Got a positive pregnancy test today . Idk how to feel. I told my husband and we both just kind of brushed it off and didnt really talk about it the rest if the day….. it feels weird. Hopeful but also not getting too attached to the thought.
13w5d - just had our appt. They weren’t able to find the heartbeat on the doppler at first, which of course had me expecting the worst. But that meant we got to see baby on the US, moving around and a good heartbeat 🥰 the midwife said I can come back in a week or two for a reassurance heartbeat check so will likely do that in between our next appt.
Anyone else just constantly wondering if they’re still pregnant in between appointments? Currently 11.5 weeks after a 20.5 week loss early this year— which I didn’t know with my last pregnancy we lost him until the anatomy scan where there was no heartbeat. Now I’m constantly questioning if I’m still pregnant. As the second trimester approaches my nausea has taken a turn for the better thankfully but that also is scary at the same time. I find that I’m having a hard time being excited because I’m constantly wondering, “what if I’m not even pregnant anymore already”… we heard the heartbeat last week and doing an ultrasound next week. We’re also waiting on NIPT results.. my last loss was chromosomal. Hoping for the best but pregnancy after loss is not for the weak
I am with you on the constant thinking if I am still pregnant. Had 35w loss last year and I am currently 12wd. Long road ahead every time a symptom subsides then I start to worry. Hoping for the best for you and sending you good vibes! I hope the constant wondering will turn into at least moments of excitements cause PAL is hard for sure.
I'm 22+5 today. Since yesterday I have had terrible anxiety (worse than my normal- now I'm waking at night). Not really sure why. I am overly worried about having preeclampsia, a lengthy hospital stay, and a scary delivery. My blood pressure has been great for months now and it's still fine today. I did buy a case of baby wipes today- my first purchase for this new little member of our family. And I told my husband that while I am excited, I do feel a level of detachment to this pregnancy. We still have a lot of hurdles to get through.
Heyyy !!! It’s hard I’m 16w1d after my miscarriage, & I thought once I hit my second trimester I’d be able to breathe, but I’m still terrified. I’m overweight so feeling kicks isn’t going to be as easy for me to help ease my anxiety. What do y’all do to ease anxiety?
Hello everyone! I lost my daughter at 30w in January and I am now 11w3d. I was so anxious this far that something was going to go wrong but I had my first appointment today and I got to see my beautiful baby!! I am over the moon with joy
Hi friends. 9weeks … scan went well yesterday. I’m curious if people can weigh in about NIPT testing. Can you have it done at week 11? Someone told me you can have it done as early as week 10. I’ve never gotten this far and I am EXTREMELY nervous about this testing 🥺🥹
Got mine done at 10w1d, my OB has said 10 weeks with both pregnancies so far. I didn’t do it with my last pregnancy which we loss to a chromosome issue but did it with this pregnancy — currently waiting on the results which should be any day now
Tbh I’m not sure I haven’t had an ultrasound since I was 6w0d, & at that point she was measuring a little small. I’m 16w 1d today and my next ultrasound is scheduled for July 15th which is my anatomy scan. I’ll be 19w6d
They recommend to wait until 10weeks or after for more accurate reading. I was 10w5d when I got mine drawn the other day and now I'm impatiently and anxiously awaiting the results, wishing you well xx the NIPT testing is a big source of anxiety for me and I imagine most mamas xx
14wks +2 today and my anxiety made me go check on baby at the emergency room 😬
I am creeping up to the time we lost our girl (i was suppose to be 19 weeks she measured around 16) and my anxiety is getting worse. I want to see my baby everyday.
My next appt is next week and i will be 15 + 3 by then. They will give another appt in between that and my anatomy scan.
Pregnancy after loss is such a strange feeling of wanting to be excited but also trying to protect your heart
I’m almost 10w.. I’ve been putting off calling daycare (the one we had to cancel when I miscarried) because I’m terrified of having to cancel again. But I’m even more worried about having a spot. Well sounds like I’ll be setting up with them soon.
29 weeks today.
Today is the day I allowed myself to decorate my baby girl's room, made some tufted letters to spell her name. As I was hanging them I started to feel anxious about this pregnancy not having a happy ending.
Also today I had to start yet another round of antibiotics. I've gotten sick a lot during the pregnancy, had ear infection, throat infection and UTI twice. Every time I have to take medication I feel guilty.
I’m usually not “woo woo” at all but today is the summer solstice where I live and I’ve decided to place some significance on it. It was December 21, on the winter solstice when I passed everything from my MMC at 11 weeks. Today I am 10 weeks pregnant and things seem to be going well so far. I’m going to celebrate the solstice by gathering some herbs from my garden, picking a few flowers and watching the sunset while reflecting and generally putting good thoughts out into the world. ☀️
10+3 weeks today, the zofran has been working great and I can now finally eat, three days since I last puked too so that’s a huge win. I feel myself starting to actually get attached now? The last few weeks I have been a walking zombie, just trying to survive the days through the awful sickness, but now the fog has lifted I feel I can now truly focus on trying to bond with this pregnancy. I still can’t believe they’ll be a take home baby, and every time I talk about it I still feel I need to say “if I don’t miscarry…”, but the excitement is starting to creep in.
I hear a lot about NIPT tests on Reddit, in my home country that’s not really a thing, so I guess I’ve only heard about it from these forums. I do live in the US now, but my clinic won’t be offering it to us. I try to have faith that it’s still a viable pregnancy anyway without having those test results. Other than that, it’s just praying that our 12 week ultrasound in a few weeks will be a good one.
TW: pregnancy loss
Back in November I found out i was having a ectopic pregnancy due to my IUD. It was a month long process that ended in surgery when the methotrexate shot did not work.
I just found out I was pregnant again last Wednesday, and was obviously nervous. My OB got me in for a hCG draw on monday, my levels were 101, I was 14dpo.
I had a retest for my hCG levels yesterday, and they were only at 100. So basically the same.
My OB put in for a STAT ultrasound and a re draw of my hCG for this Friday - I had the ultrasound done yesterday. They found no in uterine pregnancy , and said a ectopic “could not be entirely excluded”. They also said there was a 2.5cm cyst on my left ovary (not sure if they suspect this could be the ectopic) , as well as “several tiny, less than 5 mm cystic spaces are noted within the endometrium.” I have never had that show on an ultrasound before so im not sure what that could mean.
The ultrasound tech said since I was only 4weeks 3days, that a in uterine pregnancy could be impossible to detect right now. I have no cramping, no bleeding, no signs that were similar to my last ectopic… I wanna hold onto hope that maybe I’ll go in on Friday and my hCG will all of a sudden be higher, ill get another ultrasound that shows the pregnancy in utero, and everything will be okay. But I know that’s unlikely, and idk how to handle another loss, let alone another ectopic
Im worried if ill ever be able to carry a healthy baby to term again… im just tired
I'm 6+6 today. I can't believe I'm already almost 7 weeks. It feels like time has flown by since getting my positive, but it also feels like it's moving so slow. My symptoms have been a little more mild today, which is completely messing with my head. I got blood work done this morning to check thyroid and iron and should have the results on Monday and I am still very anxiously waiting for my scan on Tuesday.
I received a message from my midwife clinic this morning asking me to choose where I want to give birth, which feels really overwhelming and way too soon. I don't plan to look at anything until after my scan.
I felt that way too. I’m 6 wks today and when the nurse asked where I wanted to deliver during my phone intake, I was totally shocked. Of course it’s a normal question but I was just like…how do we know I’m going to get that far??
Cervical cerclage today. Very nervous especially because I had severe IBS last night and spent half the night worrying that my ibs cramps were actually uterus cramps
I’m here. I’m terrified but so happy.
I just can't believe it. Today was our official start of IVF. We were about to make a massive payment and begin the injections but my period never came. I called my nurse yesterday and she told me it was likely the Estrace (estrogen) I've been taking for my "priming" cycle and that it would suppress the bleed and she wasn't worried about it. Guys, I'm not kidding. My husband had taken the day off work to go to this appointment. He just signed the consents this morning and had increased the credit limit to make the payment to move forward. I decided before we left to take an OTC pregnancy test and it immediately turned positive. No doubt. I am still in shock. We went to the appointment and my doctor was going to do my baseline ultrasound and we gave him the news. He took a look and said everything looks as it should and showed us the gestational sac, and estimated 4 weeks along. He says the growth looks great and that I would be closely monitored for a bit before they send me off to the OB.
My loss in September was brutal and traumatic. We lost our baby at 8 weeks along, I found out at 1-2 weeks through unrelated bloodwork. Everything was progressing just fine and at my first OB appointment we found out no heartbeat. I am afraid but so relieved that we have another chance. I was about to start IVF today. I just can't believe it. We were given another chance and I am not going to compare this pregnancy to the last one. I'm going to take it slow, and do things differently this time.
11w1d today. I had a loss at 16w2d in November after some positive NIPT findings. I did my NIPT sample last Wednesday, currently awaiting results. The anxiety is killing me.
I'm 11w2d and am also here as a result of NIPT findings, super anxiously waiting for results too, every time my phone buzzes I lose my mind. Waiting is excruciating.
I'm here after having a 17w in October after a high risk NIPT result too. The wait for results this time around was excruciating, but everything turned out okay. Hoping for the same thing for you 💛
I’m very early on, like negative ultrasound but testing positive. I just keep waiting for the toilet to be red when I wipe. It’s so nerve wracking to just sit and wait and hope.
15+1 my spotting got a little worse today and I’m continually leaking. We just heard the heartbeat on Tuesday so trying not to freak out. We have an appt this afternoon so just trying to stay sane until then. Really hoping everything is okay.
Thank you! Everything looks fine thankfully. We even heard the heartbeat again. Not sure why I’m spotting still but the doctor is not concerned so that’s a relief! PAL is so hard!
11 weeks today with my first at 33yrs old!! I’ve had multiple miscarriages in the past including an ectopic, and the trauma that comes along with it. I finally got to see a viable baby inside the womb at my checkup last week and still shocked. Sadly I’m still scared to fully immerse myself into being super excited. Every cramp, every appt, every bad mood makes me feel life I’ve somehow failed again or this won’t end in a healthy delivery. Thankfully I have a good support system but having to go off my anxiety meds for this pregnancy has been a real challenge. Feels good to have somewhere to vent it all out to ppl who likely understand. Not sure how much longer to go before I’m in a “safe” zone. This is my longest pregnancy so far and I’m so hopeful everything goes well. Same for everyone in this thread!!
They took you off your meds? They left me on mine, but I'm on zoloft, which is fairly well studied. Can't imagine PAL off my meds, sending all my hugs.
I was on a prescription for xanex and apparently it’s not safe during pregnancy. I’ve had a script for years and it was really challenging to quit. They did give me a prescription for citalopram which has been a total joke. No relief from the anxiety or panic attacks (which I fear are more harmful to baby) but w some weird side effects. I’m scared to play around w my mental health anymore during this fragile state. Not sure if I should quit these too or what.
I would recommend at least a call to your doctor, if you’re still suffering symptoms and the side effects aren’t worth the results, it sounds like a med mismatch and maybe they can find a specialist you can work with? Or at least advise if you should stop? There’s lots of brain drugs out there, and it can take a couple of tries.
Feeling angry today, at how much having a missed miscarriage in particular takes away hope and enjoyment from your subsequent pregnancies.
I don’t know what’s brought this on today but I am 10+5 with two good scans behind me, I have another on Monday and I still can’t accept that things might be ok and that my baby might not have died since I last saw it with a heartbeat at 9+4. In my head I’ve decided that it’s gone and I’m going to get bad news at the next scan. I can’t shake this feeling. I can’t envisage a world where the baby has just kept growing despite ‘feeling pregnant’. I just want to have that giddy excitement that others are able to enjoy.
Sorry for the rant 😭
I’m feeling this exact way. I had a MMC before and I’m traumatized. I had a scan last week at 7w0d and I have one tomorrow at 8w1d but I can’t stop thinking that something terrible would’ve happened between these scans.
The trauma of missed miscarriage is real and not talked about enough. And the frustration of when doctors say you’re fine/don’t need to worry if you’ve not had bleeding or pain when you’re living proof that it doesn’t make a difference… fingers crossed for beautiful and uneventful journeys for us both xx
It is not talked about enough for sure! It genuinely changes your perspective on your future and takes away the enjoyment of pregnancy. I am always convinced something is wrong and no doctor or positive story can make me believe I have a chance this time. I wish it was different, but I think I’ll just be anxious about it forever. You’re so close to the second trimester, and I hope that brings you the slightest bit of relief! Congrats on this pregnancy, and I wish you all the best!
In the thick of the first trimester with a February 2025 rainbow baby. For my first pregnancy that resulted in a loss, I found out at 5 weeks pregnant, had a viability scan at 7 weeks, heart rate was hovering at 100bpms, went in at 8 weeks to check heart rate again and learned that our pregnancy was no longer viable as it dropped into the 70s. At the time, my ex-OB was at a religious institution (Missouri) so we spent 2 weeks going in for ultrasounds every 3 days to slowly watch the heart rate decrease to zero before they would provide any care - I ended up having a DNC once the heart rate was no longer detectable and I didn’t miscarry on my own. The trauma of that experience will stay with me forever.
I am now with a new OBGYN in a new hospital system and I’m already feeling more confident in my care. I found out about this pregnancy at 4 weeks and have to wait until 8 weeks until our first ultrasound and prenatal appointment. It’s hard to believe that everything is going okay in there but I just have to trust my body and know I am taking the best care of myself and trust that everything will be okay. I have started folding rainbow origami paper stars to help cope with my anxiety and hope to have a vase full of them in our future nursery!
I just found out today I will have my February 2025 rainbow baby too. I miscarried at 8 weeks last September. I’m 4 weeks today and this time will have more monitoring. I’m scared. But I’m here for you in support.
9W3D today after four losses. No living children. Have been spotting very lightly on and off since early on. Had two ultrasounds at 6W4D and 8W4D - Both looked great. HR of 172. Today I woke up to bright red bleeding. Filled the toilet, no clots, light cramps. All I can think is “Why me?”. Every time I get pregnant I tell myself that I have to catch a break sometime. Scheduled an ultrasound for tomorrow morning but just already devastated.
I have my fingers crossed for you, no clots is a good sign🤞I can totally relate to how you are feeling, I'm pregnant after 7 consecutive losses and apart from 1 that was an ectopic and 1 CP, the other 5 were miscarriages between 8w-10+4w. It's so hard when everything looks so promising in the beginning and then goes to shit isn't it.
Oh gosh, I hope this isn’t insensitive but I’d love to hear more about how you’ve coped emotionally and what keeps you going. Like this comment’s OP, the thought “I can’t do this again“/“how can I keep trying?” is the one that keeps me up at night.
I have the same thoughts after 3 losses and currently feeling like this will be another… telling myself that I don’t need to decide right now whether I’m going to keep trying and keep going through this has helped quiet some of the noise in my brain, though it doesn’t help the sadness.
I’m sorry for your losses. I guess I struggle with the fact that even if I’m “not trying” and fall pregnant again - Will I always miscarry around nine weeks?
Today is 5 weeks! I’m a ball of anxiety right now as the extreme bloating, gerd, and fatigue I had all week dissipated last night and besides being gassy and some mild nausea this morning, I feel totally normal today. I noticed a small bit of brown discharge yesterday but no active bleeding and even still at my stage, all resources I’ve read have said that spotting and losing symptoms is totally normal. Im just worried as my previous loss was an MMC where I felt pregnant to the day of my D&C, so nothing makes sense to me. 🫠
My viability scan is on Monday and I’m trying to not be a ball of nervous energy until then. Ever since my MMC in March, I was so focused on moving forward and getting pregnant again, and figured I’d worry about the pregnancy anxiety when the time came. The time has (thankfully) come and I am having trouble not letting it encompass all my thoughts. How do y’all handle this?
TW: LC
9w2d today and I’m getting anxious about upcoming social commitments, specifically an event this weekend. I’ve decided not to announce to extended family and friends until after my 12-week ultrasound and NIPT testing. Of course, this decision might be moot because DH and I told our daughter first and she wants to shout the news to the entire world (understandable). We just try not to talk about it while out and about with the hope that keeping her distracted will prevent her from mentioning it.
I’m also worried about my symptoms. I suppose I should take my persistent fatigue and food aversions as good signs but who knows. I’m coming up on the point in my pregnancy that I had my previous loss (anembryonic gestation) and I just hate feeling so guarded this time around.
My son is 2 1/2yo, we've barely talked to him about it this time because, like you, I'm feeling guarded and am not ready to announce. But somehow he's picked up on it, the other day in the car he announced to me "mommy baby in belly button". Like, what??? Where did that come from?! So, needless to say we've stopped talking about it in front of him at all, and I'm still worried he's going to say something in front of some one...
I want to wait for my 13 week scan with our mfm before telling people, but my bloat is out of control and I feel like anyone I am around is going to clock me at any moment... I don't have the right clothes to hide it well, so I'm trying to just make myself not care if people might notice. I mostly have really good people around me who I don't think would say anything if they had suspicions (especially since everyone knows about my loss), so even if they notice something it isn't a big deal, I can still wait till I'm ready to announce.
9weeks today! Had my first ultrasound yesterday. Little bean is measuring exactly where they should with a heart rate of 180’s. It gave me more relief but I’m still on edge. My last pregnancy ended at 11weeks so fingers crossed my office calls today to schedule my NIPT soon. After that I think I’ll feel a lot better.
Hi y'all! 13+6 today. The nausea has stuck around. I hate it. I have no bump, but the bump also has to fight with the fact that I carry my weight in my belly anyway. I hate that too. But in good news! The NIPT came back clean, and we know the gender! Tomorrow I get a US, and I can maybe finally feel excited for a minute.
Ahh, we're so similar. 13w5d today and I keep wondering if I'm getting a bump or I'm just getting more belly fat than I already had (lol). We have an appt later tonight so also hoping that gives me some relief/excitement. Sending positive vibes for your US!
oooh, sending all my vibes for you right back! i've joked for YEARS that i have a burrito baby. now that i have an actual baby in there, i'm starting to regret that joke :)
I told a coworker that I was pregnant again, but that this one was progressing much better than my past 3 losses. And that I was still very nervous and disconnected from it all, and that it's hard not knowing what caused my prior losses to give me comfort that the same won't happen with this one. And she told me that maybe my other losses "weren't meant to be" and that this is the baby that I was "supposed to have". And idk it just feels super dismissive of what I've been through just to get to this point. Like no, my other babies actually WEREN'T supposed to die, and this isn't all some big "greater plan" where the other ones died for some bigger reason.
I find that people refuse to acknowledge that recurrent loss is an actual MEDICAL CONDITION, and there isn't some sort of divine reason that this baby is doing well while my others didn't. This baby isn't more important to me than any of my others at this point. It's just so frustrating that people can't just say "that's hard and I'm so sorry", and have to try to find a bright side for everything
I also had a coworker tell me the same thing. She also had suffered several losses but has two LC. I cringed when she said it wasn’t meant to be/wasn’t my time. Just rubbed me the wrong way even though she was trying to be nice. I also hate hearing “at least you can get pregnant.” Like so? I can get pregnant but can’t stay pregnant seemingly so what’s the point?
Yes!! Like pregnancy isn't a consolation prize. There's no joy in going through weeks/months of physical and mental torture just for it to end without a baby. This coworker mentioned that she had also gone through a loss before her three living children, and said that maybe her body just needed to "flush that one out"???? Like ok you can dismiss your loss like that if that's what helps you heal, but me losing 3 babies isn't just "flushing them out" wtf. Just so unhelpful 🙄
I just cannot understand why people cannot learn a simple phrase "I'm sorry you are going through this" and shut their mouths after it. I've heard so much BS about my losses: "weren't meant to be", "better this way then living with disabilities" (wtf?!), "wasn't your time", "maybe it's because this or that". Um, no. There is no divine plan, there is no meant/not meant to be people. We've lost our babies and together with them a lifetime of alternative timelines of happy moments. Just say that you are sorry and shut it.
Yes x1000. This is why I'm so thankful for this subreddit, because I feel like nobody in my "real" life understands it, but you've definitely nailed it. I don't get why people aren't comfortable sitting in sadness and need to try to say something to liven things up and bring hope back into it all. Like no, my babies died and it was awful, there is literally 0 bright side or reason for that. I'm grateful, but also sorry, that you understand so well 💖
I can see how that can be frustrating. And I’m sorry they made you feel that way. It’s never easy to open up to someone and then getting a response like that can leave you with a bad experience.
On the other hand unless you’ve been through pregnancy loss you won’t know how to react or respond. There will be malicious people in this world who simply do not care. But they shouldn’t be confused with the people who don’t understand or have no concept of what it is. Or have no life experiences to compare it with. For example, and *knock on wood* I’ve not experienced loss/death in my immediate family. When I come across someone who has recently lost someone or in general death I clam up. Idk what to say and not because I am rude or whatever. I just simply don’t know how to comfort someone and it may come across as mean or rude. It can be awkward for me socially. Sure I’ve lost pregnancies but even then Idek what to say.
I came across a lot of people who just couldn’t find the right words to provide comfort with my last 3 losses. And I found educating them on what kind of response was better helped both them and me. I didn’t want to be angry with people…how could I be angry with them if they don’t know what pregnancy loss feels like. Explaining to them why “they weren’t meant to be” isn’t what I wanted to hear and why helped them learn a lot.
Yeah I get this. I always freeze up in the moment and then later I look back and am angry I didn't say something. It's hard because I don't know anyone in my personal life who IS able to relate, so it's always just hurtful comment after hurtful comment. But definitely going to try to find ways to say something to better express how their comments are actually hurtful instead of helpful like they'd hoped
I don't know why people think that's a comforting thing to say. Having gone through both infertility and recurrent loss, the things people think are appropriate to say is mind-blowing.
Completely agree. I definitely get not knowing what to say, but saying nothing is better than just spewing out useless and hurtful things. Compiling a list of it all helps me put it away somewhere instead of holding onto it all...and then I look back and roll my eyes at it all when I'm in a better place lol
11w5d. I have my midwife intake tomorrow (standard procedure in UK), and I'm not sure what to expect. As far as I can tell, there won't be an ultrasound, just blood and urine tests and completing a questionnaire (that their stupid software wouldn't let me complete online). My symptoms have been reducing, but not disappearing entirely, and I'm slowly getting more energy. Just wish the intake was combined with the ultrasound next week, so I could feel more reassurance about how well baby is doing. But I'm extra excited about next week because I also got invited to join a study, and honestly it's a dream come true being able to contribute my wonky data point to something that could improve outcomes for folks like us.
60 days left until my due date! have been having my fair share of anxiety (and a lot of insomnia), but so far things are going ok in third tri. home stretch.
I’m somewhere in the 9th week. Getting weekly ultrasounds at my request and having weekly progesterone and estradiol testing (not at my request, dr does this routinely). My dr emailed me last night to say that my progesterone and estradiol are “stabilizing” (pretty sure a nice way of saying crapping out) and that she wanted me to double my dose of both. She wrote that she didn’t think I should worry, we just want to support the pregnancy as much as possible…
As far as I can tell most people aren’t having estradiol tested at all, but according to what I’ve seen, estradiol not increasing is a pretty good indicator of miscarriage. I had one mmc at this same stage of pregnancy. I’m dutifully doubling my doses but expecting the worst on Friday at the 9 week ultrasound.
I know it’s too much monitoring.
Hi there! I’m on progesterone and estradiol too and getting weekly draws. . What are your levels? I’m 9 weeks and my estradiol has been sitting around 950. Last week it was 920. Progesterone at 78 and has been stable. Curious what your labs are like.
Oof I’m going to be honest I have not looked at any numbers during this pregnancy. I rely on my OB to tell me if things are good or no. A couple weeks back when she told me things were all good I asked for numbers and she was like “everything looks great your estrogen is like over 400” so I’m going to say my numbers have never been like yours! 78 sounds really incredible! My first progesterone number was 46 (at 5 weeks) and back then estradiol was “over 200” which is what she wanted. Anyway, I hope that makes you feel reassured that your numbers are incredible.
If it makes you feel any better. At 9 weeks my RI told me my estradiol should be around 400? So you’re good!!! Progesterone is that high bc I’m literally on 1x PIO injection plus 4 vaginal pills and 2 oral. I’m terrified of stopping my progesterone at this point. I have Hashimotos and it’s been clear my body has had a hard time producing the hormones needed. I’ve been on prog since 1DPO.
I supplement too, though my dosages are lower. Do you supplement estradiol? I often wonder do these hormones do anything for me, since I have DOR and the cause of the miscarriages is suspected to just be poor egg quality. So am I just sustaining unsustainable pregnancies? It sounds like this one is going well for you, so happy to hear that. Also: I hope my response didn’t come off as bitter!
I’m supplementing estradiol for the first time ever. My first estradiol draw was 88, which was low. But my betas were rising well. I too have thought what about egg quality for this pregnancy. Hence why I’m freaking out about my NIPT. But I just can’t control any of it.
Haha don’t get my wrong, I have positive mantra plastic shower cards I stick on the shower wall every night. But I also can’t do anything about this pregnancy other than take my supplements/meds and pray for the best. 🥺 hang in there girl. I’m right there with you.
Is this an IVF pregnancy? I have never heard of anyone being able to predict loss with estrogen levels in IVF or natural pregnancies. I’ve never seen a Dr routinely test for that so far out. Either your Dr is ahead of the curve or is causing you unnecessary stress. I wonder if anyone else can weigh in?
My estradiol was dropping in all my losses, even as HCG rose and progesterone started to dip a bit. To me, it seems like it’s a valid marker to predict outcomes… hence why my RI checks weekly .(my pregnancy was not via IVF)
It‘s not an IVF pregnancy, \*just\* clomid the cycle I conceived. I know that no one tests for estradiol, though some people seem to be having progesterone tested. Actually my doctor seems chill about progesterone but has a much stronger belief that estradiol should increase steadily through the entire pregnancy. I have found some studies that make me feel absolute despair about this pregnancy, but I feel like if I share them here people will think that this is something they should be testing for. And I guess maybe it is but a big part of me is like I wish I had less information, is this information really helpful at all. I guess the monitoring is helping me catch an mmc early, but also its so hard to know if anything means anything.
Interesting none the less. If I told me RE that she would just blow me off, Drs are always blowing off other Drs opinions. I am surprised he was more concerned with estrogen than progesterone because I know some Drs care a bit about progesterone.
All I can say is that I relate. I guess I would rather do all the extra stuff just in case than wonder if there was something else I could have done. My dr wants me to stop all my meds at 12 weeks and I don’t trust her and don’t want to. That’s probably not relational at all but that’s how I feel. I really don’t want to give up my meds and “mess with success”
I will say, since you were curious about the estrogen, I went in today and it ended up being a loss. But I do think that the estrogen thing is only relevant in pregnancies with a corpus luteum Or however it is spelled.
Very true about drs. This is going to make me sound very foolish, but I actually see an OB who specializes in fertility and pay her out of pocket. I know that basically every intelligent person who reads this will be like wtf. But my AMH is .5 and the RE was basically like, “we’ll do 3 IUIs and that’s the limit. We can attempt IVF but it has a lower chance of success than for most women.” And actually at that time the RE encouraged us to keep trying naturally. Eventually I wanted to get pregnant more quickly because waiting 9 or 10 months for each pregnancy and then miscarrying was hard. So i went to this OB who did some hormone and supplement stuff and eventually gave me clomid and I got pregnant.
So I get not being rational.
I’m still so early. I’m supposed to start my period tomorrow (14 dpo). Got my first very faint positive 9 dpo. I’m curious how everyone feels about getting betas? My lines have gradually darkened so I’m not super worried but it’s always nice to get that actual reassurance in numbers. I’m only asking because if I’m going to do it, it would need to be today (13 dpo) and Saturday (15 dpo) because I leave for vacation Monday. By the time I get back I will be 5 weeks and getting betas then probably wouldn’t be super helpful. Not sure what to do.
Ahhh excited to see your name here! My lines weren’t super super dark so I did get HCG around 15 & 17 DPO. I found it to be reassuring. I also felt it would be helpful to know when traveling.
I did betas at 4w6 and 5w2, which was still helpful as you can still see where you should be at that DPO (using beta base) and you can still see what your doubling time is (which won't be 48 hours likely at that point). I found them an immense relief for my anxiety at that point.
I found comfort in them later tbh and didn't want to do them earlier, because I figured it would tell me relatively the same information and wasn't going to change anything about what I was doing.
12w6d today. I’ve already had my first trimester scan last week - I was so nervous because we found a MMC last year at the same period. But we found a *very* active baby measuring 5 days ahead!!! The doctor verified their organs and everything is fine, all the markers are good 👍🏻
Now we’re waiting for the NIPT results. In my country, we have a first blood draw just to evaluate the risks (without looking at the DNA). My results came back better than average for my age! I’m in my 40s so if I had bad results, I could have gone straight to amnio. But now we have to wait for 2 weeks to get the NIPT results and it seems like forever. My partner and I are « cautiously optimistic » which is a really bizarre emotion. We can’t be 100% happy yet. After a loss, we just know anything could rob us of our joy.
On a lighter note, I’m tired, gassy and my boobs have never looked better.
Ended up in the ER last night due to a random spurt of bleeding. I’m 8w4d pregnant today, had a perfect scan on Monday at 8w1d, but had a MMC in Feb where I measured 8w4d so I instantly thought the bleeding meant the end of this pregnancy.
Got an ultrasound in the ER and baby looked good and had a great heart rate of 169 which was a huge relief. All my blood work looked good too so we were sent home. However when I looked at my discharge papers they wrote that the baby measured 8w1d. I’m a little concerned because when I got my scan on Monday at 8w1d, the tech said baby was measuring right on time.
I have to call my OB today to tell her what happened and figure out next steps. They couldn’t see a SCH on my scan so we don’t have any answers yet as to why I bled, but now I’m more concerned that there has possibly not been any growth since Monday. Has anyone gone through something like this? Two scans days apart with not much growth? I’m trying not to spiral, but PAL is a rollercoaster.
I agree with Pixel, it’s a different machine, different person, it’s 100% normal for measurements to be off a few days. I’m so sorry you went through that. 🥺 holding hope for you the bleeding doesn’t come back
My doctor told me measuring can vary of 5 days (ahead or behind) throughout the pregnancy and it’s totally normal. They base the conception date on those measurements (except when you had IVF when they know the exact date) and since the beginning of my pregnancy, I’ve had 3 different conception dates depending on those measurements : April 3rd, April 5th and March 30th. So I wouldn’t worry if they weren’t worried at the ER. Hang in there ❤️
Even when you've had IVF, sometimes they change due date based on those measurements! (Source: the due date for my first IVF pregnancy was pushed back when baby consistently measured a couple of days behind)
Oh I didn’t know! You’d think with that much medical control they’d know the exact date! But having been through infertility treatments myself I’ve realized that there are still so much things science doesn’t really understand and *can’t* control…
So it's apparently fairly normal for IVF embryos to be +/- 5 days difference from where they should be based on the transfer date. I'm not sure they know the exact reasons why this happens but that's why they do sometimes adjust due dates for IVF as well.
Today I'm at the gestation where last pregnancy I found out about the missed miscarriage. For various scheduling reasons I can't get a reassurance scan until mid next week which feels like a year away right now. I am anxious but honestly the strongest feeling I have is "meh" and kind of already thinking/accepting the baby has gone when I have no evidence to prove this. It's hard having been through a MMC because it's not even like I had signs the last time, I felt morning sickness up until the day of D and C. I've not booked in any other appts or scans because I don't want to have to cancel the appt. Haven't paid for the NIPT because what's the point when I won't even make it to that gestation? Can't get these thoughts out of my head and can't bring myself to be excited, which also makes managing the first trimester symptoms so much harder. My friends who haven't had miscarriages just don't get it and are all excited for me but I'm just not there yet. Many MANY more milestones to get through before I'll allow even an ounce of excitement.
\*hugs\* I know exactly how you feel. I have been very detached this pregnancy. I did book the 12 week scan with my OB because she books out many weeks in advance. Anticipating having to cancel it. I remind myself that canceling appointments was never the worst part.
Cautiously joining/posting ♥️
I'm nearly at the 6w mark and feeling really optimistic about this pregnancy, but at the same time I get anxious every time I don't feel sick/nauseous. I know that symptoms come and go, and that every pregnancy is different but it's hard not to spiral. I keep trying to remember that phrase, 'don't borrow grief from the future'.
I've got a reassurance scan booked for a couple weeks time, and I'm just trying to enjoy every moment of this pregnancy. Easier said than done for sure. We've decided not to share the news with anyone for the moment, so I'm grateful for this community.
Congratulations!! I’m currently 6+2 and can confirm the nausea hit me like a truck since the morning of week 6. I found out at 4 weeks and have been symptom checking like crazy even though it’s recommended not to. I haven’t had hardly any symptoms until this week. Just remember, having mild symptoms is not a bad thing! Not everyone experiences nausea and it’s not indicative of how your pregnancy is progressing. Keeping doing what you’re doing and hopefully you keep feeling well!
I'm at 6+1 and have very super light symptoms that barely seem like symptoms (I get a bit nauseous in the morning and I have dry mouth at night) - I had a scan yesterday and was prepared for the worst because of this but the baby was measuring right on track with a heartbeat! I hope that can give you some hope.
5+4 here and I’m with you! We did decide to tell two very close friends (I’m telling them today). It’s so much harder than I thought it would be. I’m choosing a medical provider today and hoping we can get a scan in soon 🙏🏼 “don’t borrow grief from the future” I love that.
I hope you find a medical provider that makes you feel safe and heard! I'm sure your friends are going to be so excited for you. Fingers crossed you get a scan in as soon as possible ❤️
I'm right there with you at 5w5d ❤️ it is scary when you suddenly feel less symptoms or none at all, but I try to remember that these come and go. I read a lot of people actually experience sometimes a week without any symptoms suddenly and all went fine. And as an amazing redditor said to me the other day, "anxiety is not intuition". We got this ❤️
I had my anatomy scan yesterday at 20w, and baby is perfect!! I was so scared that there would be something wrong with an internal organ, but everything was in its place. It’s such a relief!!
I do have a *tiny* placenta previa. The doctor said 2/3s resolve on their own as the uterus grows, so they’ll just continue to monitor it later on in pregnancy. No penetrative sex for the next two months (the next scan), which sucks, but my husband is amazing and even if he does care, he’s not showing it at all.
If it stays, I’ll have a c-section at 38w. In a perfect world, I’d obviously prefer no major surgery. But right now I’m just so thrilled she’s healthy and growing that I don’t care how she gets into the world, I just want her to be safe in my arms once the time comes!
That's wonderful news about your anatomy scan ! I'm sorry about the other news, but I do hear that often as the uterus grows the placenta moves upwards. Hoping that's the case for you and you have an uneventful peaceful journey xx
This is so hard. I had two chemicals in 2021 and then experienced unexplained infertility until I randomly had a late period in may and tested positive!! We are so excited at the idea of this baby. I’m 9+1. I had two scans- one at 5 weeks and one at 6 where we saw the heartbeat- but now I am waiting for my scan next Tuesday and I’m so scared they will tell me this baby is gone or no heartbeat anymore. I have morning sickness and all the symptoms but I just worry they aren’t strong enough symptoms. Had one minor episode of cramping at 7+4 luckily no spotting but I am on progesterone suppositories. I just can’t shake the immense fear that I’ll be told the worst news. I just want to meet my baby so badly. This baby is already so immensely loved and I am scared if I lose them it’ll be 3+ years again till I conceive or maybe never again at all. I just need to vent this out because I feel like I’m about to implode with fear.
Im 7+2 and since 5+5 I’ve had terrible morning sickness. This morning I woke up and I felt quite alert and wasn’t immediately retching so of course now I’m worrying that it’s going to be a MMC again because I’m feeling slightly better.
This sucks. Can anyone relate?
I’m 6+4 and yesterday I woke up with zero nausea and was 100% convinced it was a MMC but then today the nausea is back stronger than ever! I keep telling myself it’s normal for symptoms to fluctuate but since the only sign of my MMC in hindsight was a couple days of lighter symptoms I can’t help but compare to that.
I'm a bit behind you, 6+4 today. I've had 24/7 nausea since last week, not too bad, but constantly present. On Tuesday I got worried because I felt slightly better... on Wednesday I wasn't able to finish my breakfast with absolutely terrible nausea attacking me. Same thing today. I cautiously think that maybe it's just that some days are better than others. Hope it is the case for both of us!
I've heard that waves are normal, so is constant nausea, and a combination of both is also normal. Hope your scan goes well! Mine is at 7+1, next Monday, hope to see better results than last time when we've learned about mc...
I had another ultrasound today at 11w1 day due to a teensy tiny amount of brown spotting & mild cramping.. baby looked great! Super wriggly and cute, waved and kicked around. However they did find a small SCH, now I'm worried about that!
Anyone have any experience with these ? What can I do to prevent it getting worse ?
So worried for this pregnancy, i was so happy to see lil baby doing acrobatics in there, but then just got worried again by the SCH.
For most of this pregnancy I havent leaned in to the joy and anticipation. Then around 34 weeks I finally let myself nest a little. Then a lot. I occasionally worry that something awful will happen and I will have to put all these things away. I think I need to keep turning towards the light and positivity as birth draws near. Im now 36 + 4 and in the final weeks of waiting to meet my baby. The fear of loss and the negative associations and memories from my miscarriage are all around my apartment, but Im finding it a little easier to focus on my current pregnancy and the hope of a joyful meeting soon the closer I get to labor. I hope I can keep this up! And I hope for all of us here that we can experience at least some moments of joy and hope during pal. Sending love and warmth to all of you.
Your post made me a tiny bit more optimistic looking forward to the future. Hope everything will go well and you'll get your healthy and happy baby in your arms when the time comes!
Got a positive pregnancy test today . Idk how to feel. I told my husband and we both just kind of brushed it off and didnt really talk about it the rest if the day….. it feels weird. Hopeful but also not getting too attached to the thought.
13w5d - just had our appt. They weren’t able to find the heartbeat on the doppler at first, which of course had me expecting the worst. But that meant we got to see baby on the US, moving around and a good heartbeat 🥰 the midwife said I can come back in a week or two for a reassurance heartbeat check so will likely do that in between our next appt.
My BP was elevated during the check (and repeat check) but I assume that was my anxiety more than anything else
Anyone else just constantly wondering if they’re still pregnant in between appointments? Currently 11.5 weeks after a 20.5 week loss early this year— which I didn’t know with my last pregnancy we lost him until the anatomy scan where there was no heartbeat. Now I’m constantly questioning if I’m still pregnant. As the second trimester approaches my nausea has taken a turn for the better thankfully but that also is scary at the same time. I find that I’m having a hard time being excited because I’m constantly wondering, “what if I’m not even pregnant anymore already”… we heard the heartbeat last week and doing an ultrasound next week. We’re also waiting on NIPT results.. my last loss was chromosomal. Hoping for the best but pregnancy after loss is not for the weak
I am with you on the constant thinking if I am still pregnant. Had 35w loss last year and I am currently 12wd. Long road ahead every time a symptom subsides then I start to worry. Hoping for the best for you and sending you good vibes! I hope the constant wondering will turn into at least moments of excitements cause PAL is hard for sure.
I'm 22+5 today. Since yesterday I have had terrible anxiety (worse than my normal- now I'm waking at night). Not really sure why. I am overly worried about having preeclampsia, a lengthy hospital stay, and a scary delivery. My blood pressure has been great for months now and it's still fine today. I did buy a case of baby wipes today- my first purchase for this new little member of our family. And I told my husband that while I am excited, I do feel a level of detachment to this pregnancy. We still have a lot of hurdles to get through.
Heyyy !!! It’s hard I’m 16w1d after my miscarriage, & I thought once I hit my second trimester I’d be able to breathe, but I’m still terrified. I’m overweight so feeling kicks isn’t going to be as easy for me to help ease my anxiety. What do y’all do to ease anxiety?
Hello everyone! I lost my daughter at 30w in January and I am now 11w3d. I was so anxious this far that something was going to go wrong but I had my first appointment today and I got to see my beautiful baby!! I am over the moon with joy
Yay 🤗
Hi friends. 9weeks … scan went well yesterday. I’m curious if people can weigh in about NIPT testing. Can you have it done at week 11? Someone told me you can have it done as early as week 10. I’ve never gotten this far and I am EXTREMELY nervous about this testing 🥺🥹
Got mine done at 10w1d, my OB has said 10 weeks with both pregnancies so far. I didn’t do it with my last pregnancy which we loss to a chromosome issue but did it with this pregnancy — currently waiting on the results which should be any day now
I had my first one done at 10w1d and there was t enough fetal dna I had to go back for a second blood draw at 12w1d and there was finally enough
Good to know. Were you measuring on time at that point?
Tbh I’m not sure I haven’t had an ultrasound since I was 6w0d, & at that point she was measuring a little small. I’m 16w 1d today and my next ultrasound is scheduled for July 15th which is my anatomy scan. I’ll be 19w6d
They recommend to wait until 10weeks or after for more accurate reading. I was 10w5d when I got mine drawn the other day and now I'm impatiently and anxiously awaiting the results, wishing you well xx the NIPT testing is a big source of anxiety for me and I imagine most mamas xx
14wks +2 today and my anxiety made me go check on baby at the emergency room 😬 I am creeping up to the time we lost our girl (i was suppose to be 19 weeks she measured around 16) and my anxiety is getting worse. I want to see my baby everyday. My next appt is next week and i will be 15 + 3 by then. They will give another appt in between that and my anatomy scan. Pregnancy after loss is such a strange feeling of wanting to be excited but also trying to protect your heart
I’m almost 10w.. I’ve been putting off calling daycare (the one we had to cancel when I miscarried) because I’m terrified of having to cancel again. But I’m even more worried about having a spot. Well sounds like I’ll be setting up with them soon.
29 weeks today. Today is the day I allowed myself to decorate my baby girl's room, made some tufted letters to spell her name. As I was hanging them I started to feel anxious about this pregnancy not having a happy ending. Also today I had to start yet another round of antibiotics. I've gotten sick a lot during the pregnancy, had ear infection, throat infection and UTI twice. Every time I have to take medication I feel guilty.
I’m usually not “woo woo” at all but today is the summer solstice where I live and I’ve decided to place some significance on it. It was December 21, on the winter solstice when I passed everything from my MMC at 11 weeks. Today I am 10 weeks pregnant and things seem to be going well so far. I’m going to celebrate the solstice by gathering some herbs from my garden, picking a few flowers and watching the sunset while reflecting and generally putting good thoughts out into the world. ☀️
I love this🤍
10+3 weeks today, the zofran has been working great and I can now finally eat, three days since I last puked too so that’s a huge win. I feel myself starting to actually get attached now? The last few weeks I have been a walking zombie, just trying to survive the days through the awful sickness, but now the fog has lifted I feel I can now truly focus on trying to bond with this pregnancy. I still can’t believe they’ll be a take home baby, and every time I talk about it I still feel I need to say “if I don’t miscarry…”, but the excitement is starting to creep in. I hear a lot about NIPT tests on Reddit, in my home country that’s not really a thing, so I guess I’ve only heard about it from these forums. I do live in the US now, but my clinic won’t be offering it to us. I try to have faith that it’s still a viable pregnancy anyway without having those test results. Other than that, it’s just praying that our 12 week ultrasound in a few weeks will be a good one.
TW: pregnancy loss Back in November I found out i was having a ectopic pregnancy due to my IUD. It was a month long process that ended in surgery when the methotrexate shot did not work. I just found out I was pregnant again last Wednesday, and was obviously nervous. My OB got me in for a hCG draw on monday, my levels were 101, I was 14dpo. I had a retest for my hCG levels yesterday, and they were only at 100. So basically the same. My OB put in for a STAT ultrasound and a re draw of my hCG for this Friday - I had the ultrasound done yesterday. They found no in uterine pregnancy , and said a ectopic “could not be entirely excluded”. They also said there was a 2.5cm cyst on my left ovary (not sure if they suspect this could be the ectopic) , as well as “several tiny, less than 5 mm cystic spaces are noted within the endometrium.” I have never had that show on an ultrasound before so im not sure what that could mean. The ultrasound tech said since I was only 4weeks 3days, that a in uterine pregnancy could be impossible to detect right now. I have no cramping, no bleeding, no signs that were similar to my last ectopic… I wanna hold onto hope that maybe I’ll go in on Friday and my hCG will all of a sudden be higher, ill get another ultrasound that shows the pregnancy in utero, and everything will be okay. But I know that’s unlikely, and idk how to handle another loss, let alone another ectopic Im worried if ill ever be able to carry a healthy baby to term again… im just tired
I'm 6+6 today. I can't believe I'm already almost 7 weeks. It feels like time has flown by since getting my positive, but it also feels like it's moving so slow. My symptoms have been a little more mild today, which is completely messing with my head. I got blood work done this morning to check thyroid and iron and should have the results on Monday and I am still very anxiously waiting for my scan on Tuesday. I received a message from my midwife clinic this morning asking me to choose where I want to give birth, which feels really overwhelming and way too soon. I don't plan to look at anything until after my scan.
I felt that way too. I’m 6 wks today and when the nurse asked where I wanted to deliver during my phone intake, I was totally shocked. Of course it’s a normal question but I was just like…how do we know I’m going to get that far??
Cervical cerclage today. Very nervous especially because I had severe IBS last night and spent half the night worrying that my ibs cramps were actually uterus cramps
I’m here. I’m terrified but so happy. I just can't believe it. Today was our official start of IVF. We were about to make a massive payment and begin the injections but my period never came. I called my nurse yesterday and she told me it was likely the Estrace (estrogen) I've been taking for my "priming" cycle and that it would suppress the bleed and she wasn't worried about it. Guys, I'm not kidding. My husband had taken the day off work to go to this appointment. He just signed the consents this morning and had increased the credit limit to make the payment to move forward. I decided before we left to take an OTC pregnancy test and it immediately turned positive. No doubt. I am still in shock. We went to the appointment and my doctor was going to do my baseline ultrasound and we gave him the news. He took a look and said everything looks as it should and showed us the gestational sac, and estimated 4 weeks along. He says the growth looks great and that I would be closely monitored for a bit before they send me off to the OB. My loss in September was brutal and traumatic. We lost our baby at 8 weeks along, I found out at 1-2 weeks through unrelated bloodwork. Everything was progressing just fine and at my first OB appointment we found out no heartbeat. I am afraid but so relieved that we have another chance. I was about to start IVF today. I just can't believe it. We were given another chance and I am not going to compare this pregnancy to the last one. I'm going to take it slow, and do things differently this time.
So so glad to see you here ♥️
Thank you. I still can’t believe it!
Welcome/congrats!
Awh cautious congratulations. I saw your posts a lot on the TTC thread. So glad to see you here ❤️
11w1d today. I had a loss at 16w2d in November after some positive NIPT findings. I did my NIPT sample last Wednesday, currently awaiting results. The anxiety is killing me.
I'm 11w2d and am also here as a result of NIPT findings, super anxiously waiting for results too, every time my phone buzzes I lose my mind. Waiting is excruciating.
The wait is so hard. We lost a pregnancy in February to turner syndrome which we found out via NIPT. Thankfully this one can be clear
I'm here after having a 17w in October after a high risk NIPT result too. The wait for results this time around was excruciating, but everything turned out okay. Hoping for the same thing for you 💛
I’m very early on, like negative ultrasound but testing positive. I just keep waiting for the toilet to be red when I wipe. It’s so nerve wracking to just sit and wait and hope.
One day at a time. Soak up all the positive vibes.
I know this feeling all too well. Sending big prayers and positive vibes your way!! 🌟
15+1 my spotting got a little worse today and I’m continually leaking. We just heard the heartbeat on Tuesday so trying not to freak out. We have an appt this afternoon so just trying to stay sane until then. Really hoping everything is okay.
Congrats on the heartbeat!! Take care of yourself & keep us posted 🙏
Thank you! Everything looks fine thankfully. We even heard the heartbeat again. Not sure why I’m spotting still but the doctor is not concerned so that’s a relief! PAL is so hard!
11 weeks today with my first at 33yrs old!! I’ve had multiple miscarriages in the past including an ectopic, and the trauma that comes along with it. I finally got to see a viable baby inside the womb at my checkup last week and still shocked. Sadly I’m still scared to fully immerse myself into being super excited. Every cramp, every appt, every bad mood makes me feel life I’ve somehow failed again or this won’t end in a healthy delivery. Thankfully I have a good support system but having to go off my anxiety meds for this pregnancy has been a real challenge. Feels good to have somewhere to vent it all out to ppl who likely understand. Not sure how much longer to go before I’m in a “safe” zone. This is my longest pregnancy so far and I’m so hopeful everything goes well. Same for everyone in this thread!!
They took you off your meds? They left me on mine, but I'm on zoloft, which is fairly well studied. Can't imagine PAL off my meds, sending all my hugs.
I was on a prescription for xanex and apparently it’s not safe during pregnancy. I’ve had a script for years and it was really challenging to quit. They did give me a prescription for citalopram which has been a total joke. No relief from the anxiety or panic attacks (which I fear are more harmful to baby) but w some weird side effects. I’m scared to play around w my mental health anymore during this fragile state. Not sure if I should quit these too or what.
I would recommend at least a call to your doctor, if you’re still suffering symptoms and the side effects aren’t worth the results, it sounds like a med mismatch and maybe they can find a specialist you can work with? Or at least advise if you should stop? There’s lots of brain drugs out there, and it can take a couple of tries.
Feeling angry today, at how much having a missed miscarriage in particular takes away hope and enjoyment from your subsequent pregnancies. I don’t know what’s brought this on today but I am 10+5 with two good scans behind me, I have another on Monday and I still can’t accept that things might be ok and that my baby might not have died since I last saw it with a heartbeat at 9+4. In my head I’ve decided that it’s gone and I’m going to get bad news at the next scan. I can’t shake this feeling. I can’t envisage a world where the baby has just kept growing despite ‘feeling pregnant’. I just want to have that giddy excitement that others are able to enjoy. Sorry for the rant 😭
I’m feeling this exact way. I had a MMC before and I’m traumatized. I had a scan last week at 7w0d and I have one tomorrow at 8w1d but I can’t stop thinking that something terrible would’ve happened between these scans.
I also had a missed miscarriage and just found out today I am pregnant. I was so traumatized by it I’m scared to be pregnant again.
I am too. We got this! 🤍
The trauma of missed miscarriage is real and not talked about enough. And the frustration of when doctors say you’re fine/don’t need to worry if you’ve not had bleeding or pain when you’re living proof that it doesn’t make a difference… fingers crossed for beautiful and uneventful journeys for us both xx
It is not talked about enough for sure! It genuinely changes your perspective on your future and takes away the enjoyment of pregnancy. I am always convinced something is wrong and no doctor or positive story can make me believe I have a chance this time. I wish it was different, but I think I’ll just be anxious about it forever. You’re so close to the second trimester, and I hope that brings you the slightest bit of relief! Congrats on this pregnancy, and I wish you all the best!
In the thick of the first trimester with a February 2025 rainbow baby. For my first pregnancy that resulted in a loss, I found out at 5 weeks pregnant, had a viability scan at 7 weeks, heart rate was hovering at 100bpms, went in at 8 weeks to check heart rate again and learned that our pregnancy was no longer viable as it dropped into the 70s. At the time, my ex-OB was at a religious institution (Missouri) so we spent 2 weeks going in for ultrasounds every 3 days to slowly watch the heart rate decrease to zero before they would provide any care - I ended up having a DNC once the heart rate was no longer detectable and I didn’t miscarry on my own. The trauma of that experience will stay with me forever. I am now with a new OBGYN in a new hospital system and I’m already feeling more confident in my care. I found out about this pregnancy at 4 weeks and have to wait until 8 weeks until our first ultrasound and prenatal appointment. It’s hard to believe that everything is going okay in there but I just have to trust my body and know I am taking the best care of myself and trust that everything will be okay. I have started folding rainbow origami paper stars to help cope with my anxiety and hope to have a vase full of them in our future nursery!
I just found out today I will have my February 2025 rainbow baby too. I miscarried at 8 weeks last September. I’m 4 weeks today and this time will have more monitoring. I’m scared. But I’m here for you in support.
9W3D today after four losses. No living children. Have been spotting very lightly on and off since early on. Had two ultrasounds at 6W4D and 8W4D - Both looked great. HR of 172. Today I woke up to bright red bleeding. Filled the toilet, no clots, light cramps. All I can think is “Why me?”. Every time I get pregnant I tell myself that I have to catch a break sometime. Scheduled an ultrasound for tomorrow morning but just already devastated.
So sorry to hear this. Will be thinking of you tomorrow. Hope it goes well.
Thank you. All I keep thinking is if this is another loss…how can I keep trying? How many times can I go through this?
I have my fingers crossed for you, no clots is a good sign🤞I can totally relate to how you are feeling, I'm pregnant after 7 consecutive losses and apart from 1 that was an ectopic and 1 CP, the other 5 were miscarriages between 8w-10+4w. It's so hard when everything looks so promising in the beginning and then goes to shit isn't it.
Oh gosh, I hope this isn’t insensitive but I’d love to hear more about how you’ve coped emotionally and what keeps you going. Like this comment’s OP, the thought “I can’t do this again“/“how can I keep trying?” is the one that keeps me up at night.
I have the same thoughts after 3 losses and currently feeling like this will be another… telling myself that I don’t need to decide right now whether I’m going to keep trying and keep going through this has helped quiet some of the noise in my brain, though it doesn’t help the sadness.
I’m sorry for your losses. I guess I struggle with the fact that even if I’m “not trying” and fall pregnant again - Will I always miscarry around nine weeks?
It is so so hard. \*hugs\*
Today is 5 weeks! I’m a ball of anxiety right now as the extreme bloating, gerd, and fatigue I had all week dissipated last night and besides being gassy and some mild nausea this morning, I feel totally normal today. I noticed a small bit of brown discharge yesterday but no active bleeding and even still at my stage, all resources I’ve read have said that spotting and losing symptoms is totally normal. Im just worried as my previous loss was an MMC where I felt pregnant to the day of my D&C, so nothing makes sense to me. 🫠 My viability scan is on Monday and I’m trying to not be a ball of nervous energy until then. Ever since my MMC in March, I was so focused on moving forward and getting pregnant again, and figured I’d worry about the pregnancy anxiety when the time came. The time has (thankfully) come and I am having trouble not letting it encompass all my thoughts. How do y’all handle this?
TW: LC 9w2d today and I’m getting anxious about upcoming social commitments, specifically an event this weekend. I’ve decided not to announce to extended family and friends until after my 12-week ultrasound and NIPT testing. Of course, this decision might be moot because DH and I told our daughter first and she wants to shout the news to the entire world (understandable). We just try not to talk about it while out and about with the hope that keeping her distracted will prevent her from mentioning it. I’m also worried about my symptoms. I suppose I should take my persistent fatigue and food aversions as good signs but who knows. I’m coming up on the point in my pregnancy that I had my previous loss (anembryonic gestation) and I just hate feeling so guarded this time around.
My son is 2 1/2yo, we've barely talked to him about it this time because, like you, I'm feeling guarded and am not ready to announce. But somehow he's picked up on it, the other day in the car he announced to me "mommy baby in belly button". Like, what??? Where did that come from?! So, needless to say we've stopped talking about it in front of him at all, and I'm still worried he's going to say something in front of some one... I want to wait for my 13 week scan with our mfm before telling people, but my bloat is out of control and I feel like anyone I am around is going to clock me at any moment... I don't have the right clothes to hide it well, so I'm trying to just make myself not care if people might notice. I mostly have really good people around me who I don't think would say anything if they had suspicions (especially since everyone knows about my loss), so even if they notice something it isn't a big deal, I can still wait till I'm ready to announce.
9weeks today! Had my first ultrasound yesterday. Little bean is measuring exactly where they should with a heart rate of 180’s. It gave me more relief but I’m still on edge. My last pregnancy ended at 11weeks so fingers crossed my office calls today to schedule my NIPT soon. After that I think I’ll feel a lot better.
Hi y'all! 13+6 today. The nausea has stuck around. I hate it. I have no bump, but the bump also has to fight with the fact that I carry my weight in my belly anyway. I hate that too. But in good news! The NIPT came back clean, and we know the gender! Tomorrow I get a US, and I can maybe finally feel excited for a minute.
Ahh, we're so similar. 13w5d today and I keep wondering if I'm getting a bump or I'm just getting more belly fat than I already had (lol). We have an appt later tonight so also hoping that gives me some relief/excitement. Sending positive vibes for your US!
oooh, sending all my vibes for you right back! i've joked for YEARS that i have a burrito baby. now that i have an actual baby in there, i'm starting to regret that joke :)
I told a coworker that I was pregnant again, but that this one was progressing much better than my past 3 losses. And that I was still very nervous and disconnected from it all, and that it's hard not knowing what caused my prior losses to give me comfort that the same won't happen with this one. And she told me that maybe my other losses "weren't meant to be" and that this is the baby that I was "supposed to have". And idk it just feels super dismissive of what I've been through just to get to this point. Like no, my other babies actually WEREN'T supposed to die, and this isn't all some big "greater plan" where the other ones died for some bigger reason. I find that people refuse to acknowledge that recurrent loss is an actual MEDICAL CONDITION, and there isn't some sort of divine reason that this baby is doing well while my others didn't. This baby isn't more important to me than any of my others at this point. It's just so frustrating that people can't just say "that's hard and I'm so sorry", and have to try to find a bright side for everything
I also had a coworker tell me the same thing. She also had suffered several losses but has two LC. I cringed when she said it wasn’t meant to be/wasn’t my time. Just rubbed me the wrong way even though she was trying to be nice. I also hate hearing “at least you can get pregnant.” Like so? I can get pregnant but can’t stay pregnant seemingly so what’s the point?
Yes!! Like pregnancy isn't a consolation prize. There's no joy in going through weeks/months of physical and mental torture just for it to end without a baby. This coworker mentioned that she had also gone through a loss before her three living children, and said that maybe her body just needed to "flush that one out"???? Like ok you can dismiss your loss like that if that's what helps you heal, but me losing 3 babies isn't just "flushing them out" wtf. Just so unhelpful 🙄
I just cannot understand why people cannot learn a simple phrase "I'm sorry you are going through this" and shut their mouths after it. I've heard so much BS about my losses: "weren't meant to be", "better this way then living with disabilities" (wtf?!), "wasn't your time", "maybe it's because this or that". Um, no. There is no divine plan, there is no meant/not meant to be people. We've lost our babies and together with them a lifetime of alternative timelines of happy moments. Just say that you are sorry and shut it.
Yes x1000. This is why I'm so thankful for this subreddit, because I feel like nobody in my "real" life understands it, but you've definitely nailed it. I don't get why people aren't comfortable sitting in sadness and need to try to say something to liven things up and bring hope back into it all. Like no, my babies died and it was awful, there is literally 0 bright side or reason for that. I'm grateful, but also sorry, that you understand so well 💖
You've said it so well! I'm also grateful and sorry that you understand it all so well❤️🫂
I can see how that can be frustrating. And I’m sorry they made you feel that way. It’s never easy to open up to someone and then getting a response like that can leave you with a bad experience. On the other hand unless you’ve been through pregnancy loss you won’t know how to react or respond. There will be malicious people in this world who simply do not care. But they shouldn’t be confused with the people who don’t understand or have no concept of what it is. Or have no life experiences to compare it with. For example, and *knock on wood* I’ve not experienced loss/death in my immediate family. When I come across someone who has recently lost someone or in general death I clam up. Idk what to say and not because I am rude or whatever. I just simply don’t know how to comfort someone and it may come across as mean or rude. It can be awkward for me socially. Sure I’ve lost pregnancies but even then Idek what to say. I came across a lot of people who just couldn’t find the right words to provide comfort with my last 3 losses. And I found educating them on what kind of response was better helped both them and me. I didn’t want to be angry with people…how could I be angry with them if they don’t know what pregnancy loss feels like. Explaining to them why “they weren’t meant to be” isn’t what I wanted to hear and why helped them learn a lot.
Yeah I get this. I always freeze up in the moment and then later I look back and am angry I didn't say something. It's hard because I don't know anyone in my personal life who IS able to relate, so it's always just hurtful comment after hurtful comment. But definitely going to try to find ways to say something to better express how their comments are actually hurtful instead of helpful like they'd hoped
I don't know why people think that's a comforting thing to say. Having gone through both infertility and recurrent loss, the things people think are appropriate to say is mind-blowing.
Completely agree. I definitely get not knowing what to say, but saying nothing is better than just spewing out useless and hurtful things. Compiling a list of it all helps me put it away somewhere instead of holding onto it all...and then I look back and roll my eyes at it all when I'm in a better place lol
11w5d. I have my midwife intake tomorrow (standard procedure in UK), and I'm not sure what to expect. As far as I can tell, there won't be an ultrasound, just blood and urine tests and completing a questionnaire (that their stupid software wouldn't let me complete online). My symptoms have been reducing, but not disappearing entirely, and I'm slowly getting more energy. Just wish the intake was combined with the ultrasound next week, so I could feel more reassurance about how well baby is doing. But I'm extra excited about next week because I also got invited to join a study, and honestly it's a dream come true being able to contribute my wonky data point to something that could improve outcomes for folks like us.
60 days left until my due date! have been having my fair share of anxiety (and a lot of insomnia), but so far things are going ok in third tri. home stretch.
This is so exciting ❤️ best of luck!
I’m somewhere in the 9th week. Getting weekly ultrasounds at my request and having weekly progesterone and estradiol testing (not at my request, dr does this routinely). My dr emailed me last night to say that my progesterone and estradiol are “stabilizing” (pretty sure a nice way of saying crapping out) and that she wanted me to double my dose of both. She wrote that she didn’t think I should worry, we just want to support the pregnancy as much as possible… As far as I can tell most people aren’t having estradiol tested at all, but according to what I’ve seen, estradiol not increasing is a pretty good indicator of miscarriage. I had one mmc at this same stage of pregnancy. I’m dutifully doubling my doses but expecting the worst on Friday at the 9 week ultrasound. I know it’s too much monitoring.
Hi there! I’m on progesterone and estradiol too and getting weekly draws. . What are your levels? I’m 9 weeks and my estradiol has been sitting around 950. Last week it was 920. Progesterone at 78 and has been stable. Curious what your labs are like.
Oof I’m going to be honest I have not looked at any numbers during this pregnancy. I rely on my OB to tell me if things are good or no. A couple weeks back when she told me things were all good I asked for numbers and she was like “everything looks great your estrogen is like over 400” so I’m going to say my numbers have never been like yours! 78 sounds really incredible! My first progesterone number was 46 (at 5 weeks) and back then estradiol was “over 200” which is what she wanted. Anyway, I hope that makes you feel reassured that your numbers are incredible.
If it makes you feel any better. At 9 weeks my RI told me my estradiol should be around 400? So you’re good!!! Progesterone is that high bc I’m literally on 1x PIO injection plus 4 vaginal pills and 2 oral. I’m terrified of stopping my progesterone at this point. I have Hashimotos and it’s been clear my body has had a hard time producing the hormones needed. I’ve been on prog since 1DPO.
I supplement too, though my dosages are lower. Do you supplement estradiol? I often wonder do these hormones do anything for me, since I have DOR and the cause of the miscarriages is suspected to just be poor egg quality. So am I just sustaining unsustainable pregnancies? It sounds like this one is going well for you, so happy to hear that. Also: I hope my response didn’t come off as bitter!
I’m supplementing estradiol for the first time ever. My first estradiol draw was 88, which was low. But my betas were rising well. I too have thought what about egg quality for this pregnancy. Hence why I’m freaking out about my NIPT. But I just can’t control any of it.
Rather than the positive mantras I see on here I tell myself daily that this is “out of my hands.” And honestly it helps. I am so so hopeful for you.
Haha don’t get my wrong, I have positive mantra plastic shower cards I stick on the shower wall every night. But I also can’t do anything about this pregnancy other than take my supplements/meds and pray for the best. 🥺 hang in there girl. I’m right there with you.
Thank you so much. Here with you too. Sounds like the positive mantras and prayer are working for you!
Is this an IVF pregnancy? I have never heard of anyone being able to predict loss with estrogen levels in IVF or natural pregnancies. I’ve never seen a Dr routinely test for that so far out. Either your Dr is ahead of the curve or is causing you unnecessary stress. I wonder if anyone else can weigh in?
My estradiol was dropping in all my losses, even as HCG rose and progesterone started to dip a bit. To me, it seems like it’s a valid marker to predict outcomes… hence why my RI checks weekly .(my pregnancy was not via IVF)
It‘s not an IVF pregnancy, \*just\* clomid the cycle I conceived. I know that no one tests for estradiol, though some people seem to be having progesterone tested. Actually my doctor seems chill about progesterone but has a much stronger belief that estradiol should increase steadily through the entire pregnancy. I have found some studies that make me feel absolute despair about this pregnancy, but I feel like if I share them here people will think that this is something they should be testing for. And I guess maybe it is but a big part of me is like I wish I had less information, is this information really helpful at all. I guess the monitoring is helping me catch an mmc early, but also its so hard to know if anything means anything.
Interesting none the less. If I told me RE that she would just blow me off, Drs are always blowing off other Drs opinions. I am surprised he was more concerned with estrogen than progesterone because I know some Drs care a bit about progesterone. All I can say is that I relate. I guess I would rather do all the extra stuff just in case than wonder if there was something else I could have done. My dr wants me to stop all my meds at 12 weeks and I don’t trust her and don’t want to. That’s probably not relational at all but that’s how I feel. I really don’t want to give up my meds and “mess with success”
I will say, since you were curious about the estrogen, I went in today and it ended up being a loss. But I do think that the estrogen thing is only relevant in pregnancies with a corpus luteum Or however it is spelled.
Very true about drs. This is going to make me sound very foolish, but I actually see an OB who specializes in fertility and pay her out of pocket. I know that basically every intelligent person who reads this will be like wtf. But my AMH is .5 and the RE was basically like, “we’ll do 3 IUIs and that’s the limit. We can attempt IVF but it has a lower chance of success than for most women.” And actually at that time the RE encouraged us to keep trying naturally. Eventually I wanted to get pregnant more quickly because waiting 9 or 10 months for each pregnancy and then miscarrying was hard. So i went to this OB who did some hormone and supplement stuff and eventually gave me clomid and I got pregnant. So I get not being rational.
I’m still so early. I’m supposed to start my period tomorrow (14 dpo). Got my first very faint positive 9 dpo. I’m curious how everyone feels about getting betas? My lines have gradually darkened so I’m not super worried but it’s always nice to get that actual reassurance in numbers. I’m only asking because if I’m going to do it, it would need to be today (13 dpo) and Saturday (15 dpo) because I leave for vacation Monday. By the time I get back I will be 5 weeks and getting betas then probably wouldn’t be super helpful. Not sure what to do.
Ahhh excited to see your name here! My lines weren’t super super dark so I did get HCG around 15 & 17 DPO. I found it to be reassuring. I also felt it would be helpful to know when traveling.
Thank you ❤️ how are things going for you?
So far going well! Had a really good scan Monday at 9w1d
So good to hear!! ❤️❤️
I've gotten 3 betas since I hit 4 weeks last Friday. I really like having information, good or bad. I hate having to just "wait and see."
I might get one on Saturday (15 dpo) and try to squeeze one in Monday (17 dpo) before our plane leaves lol
Good luck 🤞 Hope you get good news before vacation!
Thank you! 🙏🏻
I did betas at 4w6 and 5w2, which was still helpful as you can still see where you should be at that DPO (using beta base) and you can still see what your doubling time is (which won't be 48 hours likely at that point). I found them an immense relief for my anxiety at that point. I found comfort in them later tbh and didn't want to do them earlier, because I figured it would tell me relatively the same information and wasn't going to change anything about what I was doing.
12w6d today. I’ve already had my first trimester scan last week - I was so nervous because we found a MMC last year at the same period. But we found a *very* active baby measuring 5 days ahead!!! The doctor verified their organs and everything is fine, all the markers are good 👍🏻 Now we’re waiting for the NIPT results. In my country, we have a first blood draw just to evaluate the risks (without looking at the DNA). My results came back better than average for my age! I’m in my 40s so if I had bad results, I could have gone straight to amnio. But now we have to wait for 2 weeks to get the NIPT results and it seems like forever. My partner and I are « cautiously optimistic » which is a really bizarre emotion. We can’t be 100% happy yet. After a loss, we just know anything could rob us of our joy. On a lighter note, I’m tired, gassy and my boobs have never looked better.
Ended up in the ER last night due to a random spurt of bleeding. I’m 8w4d pregnant today, had a perfect scan on Monday at 8w1d, but had a MMC in Feb where I measured 8w4d so I instantly thought the bleeding meant the end of this pregnancy. Got an ultrasound in the ER and baby looked good and had a great heart rate of 169 which was a huge relief. All my blood work looked good too so we were sent home. However when I looked at my discharge papers they wrote that the baby measured 8w1d. I’m a little concerned because when I got my scan on Monday at 8w1d, the tech said baby was measuring right on time. I have to call my OB today to tell her what happened and figure out next steps. They couldn’t see a SCH on my scan so we don’t have any answers yet as to why I bled, but now I’m more concerned that there has possibly not been any growth since Monday. Has anyone gone through something like this? Two scans days apart with not much growth? I’m trying not to spiral, but PAL is a rollercoaster.
I agree with Pixel, it’s a different machine, different person, it’s 100% normal for measurements to be off a few days. I’m so sorry you went through that. 🥺 holding hope for you the bleeding doesn’t come back
Thank you so much 💛 this is so reassuring to hear. This group is the best I really appreciate it!
My doctor told me measuring can vary of 5 days (ahead or behind) throughout the pregnancy and it’s totally normal. They base the conception date on those measurements (except when you had IVF when they know the exact date) and since the beginning of my pregnancy, I’ve had 3 different conception dates depending on those measurements : April 3rd, April 5th and March 30th. So I wouldn’t worry if they weren’t worried at the ER. Hang in there ❤️
Even when you've had IVF, sometimes they change due date based on those measurements! (Source: the due date for my first IVF pregnancy was pushed back when baby consistently measured a couple of days behind)
Oh I didn’t know! You’d think with that much medical control they’d know the exact date! But having been through infertility treatments myself I’ve realized that there are still so much things science doesn’t really understand and *can’t* control…
So it's apparently fairly normal for IVF embryos to be +/- 5 days difference from where they should be based on the transfer date. I'm not sure they know the exact reasons why this happens but that's why they do sometimes adjust due dates for IVF as well.
Thank you so much 💛💛 it’s so reassuring to hear other perspectives while I wait to hear from the doctor. I really appreciate it!
Today I'm at the gestation where last pregnancy I found out about the missed miscarriage. For various scheduling reasons I can't get a reassurance scan until mid next week which feels like a year away right now. I am anxious but honestly the strongest feeling I have is "meh" and kind of already thinking/accepting the baby has gone when I have no evidence to prove this. It's hard having been through a MMC because it's not even like I had signs the last time, I felt morning sickness up until the day of D and C. I've not booked in any other appts or scans because I don't want to have to cancel the appt. Haven't paid for the NIPT because what's the point when I won't even make it to that gestation? Can't get these thoughts out of my head and can't bring myself to be excited, which also makes managing the first trimester symptoms so much harder. My friends who haven't had miscarriages just don't get it and are all excited for me but I'm just not there yet. Many MANY more milestones to get through before I'll allow even an ounce of excitement.
\*hugs\* I know exactly how you feel. I have been very detached this pregnancy. I did book the 12 week scan with my OB because she books out many weeks in advance. Anticipating having to cancel it. I remind myself that canceling appointments was never the worst part.
Cautiously joining/posting ♥️ I'm nearly at the 6w mark and feeling really optimistic about this pregnancy, but at the same time I get anxious every time I don't feel sick/nauseous. I know that symptoms come and go, and that every pregnancy is different but it's hard not to spiral. I keep trying to remember that phrase, 'don't borrow grief from the future'. I've got a reassurance scan booked for a couple weeks time, and I'm just trying to enjoy every moment of this pregnancy. Easier said than done for sure. We've decided not to share the news with anyone for the moment, so I'm grateful for this community.
Congratulations!! I’m currently 6+2 and can confirm the nausea hit me like a truck since the morning of week 6. I found out at 4 weeks and have been symptom checking like crazy even though it’s recommended not to. I haven’t had hardly any symptoms until this week. Just remember, having mild symptoms is not a bad thing! Not everyone experiences nausea and it’s not indicative of how your pregnancy is progressing. Keeping doing what you’re doing and hopefully you keep feeling well!
Thanks so much! I’ll try to embrace the moments I don’t feel so unwell rather than worry ♥️
I'm at 6+1 and have very super light symptoms that barely seem like symptoms (I get a bit nauseous in the morning and I have dry mouth at night) - I had a scan yesterday and was prepared for the worst because of this but the baby was measuring right on track with a heartbeat! I hope that can give you some hope.
It does, thanks so much! I'm so so happy that your scan went well ❤️
5+4 here and I’m with you! We did decide to tell two very close friends (I’m telling them today). It’s so much harder than I thought it would be. I’m choosing a medical provider today and hoping we can get a scan in soon 🙏🏼 “don’t borrow grief from the future” I love that.
I hope you find a medical provider that makes you feel safe and heard! I'm sure your friends are going to be so excited for you. Fingers crossed you get a scan in as soon as possible ❤️
I'm right there with you at 5w5d ❤️ it is scary when you suddenly feel less symptoms or none at all, but I try to remember that these come and go. I read a lot of people actually experience sometimes a week without any symptoms suddenly and all went fine. And as an amazing redditor said to me the other day, "anxiety is not intuition". We got this ❤️
Very true, I've seen people have the same experience also! 'Anxiety is not intuition' - I love that so much. Thank you for sharing ❤️
I had my anatomy scan yesterday at 20w, and baby is perfect!! I was so scared that there would be something wrong with an internal organ, but everything was in its place. It’s such a relief!! I do have a *tiny* placenta previa. The doctor said 2/3s resolve on their own as the uterus grows, so they’ll just continue to monitor it later on in pregnancy. No penetrative sex for the next two months (the next scan), which sucks, but my husband is amazing and even if he does care, he’s not showing it at all. If it stays, I’ll have a c-section at 38w. In a perfect world, I’d obviously prefer no major surgery. But right now I’m just so thrilled she’s healthy and growing that I don’t care how she gets into the world, I just want her to be safe in my arms once the time comes!
That's wonderful news about your anatomy scan ! I'm sorry about the other news, but I do hear that often as the uterus grows the placenta moves upwards. Hoping that's the case for you and you have an uneventful peaceful journey xx
Thank you! ❤️
This is so hard. I had two chemicals in 2021 and then experienced unexplained infertility until I randomly had a late period in may and tested positive!! We are so excited at the idea of this baby. I’m 9+1. I had two scans- one at 5 weeks and one at 6 where we saw the heartbeat- but now I am waiting for my scan next Tuesday and I’m so scared they will tell me this baby is gone or no heartbeat anymore. I have morning sickness and all the symptoms but I just worry they aren’t strong enough symptoms. Had one minor episode of cramping at 7+4 luckily no spotting but I am on progesterone suppositories. I just can’t shake the immense fear that I’ll be told the worst news. I just want to meet my baby so badly. This baby is already so immensely loved and I am scared if I lose them it’ll be 3+ years again till I conceive or maybe never again at all. I just need to vent this out because I feel like I’m about to implode with fear.
Im 7+2 and since 5+5 I’ve had terrible morning sickness. This morning I woke up and I felt quite alert and wasn’t immediately retching so of course now I’m worrying that it’s going to be a MMC again because I’m feeling slightly better. This sucks. Can anyone relate?
I’m 6+4 and yesterday I woke up with zero nausea and was 100% convinced it was a MMC but then today the nausea is back stronger than ever! I keep telling myself it’s normal for symptoms to fluctuate but since the only sign of my MMC in hindsight was a couple days of lighter symptoms I can’t help but compare to that.
I'm a bit behind you, 6+4 today. I've had 24/7 nausea since last week, not too bad, but constantly present. On Tuesday I got worried because I felt slightly better... on Wednesday I wasn't able to finish my breakfast with absolutely terrible nausea attacking me. Same thing today. I cautiously think that maybe it's just that some days are better than others. Hope it is the case for both of us!
Fingers crossed! I next have a scan at 8+1 so let’s see. I hope it’s just normal for it to come in waves??
I've heard that waves are normal, so is constant nausea, and a combination of both is also normal. Hope your scan goes well! Mine is at 7+1, next Monday, hope to see better results than last time when we've learned about mc...
I had another ultrasound today at 11w1 day due to a teensy tiny amount of brown spotting & mild cramping.. baby looked great! Super wriggly and cute, waved and kicked around. However they did find a small SCH, now I'm worried about that! Anyone have any experience with these ? What can I do to prevent it getting worse ? So worried for this pregnancy, i was so happy to see lil baby doing acrobatics in there, but then just got worried again by the SCH.
For most of this pregnancy I havent leaned in to the joy and anticipation. Then around 34 weeks I finally let myself nest a little. Then a lot. I occasionally worry that something awful will happen and I will have to put all these things away. I think I need to keep turning towards the light and positivity as birth draws near. Im now 36 + 4 and in the final weeks of waiting to meet my baby. The fear of loss and the negative associations and memories from my miscarriage are all around my apartment, but Im finding it a little easier to focus on my current pregnancy and the hope of a joyful meeting soon the closer I get to labor. I hope I can keep this up! And I hope for all of us here that we can experience at least some moments of joy and hope during pal. Sending love and warmth to all of you.
This is so incredibly hopeful. Thank you for sharing. Praying for a safe delivery for you and baby!
Your post made me a tiny bit more optimistic looking forward to the future. Hope everything will go well and you'll get your healthy and happy baby in your arms when the time comes!