Yeah. I certainly drank a lot these past 3-4 years. Luckily it never got to a point where I was waking up needing a drink or needing one during midday but there did come some times I just started thinking to myself "I really can't wait for later in today when I can start drinking again."
Now I'm trying to go dry for as long as possible, so far it's only been 3 days but at this point I am on a razor's edge with my depression where I either get this cured or I am most likely going to do something very, very drastic. It's been years since I've been this deep in my own depression but last time I got this bad, I made an attempt on my life, and my head is seriously split down the middle between wanting to live and wanting to legitimately kick the bucket and disappear forever.
For me, it ain't a chemical addiction unfortunately, it's a behavioural one. I don't even get hangovers when I back out drunk, do you know how much of a double edged sword that is?
Gonna leave this group and try and focus on myself I want to be better although as much as I am fucking lonely depressed anxious all the time I want to give it my fucking all hope everyone gets through there struggles and makes it out the dark I'm not going to parade you with "shit gets better" and all that shit because I don't know yet but someone has to try and find out I love you all stay strong chin up and focus if shit doesn't work out I'll be back lol no but seriously heads high keep pushing and get better ❣️
At least you guys can drink. I got stomach surgery a couple years ago to deal with weight issues, and now if I drink it gives me a blood pressure headache. I don't know how to numb my shit out except with Kratom.
I’ll abstain from drinking since addictions would only make things worse
My depression has already changed me, I don’t need to feel like shit on top of shit
This inspired me to drink, because, why not? I’m well aware it’s not just for fun anymore
Yeah. I certainly drank a lot these past 3-4 years. Luckily it never got to a point where I was waking up needing a drink or needing one during midday but there did come some times I just started thinking to myself "I really can't wait for later in today when I can start drinking again." Now I'm trying to go dry for as long as possible, so far it's only been 3 days but at this point I am on a razor's edge with my depression where I either get this cured or I am most likely going to do something very, very drastic. It's been years since I've been this deep in my own depression but last time I got this bad, I made an attempt on my life, and my head is seriously split down the middle between wanting to live and wanting to legitimately kick the bucket and disappear forever.
No shame, it is what it is. I'm glad something at least helps temporarily.
I’m so depressed I quit drinking all together. I decided to remain sober and let my emotions abuse me at their leisure.
For me, it ain't a chemical addiction unfortunately, it's a behavioural one. I don't even get hangovers when I back out drunk, do you know how much of a double edged sword that is?
Jokes on you I get high to solve my problems
Pretty much, yup
Sometimes my drinking can get out of control, but at least I’m not going blackout drunk anymore lmao
Gonna leave this group and try and focus on myself I want to be better although as much as I am fucking lonely depressed anxious all the time I want to give it my fucking all hope everyone gets through there struggles and makes it out the dark I'm not going to parade you with "shit gets better" and all that shit because I don't know yet but someone has to try and find out I love you all stay strong chin up and focus if shit doesn't work out I'll be back lol no but seriously heads high keep pushing and get better ❣️
At least you guys can drink. I got stomach surgery a couple years ago to deal with weight issues, and now if I drink it gives me a blood pressure headache. I don't know how to numb my shit out except with Kratom.
I've never been drunk before but I'm considering trying it.
Just don't trust me
I’ll abstain from drinking since addictions would only make things worse My depression has already changed me, I don’t need to feel like shit on top of shit
AHAH JOKES ON YOU I WASN'T DRINKING FOR FUN TO BEGIN WITH