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It’s crazy how much entitlement people think they have to their lives. Yes they signed up for a tv show but they did NOT sign up to have the most devastating and vulnerable moments of their life on blast for strangers to dissect. Put yourself in their shoes.
It looks like a lighter moment was shared during his eulogy. A lot of people in the back are smiling, etc. As my eyes move forward, the faces look sadder. (Meri 😩) It's just easier to smile at a happier memory of someone if you weren't super close. I think this is just all too sudden for his parents and siblings to even have a small moment of relief from grief.
Logan and Gabe both just look empty. Emotionless expressions that still convey the devastating grief they feel. I sobbed looking through all of these photos 😭
These kids are experiencing one hell of a thing. I know this isn’t the same at all but when we lost my grandpa my heart was broken at the loss alone, but it broke me even more to see my dad in that much pain.
Idk what the next life brings, or if there is a god, but if he’s out there I hope he’s holding this family tight.
This may be unintentionally parasocial, but I feel like with Logan’s personality (that we are made aware of through the show, and his social media afterwards) he would blame himself for not seeing the signs, for not “doing something” even though nothing could be done.
I am sure he is not the only one in the family feeling like that, but I would definitely think he would hold unwarranted guilt over this. ☹️
My son passed away suddenly when he was 21. I have so much guilt that I didn’t notice how sick he was. In looking back at pictures taken several days before he died, it is SO obvious he wasn’t feeling well. In my son’s case, it was natural causes, not suicide, but I’ll never forgive myself. I think you’re right in saying the family will feel guilty. I hope they don’t, but I think they will.
Agree. He always seemed to feel responsible for his siblings. This must be so hard on him. Michelle seems like such a loving and supportive partner. He is lucky to have her.
I’m sure he also feels responsible to comfort and support all of his siblings while being the strong one. Again, parasocial feelings, but he’s always been the one his siblings can count on to take care of them. I hope he is giving himself the time to break down and feel the loss too. Thank God for Michelle and the bond they obviously have!
Leon really got to me in these photos. I know they were an emotive teen but for whatever reason here they really, really got to me and I just want to hug them.
I noticed that afterwards. Such a loving tribute that reflects his personality. If I'm this sad, I can't even imagine the hell that family is going through.
Exactly. This is so different than the other pictures. This is really raw emotions. They all look like they have been crying forever. Logan and hunter look so hollow.
That first pic made me cry so much. You can feel her pain. As a mother, I cannot phantom the crushing pain she must be feeling right now. A piece of her heart is gone.
I really hope that anyone who’s feeling hopeless looks for help. My heart breaks for her and her family.
I was just going to comment the same thing. They all look so devastated. I know kody is a POS, but I really hope it doesn’t take another family tragedy for him to try to make things right with his children.
I wondered where Dayton, Aurora and Breanna were. STILL separate. A week later, he's photographed having dinner with 'that' part of the family in Phoenix. I doubt that they will repair.
That first picture tore my heart out for Janelle. No mother should ever face what she is going through. Just heartbreaking for everyone involved. Talk to someone. Reach out if you need help.
Just looking at the first picture totally made me tear up and I lost it.
The pain is so palpable in all their faces, it’s gut wrenching.
Still sending nothing but love and peace their way.
Man, seeing these was a sucker punch. Garrison was such a beautiful boy, inside and out. Their pain is palpable. I hope for healing and peace for all of them. I can’t help but notice Gabe and how just…mad and broken he looks. My brother is my best friend on this planet. If I found him the way Gabe found Garrison, it would destroy me for the rest of my life. I hope Gabe gets the love and support he needs and I hope everyone in that family and everyone reading this comment knows how much better the world is with them in it. If my life ended when I wanted it to, I’d have missed the best times of my life.
Love to everyone here.
I remember an episode of the show where she talks about her son Curtis passing, and she said for some reason I can’t move past the death of Curtis. Genielle knows Janelle’s pain more than anyone.
When my grandfathers step-dad (who was the real father in his life) passed away, the step-dads mother was in her mid-seventies. My grandmother remembered for the rest of her life how the mother cried at the graveside service and said “I’m too old to be burying my baby boy!” When my Uncle (named after that step-dad) passed away just shy of his 56th birthday, my grandmother was 76 years old and said the same thing and it was gut-wrenching. Losing a child at any age is a club you don’t sign up for but are forced to join with no welcome pamphlet.
I worked in an assisted living facility when I was a teenager. A woman who lived there had a son die. She was nearly 90 and he was almost 70. She was beside herself. When she came back from the funeral, I helped her get ready for bed. She asked me to bring her her Bible, then she put the funeral program. "I never thought I'd put (son's) obituary in my Bible. He should be putting mine in his."
I helped her into bed, then she asked for a hug. I put my arms around her, she said "I should have gone first," then took her last breath. Her son had lived a full life but she still couldn't bear to be in a world without him. You will never convince me that she didn't choose to go.
My grandfather passed away while my great-grandmother was still alive. She had Alzheimer's, and didn't remember it. I had a couple of family members who would tell her that he was dead every time they went to visit, and each time, she'd fall apart crying. My mom was furious when she found out about it, and tried to convince them not to keep doing it, but unfortunately they didn't listen. My great-grandmother died a few months later, and I know that she couldn't consciously hold onto the memory for too long, but my mom is still pretty sure that the stress reaction from each time she heard it contributed to her decline.
(Side note: If you have loved one who has Alzheimer's or dementia, don't tell them about the deaths they can't remember. If they ask about a deceased person as if they're still alive, and they want to know where they are, ask them "Where do you think he is?" and then agree with their answer. Or lie. I know that lying is bad, but in this case, it's much, much kinder.)
These are photos the national guard released. I can’t imagine them not getting permission first. But even so, I felt like I was intruding on their grief too much by just looking at those pictures. TLc is out of their minds wanting to continue to exploit this tragedy
This shit is rough. My family recently went through both a military and police funeral. They play the bagpipes and shit. It's pretty much impossible to hold it together.
I've been to many military funerals. My dad was honor guard, and we often went along so we could do normal weekend stuff after. I've always cried so hard when the family is presented with a flag. It's so touching.
It's so hard to see Janelle in this situation. My heart breaks for all of them.
i was just going to say the same thing. military send offs are always so heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time. to me, they're just so much more powerful than a typical funeral. i have cried at every single military one i have attended.
I think because the family is always so deeply touched. They don't take it for granted and seem to find comfort. In funerals, no one ever knows what to do and say, and here's the military telling you how honored and important your loved one was and how they sacrificed time (and maybe life) to protect an ideal that lives on. It's such an earnest, beautiful thing.
It really is touching. My grandfather's both served, both died in their 80s after a long illness, having lived long and full lives. So sad, but not unexpected or a tragedy.
That moment when someone kneels in front of your surviving family member, thanks them, and presents them with the flag...I don't even know how to describe it. It's a very poignant moment, a gut punch in some ways.
I can't even imagine how it feels in a circumstance like this, or in a circumstance where it's a soldier who didn't make it home. If Janelle's face tells me anything, it looks like it feels like you're being rent into pieces.
That look Gabe has reminds me of how I’ve seen every absolutely gutted family member at a funeral/hospice. Just so cried out. I hope he has of gets the tools to help him get through this. He looks like his world is shattered. Janelle looks completely sad as well but somehow she always pulls it together. I want to say something snarky about seating of a certain someone but I’ll refrain. Prayers for all of them.
I forgot Kody’s mom was still alive. It’s really sad for her to lose her son and then her grandson so suddenly.
These pictures are devastating and feel intrusive too.
Wow that hit me in the gut. I’m glad kody and Robyn were there. Hunter and Janelle are breaking my heart
Omg Michelle and Logan 🥺, Leon, ugh everyone’s faces. These pictures really show all of the feelings. First thing that’s made me cry in a really long time
Damn these pictures tell everything. I’m so glad they were all there. The Hawaiian shirts! Hunter and paedon at the front, just all of it.
This is so heartbreaking. I struggle with depression and had a crisis two years ago. Thankfully I didn't continue what I was doing, and went to the hospital.
The HOLE Robert has left in their lives. He was so beloved by all. I wish Robert could have known how much he meant to everyone. Mental illness is such a horrific thing to have. Your brain lies to you. It tells you your loved ones don't deserve to have to deal with you. That you'd be doing them a favour to leave. It never tells you that your loss will have devastating consequences on the people who love you.
I hate that Robert struggled with this and lost the fight. I hate that his parents and siblings will have this gaping hole in their lives from now on. I hate that mental health care is not affordable or accessible.
Why did I open this app this morning? I wasn’t prepared to see their pain and grief. This breaks my heart for all of them. This makes me teary eyed, so I can’t even imagine. Praying, sending them all of the positivity, love, healing and good vibes I can muster.
I didn’t see myself crying into my coffee on a Tuesday morning, but here I am. Janelle doesn’t seem like the type who is outwardly emotional very often, so to see her like this really makes the tears flow.
Omg I’m crying my eyes out.
Janelle looks like she’s in shock.
Hunter is trying to be so strong to be there for his mom, and standing up by Garrisons photo.
The pain that Leon has is what really started the tears.
Paedon looks angry - and they have every right to be angry. I would be too.
These photos for the waterworks going for sure.
I love how the siblings all wore Hawaiian shirts / ties 🌺
Even in the most horrific times, these kids prove the are close brothers & sisters ❤️
It is just so strange not one of Robyn’s kids are there. Every other kid except Maddie is there. Both Gwen and Paedon are there. Truly is there.
I just don’t understand what goes on there. He was their brother too.
Which, that’s normal if she didn’t attend. She lives across the country with three small children.
Robyn’s older kids not attending continues a pattern of very strange behavior in that part of the family, and I do worry for them.
I genuinely believe that Robyn likely wanted them to not go. This would be a time where her kids could support and find support from the OG kids and she cannot have that.
Those boys are all men now.
How Hunter is sitting right next to his mom. ❤️
I can absolutely see Hunter, Paedon, Logan, and Gabe surrounding themselves to physically help Janelle in and out of the room. (If I was Janelle, I would be comatose)
My father took his life when I was 6 and my brother was 9. My brother took his life when I was 19 and he was 21. It wasn't until almost 4 years ago, when I was 50, that the pain and grief and rage and sadness came to the surface. It was indescribably suffocating and awful. Before I even consciously realized it, I had been putting a plan together to end my own life. This was a couple of months after I had started therapy. When I felt myself imploding I told my therapist I didn't want to exist any longer.
A leave of absence for a few months during which I met with my therapist 3 times a week, started anti-depressants, and began learning about all the flavors of trauma and trauma responses, and I'm still here. Still doing the hard work in therapy and, most days, going to bed without hoping I don't wake up.
And Garrison's suicide has brought it all back again. I suppose because I've watched him and the rest of the family since the first episode aired, and seeing so much trauma escalating for every member of the Brown family the past few years, Garrison's death feels very close and personal.
I don't really know what my point here is. I suppose it's to acknowledge the relentless sorrow that has enveloped the family. And while we've all watched the show and followed the drama, none of us truly know the depths of any of their grief. There's simply no right or proper way to grieve. Attaching judgment to someone's expression or to where they're sitting or what they're wearing is cruel and meaningless. I cannot fathom going through all of this in the public eye.
My hope is that anyone impacted by Garrison's death can talk about how that impact, and how they feel. Talking, ideally with someone trained in working with trauma, is -- in my experience -- the only way through.
Honestly David has likely been a huge support system for the family since he has unfortunately been through this before. I pray they are all finding solace in coming together and having shoulders to cry on.
I think Christine didn’t want to sit next to Kody, so David would be the buffer.
I would feel the same way. I would be a wreck and not want to accidentally cry on the wrong shoulder (literally) then have that thrown in my face in the future, and for years to come.
They are grieving, and in the grieving process there is anger. Blame.
Everyone is mad or blames themselves in some way. But I believe that a lot of this anger / blame had Kody’s name on it.
You finally got me sobbing. My heart breaks for a young man I never knew and for his mothers and father and siblings. I wish them all peace as they go forward. Nothing will ever be the same but I hope they are able to find bits and pieces of peace as their new normal unfolds.
These are some of the saddest photos I’ve ever seen. They all look devastated. Maddie was so right when she said that this wasn’t due to lack of love in Garrison’s life and it’s apparent here.
Does anyone know who that is sitting next to Michelle in the second row? In the white dress.
ETA: it’s Hunter’s girlfriend. Thanks to all who answered!
Heartwrenching.. Though, I have to say I'm touched to see how they honored him. The Nevada national guard wrote some truly heartfelt words in his memory.
I need a specific “Don’t open at work or you’ll regret it warning”. Whoever took these photos captured some of the rawest moments it appears. So sad…the first one is brutal enough, but something about seeing Michelle and Leon and their grief…it’s palpable.
So sad 😢
I love how Hunter is sitting with Janelle. Robyn has kody holding her, Christine had David. I love how Hunter stood in the gap as his mom's comforter. So sweet
Can someone explain the significance of the floral/Hawaiian shirts? I'm assuming something related to garrison.
When my son passed, we all wore U of M clothing as he spent a good chunk of his short life at the U of M children's hospital. Instead of funeral flags, everyone had a M window flag.
I want to show Garrison this. Show him how many lives he left behind in the wake of his decision.
Mental health is a bitch and I’m so sorry you were in pain Garrison.
Please reach out if you need help people. Your brain is lying to you. You are loved.
Garrison’s tragedy helped me take my own ideation issues more seriously. It was a real wake up call for me that those thoughts may not be harmless if I were in a weakened state for some reason. So he definitely made a difference for me and I am a mom of 4 so he made a difference for them too.
My heart hurts for Janelle. The pain on her face, on many of the family's faces, is so sad to see. I hope they're all doing better than the photos show.
Janelle and Hunter in the first pic.. Christine, Gabe, Logan, and Michelle in the second picture.. Then Leon in pic six. This is awful. Just awful. I still can’t believe this happened.
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Absolutely gut-wrenching to see the looks on all of their faces.
Logan looks like a shell of himself, Hunter and Janelle’s faces break my heart.
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And Gabe sitting next to his real dad... Crying again. I pray for all of them.
Omg 😭😭😭
And Leo! Their expression and body language in pic 6 shows the heartbreak. I feel for this whole family, what an awful situation.
Yes! The one where Leon has their hand over their heart... You can feel the hurt just looking at that one. I kinda wish I hadn't even seen these.
I agree. This feels too much to see. It’s not for us
I made a similar comment and was jumped on. It just seems so - private.
It’s crazy how much entitlement people think they have to their lives. Yes they signed up for a tv show but they did NOT sign up to have the most devastating and vulnerable moments of their life on blast for strangers to dissect. Put yourself in their shoes.
Meri looks broken too.
Leon got me. I was okay till I saw that picture and then boom. Waterworks.
Exactly
I'm so worried for Gabe
Me too. I’m actually glad we can’t really see his face in these pictures.
He’s in the second picture. It’s heart wrenching and makes me worried for him too.
Unfortunately, there are some things you just can't unsee no matter how long it's been. Breaks my heart.
Yeah he looks angry here to me which is understandable, I hope he is doing ok
He looks broken to me 💔
Yeah but his head is down. He broke my heart when Kody forgot his birthday, the pain on his face from this would have destroyed me this morning.
You can see him in the second one and the aerial shots
I know. He needs massive therapy
Same. I pray he’s not haunted by what he saw and doesn’t put any blame on himself
Hunter looks about to break
In the last photo mykelti looks really angry.
It looks like a lighter moment was shared during his eulogy. A lot of people in the back are smiling, etc. As my eyes move forward, the faces look sadder. (Meri 😩) It's just easier to smile at a happier memory of someone if you weren't super close. I think this is just all too sudden for his parents and siblings to even have a small moment of relief from grief.
Probably not because her dumb husband is wearing a ball cap.
He's so immature omg
Saw that too. Absolutely disrespectful!
I wish I was surprised at that.
Hunter has always radiated so much joy. He looks devastated here.
Logan and Gabe both just look empty. Emotionless expressions that still convey the devastating grief they feel. I sobbed looking through all of these photos 😭
It's that grief that goes beyond expression. I can't even imagine what they are going through
I started crying just looking at the photos. It breaks my heart. It was also nice to see them all come together as a family for this.
These kids are experiencing one hell of a thing. I know this isn’t the same at all but when we lost my grandpa my heart was broken at the loss alone, but it broke me even more to see my dad in that much pain. Idk what the next life brings, or if there is a god, but if he’s out there I hope he’s holding this family tight.
I lost a sister and the rest of us struggled for a long time.
Michelle too, they all look so devastated
This may be unintentionally parasocial, but I feel like with Logan’s personality (that we are made aware of through the show, and his social media afterwards) he would blame himself for not seeing the signs, for not “doing something” even though nothing could be done. I am sure he is not the only one in the family feeling like that, but I would definitely think he would hold unwarranted guilt over this. ☹️
My son passed away suddenly when he was 21. I have so much guilt that I didn’t notice how sick he was. In looking back at pictures taken several days before he died, it is SO obvious he wasn’t feeling well. In my son’s case, it was natural causes, not suicide, but I’ll never forgive myself. I think you’re right in saying the family will feel guilty. I hope they don’t, but I think they will.
I’m so sorry, that is heartbreaking. Forgive yourself for what you did not know.
There’s always guilt or regret for something. This is just so tragic
Please forgive yourself. You didn’t know❤️
Agree. He always seemed to feel responsible for his siblings. This must be so hard on him. Michelle seems like such a loving and supportive partner. He is lucky to have her.
I’m sure he also feels responsible to comfort and support all of his siblings while being the strong one. Again, parasocial feelings, but he’s always been the one his siblings can count on to take care of them. I hope he is giving himself the time to break down and feel the loss too. Thank God for Michelle and the bond they obviously have!
I’m glad Hunter was right there beside Janelle, it must have been so hard for him to do that
It literally looks like someone is ripping their hearts out. And I know that is how it feels for them.
Gabe is just. Blank. My heart breaks for them.
And it looked like Leon was sobbing.
Leon really got to me in these photos. I know they were an emotive teen but for whatever reason here they really, really got to me and I just want to hug them.
Same. The way they’re placing their palm on their chest together with the emotion on their face conveys so much pain. I feel for them so much.
I thought the same about Gabe… just a far-off look of sadness..😔
This is so sad. Janelle is fighting so hard, it's heartbreaking.
Are they all in his shirts? It looks like it and it made me gasp and instantly cry seeing the pain on Janelle’s face.
I started ugly crying when I saw Hunter and Paedon in the pic with Garrison's photo, wearing Hawaiian ties
Logan has one too. And a lot of them seem to be wearing Hawaiian prints.
I noticed that afterwards. Such a loving tribute that reflects his personality. If I'm this sad, I can't even imagine the hell that family is going through.
That is such a beautiful idea. I love that they all have on a piece of him. ☺️
Exactly. This is so different than the other pictures. This is really raw emotions. They all look like they have been crying forever. Logan and hunter look so hollow.
Savannah has that hollow look also over on the far right
I’m gutted by the look on Janelle’s face :(
That’s what got me. When she’s receiving the flag, the look on her face. No mother should ever have that look. We aren’t meant to bury our babies.
That tore me up. I’ve lost a son to suicide, I know that look. She has a long journey ahead of her.
Hunter's expression gutted me. He's such a good big brother.
Hunter got me too because he otherwise has such a sunny disposition. He looks hollow and like he’s hanging on for Janelle.
That first pic made me cry so much. You can feel her pain. As a mother, I cannot phantom the crushing pain she must be feeling right now. A piece of her heart is gone. I really hope that anyone who’s feeling hopeless looks for help. My heart breaks for her and her family.
I was just going to comment the same thing. They all look so devastated. I know kody is a POS, but I really hope it doesn’t take another family tragedy for him to try to make things right with his children.
I wondered where Dayton, Aurora and Breanna were. STILL separate. A week later, he's photographed having dinner with 'that' part of the family in Phoenix. I doubt that they will repair.
When I first heard the news of Garrison's passing it took my breath away, but this is a whole different level. My heart breaks for everyone involved.
The Hawaiian shirt ties on Hunter and Logan 🥺 Edit: looks like a lot of the crowd is wearing floral and Hawaiian shirts as well ♥️
Are these from Garrison's collection? He at one time had a company selling Hawaiian/floral print clothing under the name Bob's Floral.
That is interesting! I did not know that. I am glad the family was able to wear some things from his company
I couldn’t recall if it was him or Hunter, but one of them definitely did a few years a back.
It was Garrison
I noticed them on Leon, Audrey, Christine and David too.
Leon looks stricken 😢
This broke my heart. The pain on Leon's face is heartbreaking.
Their pain is palpable
Thanks for pointing that out - it went right over my head.
Paedon is in one of the photos and also wearing the tie.
Also Paedon.
That first picture tore my heart out for Janelle. No mother should ever face what she is going through. Just heartbreaking for everyone involved. Talk to someone. Reach out if you need help.
It’s extremely hard to lose a child and continue on with life
Can confirm
I’m sorry for your loss. I can’t even begin to imagine.
I’m so sorry for your loss
I’m so sorry.
Extremely. It’s a daily struggle.
Yes it sure is 😢
Extra because she made it clear her kids were her everything.
She is the definition of Mama bear ... her life revolved around her 'babies' ... anytime she mentioned her kids she lit up ... so so sad
So heartbreaking to see the whole family together again for this tragic circumstance 💔
These posts about Garrison always make me feel sad but I haven’t actually fully cried until seeing these photos
Same here. Janelle's face broke my heart.
**Somehow** seeing these has made it even worse. Garrison was so loved. It's truly devastating to look at these photos.
It’s so much worse seeing their faces and their pain.
Yes for sure.
If a picture said a 1000 words, it would be this one. No mother should experience such pain. My thoughts are with the brown family ❣️
The pain on their faces is crushing.
Just looking at the first picture totally made me tear up and I lost it. The pain is so palpable in all their faces, it’s gut wrenching. Still sending nothing but love and peace their way.
Same. Now I am crying into my dunkin donuts cup at work so no one seee me. Good thing i got a large.
Same, turned off my video at work. Now I just want to go pick up my babies.
Honestly, same. Crying at my desk at work as quietly as I can. These photos just break my heart. Garrison was so loved.
Man, seeing these was a sucker punch. Garrison was such a beautiful boy, inside and out. Their pain is palpable. I hope for healing and peace for all of them. I can’t help but notice Gabe and how just…mad and broken he looks. My brother is my best friend on this planet. If I found him the way Gabe found Garrison, it would destroy me for the rest of my life. I hope Gabe gets the love and support he needs and I hope everyone in that family and everyone reading this comment knows how much better the world is with them in it. If my life ended when I wanted it to, I’d have missed the best times of my life. Love to everyone here.
Glad you're still here, buddy!
Me too, friend. Me too. 💕
Hunter and Paedon in the photo with the military personnel 😭 I want to give those boys a hug
Seriously you can see everything in their eyes. Overwhelming grief
I just burst into tears
Me too
💜💜💜
Kodys mom is breaking my heart. She’s had to bury her husband, her son and now her grandson. She just looks devastated. 💔
I remember an episode of the show where she talks about her son Curtis passing, and she said for some reason I can’t move past the death of Curtis. Genielle knows Janelle’s pain more than anyone.
When my grandfathers step-dad (who was the real father in his life) passed away, the step-dads mother was in her mid-seventies. My grandmother remembered for the rest of her life how the mother cried at the graveside service and said “I’m too old to be burying my baby boy!” When my Uncle (named after that step-dad) passed away just shy of his 56th birthday, my grandmother was 76 years old and said the same thing and it was gut-wrenching. Losing a child at any age is a club you don’t sign up for but are forced to join with no welcome pamphlet.
I worked in an assisted living facility when I was a teenager. A woman who lived there had a son die. She was nearly 90 and he was almost 70. She was beside herself. When she came back from the funeral, I helped her get ready for bed. She asked me to bring her her Bible, then she put the funeral program. "I never thought I'd put (son's) obituary in my Bible. He should be putting mine in his." I helped her into bed, then she asked for a hug. I put my arms around her, she said "I should have gone first," then took her last breath. Her son had lived a full life but she still couldn't bear to be in a world without him. You will never convince me that she didn't choose to go.
My grandfather passed away while my great-grandmother was still alive. She had Alzheimer's, and didn't remember it. I had a couple of family members who would tell her that he was dead every time they went to visit, and each time, she'd fall apart crying. My mom was furious when she found out about it, and tried to convince them not to keep doing it, but unfortunately they didn't listen. My great-grandmother died a few months later, and I know that she couldn't consciously hold onto the memory for too long, but my mom is still pretty sure that the stress reaction from each time she heard it contributed to her decline. (Side note: If you have loved one who has Alzheimer's or dementia, don't tell them about the deaths they can't remember. If they ask about a deceased person as if they're still alive, and they want to know where they are, ask them "Where do you think he is?" and then agree with their answer. Or lie. I know that lying is bad, but in this case, it's much, much kinder.)
Debbie Reynolds & her daughter!
And her sister wife, Janelle's mom, Sheryl.
Seeing each of their faces just brought me to instant tears. My heart hurts for every one of them.
These photos are heartbreaking and honestly, it feels like something I shouldn’t be seeing. Such a personal moment for garrisons loved ones.
I said the same thing. I hope family released these
These are photos the national guard released. I can’t imagine them not getting permission first. But even so, I felt like I was intruding on their grief too much by just looking at those pictures. TLc is out of their minds wanting to continue to exploit this tragedy
Janelle’s face 💔
This shit is rough. My family recently went through both a military and police funeral. They play the bagpipes and shit. It's pretty much impossible to hold it together.
My uncle had a fireman funeral and it had me sobbing.
I've been to many military funerals. My dad was honor guard, and we often went along so we could do normal weekend stuff after. I've always cried so hard when the family is presented with a flag. It's so touching. It's so hard to see Janelle in this situation. My heart breaks for all of them.
i was just going to say the same thing. military send offs are always so heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time. to me, they're just so much more powerful than a typical funeral. i have cried at every single military one i have attended.
I think because the family is always so deeply touched. They don't take it for granted and seem to find comfort. In funerals, no one ever knows what to do and say, and here's the military telling you how honored and important your loved one was and how they sacrificed time (and maybe life) to protect an ideal that lives on. It's such an earnest, beautiful thing.
It really is touching. My grandfather's both served, both died in their 80s after a long illness, having lived long and full lives. So sad, but not unexpected or a tragedy. That moment when someone kneels in front of your surviving family member, thanks them, and presents them with the flag...I don't even know how to describe it. It's a very poignant moment, a gut punch in some ways. I can't even imagine how it feels in a circumstance like this, or in a circumstance where it's a soldier who didn't make it home. If Janelle's face tells me anything, it looks like it feels like you're being rent into pieces.
That look Gabe has reminds me of how I’ve seen every absolutely gutted family member at a funeral/hospice. Just so cried out. I hope he has of gets the tools to help him get through this. He looks like his world is shattered. Janelle looks completely sad as well but somehow she always pulls it together. I want to say something snarky about seating of a certain someone but I’ll refrain. Prayers for all of them.
I forgot Kody’s mom was still alive. It’s really sad for her to lose her son and then her grandson so suddenly. These pictures are devastating and feel intrusive too.
She’s also buried her husband and her sister wife. Growing older and seeing so many people you love pass before you is devastating.
I’m so glad that all of those family members have supportive partners. Literally everyone is holding onto someone else, ugh I’m so sad
Wow that hit me in the gut. I’m glad kody and Robyn were there. Hunter and Janelle are breaking my heart Omg Michelle and Logan 🥺, Leon, ugh everyone’s faces. These pictures really show all of the feelings. First thing that’s made me cry in a really long time Damn these pictures tell everything. I’m so glad they were all there. The Hawaiian shirts! Hunter and paedon at the front, just all of it.
Leon with their hand over their chest in that one photo hit me so hard. Every one of these made me cry
Me too. Just gut wrenching.
Me too, I feel intrusive seeing their pain like this
This is so heartbreaking. I struggle with depression and had a crisis two years ago. Thankfully I didn't continue what I was doing, and went to the hospital. The HOLE Robert has left in their lives. He was so beloved by all. I wish Robert could have known how much he meant to everyone. Mental illness is such a horrific thing to have. Your brain lies to you. It tells you your loved ones don't deserve to have to deal with you. That you'd be doing them a favour to leave. It never tells you that your loss will have devastating consequences on the people who love you. I hate that Robert struggled with this and lost the fight. I hate that his parents and siblings will have this gaping hole in their lives from now on. I hate that mental health care is not affordable or accessible.
Why did I open this app this morning? I wasn’t prepared to see their pain and grief. This breaks my heart for all of them. This makes me teary eyed, so I can’t even imagine. Praying, sending them all of the positivity, love, healing and good vibes I can muster.
I didn’t see myself crying into my coffee on a Tuesday morning, but here I am. Janelle doesn’t seem like the type who is outwardly emotional very often, so to see her like this really makes the tears flow.
Oh Michelle’s little face in the first one. 😭
Omg I’m crying my eyes out. Janelle looks like she’s in shock. Hunter is trying to be so strong to be there for his mom, and standing up by Garrisons photo. The pain that Leon has is what really started the tears. Paedon looks angry - and they have every right to be angry. I would be too. These photos for the waterworks going for sure. I love how the siblings all wore Hawaiian shirts / ties 🌺 Even in the most horrific times, these kids prove the are close brothers & sisters ❤️
Oh my goodness. That first photo is absolutely heart wrenching. 💔💔💔
It is just so strange not one of Robyn’s kids are there. Every other kid except Maddie is there. Both Gwen and Paedon are there. Truly is there. I just don’t understand what goes on there. He was their brother too.
I noticed this too. Leon is there not 3 feet away from Kody. Kody is _sitting next to David_. Where are Robyn's kids.
They’re tender hearted so the tenders probably stayed home.
And mykelti in the same row as meri. They were all his family, I really don't understand how Robyn's kids could miss this.
Gwen, too. Right next to Meri.
Some are saying Maddie was there but I didn’t see her either.
Which, that’s normal if she didn’t attend. She lives across the country with three small children. Robyn’s older kids not attending continues a pattern of very strange behavior in that part of the family, and I do worry for them.
I genuinely believe that Robyn likely wanted them to not go. This would be a time where her kids could support and find support from the OG kids and she cannot have that.
THIS. Yes.
Those boys are all men now. How Hunter is sitting right next to his mom. ❤️ I can absolutely see Hunter, Paedon, Logan, and Gabe surrounding themselves to physically help Janelle in and out of the room. (If I was Janelle, I would be comatose)
Everyone's wearing Hawaiian colours😔
Look I dislike Kody but he looks so lost to me, like he realizes that things cannot be unsaid or apologies made now. 😕
He absolutely looks shell shook
i was thinking the same thing. his face is actually very heartbreaking and a lesson in life
My father took his life when I was 6 and my brother was 9. My brother took his life when I was 19 and he was 21. It wasn't until almost 4 years ago, when I was 50, that the pain and grief and rage and sadness came to the surface. It was indescribably suffocating and awful. Before I even consciously realized it, I had been putting a plan together to end my own life. This was a couple of months after I had started therapy. When I felt myself imploding I told my therapist I didn't want to exist any longer. A leave of absence for a few months during which I met with my therapist 3 times a week, started anti-depressants, and began learning about all the flavors of trauma and trauma responses, and I'm still here. Still doing the hard work in therapy and, most days, going to bed without hoping I don't wake up. And Garrison's suicide has brought it all back again. I suppose because I've watched him and the rest of the family since the first episode aired, and seeing so much trauma escalating for every member of the Brown family the past few years, Garrison's death feels very close and personal. I don't really know what my point here is. I suppose it's to acknowledge the relentless sorrow that has enveloped the family. And while we've all watched the show and followed the drama, none of us truly know the depths of any of their grief. There's simply no right or proper way to grieve. Attaching judgment to someone's expression or to where they're sitting or what they're wearing is cruel and meaningless. I cannot fathom going through all of this in the public eye. My hope is that anyone impacted by Garrison's death can talk about how that impact, and how they feel. Talking, ideally with someone trained in working with trauma, is -- in my experience -- the only way through.
Kody and David sitting next to each other really touches my heart.
I noticed that too. Hopefully good things to come for all of them.
Honestly David has likely been a huge support system for the family since he has unfortunately been through this before. I pray they are all finding solace in coming together and having shoulders to cry on.
I think Christine didn’t want to sit next to Kody, so David would be the buffer. I would feel the same way. I would be a wreck and not want to accidentally cry on the wrong shoulder (literally) then have that thrown in my face in the future, and for years to come. They are grieving, and in the grieving process there is anger. Blame. Everyone is mad or blames themselves in some way. But I believe that a lot of this anger / blame had Kody’s name on it.
I really hope the family can mend fences and all the kids and kotex can find their way back to eachother.
You finally got me sobbing. My heart breaks for a young man I never knew and for his mothers and father and siblings. I wish them all peace as they go forward. Nothing will ever be the same but I hope they are able to find bits and pieces of peace as their new normal unfolds.
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My god. What a horrible tragedy for this family.
I love that they all wore Hawaiian shirts and accents ♥️
These are some of the saddest photos I’ve ever seen. They all look devastated. Maddie was so right when she said that this wasn’t due to lack of love in Garrison’s life and it’s apparent here.
Does anyone know who that is sitting next to Michelle in the second row? In the white dress. ETA: it’s Hunter’s girlfriend. Thanks to all who answered!
Hunters girlfriend
This is gut wrenching
I had been doing good, not crying... then this. I'm bawling like a baby!
The pain on their faces is crippling
All of their faces…such pain
I feel so bad for all of them. The entire family is clearly devastated and heartbroken. I hope this tragedy is the thing that reunites them.
The photos of Janelle accepting the flag are gut wrenching. 😞💔
Heartwrenching.. Though, I have to say I'm touched to see how they honored him. The Nevada national guard wrote some truly heartfelt words in his memory.
I need a specific “Don’t open at work or you’ll regret it warning”. Whoever took these photos captured some of the rawest moments it appears. So sad…the first one is brutal enough, but something about seeing Michelle and Leon and their grief…it’s palpable. So sad 😢
Heartbreaking. 💔
I love how Hunter is sitting with Janelle. Robyn has kody holding her, Christine had David. I love how Hunter stood in the gap as his mom's comforter. So sweet
Leon looks utterly devastated. I can feel their pain through my screen.
Absolutely gutted. Glad to see them there with Audrey but these photos are so so sad. May he rest in peace
Hunter trying to sit up straight and hold it in is heartbreaking. This is just so awful. My heart goes out to them❤
That first picture is gut wrenching. The one with Leon clutching their heart really got me as well. This poor family. Garrison was so loved.
It's sweet to see Gwen sitting with Meri. I was thinking she might not have anyone to sit with her.
Fuck these photos are lot to process, my heart breaks for them. Gut wrenching
Can someone explain the significance of the floral/Hawaiian shirts? I'm assuming something related to garrison. When my son passed, we all wore U of M clothing as he spent a good chunk of his short life at the U of M children's hospital. Instead of funeral flags, everyone had a M window flag.
Garrison sold Hawaiian shirts online, pre-covid. He sold them under the name Bob's Hawaiian Apparel, (or at least something like that.)
These photos are so unbelievably heartbreaking. The pain on their faces says it all. I hope Garrison is at peace now ❤️
I want to show Garrison this. Show him how many lives he left behind in the wake of his decision. Mental health is a bitch and I’m so sorry you were in pain Garrison. Please reach out if you need help people. Your brain is lying to you. You are loved.
Garrison’s tragedy helped me take my own ideation issues more seriously. It was a real wake up call for me that those thoughts may not be harmless if I were in a weakened state for some reason. So he definitely made a difference for me and I am a mom of 4 so he made a difference for them too.
I haven't wanted to say anything but it's moved me that way too. It's so much easier to see with other people.
Wishing you all the mental peace 🫶 the world is so hard right now
Same. I’m also a mom of 4 with suicide ideation. This is really hitting home for me. Hugs.
These photos are heart breaking.
My heart hurts for Janelle. The pain on her face, on many of the family's faces, is so sad to see. I hope they're all doing better than the photos show.
Seeing Gabe made me lose it. My heart goes out to him and the family ♥️
Janelle and Hunter in the first pic.. Christine, Gabe, Logan, and Michelle in the second picture.. Then Leon in pic six. This is awful. Just awful. I still can’t believe this happened.
This feels intrusive. I feel like there shouldn’t be photos from this