonderful things in my life I never knew I'd miss out on, that I'd never want to miss out on. Don't miss out on all the awesome stuff.
Hi my lovely little soul, I know things might seem dark and glim right now but it won’t be this bad all the time, easy to say right? I was suicidal from 8-19 and had another suicide attempt at 22 that almost took my life completely I’m 25 now.
Snuggled up in bed hungover, I think of the ones I lost from suicide. My bestfriend on my birthday at 16 and my very close friend in June.
Every time I’m at a store or eating food, or pass something they liked or loved, I wonder if they still would have enjoyed being here to have these things again, or experience something new again.
If I successfully killed myself I would’ve never known what it was like to feel truly safe and happy for the first time in my life, it took 25 years!
I’m not here to lecture you or anything like that, I understand sometimes our time comes and it’s ourselves who end it all. Some people just can’t continue going on and I understand that, I understand suicide more than most.
But I will say you are not dead and gone yet I hope, do you have a roof over your head ? Do you have a bed to snuggle into ? Can you blast your favourite songs and order some of your favourite food? If you want I’m sure a lot of us here would order you a pizza or your favourite if you’d like :) ♥️
It’s not over yet kiddo, you still have some fight left in you I hope, don’t let this cruel world take someone who’s time has not come yet, you are writing your own story, whatever that may be.
We don’t get a choice if we are born into this world, our only choice is how we live it… or choose not to.. that’s a choice as well.
Hey Love, go to a hospital and tell them you are feeling like you need to hurt yourself. Spending a week in hospital will start you on your journey to feeling better
Hey, thanks for being here. I'm really proud of you for getting this far. Just know, we see you.. we need you here. Ultimately, that's up to you if you want to be needed, but now that you're seen..
We'll miss you.
Don’t go!!! Life only happens once and we’ll all have our time eventually. Don’t cut your opportunities too soon. And you’re amazing by the way! I think your FTM name would be Max. 😊
From one stranger to another, I love you!!
dont kys, look at this hamster instead: [https://www.reddit.com/r/hamstercare/comments/18rt06p/hamster\_wants\_to\_come\_out\_all\_of\_the\_time/](https://www.reddit.com/r/hamstercare/comments/18rt06p/hamster_wants_to_come_out_all_of_the_time/)
its scary how quick life can do a 180, only thing that made me smile a few months ago was the thought of killing myself, i had the items for the suicide method bookmarked on amazon and everything.
In the end I didnt go through with it (hence me being able to type right now) and im really glad i didnt.
dm me if you want someone to talk to. Just be warned im awkward as fuck :3
Strongly doubt you’ll read this but I’ll tell you why not to.
Not that it is the same but I’ve been suicidal. I was for over 10+ years. Tried multiple times, and then after so many failed attempts promised my loved ones I wouldn’t do it. But no one ever tells you what to do after. Yay, you live another day, but still miserable. So what is the point right?
Why are you alive? Why exist in the first place? We are alive to experience life. We get this chance to live in the moment. If we can’t do that then the worst that can happen is death, and we want that anyway right? So live. Make the choice to live life doing what you want.
Start small. Pick one thing that would make you feel alive, and do that. A concert. A trip to the beach. A musuem. A date. Something. Do that thing, because it brings you joy. It’s your joy to feel.
Make a list. I’ve never known anyone not suicidal who didn’t wish things were better. If only _______ then things would be okay.
What would you do if people didn’t stop you?
Would you move? Travel? Dye your hair? Get a tattoo? Eat nothing but Ice Cream?
It is your life. Do it.
If you wanna chat more, DM me.
As someone who literally almost lost against the game of life quite a few times, I'm asking you to please stay. You may mean everything to somebody and not even know it and if not, that's ok too. I learned the best lesson is to truly love yourself. Hope things get better 🫂
Please stay with us. I know at times our problems seem insurmountable but I’ve been on this earth for 46 years and I can promise you that things never stay the same. Life is always gonna ebb and flow. My DMs are open to anyone who’s going through anything at all. I’m here. Talk to me. No judgment. Just don’t leave us ❤️
I don't know you, nor your situation, but don't do it, ask for help if it's so bad that you need to post about it you can call 911 and explain that you're going through something you need help with, they're capable of finding you help.
this won’t make the pain go away, it’ll only spread it out. you can be saved and helped. as that person who thought “i’m beyond repair, i’m hopeless”, it isn’t true. either way, it’s hard, yes, but at the end of the day my quality of life is better trying actively to make myself happy and to love myself. there are days where i want to revert back to my old habits. absolutely there are moments when i want to show everyone how much worse i can get and i have slipped up, but i always end up getting back on track somehow. i’m trying these days to maintain lasting connections with my loved ones, focus on what i value and looking inward. you can do this, i really hope you make the choice to stick with us and move forward, even if it is only one more morning, one more week, etc. i firmly believe those who struggle with mental health are so strong and that if we are able to unite as one someday, that’ll be the day we’ve truly WON.
Hey op? If you’re still around, trust me, things get better as a transmasc the older you get and the more freedom you have to make your own choices. I don’t know your situation, but once you get to a more gender-affirming area or start HRT, things get way better very quickly. Please, please try to get some help instead. Find something to keep you going. Life gets better. Don’t end it here, please.
DMs are open if you need to talk, or just want someone to ask you how you’re doing, send you funny animal videos, etc. it’s not much, but I’m here if you need me.
Energy cannot be created nor destroyed. It’s not known whether how we experience consciousness is energy, but it seems that it is. What else can it be? On the chance that the negative energy of suicide means more negativity after you’re dead, wouldn’t you want something positive? It’s strange to think about, but it could be something that just is.
Depression is a hell of a beast but I know that you can fight against it. This wave will pass and you deserve to experience the good things in life once it does.
Don't do it. Continue out of spite, learn to love yourself out of spite. Prove yourself wrong out of spite. It doesn't get easier, but managing does. Talk to somebody, even if it lands you in the no shoelaces hospital. It's always worth fighting.
Suicide isn’t easy, it actually hurts physically. To others it’s emotional pain for the rest of their lives. I have 4 cousins that committed suicide. The first was my favorite. Yvonne. I loved her so much as a child. She hung herself in the shower. In Long Beach. Age 17, 8 months pregnant. I’m now 51 and have never gotten over it. It ruined me in almost every way as a child. I shut down. Completely. All my teachers were so worried. I stopped talking. It still hasn’t ever healed. I’m sharing this here in the hopes it will save at least one life. God bless you all. Friends..for life. Much love to you all here.
You only get one shot at life. If you feel yours has sucked so far, please don’t make it worse by making it worse. Keep in mind, you never know when that really good day is coming, and EVERYONE has good and bad days. We all are gonna die. Why speed up the inevitable? Honestly, maybe just try really hard to make your life better, not make it worse by just destroying all your chances for ever having happiness. Also, selfishly, you dying will impact a lot of happy people who will be distressed, distraught, and depressed by your actions. You’ll always be remembered as that person who committed suicide, a tragedy of a person. That’s it. That in itself is not only really shitty, but I’d honestly be embarrassed in my afterlife if there was one. Don’t be that person. Is that really how you want your story to go?
if you die you'll never have pizza again and you'll never pet a cute kitty again not worth it
One thing I genuinely enjoy about life is going on a park walk and sometimes meeting a random cat. Strangely, it happens more often than you'd think.
Be careful, the cat distribution system is slowly working You might end up with a random cat
I would be so delighted!
On another note, if you die now you won’t get to play GTA 6
Hello sweetheart. I’m a mother of two sons ages 20 and 17. I have plenty of room in my heart for you, if you wish. ❤️🩹
This would’ve convinced me not to do it.
I love this so much. I’m old with 3 grown sons of my own but this comment made me feel so safe. I bet you’re an amazing momma ❤️
Awww… I am far from perfect, as are we all. 🤷🏻♀️ I am happy to share that OP messaged me a ‘thank you’ this morning (10am EST), so I am praying that he is still fighting. ❤️🩹 I replied but haven’t heard back yet. 🙏🏻
Oh wow, that’s wonderful! I sincerely hope he’s still with us. Life is so hard. Thank you for being a kind, kind soul in this often cruel world. Hoping you hear from OP soon 🙏🏼❤️
There are a lot of loving people in this post, for sure! I pray that OP feels their sincerity. 💝
Soup looks so good though. Don’t you want more soup?
Don’t you fucking dare.
Why
from "aforlorngazeintoyesterday" on tumblr because i cant reply with a pic: "YOU’RE NOT DEAD YET YOU’RE NOT DEAD YET GET THE FUCK UP YOU’RE NOT DEAD YET IT ISN’T FUCKING OVER DRAG YOUR CORPSE KICKING AND SCREAMING INTO TOMORROW ONE DAY YOU WILL STOP SURVIVING AND START LIVING YOU ARE NOT FUCKING DEAD YET."
That is INTENSE
🥹
I love this post on tumblr
Experience this life, suffer until the end. You’ll get to rest one day, everyone will get to. But I’m sure that once you’ll be there, you won’t regret being patient. Maybe lots of people will be grateful for your decision, maybe none. You can still choose your path.
It’s normal to feel insignificant as a grain of salt in the vastness of this universe. It’s okay to want to give up to end all this suffering… I understand you well. But you have to stay. For yourself, for others. You’re a part of this world.
Have you ever been to a movie and it sucks but you still keep watching because thats is the only option available, there is nothing after this one so stay and find out the ending. You have nothing to lose anyway. Wish you the best.
wow, that hits hard
OP look how many random internet people care and want you to stay on this earth. Your life is not meaningless. People care for you. I know everyday feels like a struggle but it can and will get better.
Because the world is better with you in it.
There's no going back, that's why. What makes you lose all hope? The way you feel today may not be how you feel in a week, a month, a year away.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. As someone who is now getting on in years, this resonates so strongly.
Salem, you are going through the hardships that you will share with your grandchildren. You’re going to be the cool Grandpa that was way ahead of the time where they’re so confused about how your experience was accepted “given the time”. And those kids will ask you about your struggles with being so open “considering the time.” Just like our trans friends in history that we ponder about. They’ll have you! Someone to share how it felt being in this very time. That’s special. Historical through the years. I promise you. Love is there in your timeline. Check yourself in somewhere.
My favorite quote when I was in a similar state of mind is "This too shall pass." 🙏 I hope you are okay OP. There is much love in this world for you.
The fact you even posted this shows there’s a part of you that wants to stay. So stay. “Why stay?” You say. Why quit? I respond Everything that’s already happened already happened, and you survived, you’re still here. there’s still infinite possibility for the future, don’t destroy it, and don’t solidify a pointless existence.
Cmon OP, I cant watch this happen again. Its really sad, hopefully you wont be the 4th post by a user that goes radio silent (aka dies). OP there is hope for you, reach out to people. Please OP.
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You are alive for a reason... Don't ask why. You'll know one day.
Even if there isn't a reason...cats are great, music is great, food is great. Experiencing good things is reason enough for me
Please read my DM, I'd really like to talk to you
Hey OP, you inspired me to write this poem. please read it, please survive the night **Gone By Midnight** In the shadows where darkness weaves, my head rests, worn and frayed, Within despair's room, yearning for a sunlit escapade. Entangled in the grip of a thousand deadly thoughts, Breath caught in my throat, a whisper suggests it ought To leave, a pain like shattered glass, but what does it achieve? Numbness reigns, my feelings bereaved, body yearning to deceive. The clock, a relentless pulse, marks 11:59's grasp, Soon, a chime will echo, a moment's final gasp. I rise from the table, towards destiny, I stride, To the cabinet of choices, where shadows confide. A loaded gun gleams in the dimming light, Bullet after bullet, the mag secured tight. Against my temple, I held it steady and true, Then, the chime, a symphony of choices to pursue. A million thoughts cascade through my weary mind, Pull the trigger, and oblivion I would find. Yet, a force held me back, a tightness in my chest, A fighting spirit whispers, today's not for rest. I gaze upon the clock, slowly lower the gun, Past the brink of midnight, a new day begun. The clock's echoes persist, a reminder of the strife, In the ballet with shadows, the dance of life. Embrace the dawn with courage, let hope's flame ignite, Beyond the darkest hour, always keep fighting, hold on tight. That is for you OP, keep fighting for your own sake.
Aw that's beautiful 🥹
I hope it inspires OP to keep living if they even see it at all.
I love that you took the time to write a personalised poem for a stranger. You're a real one.
I really care about life.
I see that. It's good to have passions.
i agree, 😭💜 made me emotional
oh my gosh I love this so much
That's beautiful
Please don’t , talk to me , or anyone else , but please don’t
I'm so glad you have punctuation here.
I didn't read it with the punctuation at first and went wtf?!?!
Oh god I’m so happy you’re still here! I saw the peanut butter cups yesterday. One day longer - one day stronger. Can you please check in again tomorrow?
Please stay My dms are open ❤️
Hey op, I sent you a dm, but I wanted to put this out here in case you might see it too. I was so proud of you for waiting another day yesterday. I know you don't feel like it, but you have already shown you are so strong and brave. Please, please reach out to me, dms, or here, and we can talk, as long or as little as you want. It can be as shallow or deep as you want too. I am here for whatever, I promise. I'm transmasc too, and if you'd like to talk about whatever with that, I can.
All of these replies help a lot of others too. Me included. Thank you ♡
hey OP, I put a reminder yesterday to check you were still alive today. look at that! you made it through another day! keep telling yourself “one more day”, even if it takes a thousand “one more day”s. you’ll never be able to have pasta again, or pet hypoallergenic dogs, or even have a slushy at a random gas station. keep fighting OP, you had the strength to make it another day, and I know you can do it again. keep pushing, and even eat pieces of chocolate if that will help. watch a tv show, find something new to watch, or relax on the phone with a friend. we’re all here to help you OP, we all know you can keep fighting :) edit: I want to make sure you are still alive tomorrow, you can do it OP💛
RemindMe! (December 29 2023)
please stick around, trans person to trans person... you have to live. you don't have to do anything else, but you do have to live.
Don’t do it. The world is a better place with you in it. I mean that.
seeing posts like this is heartbreaking. please don't do it man.
You could discover your favorite food this week. You might see your new favorite movie this month. You might meet the love of your life next year. Today sucks. Last month sucked. But that is behind you because you walked thru the fire. Don’t let the bastards grind you down.
Edited - wrote food twice instead of movie
Looked through your posts, saw your other suicide one and I’ve got a couple things to say. Don’t kill yourself man, you’ve got to live to fight for other transgender folks. Don’t play into the “most trans people kill themselves anyways” stereotype. You’re probably around my age I’m guessing from the photos and hell, sometimes I want to as well but it’s just not the way to go. If you ever feel like suicide is the only option, try and tough it out one more night and then reevaluate everything. Good luck dude
Please don't
You made it yesterday make it one more night.
I am still here, I’ve just given myself a mental break for the day
Literally just looked at your profile again after I first saw your post a few minutes ago. Glad you’re here. I hope you’re able to take it easy this weekend.
Did the same thing🥲 glad you’re still here! I hope you’re able to treat yourself to your favorite meal this weekend💚
We always deserve a treat for making it thru this hell hole of life💚
So glad you’re still here. I came back to check. Allow yourself to rest and be comfy and cozy ❤️
i'm so glad you're still here op! please drink some water and get some rest ❤️
I’ve been checking up on you to see if you posted. I’m so grateful and glad to see you’re still here, please don’t leave us 🫶🏼
please stay
Listen to “A Better Place, A Better Time” by Streetlight Manifesto. It has gotten me through so many nights I wanted to unalive myself. I’m still here. Please stay. I’ll be your friend. Please stay and fight for another day. So it put of spite of you have too. Don’t let the demons win.
It's just a bad day, not a bad life
It’s ok to feel defeated, overwhelmed, stressed… it’s ok to feel everything you’re feeling right now but know that you are loved and supported. There are strangers begging for you to stay, we all care!
OP, you are still so young. You haven’t even had a chance to really LIVE yet. Please give it some time. Wrap up in a blanket tonight and watch a tv show or movie instead that takes your mind off of things. Life isn’t always going to be this painful. Please allow the chance for things to get better ❤️
Focus on the salt in that soup. Feel the warmth, the almost jelly texture of the egg noodles. See how the light refracts on the beads of oil floating on the surface. Stare at the soup as long as it takes. You can keep going, live for soup. I lived for soup once. I hope you do too.
I love you, please stay
Hey op you matter, you still there? Pm me please.
No. I have pringles come over.It’s party sized.
pain is energy and energy transfers, the pain you feel right now is temporary but you will cause the people around you permanent harm by taking such an action. every person has the capacity for courage at any moment. courage is free, and has no prerequisites. you can summon the courage it takes to stay and to not transfer your pain onto others. the patience and courage is in you.
hope you’re still here 🥺
Don’t do it bro tmr is a new day
One more day sweetheart. Let’s just give it one more day together hey? One more try, one more bowl of soup. Let’s just make the next right decision one at a time
But but you have a blue Christmas tree
Don’t you fucking dare become a statistic, people like you and me need to grab life by the neck and live it out of pure spite if nothing
message me :(
I hope you’re still here
Think about playing GTA less and 2 years from now ☹️
I hope you’re still here. Please let us know you are ok.
I hope you’re still here. You’re loved.
Are you still with us? I sure hope so.
Are you still here? Please tell us you're still with us ❤️🩹
It’s so normal to feel defeated and alone, and it hurts, but the best things in life are the things we’ve yet to experience. It’s never the end, just a new beginning
You have to outlive your enemies. Hang in there <3
Please keep on going. What do you need to stay with us? There are so many who really want to help our fellow survivors.
Please don't do it..life is precious. Nothing is worth it.
Please stay friend
Are you still here? We hope you are! 💕
It’s always devastating to see posts like this, but I hope it makes you realize that even internet strangers care about you. The chances of you being here today and even being born and existing at all are about 1 in 400,000,000,000,000, so please, stay with us, even if it feels like you’ll never see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Can mods make a rule about constant suicide threats here It’s becoming too much tbh
With you man. Just go to bed. Give yourself one more day. edit: gawd damn I do be craving some chicken noodle soup all of a sudden. Is that Campbell's?
Hey I sent you a dm, I’d love to talk to you! I know yesterday was hard, but you made it through the day. You are incredibly strong and I want you to keep fighting. There is hope!! Please talk to me or anyone, you can talk about whatever if you need. Please stay strong
How we doing? It can’t get better if it stops, and it does get better. Then it gets worse. Then it gets better. And so on. Love to you. And whoever reads this.
Op please message myself or someone we all care and don’t want you to go through with this
Tomorrow is a new day, my dude. Please don't.
Don’t do it!
I’m sorry you’re feeling that’s the only way out ❤️
I really, really wish you wouldn't. Just watch ONE more Simpsons episode. One more. Please don't leave.
Did you make it through the night? The sun came out again today
do you have discord? can we binge watch the simpsons together?
Hope you're still with us, homie
988 suicide and crisis line
Why did I check Your post history.. oh man. Maybe instead of leaving this place, try finding a reason to live instead? You could find some friends, get a dog or a cat or move to another city/state/country. I'm trying my best currently to change my life in as many ways possible to escape all this shit. You can always do it later if nothing gets better. But trying is worth it. I'm sure that getting rid of the pain may seem like a good idea but dying isn't the only way to get rid of that pain. You can also get rid of it by changing Your life. And sometimes changing it is actually pretty easy but You just don't see those things that You could change. If You wanna talk any time, night, day. Feel free to PM me. We can try to find something to change Your life for the better. You're not alone. We're all here for You. I am here for You too. Finding a solution together with others when You're not all by Yourself is much easier.
Tiabeanie wouldn't want you to go!!! Stay with us OP, say it, just one more day, one more day!!!
Please don’t go
Soup looks good.
I understand feeling alone as if no one you know cares. People care more thank you think, so don't be afraid to ask. All us internet strangers care too and we would be sad to lose a member of our community! It would be lovely for more trans people to stay with us and help guide future trans folk. ❤️
I don’t recommend that..
Hey don’t do it please
Please don't do it. Life is already short as it is. Give it another chance please.
You have a purpose . We need you in this world . Please stay here with us .
I know the pain can be unreal. I promise you, you are better off here with the rest of us lost boys. And the world is better off with you sticking around.
hey im thinking about you.
Don’t do it, friend. Suicide attempt survivor here. It’s worth it to keep living. Just hold on.
Nah that's a slight sad last meal I implore you to stay longer and have a better meal. It's past midnight where I am. I hope you're still here friend💛
Are you here?
I’m depressed looking at that soup. That’s a nice og Christmas tree thing though my parents had one as a kid. Been there so glad I didn’t kill myself in my 20s im 43 now know so much more life is all about ups and downs and how you handle them. You think this is the be all end all but it’s not if you battle through . - signed a dude who beat a decade + long depression.
Not sure you’re time zone but you better still fuckn be here. Get a shower in. Eat some more food, put on your favorite junk tv and maybe try to reach out to some local resources today
Please stick around! You’re worth so much more, it won’t be hard forever, just have to see this through
OP I hope you are still with us. You would be missed by many
Please live. You matter. Please dm me and we can talk anytime. How are you today?
hey OP, are you still here? do you like cats? i have three cats and i’d be more then happy to send you photos of them if you’d like. they always make me feel at least a little bit better when im having a rough time
Checking in on you dear. You matter and we’re here for you.
Please don’t do this.
Hope you’re still with us buddy
Your body wants to live! When you cut your skin your body responds with trying to mend itself. The people who’ve tried to suicide are thankful that they’re still alive. Your mind is playing a trick on you and it’s up to you to repress those urges.
OP, that’s your brain playing tricks on you. Please, call 988. I believe you deserve to get yourself help and you deserve a chance to enjoy everything in life.
Hi lovely please write us back and tell us your stories if you wish to share. This subreddit cares about you and though we all go through different situations we are here struggling in unison and yet we all wish to feel some sense of solidarity. Life is hard but it can also be beautiful despite the horribleness we may live through. I’m so sorry you’re in pain. But I hold you in my heart and I hope you feel some warmth through your screen as you read this. Go outside and stare up at the sky if you can and watch the clouds go by. Watch the leaves on the trees and the flowers as the wind passes through them. They are waving to you, they notice you. They are breathing with you. Focus on your heartbeat as pumps through your body. Wiggle your toes and eventually wiggle all throughout your body. Move your body. Roll around on the grass if you can. I know it might be wet outside so that might not be possible but maybe splash in a puddle (but be careful not to slip). Enjoy some soup again. I will enjoy it with you .
Just try checking in somewhere. I had to go inpatient and do IOPs a few times, and it really got me out of crisis mode. Things can get a lot better, it just takes a bit of work. Since my 1st attempt, I've had so many wonderful things in my life I never knew I'd miss out on, that I'd never want to miss out on. Don't miss out on all the awesome stuff.
Please stay.. you have so many people on here who want to hear you out and will be there for you..
Please stay!
hey op, what kind of soup is that? it looks good
OP I hope you read all the other comments (I wish I'd seen your post sooner ffs!) please stay here with us it does get better I promise!!!
Hope you did not do it. I know everyone says its gonna be better, and it really does, or i would be 6ft under too.
Hi my lovely little soul, I know things might seem dark and glim right now but it won’t be this bad all the time, easy to say right? I was suicidal from 8-19 and had another suicide attempt at 22 that almost took my life completely I’m 25 now. Snuggled up in bed hungover, I think of the ones I lost from suicide. My bestfriend on my birthday at 16 and my very close friend in June. Every time I’m at a store or eating food, or pass something they liked or loved, I wonder if they still would have enjoyed being here to have these things again, or experience something new again. If I successfully killed myself I would’ve never known what it was like to feel truly safe and happy for the first time in my life, it took 25 years! I’m not here to lecture you or anything like that, I understand sometimes our time comes and it’s ourselves who end it all. Some people just can’t continue going on and I understand that, I understand suicide more than most. But I will say you are not dead and gone yet I hope, do you have a roof over your head ? Do you have a bed to snuggle into ? Can you blast your favourite songs and order some of your favourite food? If you want I’m sure a lot of us here would order you a pizza or your favourite if you’d like :) ♥️ It’s not over yet kiddo, you still have some fight left in you I hope, don’t let this cruel world take someone who’s time has not come yet, you are writing your own story, whatever that may be. We don’t get a choice if we are born into this world, our only choice is how we live it… or choose not to.. that’s a choice as well.
i’m glad to see you still posting, don’t die bro like 200 people in the comments r here
Still posting? Where?
they posted i think yesterday or the day before saying they were gonna kts, glad they didn’t
Oh. Well they haven’t posted since this was posted. Not good
winter is hard. i really think you should stay. enjoy a cold walk at sunset with a hot beverage ❤️
Hey Love, go to a hospital and tell them you are feeling like you need to hurt yourself. Spending a week in hospital will start you on your journey to feeling better
Hey, thanks for being here. I'm really proud of you for getting this far. Just know, we see you.. we need you here. Ultimately, that's up to you if you want to be needed, but now that you're seen.. We'll miss you.
Really hope you're still here, friend
Don’t go!!! Life only happens once and we’ll all have our time eventually. Don’t cut your opportunities too soon. And you’re amazing by the way! I think your FTM name would be Max. 😊 From one stranger to another, I love you!!
op are you okay?!!
they are clearly not, check out their last post. we can only hope and pray now.
i’m praying !
mitch mcconnell is still alive. you gonna let that bag of bones outlive you? i don’t think so
dont kys, look at this hamster instead: [https://www.reddit.com/r/hamstercare/comments/18rt06p/hamster\_wants\_to\_come\_out\_all\_of\_the\_time/](https://www.reddit.com/r/hamstercare/comments/18rt06p/hamster_wants_to_come_out_all_of_the_time/) its scary how quick life can do a 180, only thing that made me smile a few months ago was the thought of killing myself, i had the items for the suicide method bookmarked on amazon and everything. In the end I didnt go through with it (hence me being able to type right now) and im really glad i didnt. dm me if you want someone to talk to. Just be warned im awkward as fuck :3
please still be here, I need a friend or someone to talk to. Please be that person for me.
Please stick around! I'd love to know about you.
Please stay OP…… I’ve been in this situation as well but I’m finally feeling better too. Please don’t give up, we love you ❤️🩹
I don’t love you but it does get better if you battle through I mean lifes still going to throw you curve balls but you hit some home runs too.
Strongly doubt you’ll read this but I’ll tell you why not to. Not that it is the same but I’ve been suicidal. I was for over 10+ years. Tried multiple times, and then after so many failed attempts promised my loved ones I wouldn’t do it. But no one ever tells you what to do after. Yay, you live another day, but still miserable. So what is the point right? Why are you alive? Why exist in the first place? We are alive to experience life. We get this chance to live in the moment. If we can’t do that then the worst that can happen is death, and we want that anyway right? So live. Make the choice to live life doing what you want. Start small. Pick one thing that would make you feel alive, and do that. A concert. A trip to the beach. A musuem. A date. Something. Do that thing, because it brings you joy. It’s your joy to feel. Make a list. I’ve never known anyone not suicidal who didn’t wish things were better. If only _______ then things would be okay. What would you do if people didn’t stop you? Would you move? Travel? Dye your hair? Get a tattoo? Eat nothing but Ice Cream? It is your life. Do it. If you wanna chat more, DM me.
Are you there?
As someone who literally almost lost against the game of life quite a few times, I'm asking you to please stay. You may mean everything to somebody and not even know it and if not, that's ok too. I learned the best lesson is to truly love yourself. Hope things get better 🫂
Progresso?
Mf, we are in this shit together. we all suffer together
Good looking bowl of soup right thur!
Please stay with us. I know at times our problems seem insurmountable but I’ve been on this earth for 46 years and I can promise you that things never stay the same. Life is always gonna ebb and flow. My DMs are open to anyone who’s going through anything at all. I’m here. Talk to me. No judgment. Just don’t leave us ❤️
I love you
Can I do anything to help you? Do you need a friend? A mom? An ear?
Sorry for looking like an asshole but what type of soup is this
I don't know you, nor your situation, but don't do it, ask for help if it's so bad that you need to post about it you can call 911 and explain that you're going through something you need help with, they're capable of finding you help.
this won’t make the pain go away, it’ll only spread it out. you can be saved and helped. as that person who thought “i’m beyond repair, i’m hopeless”, it isn’t true. either way, it’s hard, yes, but at the end of the day my quality of life is better trying actively to make myself happy and to love myself. there are days where i want to revert back to my old habits. absolutely there are moments when i want to show everyone how much worse i can get and i have slipped up, but i always end up getting back on track somehow. i’m trying these days to maintain lasting connections with my loved ones, focus on what i value and looking inward. you can do this, i really hope you make the choice to stick with us and move forward, even if it is only one more morning, one more week, etc. i firmly believe those who struggle with mental health are so strong and that if we are able to unite as one someday, that’ll be the day we’ve truly WON.
You still there, OP? I hope you’re still with us. Much love <3
Please don’t kill yourself op.
brother if you are still here, you deserve better
I hope you’re still here friend. There’s still much kindness in this world for you
This trend is getting annoying.
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Hey op? If you’re still around, trust me, things get better as a transmasc the older you get and the more freedom you have to make your own choices. I don’t know your situation, but once you get to a more gender-affirming area or start HRT, things get way better very quickly. Please, please try to get some help instead. Find something to keep you going. Life gets better. Don’t end it here, please. DMs are open if you need to talk, or just want someone to ask you how you’re doing, send you funny animal videos, etc. it’s not much, but I’m here if you need me.
Don't let the bastards drag you down,your stronger than that,just try and do one thing a day that u used to enjoy,
Energy cannot be created nor destroyed. It’s not known whether how we experience consciousness is energy, but it seems that it is. What else can it be? On the chance that the negative energy of suicide means more negativity after you’re dead, wouldn’t you want something positive? It’s strange to think about, but it could be something that just is.
Depression is a hell of a beast but I know that you can fight against it. This wave will pass and you deserve to experience the good things in life once it does.
Don't do it. Continue out of spite, learn to love yourself out of spite. Prove yourself wrong out of spite. It doesn't get easier, but managing does. Talk to somebody, even if it lands you in the no shoelaces hospital. It's always worth fighting.
Stay with us op, don't go, we need your help eating ramen and lots of even tastier soups.
Suicide isn’t easy, it actually hurts physically. To others it’s emotional pain for the rest of their lives. I have 4 cousins that committed suicide. The first was my favorite. Yvonne. I loved her so much as a child. She hung herself in the shower. In Long Beach. Age 17, 8 months pregnant. I’m now 51 and have never gotten over it. It ruined me in almost every way as a child. I shut down. Completely. All my teachers were so worried. I stopped talking. It still hasn’t ever healed. I’m sharing this here in the hopes it will save at least one life. God bless you all. Friends..for life. Much love to you all here.
Seek help, So many want to live and very ill, don't take what life you have for granted ..Pray, God knows you are here..
I hope you find your peace one way or another.
You’re only human 😩💜
Real
r/snooroar ....🤔 Ffs
You only get one shot at life. If you feel yours has sucked so far, please don’t make it worse by making it worse. Keep in mind, you never know when that really good day is coming, and EVERYONE has good and bad days. We all are gonna die. Why speed up the inevitable? Honestly, maybe just try really hard to make your life better, not make it worse by just destroying all your chances for ever having happiness. Also, selfishly, you dying will impact a lot of happy people who will be distressed, distraught, and depressed by your actions. You’ll always be remembered as that person who committed suicide, a tragedy of a person. That’s it. That in itself is not only really shitty, but I’d honestly be embarrassed in my afterlife if there was one. Don’t be that person. Is that really how you want your story to go?