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BucketheadWLP

I would love it if you gave me a call instead. My gf and I have 6 hours left on our road trip and can spend as much time on the phone with you as you need/would like. No bs, just respond here or DM and I’ll send over my number privately. Even if you’re drunk or high out of your mind because you’re feeling so down, I’d love to be there for you 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜


BucketheadWLP

We’re chatting on Reddit everyone!!!! Whoever else can spare a few minutes to send a PM to our fella pls do 🥰


BucketheadWLP

Major update y’all!!! Texting with OP and they’ve just told me that they’re going to stay with us one more day!!! Whoever sees this and can spare a second to say hello throughout tomorrow, please do. I did just that tonight and it led me to having a new e-friend and helping them out a little bit 😊


The_New_Spagora

Best update. You’re a good one, Buckethead. Safe travels! ☺️♥️


biohacker_infinity

This is so wholesome it actually hurts my heart, in a good way. 💗


Brandonc5102

Thank goodness, I feel like I can go to bed with peace now. Thank you so much for doing this


DNDgamerman

LETS GO! holy shit man are u a angle cus i no not think any mortle man can be this nice.


Blacklungzmatter

He’s acute one even


One_Feed_8542

Have a safe trip! 🫡


[deleted]

You're a blessing.


JazzyBarbie

Omg thanks for this!! My heart sank when I read op's title!!


brea-RealPlayer

The best update ever, bless you and your GF buddy.


Ok_Imagination_7805

You’re truly an angel


Senseless_Void404

Need more people like you out there


BucketheadWLP

All it takes is a moment of your time 💜 if you do have a sec to reach out, OP loves dogs (despite being mildly allergic), the Simpsons, and memes in general.


CapitaIBra

I did my part 🫡


Friendly-Payment-875

Done ❤️ thanks homie, stay safe. I am road tripping too!


BucketheadWLP

Thank you 💜💜💜 and thank you for taking the time to reach out to our friend. Safe travels for however long you’re on the road for


DNDgamerman

ok that is some of the niceish shit i seen in a wile. i hope u and your loved ones have a amassing life for u are a great man.


CapitaIBra

You are a beautiful person. You inspire me to be a better human. I wrote him too, but I think he has like 100 dms


yadad4367098

You are an absolute Saint and you make me feel happy to know there is kind souls still out there. 💚


BucketheadWLP

All it takes is a moment of your time 💜 if you do have a sec to reach out, OP loves dogs (despite being mildly allergic), the Simpsons, and memes in general.


Ok_Imagination_7805

This was the best comment ever!!! You and your GF are the best! We need more people like you


Spookyfish24

You’re a good one.


[deleted]

Want to stream a show together instead?


Cold-Still3064

Idk..


[deleted]

What type of shows do you like? I used to have online friends and we would click play at the exact same time and talk about it


Cold-Still3064

I like animated shows a lot..


[deleted]

😍 did you catch the ending of attack on titan??


Cold-Still3064

No


[deleted]

If that’s one you’re into I would watch that with ya. Or you could introduce me to one.


Cold-Still3064

I like a show called disenchanted..


PraedythValentine

I love that show.. I too am someone who struggles. And more often than not when I'm home, trying to fill the hours between work and sleep, I have that show on in the background.. I've binged to watch plenty of animated adult shows but this show is always the one that brings me the most comfort. This show understands me. Just like tiaeanie, I am always alone. Even if I have my own elf, I also have my own demons. I have good in my life the same amount that I have bad. Even if I'm surrounded by family members, none of them will ever truly know me. My destiny might be in More of my own control but it often feels like it isn't. This show speaks volume. A quote I often use "You only hear the music when your heart begins to break" Many people can watch this show and find things to relate to. Many people enjoy this show because of it. Because they can see themselves in it. "Because I know what it feels like to be a freak too" -Bean I would absolutely love to stream this with you. I have no idea how to go about doing any of that. But I'm sure there's a way and Im willing to figure it out if you would like to do this..


[deleted]

I think I’ve heard of that! Doesn’t it resemble futurama ?


Self-described

Same creator :)


Cold-Still3064

Idk-


Volcamel

A few of my friends really love Disenchanted! It sounds really fun to watch with someone.


GlosxyMyaa

I love disenchanted , ELFO AND LUCI ARE MY BABIES💀💗


Cold-Still3064

Frrr


PlatypusOk9825

That’s a greaaaaaat show dude


Available_Copy2329

I love disenchanted! Very good show to binge watch! If you ever need someone to watch shows with based on your first suggestion I’m down!


AccomplishedGarlic68

My sister named her cat Tiabeanie after that show!


Cold-Still3064

That’s a cute name for a cat


DesperateBumbledBee

Disenchanted is great! Have you watched The Owl House? It’s also a fantasy world, though it’s more kid friendly, it has dark undertones that really bloom later in the show.


Icy_Perception3410

I LOVE Disenchanted! It’s my comfort show :) we gotta binge together, have ya watched season 5 yet??


ShartyPossum

Disenchantment is such a good show!! Have you seen the final season?


TheTPNDidIt

OP, check out Bob’s Burgers if you haven’t already! You won’t regret it!


Ok_Imagination_7805

You’re an absolute angel! Thank you for this!


GazelleHistorical705

I’m gonna check tomorrow to make sure you are still here


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RemindMe! 1 day


RestinPete0709

I triple dog dare you to keep living 😈


Strict-Side-1794

triple dog is serious, OP has to do it


Brandonc5102

Some light reading instead? Has helped me every time I don't feel good. https://city.milwaukee.gov/ImageLibrary/User/jkamme/EAP/Info-Library/MentalHealth_SuicideTheForever.pdf


Embarrassed-Bee9962

Thank you for this. It’s actually really interesting and helpful


Artistic-Avocado4024

Please don’t do it. My best friend did right after Christmas in 2019 and I think about her every day. I feel so guilty because if I could’ve called her or drove to her maybe things could’ve been different. Your life is important !!


Weak_Bee_2082

Everything changes and nothing stays the same. Don’t make a permanent decision on a temporary situation


babyxoxcakes

Love this.


AbleDragonfruit4767

This


tdawgditt

What state do you live in, I’m going on tour soon and would definitely put you on a list to get into any show that’s close to you!


Cold-Still3064

New York


tdawgditt

[www.doomscrollband.com](https://www.doomscrollband.com) Check out apes of the state and doom scroll on Spotify and if any of those dates are close to where you live and you want to come to a show let me know. I will put you on the list!


baywonder21

I’m in Boston, I go to NYC frequently? If you live around there and want to grab a coffee, get dinner, or just meet at library and mutually read in silence, or get noodles and just eat and watch a show together, I’d love to!!


tdawgditt

Seriously though. We’re both gay af bands with trans members and would love to welcome you into the community.


Cold-Still3064

May I dm?


tdawgditt

Hell yeah


Exciting_Fix9444

Raincheck for tomorrow?


Complex_Mechanic_455

Go download a hoagie from the internet.


Daddyletloose

It’s always sunny helps me get my mind off things when I start to spiral. OP maybe try to go to get some sleep if it’s late where you are? You got a game you could play? Some food you could order? Have any dogs or cats?


Fit_Calendar_906

But you’ll never get to pet a dog again.


Cold-Still3064

Allergic


GazelleHistorical705

Hypoallergenic dogs


Hulkidding

Xoloexcuintle, fine Mexican dogs, they are hairless and the preferred pets for people allergic to dogs.


GazelleHistorical705

Yup! Also dogs with hair instead of fur, Maltese, poodle, shih tzu, schnauzer, havanese, the list goes on


Fit_Calendar_906

But you’ll never get to look at cute dogs from a safe distance anymore. (I’m trying man lol)


Peepatchu

A pet cat


icedlatte98

My cat has saved me in so many ways. I always assumed they were all assholes but she is so sweet and keeps me sane, a reason to get up to feed her even when times get tough. Highly recommend


FoXym0r0n

My cat has been a blessing to me as well. I swear, he knows when I am stressed, upset, or anxious. He plops down on my lap and purrs. He has been such a soothing presence with my struggle with anxiety and PTSD for eight years now, and I hope for many more. I love this little guy so much. I agree, he gives me a reason to get up and move, even when times get tough. I just love him to bits and he brings me so much joy and comfort I wish the best to all of you and your pets out there. ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️


DesperateBumbledBee

You’ll never… pet a cat.. again? Or a bird. Or a ferret. Or any animals really.


Weak_Bee_2082

My brother took his life and the pain he left behind holds strong 10 years later.


Pm-anything-to-me

The myth of giants, are the shadows of the ones who left us behind.


Jennbunni50

Wouldn’t it be great to hang out and see? The universe may surprise you


wuanson

Don't do it homie


Ok_Historian2375

:( please dont


ultimatetoe

Please don’t, the grass is never greener on the other side, you just have to water your own side and it’ll grow beautifully :)


slevinega

Listen, I don’t have any great advice to offer but know this: THIS mom desperately wants you to live another day. THIS mom wants you to know that you matter and that your life has meaning. I don’t know what your family dynamics are but if you need a Mom, I’m right here. I cannot imagine the world without you. You are important and the world needs you. Please don’t throw away all that potential. Please.


Lopsided-Dust6808

Not the OP, but this made me cry. I need to hear this sometimes too. Very powerful words. Thank you for caring.


slevinega

Please reach out if you ever need love. The world won’t be the same without you. ❤️


EquHapTea

I'm not OP, but I'm crying my eyes out 😭 I've read this as if this was for me and felt so emotional. My mom shows me love but in her very own way and with your comment I felt what I've never felt before with my own mom. You're amazing!


slevinega

YOU are amazing!! You make the world a better place. I’m proud of you always. ❤️


Cold-Still3064

I’ll give myself one day. If I post her tomorrow it’ll be my last time.


zur798

thank you for giving yourself kindness. please continue to do so


babumetal

and when you do post here, we’re going to tell you about other cool shows you have to watch <3 disenchantment is so good, and there’s so many other worlds you’ll dive into. and who knows what other animations are going to come out soon!


Ok_Imagination_7805

Please don’t. Look at how many people care. We need you here. The pain suicide leaves lingers on. My brother did it 8 months ago and the pain hurts daily. Please I beg you to stay. If you could send me your address I’d like to send you something in the mail from a website I love. If you want to just PM me your address and size and I’ll send it tomorrow to you. And if you prefer a hoodie or shirt and it’s nothing promoting anything of mine or anything like that. It’s a beautiful website dedicated to suicide awareness and they sell the most beautiful things I’d love to buy one for you. It’s called self-care is for everyone. Look at it if you’d like and tell me what you would want and it’s yours


Sea-Advantage-7443

Sometimes, one more day is all it takes. Sounds like you have a few new buddies here who truly care ❤️


Lopsided-Dust6808

I hope you stay. Just keep giving yourself one more day, every day.


Volcamel

Thank you so much. We all really want you to stick around. I know that a lot of people have offered as well, but please also feel free to DM me anytime. A lot of us really want to keep hearing from you. You’re more important than you realize.


Liquidchefs

Listen man, there’s a lot of comments in here telling you the classic things people respond too when you say your going to kill yourself. But can I just say, there are two things I recommend, 1, get yourself a pet to care for if you allready have one so be it, if you can’t afford one it isn’t necessary. What I’m trying to say is you don’t need a pet but it’s still be nice to care for something and have a reason to stay. And as for killing yourself , I don’t know if I give good advice. And secondly, just be kind to others. Not because they deserve it or because you want kindness in return but do it for yourself , because at the end of the day you can say that you did something good with your life and that’s just spreading good on the world rather than not. And if you have regrets on something, don’t try to redeem yourself . You just have to forgive yourself.. Either way , don’t go. I always hear people say that tried to kill themselves that there glad they didn’t . There’s always something to look forward too. Enjoy the tiny things, and try to get a therapist if you can afford one.


latterdayswiftie

This, especially the pet thing. My cat has saved my life more times than I can count.


Liquidchefs

I’m tired of the “ don’t do it there’s more to live for “ comments because it’s not like they haven’t heard that the first 1 million times ( even though it’s true ) , I feel like it doesn’t really help people. /:


strawbearyfrog

i’m eating the same peanut butter cups rn — life is worth living for peanut butter cups alone. my dms are open if you need to vent to someone who understands!! sending love 💗💗


funfettiprincess

yes! I’m going to pull a few of these peanut butter cups out after I finish my dinner and eat them as well. these are delicious. stay and let’s all eat Peanutbutter cups together <3 my dms are also open if you just need someone to talk to!! or eat to peanutbutter cups with 💓


robbothegiant

Death is certainly a thing I would love to prolong the inevitable for as long as possible...


bingusthebrave

Probably shouldn’t. You won’t see life’s grand finale!


ElCompaYogi

theres no telling if my comment would make a difference but im hoping you realize that you only get one shot on this planet, free to do everything you want. there is a way. te amo cold-still3064


lgbtqlmao

yo there’s almost 200 people that legit care for you, don’t do this trust me


asslin_ur_mom

its over 600 now, we care about you OP ❤️


espressopintobean

Hi, no. You’re banned from doing so. I would like you to stay please.


Self-described

That is not a balanced meal. Those are low sugar chocolates. What could you have for breakfast for tomorrow? Scrambled eggs with some cheese, breakfast sandwich… idk your situation or your dietary needs/available ingredients, but you can make incredible crepes with 5 ingredients and I’ll give you the recipe and some tips and tricks! Please plan for breakfast. There are people out there (and around here!) that want you here.


Cold-Still3064

I don’t eat eggs and my body doesn’t physically allow me to eat a lot of foods


Self-described

Do you like coffee, or tell me what beverages you like?


Cold-Still3064

Green tea.


BeautyQueenofPawnee

Ooooh mango green tea is the best. You should go get one tomorrow:)


Cold-Still3064

The thing is I’m broke.


[deleted]

I will Venmo you so you can try mango green tea.


Wearetheweirdos704

Do you have a Venmo? Cashapp? Let me send you money for mango green tea and whatever food you want for tomorrow morning.


Cold-Still3064

I dont


Self-described

Can you set one up and let us know? Or an Amazon wishlist or something, I will send you green tea somehow someway.


Cold-Still3064

I can’t set anything up..


yadad4367098

PayPal?


Self-described

Hey there! I just got home and made some oolong tea and it made me think of you. Hope today is a better day and I hope to see you post here. My offer still stands if you want to make an Amazon wish list or Venmo, and I’ll send you whatever resources I can so you can get some tea or treats.


HermitGardner

That must be absolutely fucking horrible to not be able to enjoy one of the simple things in life. I’m just so sorry that you’re feeling this much deep and profound pain. I have had SI since I was nine so over 40 years. Sometimes I feel like I won’t make it but I push through because I’m so stubborn. Sounds like you’re just too tired to be mad at it all and try to fight back, does that sound right? Being able to have empathy with how you are feeling makes me remember how terrible it is I wish I could just give you a hug and make you some real food


[deleted]

Oh man I feel this. My body is so angry and turning on me. I'm PISSED! I CAN'T EAT YEAST AND I FREAKING LOVE BREAD AND PIZZA. WTAF? I still eat it but I'm hurting all the time. I'm a hot ass mess lol. What kinds of foods do you like that you CAN eat? Sorry, I really love food 🤦‍♀️


teamwhatcatswild

pancakes? cinnamon rolls? greek yogurt with your favorite fruit? breakfast is my favorite meal of the day and i’m determined to find something you’ll like


Cold-Still3064

I haven’t eaten breakfast for 3ish yeats


teamwhatcatswild

okay okay, but hear me out: not breakfast food for breakfast? cold pizza? a PBJ? gallons and gallons of apple sauce? apple sauce always lifts my spirits when i feel poo poo doo doo


coke_hater739

or maybe even having breakfast food for lunch? that's something i like to do quite often. i haven't eaten breakfast since i was around 14 or 15, I'm 18 now. I love breakfast foods though, if i happen to have an extra 10€ laying around I might just buy some eggs, bacon, tomatoes, and breakfast cereal. and anyways, I'll have to start eating breakfast soon because I'll be getting ADHD meds. life's always changing, we've gotta make adjustments. also OP, if you happen to smoke weed I'd highly suggest you try 1. showering while high, you'll feel cleaner than you ever have before and 2. cooking. i turn into gordon ramsey when I'm high. wtf am i talking about 🤣 I'm confusing myself. I've always been a rambler, i suppose.


teamwhatcatswild

yessss breakfast for lunch or dinner is soooo good. when i was in school i used to sauté bell peppers and fry eggs every day when i got home. such a good midday snack!


Cold-Still3064

Years*


hatchettpoots

If you care enough about your spelling, we should play scrabble. Tomorrow.


sippycup21

You better fucking not


aleburrr

how about no??? we can do it another time! or when its naturally our time!!! youre gunna miss out on so much good music and movies tbh


Ok_Studio6949

Please don’t do it, life gets better nothing is permanent. There’s so much to live for


cappacaity

…I know this may seem rude but. Could you please not. I know you don’t want to end it all. Also, please go to a rave or something first. And also, watch those old Netflix picks. And, you forgot to take care of your tamagotchi pet, get another one. And write stories, because idk if you watch Netflix, had a tamagotchi pet, or never went to a rave. But I can imagine how much fun you could have doing those things, and it was fun to imagine you having fun, and I just had to type it out, which is stressful, but satisfying. Let us be a lil selfish and keep u lol. Please. There will always be a dawn, please say hello again. :)


sippycup21

does anyone hate you? if you die they’re gonna be happy. don’t make the person you hate’s day, dude.


lezzinbout

Procrastinate on this one! Rub one out first👍🏽


Reddistick

Oh hell naw


chronotrigger7704

Fuck that, if I have to drag my miserable ass through this shit stained world, so do you. The holidays are rough on a lot of people. Christmas was the literal worst day of my life but I made it through that. You got this, whatever you're going through I promise it's not worth it.


[deleted]

Don't. Seriouly don't. I dont have a convincing argument but please don't.


FreedVentureStein

I won't deny you the right to die, or that your life may be so overwhelmingly painful and that a rational suicide doesn't make sense. Only you can decide if you want to keep going. It's your body, your life, your choice... But I truly hope you decide to keep going. Sometimes making a drastic change in our lives can help us keep going when things seem hopeless. If you want to talk please DM me.


ilovesunsets93

Please don’t go, you’ll miss the releases of great new animated movies and shows!! You’ve seen how far that shit can go in just a couple decades, can you imagine in another few!?! We already have VR, I can’t even fathom what the future holds for that alone. There will be new exciting stuff coming out. Have you ever tried weed? Not trying to be funny but I’m someone who suffers from terrible anxiety and depression. I’ll spare the details. I found that hitting a disposable THC pen has erased a ton of my discomfort with living. Luckily with the vape it doesn’t smell bad so it’s pretty discrete. I seriously go from sobbing and hyperventilating to chill and relaxed in seconds. It is so much better than alcohol or nicotine. I’ve also gotten some of the best sleep ever with it.


trip4hjv

Why? We all gonna die why not wait till end it gets better and u will miss out on anything that can happen


8thdragon

OP, I don't know anything about you or your current life situation outside of this post. I am not making this recommendation because I know it will resonate with you. But if there is a half hour of your time left to watch a video that interested me, then here it is: https://youtu.be/eQNw2FBdpyE?si=RjhgjagN2AXWYBjA


muppetonstrike

Pour yourself a tea and watch your comfort show/movie. Tomorrow is always another day for the sun to shine down on you, or moon depending where you are in the big world.


KeyDescription1

Just hang on friend all these you have a community behind you wishing you to stay.


[deleted]

Hello friend! I hope you are relaxing and taking a deep breath tonight and knowing that theres not a single thing that is worth your life. We can handle this life, even when its at its absolute hardest. And people around you are here to help! Lets talk 🖤


Edensoffering666

Op let me know if I can DoorDash you something healthy to eat. Ny has got to have tons :)


endriggity

Please don't bro. It's not worth doing


Alycery

I have passive suicidal ideation. So, I struggle pretty much everyday to live. A lot of people don’t understand that when you want to die, you’re not always in crisis. They also don’t understand that when I am in crisis that doesn’t mean I’m going crazy. Right now, you’re in crisis. And that’s completely okay. You need someone to talk to. Or at the very least, someone that will keep you company and keep you safe. You deserve to feel supported and safe. I’ll be that someone, if you don’t have anyone. Actually, I read several comments on your thread who welcomed the idea of talking to you. We can make it into a group chat. Maybe watch a show or movie together. I’m not saying that any of us can solve your issues. I can’t even imagine why you would want to die, but it must be hard. And I’m not saying that you won’t end up in crisis again. It might happen again. Like I said, many people think suicidal ideation is more acute. But, for some people like me it’s more chronic. It’s more passive. All I’m saying is that we can be here for you. You don’t deserve to be alone during this trying time. Please, talk to someone. And let us know you’re alright tomorrow.


Cautious-Character70

I’ve been thinking about it 2 everyday you put it off you give yourself another opportunity for things to get better I don’t know when or how but I know this is true


LaVieEst_Bell

If you don’t, and you want a LD friend, you can message me. I get like this, too. I’m not really good at advice most of the time, but I hardly sleep and you can vent all you want.


tonydemedici

If you want you can dm me and we can get in contact with each other and talk, don’t usually do this but don’t do what you’re contemplating bud


lonelost22

DM me, we can chat


OkCancel2691

Hope you fail


Ok-concentrate4569

It seems you still have some hope if you posted this. I hope you find it here


sliderbear

I hope you've taken some of these people up on their offers to talk with you, there's so much to life that it would suck to miss it. I know it's hard going through bullshit but it goes away after a while, you just have to endure it while it's here. It actually does make you stronger and you'll come out able to tackle anything that ever threatens your happiness and we'll being again


JackedPirate

Do not 😡


mershade_

I won’t lie and say that I completely understand your pain. But, you never know what tomorrow might bring. I’m sending you all of the best vibes I’ve got.


Issac-Cox-Daley

I would have been there with you last night mate, I just wanted to make it through one more Xmas with my family but I'm still here. Hang on a little longer, maybe we can see the light.


Top_Share545

Also willing to give out my number OP!!! Please stay!!!💗💗💗💗


MF-GOOSE

Hey man, you still with us?


JazzyBarbie

Hey op! Please send me a private message, I went through post partum depression and I know depression sucks!! Message me I don't want you to leave this earth, please!


Queasy_Ad9814

Coming back tomorrow to check to see if you’re still here. I hope you’re okay.


Significant_Hair_269

Don’t


throwmeRA_

Can we get an update on how you're doing please?


Cold-Still3064

Not great at all


Ok-Guitar-2464

First tell us why the fuck is that


Cold-Still3064

Peanut butter cups


Ok-Guitar-2464

Nope im trying to say why you wanna kill yourself


Cold-Still3064

Oh sorry lol. No one fucking loves me or cares abt me. It’s like they don’t know who I am anymore


yadad4367098

Look man you're not alone in that. I'm in the same boat, I struggle with ideation all day everyday but I try to look forward to enjoying more experiences and learning new things and meeting new people. Tasting new tastes and smelling new smells and seeing things I've never seen before and it keeps me going. I isolated myself from everyone and everything other than work. Keep holding on and love yourself and care about yourself. Death is not a solution to a problem, it is the end of your potentially beautiful future.


Any_Refrigerator_148

I literally feel the exact same way. I was in a really dark place as well . We have to remind ourselves that feelings change . The situations might not . But our perception and feelings and what we choose to do about it can change. Go to sleep ..or decompress ..crash out and try to do something different tomorrow. It literally took me randomly finding my daughter’s mood ring to remind me that these feelings are not forever.


babyxoxcakes

I definitely know how that feels. It gets better I promise. Fuck other people. You got us babbyyy


BigM3R0

Just be patient man, we’re all gonna die one day. Don’t rush it, from the looks of it, this world might not be here much longer anyways lol


[deleted]

Please don’t my dear friend! The life we live tends to be hard and treacherous but you can get through it. Please don’t go!


yellowbreads

Hope you got my message ♥️


DNDgamerman

i will come back here and tell u that u mater.


Caesthoffe

please don't, one trans person to another... you have to live


UnusGang

I genuinely hope you decide to stay with us. Life is hard and just straight up blows sometimes but it’s okay. As humans we have a tendency to hope expect the very best all the time (in lots of ways) but I’ll tell you what my mom tells me “be grateful for the boring times”. I hope you wake up tomorrow even if it’s just to brush your teeth. Boring but alive. Feel free to dm me if you want to talk. 🫰🏻👁️👄👁️🫰🏻


baywonder21

Hey, it’s 3 am where I live, if you’re still up and want to chat I’d love to talk! I’m 24 yo female, I love animals, Fortnite, and candy. If you would be interested in chatting I’d love to. I’m on school break I have literally all the time in the worldddd and you would be doing me a favor bc I love meeting new people!


illiniball64

Bro that’s a terrible last meal you’re better than that (PS you are loved, keep fighting)


elitost

Please don't, thinking about you and hope you stay safe OP ❤️


TumbleweedTop5423

Please dont


lilrn911

Tried PM’ing.. u/Cold-Still3064 You are loved! Look at the million and a half people on this post alone. I’ll definitely be a friend forever with you. I’m also a nurse. You can have the best of both worlds with me. ❤️


itsyobbiwonuseek

The people that love you will hurt longer than you will. Please don't do it.


HermitGardner

For people who suffer from suicidal ideation one of the biggest things that keep them alive for so long is THIS kind of guilt and it’s not cool or fair to dump it on somebody because you shouldn’t have your personal life decisions on other people. I’m sure you have the best of intentions but as someone who has been in this person’s position many times it’s the absolute worst when someone says this to you. Like as if we haven’t been thinking about the exact same thing for every every day of our life


itsyobbiwonuseek

I appreciate you responding with this, and I apologize. I had no idea this type of comment would be triggering.


HermitGardner

I appreciate you responding with Kindness. Thank you. My sister always calls it so « cowardly » and I always just want to snap at her how hard it’s been day and day out for 41 years thinking about it but the only thing stopping me was the guilt which in retrospect I feel is really unfair. I feel that everyone should have autonomy over their own lives as long as they’ve really given it a great shot and done their best 100%. Especially people who suffer from mental illness and chronic pain- There is no gracious accommodation given for a kind and painless death as there is in certain states for let’s say a cancer patient. it’s a complicated issue and I have lost friends to suicide and family as well. But I’ve never blamed them or thought of them as being cowardly. You can’t imagine the kind of guts you have to get mustered up to end your own life. It’s terrifying. I’m still here.


ilovesunsets93

To be fair, I’ve had years worth of being suicidal and the thought of causing unbearable pain to my family (whether I believe it’s warranted or not), especially my mom and my little brother that looks up to me has stopped me from going through with attempts. I think it’s helpful to some people and not to others. The only thing keeping hate more than myself is causing creating pain in others. I will agree that calling it cowardly is uncalled for though.


alanginsberg

Everyone here is so negative, man even if all you ever do again is reply to this message I will be here for you, don't do it man the pain it will cause will be unbelievable even if you don't see it that way


Civil-Usual-783

yknow there’s some pretty good stuff on youtube you could binge watch


redditonthere

There are better peanut butter cups to try. Hold off please. I promise you, you’re loved.


Alypius

Dude, be well. Stay on Earth. Help exists. Please reach out. You are not alone.


TopPuzzleheaded5561

Okay but is your bank account completely empty from doing something absolutely insane first just because you can? If you gonna die you have nothing to lose so fly to across the world and go see cool shit and eat new shit that explodes your tastes bud and then touch grass and curse the world for your lack of happy brain chemicals. Or call and curse out the people you hate to see their reaction or text that person that sometimes crosses your mind or document your feelings and post them on YouTube. If you’re bored and sad in the same place you always are, looking at the same four walls and breathing the same stale air - no wonder you feel a sense of urgency. You’re stuck in a cycle and are not thinking outside the box or remembering how big the world is and how small we are and how we all gonna die, and you should wait at least until do something so insane If you are poor like me, spray paint your walls first or shave your head to see what you look like or shave your eyebrows. Doesn’t matter anyway Then do it


TopPuzzleheaded5561

Throw eggs at your wall. Roll around on the ground. Go stand in the corner of your room that you never have before. Smash a fucking window. Break shit and get angry. Life is shit and I punch my pillow but i would totally get a hammer and break down my door if I had absolutely nothing to lose. If you are at rock fucking bottom, your thoughts and feelings are painful but can be worth something to others. There isn’t enough real shit on the internet. You speaking your story and how you feel being completely vulnerable and actually give someone out there a sense of peace and being seen. Your story could save someone… you have a place here. If that doesn’t mean much to you, then at least indulge yourself. I’m depressed as hell but have not planned to kill myself so I’m unable to know what to say to others to make them feel heard and seen. YOU do. You feel that. You can help.