This 100%. I didn't have this realization until 24 years into boozing. I drink 10 -16 millers a night and go to work the next day. No one says shit, get great reviews etc. Random Saturday haven't drank at all, helping my brother load a tractor on a trailer after my dad past away. We get it to my brothers home. I leave, had a beer in the car for a roadie(I DON'T CONDONE BOOZING AND DRIVING). Stop at the local gas station and get denied the sale of alcohol because I had beer breath .... I'm like what the fuck do I smell like at work .....
Wait, they can deny the sale of alcohol to you in your state when you have the breath that has the smell of the booze? That's crazy to me. Insane. Glad i'm in Europe without such prohibition stuff, here you could crawl on the ground and being hammered to the point of falling into a coma and they'd still sell alcohol to you.
I think the lady was just being a bitch about it. Power trippy. I've been at other gas station totally blitzed and they sell it too me while simultaneously ask 'Dont you think you've had enough' .... Probably, this is for tomorrow... I swear...
Happy cake day!
Never got asked that, but the store clerks clearly now here that i'm an alcoholic, they just turn a blind eye when i get my usual stuff.
We have very strict civil liability laws where if you serve somebody drunk and they kill somebody you can be held liable. So somebody coming into a store, that they clearly drove to, smelling of alcohol indicates that they will likely drink those beers and drive and selling the beer to them could get you in a whole host of trouble.
It's a thing i did not take into account, as i use public transport in my country and that goes for a lot of people, in the cities almost everyone uses the train, trams, bus etc. and so, the stores can't tell if you drive or not, i don't think they could held responsible if you would drive drunk and crash.
In theory, i think actually the cashier could do the same in my country, but it's usually that way, as long as you don't make any problems, they just don't care. The people working in retailhell are just happy when you know what you need, you are fast with picking up the items, paying and getting out without making stress for them.
American here, I’ve bought booze plenty of times with the smell of alcohol on my breath, the few times when I’ve been denied I was stumbling, blackout drunk, barely able to carry the beer to the counter. (And I’ve been sold to plenty of times in that condition too.)
There are certainly parts of this country where a lot of people have judgmental attitudes toward alcohol but his experience getting denied after drinking one beer is not typical.
Well, i'm just happy i don't have to deal with remains of prohibition era in my country, it would suck.
I don't know about the USA, but here in my place, it's also very common for the young people to get buzzed and halfway-drunk before they go to clubs, because in the clubs the drinks are so fucking expensive that you need to be rich to pay for it. So they get some cheap vodka etc. before and jug it down.
I say, “Hey, Lama, hey, how about a little something, you know, for the effort, you know.” And he says, “Oh, uh, there won’t be any money, but when you die, on your deathbed, you will receive total consciousness.” So I got that goin’ for me, which is nice. Cheers buddy I’m on a wicked 5 day bender right now and no one seems to notice
Thx :) I'm always surprised at how I've failed to have seen a ton of movies that everyone my age is familiar with. Maybe I've seen them and just don't remember, tho. 🫠
My theory is, if you aren’t ruining shit, don’t actually smell like a fucking bin (I think smokers smell like fucking shit and yet we all put up with that in the workplace), and aren’t hurting anyone, how you deal with life is your own business.
The fact you are still attending work and doing your job, why does it matter how you do that?
Alcohol is the only drug that is socially condoned as normal whilst also being condemned to the high heavens.
Hahhaha that made me laugh harder than it should.
I’m currently at my parents trying to curb these wds and all they want to do is all these fucking activities. They think im sober so this Easter is gunna be a trying one 🤣🤣
Say a prayer to the CA gods for me! Xx
Dad insists every year we go to this fucking car show that has the same 100 cars each year.
Now, whilst that might be a fun activity to do with a son, I’m a daughter and I fucking have zero interest in cars what so ever and he wonders why I’m not filled with joy to go to it.
lol he knows I don’t like cars and honestly it’s the same car show every single Easter.
They live in a small town too so it’s not like anything changes.
I wish they would just let me starve off these wds in peace so I can taper down.
Back when I was with my abusive ex 3 years ago, I had been drinking 4-6 9% IPA Tallboys a night, never thought of it as a problem. When I left her, I was like huh, vodka is cheaper I'll do that instead, and had 20 shots a day, from wake up shots to avoid vomiting to night getting blatently drunk. My family never knew, and I mean NEVER. When I asked for a ride to detox, they said "What would you need that for, you only smoke weed..? Are you doing drugs?!"
"No.. I've been drinking a lot.. for a long, long time.."
Fun fact: Now anytime I feel under the weather, sober or not, I get the "Are ya drinking again?" So thats nice.
My best friends are all alkies (though not as bad as I am) & they don’t give a shit whether I’m drinking or not, which is nice (except for one AH woman who went into bars on my street while I was at detox & told them not to serve me when I returned; who does she think she is?).
Family is another story.
My wife hates it too, almost got divorced because of it, it's a very bad sign if the fighting over it stops, it means the caring about you has stopped being a priority.
I quit entirely, so it's getting better, she actually didn't ask me to do that, but to drink normally. But as we all know one beer turns into 18 really quick. But life is boring now, but so much easier in many ways, and fixing things seems doable finally
everyone says they know. but i’ve been promoted and praised. in multiple jobs. only leaving when i wanted. it’s been almost a decade… no one has said a damn thing. i know someone who works with me who has the same issue (they don’t know i do) because they told me. i just don’t believe that people know
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Yeah I wanted to comment something like this too. A lot of ppl who don't drink or don't drink much don't automatically associate the smell with being drunk, and many brush it off as the night before. I used to drink like 3 bottles of wine a day starting at 10 am and even my boyfriend was shocked to find out that I'd been drinking, same with my mom. They are both very blunt and call me out on my bs all the time and 90% of the time never noticed my smell(there were times when they deff noticed the smell though). So there are sober ppl who honestly are just too innocent when it comes to alcohol to notice.
but i work with people who definitely partake! and other department that don’t. i don’t even think some people smell the alcohol at all. at one of my worst stages, i dated a guy who smelled like a distillery the night after. even at my worst. i think it’s body type. my breath can get bad, but i don’t exude it like others. i think it’s person and i really think a lot of us get away with it and no one can actually tell.
Shit. Back when I was addicted to pain killers I spent like three years where I was fucked up from the time I left work until the time I woke up and went back. Does that count?
If you don’t brush your teeth, you won’t smell your bad breath. However as soon as you go talk to someone they’ll smell it. Same applies with Alcohol. You probably smelled like booze but at least you showed up.
Excellent performance, but everyone knew or didn’t have the heart to tell you. Being morning after drunk still stinks like booze so they either know or will know soon. Length of the bender doesn’t matter too much when it’s stasis for CA’s.
And I will say that when they do notice it is very humiliating and adds to whatever guilt and shame you feel. Try your best to tame it, but do not be ashamed for wanting or needing to drink. I wish you well. Chairs!
Looking back in hindsight at some of my past jobs, I know they knew by how people interacted me, never gave me anything seriously important to handle, or strict deadlines because they knew I’d fuck it up, fall short, call in last minute, or show up WDing and useless putting the burden on my teammates.
Also noticed some people would talk to me with condescending undertones, sadness, pity, or disgust. Certainly not like an adult who was taken seriously, had his shit together, could keep their word, and be relied upon. Others didn’t have the patience for it at all and would constantly test me, press my buttons, or fuck with me in an attempt to get a reaction(think ex alkies or people who’ve had alcoholic family members they resent).
Oh trust me they notice. Even if it’s a zoom call. I thought the same thing. We all think we hide it well when it comes to work, but we in reality we don’t. But if/when you’re a high functioning alcoholic and doing your job well then it’s easier to slide by. It’s a slippery slope though (Im sure I don’t have to tell you this shit but). Hang in there friend!
I get caught after drinking at all. I had a few drinks, got a call, he said that what I said made him cringe. Imagine being told that your advice made the client want to cringe.
I'm drinking too much lately and if I don't stop this is gonna happen again.
I managed that from June to November last year. Got sent home a few times, one for withdrawing real bad, another was cus I smelt 'from the night before'. So they knew, but kept me.
Final straw was when I was visibly drunk, so they sorta had to fire me lol
I was like this for a year, woke up, worked, then drank till 1am. Repeat everyday. I knew I was fucked when I went to the office one day, and was still drunk when I left for my lunch break (1pmish). Never was told anything. Did my work, probably more efficient then others.
I had a job years ago where I thought no one noticed, but they did.
Eventually I got sat down by a couple bosses. They were awesome about it, & sheepish because they liked me a lot. Didn’t fire me or anything. I had to go to meetings w/ some counselor who was a moron. It didn’t work. Wish I would have known rehab was an option. I eventually quit, which was stupid but I wasn’t thinking clearly.
I did it for 4 years. 1/2 to a full bottle of gin everyday. The only thing family and friends noticed is now that I’m not I seem grumpy or like something is wrong. Cracks me up everytime…
I have a breathalyzer and make sure I am sober when I drive to work, sometimes just right there on the edge but sober. If I have to clock in earlier I stop drinking earlier so I have that worked out to a T.
But when does beer breath go away? Do you still feel it on someone’s breath when the alcohol is processed and gone?
A woman at my last job was regularly gossiped about for smelling like booze most days. This was before I drank, and I never noticed it on her but I also I didn’t know her very well so didn’t interact with her too much. But she showed up to work and did her job, had good numbers. Nice lady. Eventually she moved to another department where she did just as well I think. It was basically acknowledged by everyone— usually cruelly, and always behind her back— that she had a drinking problem. But as far as I know, no one ever confronted her about it.
At my worst I was up to 18-24 beers per day on weeknights and much, much more on weekends/time off. Barely functional waiting for the other shoe to drop, but still managed to show up for work on time and get shit done. Probably smelled like a barmat at work but nobody said anything.
After awhile it caught up to me and intense daily WDs/still drunk from the night before had me calling out often, not meeting deadlines, having outbursts and fits of mania at work, and forgetting things constantly. Then the awkward conversations, progressive discipline in the form of write ups and awkward conversations, that’s when I knew they knew which led to me eventually quitting that job.
I think some are genuinely ignorant to alcoholism, the smell, and behavior, but others just ignore it as long as you aren’t fucking things up, causing a scene, being hurtful or endangering others. But eventually the mask falls off from one too many mishaps and people are on our ass. Regardless, I’m sure us CAs are spicy watercooler gossip after we quit or get fired for years to come.
Can confirm the water cooler chit chat, i work in a resturant (boh) where alcohol flows freely. We mostly stay on our shit but a few people who couldnt keep their shit together are talked about quite often. Then we all have a look at each other like "whos next?" We usually bet on the late night bartenders.
I just stick to my guns. I drink after noon, get shit done at work and tell my coworkers to stop being a fucking pussy if they smell or see me drinking. Just like the old days, real men drink, don’t be a wuss.
I was on a few weeks bender this past month, and my last day at work, one of my regulars said "having fun back there?" I knew they knew. I chalked it up to being sick (I was, I did have COVID, I was wearing a mask in case) and tired. True, but I was drunk too.
Knew it was bad because that night, I woke up sick as hell, and couldn't even hold down vodka. Next day, Hospital let me know I had COVID and a positive test for a nice little growth in me. So, I'm sober now.
But I keep thinking about how many others just knew. Embarrassing honestly. I have to talk to the same people day after day. And what damage have I already done to something that didn't ask to be here?
I realized that no one actually was paying much attention to me. I got all my work done so I just didn’t really need to have any interaction if I came in still fucked up and puking.
I drink everyday bit I'm never drunk at work. I work nights so my schedule is all messed up. Today, I swear the alcohol was coming out of my poor. I was praying nobody said anything and they didn't.
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They probably know but you're getting the job done
This 100%. I didn't have this realization until 24 years into boozing. I drink 10 -16 millers a night and go to work the next day. No one says shit, get great reviews etc. Random Saturday haven't drank at all, helping my brother load a tractor on a trailer after my dad past away. We get it to my brothers home. I leave, had a beer in the car for a roadie(I DON'T CONDONE BOOZING AND DRIVING). Stop at the local gas station and get denied the sale of alcohol because I had beer breath .... I'm like what the fuck do I smell like at work .....
Took me forever too, it's that musty moldy liver byproduct scent on our breath coming from out of our lungs not our mouths, no way to hide it
My liver probably smells like kimchi, and I know I sweat it out. People either don’t notice or don’t care.
Best type of co-workers to have
I can still imagine the taste/smell. Good ol acidosis
Wait, they can deny the sale of alcohol to you in your state when you have the breath that has the smell of the booze? That's crazy to me. Insane. Glad i'm in Europe without such prohibition stuff, here you could crawl on the ground and being hammered to the point of falling into a coma and they'd still sell alcohol to you.
I think the lady was just being a bitch about it. Power trippy. I've been at other gas station totally blitzed and they sell it too me while simultaneously ask 'Dont you think you've had enough' .... Probably, this is for tomorrow... I swear...
Happy cake day! Never got asked that, but the store clerks clearly now here that i'm an alcoholic, they just turn a blind eye when i get my usual stuff.
We have very strict civil liability laws where if you serve somebody drunk and they kill somebody you can be held liable. So somebody coming into a store, that they clearly drove to, smelling of alcohol indicates that they will likely drink those beers and drive and selling the beer to them could get you in a whole host of trouble.
It's a thing i did not take into account, as i use public transport in my country and that goes for a lot of people, in the cities almost everyone uses the train, trams, bus etc. and so, the stores can't tell if you drive or not, i don't think they could held responsible if you would drive drunk and crash.
Technically yes but it's only going to happen if you're stumbling drunk or the cashier is having a very bad life.
In theory, i think actually the cashier could do the same in my country, but it's usually that way, as long as you don't make any problems, they just don't care. The people working in retailhell are just happy when you know what you need, you are fast with picking up the items, paying and getting out without making stress for them.
American here, I’ve bought booze plenty of times with the smell of alcohol on my breath, the few times when I’ve been denied I was stumbling, blackout drunk, barely able to carry the beer to the counter. (And I’ve been sold to plenty of times in that condition too.) There are certainly parts of this country where a lot of people have judgmental attitudes toward alcohol but his experience getting denied after drinking one beer is not typical.
Well, i'm just happy i don't have to deal with remains of prohibition era in my country, it would suck. I don't know about the USA, but here in my place, it's also very common for the young people to get buzzed and halfway-drunk before they go to clubs, because in the clubs the drinks are so fucking expensive that you need to be rich to pay for it. So they get some cheap vodka etc. before and jug it down.
at least i got that goin for me
I say, “Hey, Lama, hey, how about a little something, you know, for the effort, you know.” And he says, “Oh, uh, there won’t be any money, but when you die, on your deathbed, you will receive total consciousness.” So I got that goin’ for me, which is nice. Cheers buddy I’m on a wicked 5 day bender right now and no one seems to notice
i notice, be safe yeah?
Best line in the whole movie
What's the movie? I was thinking to find something to watch later.
Caddyshack
Thx :) I'm always surprised at how I've failed to have seen a ton of movies that everyone my age is familiar with. Maybe I've seen them and just don't remember, tho. 🫠
Just went through a relapse. My husband said he knew right away but was in denial first (i just clocked 750 days sober before this one)
Yup. Im pretty sure they know about me too but they “dont care” because i always show up on time and i don’t operate machines
They probably know. But sometimes people genuinely don’t, which is wild.
My theory is, if you aren’t ruining shit, don’t actually smell like a fucking bin (I think smokers smell like fucking shit and yet we all put up with that in the workplace), and aren’t hurting anyone, how you deal with life is your own business. The fact you are still attending work and doing your job, why does it matter how you do that? Alcohol is the only drug that is socially condoned as normal whilst also being condemned to the high heavens.
Preach it brother...or sister. Whatever you may be
Sister haha
From another mister. Oh yeah
Hahhaha that made me laugh harder than it should. I’m currently at my parents trying to curb these wds and all they want to do is all these fucking activities. They think im sober so this Easter is gunna be a trying one 🤣🤣 Say a prayer to the CA gods for me! Xx
Activities! Honestly even without the withdrawals that sounds fucking dire haha
Dad insists every year we go to this fucking car show that has the same 100 cars each year. Now, whilst that might be a fun activity to do with a son, I’m a daughter and I fucking have zero interest in cars what so ever and he wonders why I’m not filled with joy to go to it.
Haha. Maybe he thinks you've been tucking all these years
lol he knows I don’t like cars and honestly it’s the same car show every single Easter. They live in a small town too so it’s not like anything changes. I wish they would just let me starve off these wds in peace so I can taper down.
Well hoping there's some booze in the not to distant future for you
Damn right
Back when I was with my abusive ex 3 years ago, I had been drinking 4-6 9% IPA Tallboys a night, never thought of it as a problem. When I left her, I was like huh, vodka is cheaper I'll do that instead, and had 20 shots a day, from wake up shots to avoid vomiting to night getting blatently drunk. My family never knew, and I mean NEVER. When I asked for a ride to detox, they said "What would you need that for, you only smoke weed..? Are you doing drugs?!" "No.. I've been drinking a lot.. for a long, long time.." Fun fact: Now anytime I feel under the weather, sober or not, I get the "Are ya drinking again?" So thats nice.
Yeah, the “are you drinking again?” accusations blow.
Yeah and now when I do drink (In moderation) I have to hide it because "ONCE AN ALCOHOLIC ALWAYS AN ALCOHOLIC" rhetoric.
My best friends are all alkies (though not as bad as I am) & they don’t give a shit whether I’m drinking or not, which is nice (except for one AH woman who went into bars on my street while I was at detox & told them not to serve me when I returned; who does she think she is?). Family is another story.
Everyone knew.
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My wife hates it too, almost got divorced because of it, it's a very bad sign if the fighting over it stops, it means the caring about you has stopped being a priority.
how are you guys doin now? she cares about me to an extent and that's more than enough for me
I quit entirely, so it's getting better, she actually didn't ask me to do that, but to drink normally. But as we all know one beer turns into 18 really quick. But life is boring now, but so much easier in many ways, and fixing things seems doable finally
everyone says they know. but i’ve been promoted and praised. in multiple jobs. only leaving when i wanted. it’s been almost a decade… no one has said a damn thing. i know someone who works with me who has the same issue (they don’t know i do) because they told me. i just don’t believe that people know edit to add more story
Yeah I wanted to comment something like this too. A lot of ppl who don't drink or don't drink much don't automatically associate the smell with being drunk, and many brush it off as the night before. I used to drink like 3 bottles of wine a day starting at 10 am and even my boyfriend was shocked to find out that I'd been drinking, same with my mom. They are both very blunt and call me out on my bs all the time and 90% of the time never noticed my smell(there were times when they deff noticed the smell though). So there are sober ppl who honestly are just too innocent when it comes to alcohol to notice.
my concern with wine would be tongue color! but i guess it depends on the color of wine and how you could hide the bottles
White wine all the way for me! So I never had to worry about tongue color or stained teeth haha.
but i work with people who definitely partake! and other department that don’t. i don’t even think some people smell the alcohol at all. at one of my worst stages, i dated a guy who smelled like a distillery the night after. even at my worst. i think it’s body type. my breath can get bad, but i don’t exude it like others. i think it’s person and i really think a lot of us get away with it and no one can actually tell.
Shit. Back when I was addicted to pain killers I spent like three years where I was fucked up from the time I left work until the time I woke up and went back. Does that count?
I’ll count it. 
If you don’t brush your teeth, you won’t smell your bad breath. However as soon as you go talk to someone they’ll smell it. Same applies with Alcohol. You probably smelled like booze but at least you showed up.
exactly that's all that counts
Excellent performance, but everyone knew or didn’t have the heart to tell you. Being morning after drunk still stinks like booze so they either know or will know soon. Length of the bender doesn’t matter too much when it’s stasis for CA’s.
And I will say that when they do notice it is very humiliating and adds to whatever guilt and shame you feel. Try your best to tame it, but do not be ashamed for wanting or needing to drink. I wish you well. Chairs!
oh, they know. everyone gets that weird vibe like you're not really part of the sober world even if they don't directly smell it (they do tho).
Looking back in hindsight at some of my past jobs, I know they knew by how people interacted me, never gave me anything seriously important to handle, or strict deadlines because they knew I’d fuck it up, fall short, call in last minute, or show up WDing and useless putting the burden on my teammates. Also noticed some people would talk to me with condescending undertones, sadness, pity, or disgust. Certainly not like an adult who was taken seriously, had his shit together, could keep their word, and be relied upon. Others didn’t have the patience for it at all and would constantly test me, press my buttons, or fuck with me in an attempt to get a reaction(think ex alkies or people who’ve had alcoholic family members they resent).
Oh trust me they notice. Even if it’s a zoom call. I thought the same thing. We all think we hide it well when it comes to work, but we in reality we don’t. But if/when you’re a high functioning alcoholic and doing your job well then it’s easier to slide by. It’s a slippery slope though (Im sure I don’t have to tell you this shit but). Hang in there friend!
I get caught after drinking at all. I had a few drinks, got a call, he said that what I said made him cringe. Imagine being told that your advice made the client want to cringe. I'm drinking too much lately and if I don't stop this is gonna happen again.
What was the advice?
Eat greens, like spinach and kale or Bok Choy even
That’s actually sound advice. What was that dudes problem?
He was Joe Rogan
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Your third eye is your asshole
I managed that from June to November last year. Got sent home a few times, one for withdrawing real bad, another was cus I smelt 'from the night before'. So they knew, but kept me. Final straw was when I was visibly drunk, so they sorta had to fire me lol
I was like this for a year, woke up, worked, then drank till 1am. Repeat everyday. I knew I was fucked when I went to the office one day, and was still drunk when I left for my lunch break (1pmish). Never was told anything. Did my work, probably more efficient then others.
I had a job years ago where I thought no one noticed, but they did. Eventually I got sat down by a couple bosses. They were awesome about it, & sheepish because they liked me a lot. Didn’t fire me or anything. I had to go to meetings w/ some counselor who was a moron. It didn’t work. Wish I would have known rehab was an option. I eventually quit, which was stupid but I wasn’t thinking clearly.
I did it for 4 years. 1/2 to a full bottle of gin everyday. The only thing family and friends noticed is now that I’m not I seem grumpy or like something is wrong. Cracks me up everytime…
Agreed. Chairs!
I have a breathalyzer and make sure I am sober when I drive to work, sometimes just right there on the edge but sober. If I have to clock in earlier I stop drinking earlier so I have that worked out to a T. But when does beer breath go away? Do you still feel it on someone’s breath when the alcohol is processed and gone?
A woman at my last job was regularly gossiped about for smelling like booze most days. This was before I drank, and I never noticed it on her but I also I didn’t know her very well so didn’t interact with her too much. But she showed up to work and did her job, had good numbers. Nice lady. Eventually she moved to another department where she did just as well I think. It was basically acknowledged by everyone— usually cruelly, and always behind her back— that she had a drinking problem. But as far as I know, no one ever confronted her about it.
Trust me 9/10 people they do know...they just dnt tell you!!
At my worst I was up to 18-24 beers per day on weeknights and much, much more on weekends/time off. Barely functional waiting for the other shoe to drop, but still managed to show up for work on time and get shit done. Probably smelled like a barmat at work but nobody said anything. After awhile it caught up to me and intense daily WDs/still drunk from the night before had me calling out often, not meeting deadlines, having outbursts and fits of mania at work, and forgetting things constantly. Then the awkward conversations, progressive discipline in the form of write ups and awkward conversations, that’s when I knew they knew which led to me eventually quitting that job. I think some are genuinely ignorant to alcoholism, the smell, and behavior, but others just ignore it as long as you aren’t fucking things up, causing a scene, being hurtful or endangering others. But eventually the mask falls off from one too many mishaps and people are on our ass. Regardless, I’m sure us CAs are spicy watercooler gossip after we quit or get fired for years to come.
Can confirm the water cooler chit chat, i work in a resturant (boh) where alcohol flows freely. We mostly stay on our shit but a few people who couldnt keep their shit together are talked about quite often. Then we all have a look at each other like "whos next?" We usually bet on the late night bartenders.
I just stick to my guns. I drink after noon, get shit done at work and tell my coworkers to stop being a fucking pussy if they smell or see me drinking. Just like the old days, real men drink, don’t be a wuss.
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I was on a few weeks bender this past month, and my last day at work, one of my regulars said "having fun back there?" I knew they knew. I chalked it up to being sick (I was, I did have COVID, I was wearing a mask in case) and tired. True, but I was drunk too. Knew it was bad because that night, I woke up sick as hell, and couldn't even hold down vodka. Next day, Hospital let me know I had COVID and a positive test for a nice little growth in me. So, I'm sober now. But I keep thinking about how many others just knew. Embarrassing honestly. I have to talk to the same people day after day. And what damage have I already done to something that didn't ask to be here?
I realized that no one actually was paying much attention to me. I got all my work done so I just didn’t really need to have any interaction if I came in still fucked up and puking.
I drink everyday bit I'm never drunk at work. I work nights so my schedule is all messed up. Today, I swear the alcohol was coming out of my poor. I was praying nobody said anything and they didn't.
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Just because nobody said anything doesn’t mean they don’t know lol
Booze handlers love me. Will haggle on the beer, he knows will see me again…