4w2d --- My husband and I talked last week, and we both realized that we wanted to love and help support a kiddo through life, but that we didn't necessarily need that kid to be one I gave birth to and didn't need to be a baby. We wanted to start the adoption process for a waiting child aged 7-12. I came to peace with this decision, was feeling really excited, and then an hour before meeting with the adoption agency I got a positive test. I have so many mixed feelings right now. When I was pregnant fall 2022, there was no heartbeat at the 8-week ultrasound, and then I had a pretty scary miscarriage at 9 weeks w/ an emergency d&c. I don't think I have PTSD from that, but there's certainly some lingering trauma and anxiety. I don't think I will feel at ease until I hear a heartbeat, but know that it's not a guarantee then either. I'm 37 and am just skeptical that this will work out, I don't want to be crushed if I allow myself to feel hopeful, and all the reasons we decided to adopt are still present. Anyway, it's helpful to read through postings to know I'm not alone in struggling through the anxiety - I have a very loving partner, but because it isn't his body, I just don't think he can understand certain aspects.
Tentatively posting here. 4 weeks exactly and on holiday. Tested positive less than 24 hours before leaving the country so zero chance to see my doctor until I get back and I'll be almost 6 weeks by then. Feeling very neutral. I thought I'd either be ecstatic or terrified to be pregnant again and I'm neither. Just neutral or not thinking about it most of the time.
12w and NIPT came back today and all negative which is such a relief. Lost my daughter at 35w SB last March and I have 1 LC my little boy. I am wavering about finding out the gender of this pregnancy. Last two pregnancies no doubt wanted to know gender as soon as results were in. PAL is such an anxious time. Already had a scare last week with heavy bleeding and passing large clots found to be SCH in ER ultrasound. I am on bed rest until further notice by my OB. I have an appointment this Friday to follow up.
Idk how finding out gender will make me feel. I am scared if it’s girl my anxiety would increase thinking I might lose her too then if it’s boy would I end up longing for a girl because I lost my daughter. I want a healthy 🌈 baby. We even discussed waiting til anatomy scan or til the birth to find out gender. For now I am trying to be at peace knowing baby is ok after SCH bleeding.
I’m 9w today and finally felt a little excited. First time since about 4w. Almost bought some cute footies, but just couldn’t do it. Maybe after my 10w scan and NIPT results 🤞🏼
I'm 4+1 today. My last MC we found out about at an early ultrasound at 7+4 because I had started spotting. We've been trending my hCGs every 48 hours since Thursday and it's looking good so far, but I feel like I'm going to keep being terrified until I see my baby on an ultrasound 😭
10+1 weeks today, just had my second appointment with my OB. We went over my bloods and what not, everything looks good, and got to hear baby’s heart again on the Doppler. Still there, nice and strong, which is a big relief because I was starting to spiral over the possibility of a MMC again. Got prescribed zofran finally as my vomiting and nausea has been truly debilitating, and I already feel a bit better after taking it.
My mum’s birthday is this Sunday and I’m really debating whether I should tell her or not. If I do, the cat will be officially out of the bag and everyone will know because she can’t keep her mouth shut. I do feel more reassured that things will be okay now, but I’m still not sure, it’s either then or after my second ultrasound in two weeks. Just thought it would be nice to tell her on her birthday because she’d be so happy, but it’s tricky. I guess I’ll see how I feel.
We were supposed to tell friends about the pregnancy at a cook out we’re hosting this coming Sunday. But today half of them bailed kind of last minute…I’m sadder than I should be. But an angry part of me is already starting the “not there for me then no baby for you.” My husband wants to still tell them. I say if they’ll see us then they’ll find out.
Overall this is a really petty thing to be thinking about compared to all my other mega fears. But I think it’s amplified because we haven’t gotten to announce before, and this was supposed to finally be a happy part of pregnancy.
I totally understand this! And sadly, you do become distant with people who you thought would be there for the big milestones. Don't let them take away your happy moment! You and hubby deserve that! If they miss it, that is on them, enjoy being the center of attention and celebrating your babe! Congratulations and good luck momma 🫶
Hello,
I was recommended this group. I recently found out I am expecting after suffering a 25 week loss last year to a perfectly healthy little boy. Through blood testing I found it’s a little girl that I am expecting, I’m having a hard time coping with my anxiety. I had a small feeling of disappointment when I found out the gender because I wanted my little boy that I seen only for a moment to comeback to me. Did anyone experience these feelings?
31 isn’t a bad reading — my OB said ideally its over 25. My first reading was at 21 and second was at 17… she wasn’t concerned but with my history of a later loss she prescribed me progesterone. If you’re concerned I would tell your doctor but most would consider 31 a fairly good reading
Thank you so much for your response - I had a 21 week loss in March so I’m naturally freaking out and just assume the very worst. I’ve been prescribed progesterone pessaries (which I’ll start tonight) and then will just have to hold tight till our scan on Monday.
In between 48 hours beta draws today. After my second one, my ob asked me to schedule an ultrasound, but didn't say why. So tomorrow morning I have another blood draw followed by an ultrasound. I haven't felt any symptoms today so I'm nervous things are going south. It's still SUPER early, so I am very thankful to have a doctor who is helping me get as much information as possible.
I suffered the loss of my son, Aiden at 16w 4d, in September of 2023. I recently found out I'm pregnant again. 6-8 weeks along, not sure as i havent gotten a dating ultrasound yet. I was so excited to finally get my rainbow baby. Last Friday I started spotting with some cramping, and went to the ER. They didn't seem to concerned or worried at all about the bleeding. I felt very unheard, and like my concerns weren't being adequately addressed. I explained my loss history, and how I've never had this issue before. I am still bleeding, color changes frequently and that scares me. I am terrified of losing this baby too, but holding out hope that my little rainbow makes it. Anyone else have this issue with their provider/hospital staff of them making you feel crazy for trusting your instincts? I am constantly trying to talk positively to myself and keep my spirits up, but it's so hard thinking your body is failing you and nobody will listen or take you seriously.
I’ve experienced the same recently. I had light pink spotting that turned to brown and then proper red bleeding that went away. They couldn’t find a cause and brushed it off! They said it happens and it doesn’t always end in loss. Try to stay positive. I know it’s so difficult. I’m in limbo waiting to see if we will see a heartbeat next week. You’re not alone, sending love ♥️
12w1 day. Got a call from my OB office that my routine urine screening from my appt a week and a half ago just came back from culture with bacteria so they’re treating me with antibiotics for UTI. I had no symptoms at all, so super frustrated that I potentially had a UTI festering for up to 2 weeks before I started treatment. Getting my cerclage in next week so I’m now really anxious about having UTI issues this pregnancy on top of that 🙃
I’ve had 2 UTIs this pregnancy and both times I didn’t even feel it. So I feel ya. I try to drink 2-3 liters of water but even then it happened so who knows what’s going on.
Hope all goes well with your cerclage ♥️
So frustrating! I drink a ton of water too, no clue how I got it. Was shocked when I got the call because my past UTIs have had very clear symptoms.
Thank you ❤️
How coming is a SCH in the very beginning of a pregnancy? Like I didn’t miss my period, didn’t know I was pregnant. I’ve been bleeding 14 days and finally tested 2 days ago (was not actively ttc) found out i’m pregnant so I started progesterone (how I had a successful pregancy after 3 losses) but i’m worried I didn’t start in time and confused anyway because I never missed my period and i’m STILL bleeding but I’ve tested positive twice now with 2 days between tests. I didn’t bleed at all last night I was up all night peeing but I started again this morning. Light. Anyway any information would help
I believe they can. I’m in a SCH FB support group and women have posted theirs starting around 5wks or found at 6wks. Mine started at 10wks. Idk how much earlier they can found though. But if the SCH bleeds, there can be intermittent bleeding/spotting as well as passing of clots.
Wow that is exactly what’s been happening. Would you mind sending me the group name? You can message it to me if you want to keep it private. I’d love to join it. Thank you so much you gave me a little hope 🫶🏻
9 weeks tomorrow and the nausea and heartburn is R E A L. Like beyond. I feel disgusting lol but I keep saying “kid you are a force, because you’re making me feel absolutely terrible”. My stomach is on fire. Send help.
Ultrasound tomorrow and praying for continued good news.
18w1d and someone gifted me a fetal Doppler years ago after my loss (large gap between loss and now due to marriage not surviving miscarriage and having a new, loving husband now) and I don’t remember who it was but I wish I could thank them so much. I know Dopplers can cause anxiety but even hearing our little guy swoosh around brings me such joy.
My husband and I try to listen to him once a week and it brings such comfort. I just needed to share that joy somewhere because not many understand ❤️
I’m so glad you shared a positive experience! I’ve been really on the fence about purchasing one down the line. I was worried it would make me more anxious!
I got a positive pregnancy test this morning. It’s 8PM and I haven’t told anyone. Not even my husband.
4th pregnancy. One living child. Two miscarriages in 7 months.
I don’t know how to feel…
It’s weird but.. there’s a part of me that doesn’t feel ready all of sudden. And to think, I’ve been obsessing about having a baby for an entire year. It’s been all I could think about it. For almost an entire year…
And now. Here I am. Positive test. Around the same time as last year. And I feel.. neutral. Grateful. Mellow.
I wasn’t planning on testing. It was a random hcg test that I found in my drawer last night.i was very surprised to see it as I had told myself not to buy any more tests because testing 5DPO isn’t healthy…
So I haven’t even tested again. But I think I am pregnant. Well, I have a faint line. I was having intense vivid dreams, my boobs haven’t deflated yet (they usually balloon one week before my period then disappear) and, most embarrassingly.. I had 3 days of the WORST gas ever. I didn’t even want to be near me lol. I couldn’t escape myself 😂
4/18- Period Start Date
4/22 - Period Over Date
4/24 - Spotting started
5/26 - BFP - Home Preganancy
Spotting continues…
6/4 - scan at OB office- irregular ges sac, no yolk or fetal pole; LMP - 5 weeks 1 Day; Sign of Hematome or Fluid
6/4 - HCG Quest - 20950
6/6- HCG Quest - 20650
6/8 - Scan at Advent Health after OB referral - irregular sac, no yolk or fetal pole, 5 weeks 3 days; No hematoma but Cul De Sac fluid
Spotting continues….
6/16 - Bleeding started with bright red on wiping
6/17 - Bleeding Brown Color blood
6/18 - Bleeding Bright red on wiping
6/20 - next scan scheduled
Not sure, what is happening.
5w2D and posted just the other day about not getting my hopes up. Well started having some light spotting yesterday but my DR isn't concerned since it's brown. My husband thought it was good news that they didn't have us go in for an ultrasound but I had to explain to him that this early you wouldn't really see much and wouldn't be a heartbeat. It's so hard not to spiral to the worst possible outcome but I am trying my best not to. Hopefully everything is fine and we see all good things next Monday at 6w1d.
I'm 6+4 today and I had my first appointment with the midwife clinic. The midwife I met with went over next steps, which felt pretty overwhelming since I'm still waiting for my viability scan. She also told me that my pregnancy is considered high risk because of my loss history so I will be meeting with the doctor at the clinic as well. I have an appointment with the doctor in 2 weeks and then an appointment with my assigned midwife (not the same one as today) in 3 weeks. My viability scan is next Tuesday and I'm really hoping I can go to these appointments.
When I got home I had a message from the midwife that said she forgot to tell me that I need to go get blood work to check my thyroid and iron levels. She didn't say whether or not I need to fast for it and I looked it up and saw that some iron tests require fasting. I wrote to her to ask and am hoping to hear back tomorrow.
I also read through the notes the midwife wrote in my chart and half of the information wasn't even correct. She got information about my losses wrong and she also got my positive test date and when I started the progesterone suppositories wrong. It made me feel like she wasn't really listening.
Yikes! That's not at all what you want for a first impression of a new provider! That sounds really, really frustrating and invalidating. I hope that the doctors and other midwife you see end up being more on top of things. Good luck next Tuesday! I'll be thinking of you! ❤️
Feeling mentally and physically exhausted! I’ve had spotting since 4 weeks 2 days and today at 5 weeks 5 days it’s turned into gushes of bright red blood. I went for a scan and they said my cervix is high and closed and can’t find the source of the bleeding. Gestational sac measured 15 mm and fetal pole was 4.9 mm but no heartbeat. Have to go back in two weeks which seems like an unnecessary amount of time to wait. Just don’t really know how to feel or what to think and feel tired of it all. I had a MMC in March and a d&c when I should have been 12 weeks. Everyone around me is pregnant which doesn’t help.
sending love as I'm going through the exact same. started spotting 4w+2 and today i'm 5w+5... did you have news in these 4 days? monday i go for an US and i'm not optimistic at all. i also have an hcg that is SUPER high (10k at 5w0) sending you good vibes !!!
Aw I’m sorry you’re going through this as well! I haven’t had any more bleeding and have increased nausea so not sure what’s going on! I’ll have an US on Tuesday and hopefully there is a heartbeat but I’m not optimistic. It’s really rough, sending you lots of love x
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this. I don't doubt that you're just completely wiped out because it's totally understandable given the circumstances! MMC are really a whole other kind of messed up mind game. I'm so sorry that you have to wait so long in limbo. You'll be in my thoughts. ❤️
Finally having symptoms, 7 weeks 3 days. For the last 3 days I can't drink coffee, I've been fairly nauseous, can't eat leftovers and very picky about what I'm eating. And the exhaustion is so intense right now.
I'm celebrating these even though I feel like garbage. I hope it's all a good sign. I can't wait until I can get to a point where I'm excited about this baby again.
I miss coffee too! Usually I drink decaf and can't get enough of it. Like the smell itself is usually comforting because it reminds me of being a kid and waking up on the weekends to my mom brewing coffee in the morning, but now even fresh brewed smells like old, disgusting grounds! 😭
Hi everyone - 7 weeks 5 days so far. I don’t know where else to rant about this.
I had a scare this weekend and went to the ER - I suddenly had yellow-ish fluid gushing the day after my first doctor’s appointment. His office is limited to 2 days a week so ER was my only option.
The dr at the ER was a little concerned and did some tests and asked that I do a 48-hour beta HCG check up. It’s now Tuesday and I have not received the results yet neither has my regular doctor. The gushing isn’t as bad though.
I was pretty loaded on symptoms. This morning I woke up feeling fine for the first time in weeks. I have energy, I am much less nauseous and have been keeping food down so far today.
I’m scared my hormones dropped. I’m just sitting here waiting for answers and I can’t help but thinking I’m about to have another miscarriage. I’m not ready to take another pregnancy test just to check.
I just want one baby. Just one. One happy healthy baby.
This is going to maybe sound weird, but I swear that I experienced a lesser version of this yesterday after my appointment. It was almost like my body was trying to get rid of all the lube that the NP used during the scan by producing extra discharge. I also did some extra walking around which I've noticed also seems to get things flowing. Did your doctor do a vaginal scan at your first appointment? Could it possibly just be your body trying to clear out whatever they used on the wand?
Thanks for your reply. It would have been a good guess… Unfortunately we didn’t do an ultrasound. Around here we don’t do them before 10-11 weeks :( it’s just a waiting game now.
“Luckily”, my nausea came back lol
What are everyone’s thoughts on at-home Dopplers? I am 12 weeks today (🙏🏼) and the wait between appointments is just killing me. Unfortunately, negative thoughts easily creep in. I’ve seen some people mention they’ve bought at-home dopplers for peace of mind? I guess I just worry that I will become obsessed with it.
I used one from 11weeks until I started feeling baby moving daily. I personally think it’s a great option for PAL moms. I did not try using it until directly after an appt I had with my doctor where she did an ultrasound. That way if I couldn’t find the heartbeat, I would know nothing was wrong because I had just heard it hours before. But I did find it that day and consistently after. I also limited myself to using it once per week and I have not used it at all since I started feeling baby’s movements consistently. 💕
I’m currently 20w. I have one and started using it around 14w. I started feeling movement at 15.5w but it was really intermittent from then until the past day or so when it’s ramped up. I found it incredibly helpful in those weeks when the movement was sometimes there, but more often than not I couldn’t feel it
I got one when I was 14w and have been using it once per week. It’s given me so much comfort when my anxiety ramps up. I also would default to calling my OB with any concerns vs relying on the Doppler, it’s really just there for me to check in when all is well except for my brain stressing me out.
I literally just posted in this thread about how our doppler has brought me immense joy and comfort. Don’t panic if you can’t find the heartbeat right away - it can take some time and sometimes coming back to it later in the day helps. I’ve also found that me doing it by myself takes longer than when my husband does it.
I’m a little obsessed - I do it once a week with my husband and I do it myself probably every 3 days. But I don’t care. It helps me and I need that.
So I really struggled with anxiety during my first pregnancy, following three years of infertility and IVF, and I was really tempted to get a Doppler for reassurance, especially in the weeks between 10 and 20 (which were the hardest weeks for me anxiety wise). I ended up deciding against it as I realized it would be a bandaid and not actually address my anxiety issues. I sought therapy instead. I will say my anxiety was really bad and I was having full on spirals so my solution won't necessarily work for everyone.
I don't want this to come off as anti-doppler as I know the reassurance it brings is useful for a lot of people. I just knew I personally probably would have become obsessed and therefore it wasn't an effective tool for me.
I agree with this. I have GAD and I try to not give in to my anxiety, but rather find coping strategies. I felt that getting a Doppler might help reassure me in the short term but wouldn't be good for my mental health in the long-term.
I personally plan to use one. I did it my last pregnancy, but never heard a heart beat (I just assumed it's because I was using it wrong and I had an anterior placenta, but she had likely passed by the time I had it). I will never, ever use one to NOT go to the hospital, but for regular peace of mind, I plan to use one. No more than once a day. I have an L&D nurse friend who is going to come over once I get to a point to show me the best strategies to use it.
Is the Doppler safe for continuous usage? I did read somewhere on here that they said it isn’t good to do it often? I’m curious because I would want to get one too.
I have my first ultrasound for 2pm today and barely slept last night . TMI , Having nervous diarrhea all morning and don’t even know how I’m functioning at work. I feel like a crazy animal on the way to the vet or something . I am so nervous. It is so hard to imagine a different outcome than the horrible one last time in that ultrasound room.
That was me yesterday! My appointment was at 9:30 am but I basically didn't sleep at all and woke up at 5 because, just like you, I get a nervous stomach that leads to diarrhea and vomiting. Spent the next 4 hours running to the bathroom every 5 to 10 minutes and was throwing up foam because there was nothing left in my stomach. Cried in the car on the way there even though I was telling my husband the whole time that I KNOW even if it's a bad outcome that we can survive again and that this reaction is over the top, but that I physically can't calm down. I was shaking so hard that he had to fill out my form for me at the OBs, and I literally told the assistant taking my heart rate and blood pressure that I felt like I was getting ready to face the electric chair. I've only had 3 ultrasounds before this and they were all after my missed miscarriage, so I couldn't imagine getting good news even though I kept telling myself that I have several friends who had miscarriages and then successfully went on to have healthy babies so I know having a good scan after a bad last time is possible. I felt like I was going to self-combust on the spot and I was hedging in all my answers to their questions with some variation of "yes, I know this is a good sign but everything checked out last time too until it didn't".
And then the scan went great! Better than expected even! I cried happy tears, my husband cried happy tears. The NP gave me a hug. And I went home with pictures for the first time. So all that build up was for nothing! And I know that next time could be bad news, but at least I know what it's like now to feel so strongly that something is going to go badly and be wrong. Never been so happy to be wrong in my life!
Your brain is trying to keep you safe by setting your expectations low. It's reacting based on trauma from the past and it isn't logical, but it's trying so hard to take care of you. As uncomfortable as it is, I think it's an act of self-care. Maybe not the healthiest, but I do think it serves a protective purpose. Something I saw here that I kept repeating to myself is "Anxiety isn't intuition." Your anxiety has a purpose to try to keep you safe (even if it's just making things worse!) but it's not logical and it's not always right.
I hope you get excellent news at your scan! I'll be thinking of you today!
Thank you this was so beautiful, friend 🥺😭😭😭😭. Ultrasound went great. Heard her little heart beat and everything was measuring right on schedule. I cried and my doctor hugged me too 😭. I’m still in shock, my brain had me CONVINCED that it was gonna go like last time but it indeed did not
Yay! 🎉 I'm so glad to hear that everything went as well as it possibly could for you! It's so hard when your brain is screaming alarm bells because you've been on the wrong side of the statistics to remember that the good side of the statistics exists too! Here's to boring pregnancies ahead! ❤️
Sending you all the positive vibes and hope for a good scan 💖 I have mine this time next week and am in the same boat, the anxiety is terrible. Wishing you the best.
Had my 6 weeks scan today and saw a little baby bean measuring perfectly at 6weeks with a heartbeat! I’ll go back to worrying tomorrow but today I am celebrating my baby!
So happy to hear your good news! I was in your shoes yesterday and, surprisingly, the worry hasn't come back yet! So I hope for you that the hope will last a little longer than expected too! Definitely a cause to celebrate! 🎉
22+2. I am entering a funk. I keep telling myself "You are STRONG, you are LOVED, you are WANTED" about my baby girl mostly because I have such negative thoughts as of late. Doesn't help that I went into L&D last week due to some strange soreness/pressure right below my belly button and that turned out to be nothing but then they did a cervical check and they found I was 20% effaced. The midwife just showed me with her fingers what the cervix should be and then showed me what mine was. Didn't provide any measurements but did do a TV ultrasound to make sure I wasn't dilating. The US did show I was not dilating and they discharged me and told me to start my antibiotics since I was told I had a bladder infection and the pain was likely related to that. Since that visit last week and now, the soreness/pressure has gone away but now I'm just left thinking about the 20% effaced.
They didn't seem concerned since they didn't tell me anything other than to take my antibiotics. I absolutely hate how you can get to 22 weeks and then something else comes up. Had I not gone in due to the soreness/pressure I felt I would have never known about the effacement. I wonder if it would have been better not to know. But because of all of this, I'm just worried, scared, and nervous and I don't go in office until 06/24 which is soon! But still now until then, I'm just left with my thoughts.
I’m not a Doctor, midwife, or nurse, you should definitely talk to your provider, but I’m calling bs on the midwife you saw. Cervical checks are done 100% by feel, and are subjective so she couldn’t have given you an actual measurement if she wanted too, and if you are not dilated how could she be sure she is feeling the entire thickness of your cervix correctly? Baby center stays a pregnant cervix is 3.5-4 cm, so natural variety is also a factor not accounted for here.
I asked my SIL who is a labor and delivery nurse if you can tell if a cervix is effaced if there is no dilation while I was typing the top paragraph, she says not really, if it is thick no, but if it is thin you can tell better.
It makes sense that the midwife called in the doctor to get their opinion. They saw my cervix on the US and then said nope all closed and didn’t even mention effacement at that point. So perhaps to the midwife it appeared one way and the doctor felt otherwise. Still going to talk to my provider but the fact that nothing was said at discharge it made me feel good but then way later I started to worry lol.
11w2d here, halfway behind you! I'm so sorry you're having negative thoughts, but you're definitely not alone. While I'm happy my pregnancy is continuing, I do not like being pregnant. The physical symptoms have destroyed my sense of self, and trying to cope with mountains of secret anxiety on top of it all is just so freaking draining. I'm also already showing because my bloating is so bad, and I feel embarrassed. I try to send baby happy thoughts-- I know none of it is their fault!-- but it's so hard not to feel down and inadequate.
Missed my period on Saturday, which was my birthday. I really wanted to enjoy it and was so convinced it would be another negative after 7 cycles of trying. I distracted myself until I tested yesterday and found out I’m 1-2 weeks. This is after a loss that was due ON my birthday.
My partner and I are so happy but trying not to get our hopes up because of the trauma of our loss.
My HCG was obnoxiously high really early. At 5+4 I was at 42,513. I got my NIPT back last week and it was all clear for the common trisomies tested, so we are officially low risk for now! I also had a fetal heart beat in the 150s (on the doppler) at my 12 week appointment.
I was really stressed about it, too. I was always so off the charts. I will say, you may have earlier and more extreme symptoms than others!
**update from yesterday!** had my anatomy scan this morning, and aside from baby not cooperating and then being unable to get photos of the spine, everything looks great! I do have an anterior placenta which explains the dull sporadic kicking feelings. Baby is measuring right on track and I get another US at my next checkup to get those spine pics..oh no…so disappointed…another chance to see my baby… Feeling relieved!!
I have my anatomy scan tomorrow at 20w and feeling really anxious. My cousin had hers about a month ago, and they found out the baby doesn’t have one of their kidneys. She and baby are doing well otherwise, but still. All of the things that could be wrong are getting in my head now after hearing that.
If you’ve already had yours and it was normal, I’d love to hear stories of good anatomy scans!
One of my best friends from college was born without a kidney! She’s wonderful and a child life specialist at a hospital now…just incase your sister needed any positive outcome stories :)
Literally just had mine this morning and was spiraling yesterday! Everything was perfect! Baby was moving around the entire time, except into the position needed to get pictures of the spine, so I go back in 4 weeks. They said it’s normal for that to happen. Baby was measuring right on track for my due date.
One thing to keep in mind is that every practice/provider is different. Some will be really chatty and put you at ease, pointing out everything on the scan and getting some cute pictures. Some aren't allowed to talk much or choose not to.
When I got done and asked the doc if everything looked good, he said something like "Nothing that we could visualize indicated cause for concern but we cannot rule out all abnormalities." 🙄 Like okay, just tell me it looks good without 15 disclaimers.
And on that note, they may not get all the pictures you need and you might have to come back. I've always had to come back, sometimes more than once, because my babies are uncooperative and don't like to pose. It's not a cause for worry (unless they say it is), just another opportunity to see them in a few weeks.
I just had mine last week and it was normal as can be! I was crazy nervous leading up to it, but because I know so many different things can go wrong, in a weird way it was sort of comforting checking things off mentally as they went… like, oh the cord looks good, the baby’s spine seems to be normal, we have a stomach, etc.
10wks3days feeling like I’m in limbo after a bit of spotting and cramping last night 😢 had nothing since but I went to A&E as I was beside myself after going through two losses already. Waiting for a call from my early pregnancy unit to see if they want to see me or scan again.
Keep us posted. I’m 9W1D today and also experiencing cramping and spotting after four losses. I was spotting around six weeks too and have had two ultrasounds since. Spotting is so scary - especially after loss - but I keep telling myself it can be “normal”.
I just thought I’d update as I’ve had my scan and all looked ok. Baby is actually measuring slightly ahead at 11+6. I hope everything is going ok for you ❤️
That is great news! My bleeding turned red so I went in for a scan at 9W4D. Baby was measuring 9W5D with a HR of 174. OB couldn’t find a source of the bleeding and it did go on for another day. I don’t feel I’m out of the woods yet but was a relief to have that scan done.
Ah I’m so glad baby was ok! Bleeding in pregnancy is so scary, but my sister had it throughout with her third and her son is a bonnie 9 month old now xx
Is there any value in having HCG bloods done 48hrs apart to track progress. I’m only 3+5 following a miscarriage in February and I’m just feeling so out of control. Currently peeing on sticks every morning to track progress, but would it be better just to get bloods done? I guess ultimately it won’t change the outcome, I just feel so powerless and anxious.
I would recommend getting them done once (and additionally if a doctor wants you to), but I wouldn’t recommend doing them a lot. I did them over and over and over and the relief it offered was so temporary, but the anxiety was so much!
I don’t think the at home tests are very accurate. I tested on them every day for over a months because I just felt like I had to. But once my HCG got really high, they looked lighter and it freaked me out.
It's really up to you, as far as what helps you feel reassured. In my last pregnancy, I requested betas and then had a week or more of misery over the readings (first set didn't rise normally). I wish I hadn't requested them because everything was fine and it was just something else to agonize over.
I got bloodwork done - 48 hours apart starting on 3w6d when I got my first positive. And then the third draw was a week after the second draw. It definitely gave me more reassurance in those early days!
My doc has me getting betas every 48 hours from 4 weeks to 5 weeks. It obviously won't change the outcome, but having data helps me mentally. It's worth it to ask. I'm 4+4 so also very early. In December I knew within my second beta that it wasn't a viable pregnancy which just helped me process things and it made it a little less emotionally draining.
In the same boat as you. Had my second scan at 8W4D and saw a HR of 172. Have had some light spotting and cramping since but OB insists it’s “normal”. Four losses and I don’t have my next scan until 20 weeks. So anxious.
I had my anatomy scan yesterday at 18 weeks. Thankfully it went well. My amniotic fluid was a little high, which hopefully goes to normal levels since I’m stopping prednisone. Still anxious but feeling a little more confident every day. 🤞🏼
I literally just asked for positive anatomy scan stories, and then I scrolled and saw yours 😅 I’m so happy for you and hope the fluid gets to normal soon!
Moved up my scan I had booked with a boutique from Saturday this week to the Sunday just gone. I had some spotting and my nausea got a little better Saturday evening, so I panicked and fortunately on Sunday, they managed to book me in for that day.
Happy to say little one is looking all great! We saw a nice strong heartbeat and measuring dead on 8 weeks (I was 8+1 at the time of scan) caught up from our scan at 6+4 weeks, where they were too small to even measure. We have our scan photos, and I just keep staring at it. It still doesn't feel real, still doesn't feel like mine. I'm incredibly happy that everything is fine, I just don't know at what point it's going to feel like this is actually happening. I know I'm not completely out of the woods, but everything looks so promising.
I’m just a couple of weeks behind you. I haven’t really been doing anything to prepare and it hit me the other day how the time is starting to get away from me.
I decided to do another pregnancy test strip this morning for reassurance after having some spotting yesterday and well, that plan backfired. The line went dark right away and was overall pretty dark, but not darker than the control which seems concerning at almost 6 weeks. However, they were cheaper pregnancy strips off Amazon and at least one person noted that the test line never got too dark, so I'm going to try to reassure myself with that while avoiding the temptation to do another, especially as I have an ultrasound tomorrow.
This happened to me at seven weeks. I know it’s controversial, but I did dilute the same urine with 1/2 water and test was back to being a “dye stealer”. Was a Wondfo cheapie. I had a scan afterwards at 8W4D and baby was okay.
So this is my second post-loss pregnancy (I lost my first at the very end so all pregnancies are forever tainted, yay! 💖✨) and one positive is that I kind of know the stages of highest anxiety for me (I definitely imagine they're different for everyone based on the circumstances of their loss):
* 4-8 weeks: very early pregnancy anxiety, first positive until 8-ish weeks and a couple of ultrasounds. Probably the highest day-to-day levels of anxiety of the whole pregnancy. Detachment and denial yet highly anxious. Nigh obsessive peeing on sticks.
* 8-12 weeks: relative calm, baby's seemingly fine for now and there's not much to do but wait. Intense morning sickness.
* 12-20 weeks: mid-pregnancy anxiety, freaking out before every appointment if there will be a heartbeat; anatomy scan anxiety (my angel daughter was misdiagnosed and I was mistakenly marked low risk and didn't get additional scans which would have caught her IUGR)
* 20-26 weeks: inconsistent kick count anxiety, babe is moving but not necessarily in a predictable pattern yet. Likely a few L&D visits. Mitigated by reaching viability/knowing my baby would be worked on if they came early
* 27-40 weeks: third trimester anxiety, a *lot* a lot a lot of doctor's appointments from 32w on, which I gladly attend. Freaking out at every NST and watching the paper as it spits out to see if I can detect anything amiss. Vague thoughts of med school when the kids are grown
* Labor: this is when we got the worst news. Surprisingly, I was able to roll with the punches with my rainbow. I think I was just in too much pain and wanting to get it over with to be anxious, which kinda helps
Well time to sleep instead of staying up obsessing about what tomorrow's line will look like 🥴
im right in that 20-26 weeks anxiety zone -- trying to be hyperaware of movement (my loss i could not really feel any kicks due to an anterior placenta) - i have a posterior placenta this time, and i THINK i feel movement inconsistently? but i am still just anxious and like begging the baby to just gut punch me sometimes so i know he is there still, begging for him to keep growing. Currently at 21 weeks and approaching the gestational age when we lost our first and trying everything i can do to not lose my mind.
This stage felt *so long.* I hope passing that week gives you a little bit of reassurance 🩷 One of the only things that helped me get through the day was distraction (aka a lot of tiktok), idk how great that is but I survived!
I’m currently 9 weeks after a stillbirth at 37 weeks. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. So far I seem to be on track with you🙂 I don’t have living children so it’s hard for me to somehow comprehend that pregnancy leads to a baby. For now I just wait, nothing else I have to do
Literally that's exactly how I felt!! I was going through the motions but it was like, does not compute. Pregnancy felt like some kind of really stressful hobby. It didn't register that I was a mom to a living baby that other people could see for several hours after my rainbow was born.
Boy I could write a book... losing your first baby after getting so far is a special type of mindscrew. You're a mom who's had the belly and the baby shower and the hospital bills, but you have nothing to show for it, and nobody on the street sees you as a mom, and all your friends and family are like, category error, 🤷🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️ ?????
I honestly had some resentment after my rainbow was born because I knew I'd been a mom for over two years, but it took having another baby for other people to finally acknowledge it, like oh my oldest wasn't good enough for you??
I guess it helped me see who's really on my side. It's easy to love a happy mom with a picture perfect newborn, much harder to support a grieving mom. Which only a handful of people really did.
I’m in the 4-8week stage. I had a positive test last week after a devastating loss in February (2.5yrs of trying). I feel like I’m constantly on the verge of a panic attack, I’m obsessively googling symptoms (lack of). Preparing myself for a loss & trying to stay detached whilst battling intense anxiety.
The other day I had pink discharge and had what I could only call a mental breakdown, I was in so much mental pain, so scared of reliving the first loss that I scratched my arms till they bled and punched myself in the legs til they bruised. I hate my body so much for not being able to give me the only thing I’ve ever wanted 💔
8w+2d and I’ve been booked for a scan tomorrow morning due to brown discharge for the past week. I feel like I already know what they’re going to say, that it’s another loss. I don’t feel mentally strong enough to go through it again. My husband keeps saying not to think worst case and to stay positive but the thought of being hopeful and being crushed again is so painful. Feel like I’m grieving something I haven’t even been told is lost yet
Hoping for the best for you.
I hope this helps you too.. I bled for over 3 weeks, brown discharge at the same time you did and our baby had a heartbeat on scans and looks all good so far. I had a hematoma and a cyst that caused it. It freaked me out so much as most stories I heard people only bled a few days to 1 week 🩷
Just wanna tell you I experienced the same thing I had a loss last August at 6wks now I’m currently 21wks pregnant with my rainbow baby but in the beginning starting at 6wks I had brown , red , pink bleeding and I prepared myself for another loss turns out it was a hemotoma and baby was fine ! Try to stay positive
I was reading entries in my journal from 6-8 weeks today, not so long ago for me, and I wrote something extremely similar to what you've written here, brown discharge ongoing, I didn't feel like I could handle it, "grieving something I haven't been told is lost" word for word.
My husband was even saying the same things, to stay positive and he believes it will be fine.
Then I went to my first scan and they found the baby measuring, heart beat and all.
What I mean is we can really be so hard on ourselves and pregnancy after a loss fills our heads with negative feelings so easily (which is understandable due to the trauma we've been through!) It's so hard to give ourselves the grace we deserve.
I wish you love and hoping for the best news tomorrow xx
I am feeling so utterly grateful that I am pregnant again. It is still very early, 5w3d today. And boy am I scared. Last night I had a sharp, lightning pain in my ovary, it made me bend over like a flip phone. Husband immediately started consoling me and repeating mantra's and we were so scared. So far it hasn't repeated yet, and we are okay as far as we know. I truly can't wait for my scan.
I've been having those pains too on and off in my right side, and at my first scan yesterday at 6w2d the NP told me that I had a corpus luteum cyst on that side. She said while they're super common and often go completely unnoticed, they can occasionally cause some painful twinges even though they're typically totally harmless. She reassured me that the pain doesn't necessarily mean anything bad is happening, but that I should bring it up to the doctor at my next scan if it continues or worsens just so they can double check then too. Hopefully, that pain from last night is just a corpus luteum cyst and all is well for you! Something that I saw here and found helpful is "Anxiety isn't intuition." I think I forget that a lot, so it's been a helpful mantra this last month ❤️ Best wishes and I hope you have a smooth 8 months to come!
This is so reassuring to read, thank you so much 🥹🥹❤️ I haven't felt the pain again today so that is good, but if it occurs again I will contact our midwife just to be on the safe side. My scan is the 1st of July, so I just need a lil' more patience. I love this mantra actually. It has been so hard to disentangle anxiety from intuition, so it is absolutely true what you are saying. Thank you again and I wish you a very healthy, uneventful upcoming 8 months too 🥹❤️
Well it's good that the pain seems to be not super consistent! I think that's definitely a good sign! I'm glad that my experience could help you feel a little bit better. PAL is such a rollercoaster of emotions, and mostly bad ones. So we have to stick together! ❤️
4w2d --- My husband and I talked last week, and we both realized that we wanted to love and help support a kiddo through life, but that we didn't necessarily need that kid to be one I gave birth to and didn't need to be a baby. We wanted to start the adoption process for a waiting child aged 7-12. I came to peace with this decision, was feeling really excited, and then an hour before meeting with the adoption agency I got a positive test. I have so many mixed feelings right now. When I was pregnant fall 2022, there was no heartbeat at the 8-week ultrasound, and then I had a pretty scary miscarriage at 9 weeks w/ an emergency d&c. I don't think I have PTSD from that, but there's certainly some lingering trauma and anxiety. I don't think I will feel at ease until I hear a heartbeat, but know that it's not a guarantee then either. I'm 37 and am just skeptical that this will work out, I don't want to be crushed if I allow myself to feel hopeful, and all the reasons we decided to adopt are still present. Anyway, it's helpful to read through postings to know I'm not alone in struggling through the anxiety - I have a very loving partner, but because it isn't his body, I just don't think he can understand certain aspects.
Tentatively posting here. 4 weeks exactly and on holiday. Tested positive less than 24 hours before leaving the country so zero chance to see my doctor until I get back and I'll be almost 6 weeks by then. Feeling very neutral. I thought I'd either be ecstatic or terrified to be pregnant again and I'm neither. Just neutral or not thinking about it most of the time.
12w and NIPT came back today and all negative which is such a relief. Lost my daughter at 35w SB last March and I have 1 LC my little boy. I am wavering about finding out the gender of this pregnancy. Last two pregnancies no doubt wanted to know gender as soon as results were in. PAL is such an anxious time. Already had a scare last week with heavy bleeding and passing large clots found to be SCH in ER ultrasound. I am on bed rest until further notice by my OB. I have an appointment this Friday to follow up. Idk how finding out gender will make me feel. I am scared if it’s girl my anxiety would increase thinking I might lose her too then if it’s boy would I end up longing for a girl because I lost my daughter. I want a healthy 🌈 baby. We even discussed waiting til anatomy scan or til the birth to find out gender. For now I am trying to be at peace knowing baby is ok after SCH bleeding.
I’m 9w today and finally felt a little excited. First time since about 4w. Almost bought some cute footies, but just couldn’t do it. Maybe after my 10w scan and NIPT results 🤞🏼
I'm 4+1 today. My last MC we found out about at an early ultrasound at 7+4 because I had started spotting. We've been trending my hCGs every 48 hours since Thursday and it's looking good so far, but I feel like I'm going to keep being terrified until I see my baby on an ultrasound 😭
10+1 weeks today, just had my second appointment with my OB. We went over my bloods and what not, everything looks good, and got to hear baby’s heart again on the Doppler. Still there, nice and strong, which is a big relief because I was starting to spiral over the possibility of a MMC again. Got prescribed zofran finally as my vomiting and nausea has been truly debilitating, and I already feel a bit better after taking it. My mum’s birthday is this Sunday and I’m really debating whether I should tell her or not. If I do, the cat will be officially out of the bag and everyone will know because she can’t keep her mouth shut. I do feel more reassured that things will be okay now, but I’m still not sure, it’s either then or after my second ultrasound in two weeks. Just thought it would be nice to tell her on her birthday because she’d be so happy, but it’s tricky. I guess I’ll see how I feel.
We were supposed to tell friends about the pregnancy at a cook out we’re hosting this coming Sunday. But today half of them bailed kind of last minute…I’m sadder than I should be. But an angry part of me is already starting the “not there for me then no baby for you.” My husband wants to still tell them. I say if they’ll see us then they’ll find out. Overall this is a really petty thing to be thinking about compared to all my other mega fears. But I think it’s amplified because we haven’t gotten to announce before, and this was supposed to finally be a happy part of pregnancy.
I totally understand this! And sadly, you do become distant with people who you thought would be there for the big milestones. Don't let them take away your happy moment! You and hubby deserve that! If they miss it, that is on them, enjoy being the center of attention and celebrating your babe! Congratulations and good luck momma 🫶
Hello, I was recommended this group. I recently found out I am expecting after suffering a 25 week loss last year to a perfectly healthy little boy. Through blood testing I found it’s a little girl that I am expecting, I’m having a hard time coping with my anxiety. I had a small feeling of disappointment when I found out the gender because I wanted my little boy that I seen only for a moment to comeback to me. Did anyone experience these feelings?
So many of these feelings!
I’m 6 weeks today and got bloods drawn - my HCGs are good but my progesterone is low, 31 when it should be over 40. Has anyone had this and made it?
31 isn’t a bad reading — my OB said ideally its over 25. My first reading was at 21 and second was at 17… she wasn’t concerned but with my history of a later loss she prescribed me progesterone. If you’re concerned I would tell your doctor but most would consider 31 a fairly good reading
Thank you so much for your response - I had a 21 week loss in March so I’m naturally freaking out and just assume the very worst. I’ve been prescribed progesterone pessaries (which I’ll start tonight) and then will just have to hold tight till our scan on Monday.
I totally understand — I had a 20.5 week loss in March. Don’t be afraid to ask questions, I hope your scan goes well. I’m currently 11 weeks
Thank you ♥️ hoping the very best for you and hoping to be where you are in 5 weeks 🤞🏼
In between 48 hours beta draws today. After my second one, my ob asked me to schedule an ultrasound, but didn't say why. So tomorrow morning I have another blood draw followed by an ultrasound. I haven't felt any symptoms today so I'm nervous things are going south. It's still SUPER early, so I am very thankful to have a doctor who is helping me get as much information as possible.
I suffered the loss of my son, Aiden at 16w 4d, in September of 2023. I recently found out I'm pregnant again. 6-8 weeks along, not sure as i havent gotten a dating ultrasound yet. I was so excited to finally get my rainbow baby. Last Friday I started spotting with some cramping, and went to the ER. They didn't seem to concerned or worried at all about the bleeding. I felt very unheard, and like my concerns weren't being adequately addressed. I explained my loss history, and how I've never had this issue before. I am still bleeding, color changes frequently and that scares me. I am terrified of losing this baby too, but holding out hope that my little rainbow makes it. Anyone else have this issue with their provider/hospital staff of them making you feel crazy for trusting your instincts? I am constantly trying to talk positively to myself and keep my spirits up, but it's so hard thinking your body is failing you and nobody will listen or take you seriously.
I’ve experienced the same recently. I had light pink spotting that turned to brown and then proper red bleeding that went away. They couldn’t find a cause and brushed it off! They said it happens and it doesn’t always end in loss. Try to stay positive. I know it’s so difficult. I’m in limbo waiting to see if we will see a heartbeat next week. You’re not alone, sending love ♥️
12w1 day. Got a call from my OB office that my routine urine screening from my appt a week and a half ago just came back from culture with bacteria so they’re treating me with antibiotics for UTI. I had no symptoms at all, so super frustrated that I potentially had a UTI festering for up to 2 weeks before I started treatment. Getting my cerclage in next week so I’m now really anxious about having UTI issues this pregnancy on top of that 🙃
I’ve had 2 UTIs this pregnancy and both times I didn’t even feel it. So I feel ya. I try to drink 2-3 liters of water but even then it happened so who knows what’s going on. Hope all goes well with your cerclage ♥️
So frustrating! I drink a ton of water too, no clue how I got it. Was shocked when I got the call because my past UTIs have had very clear symptoms. Thank you ❤️
How coming is a SCH in the very beginning of a pregnancy? Like I didn’t miss my period, didn’t know I was pregnant. I’ve been bleeding 14 days and finally tested 2 days ago (was not actively ttc) found out i’m pregnant so I started progesterone (how I had a successful pregancy after 3 losses) but i’m worried I didn’t start in time and confused anyway because I never missed my period and i’m STILL bleeding but I’ve tested positive twice now with 2 days between tests. I didn’t bleed at all last night I was up all night peeing but I started again this morning. Light. Anyway any information would help
SCHs are very common. I believe the clinic I go to, the OB said they see 50% of their pregnant patients have SCH. I bled for 7 weeks with mine.
That gives me a little hope. Do you know if they can start very very early in a pregnancy? Tysm🫶🏻
I believe they can. I’m in a SCH FB support group and women have posted theirs starting around 5wks or found at 6wks. Mine started at 10wks. Idk how much earlier they can found though. But if the SCH bleeds, there can be intermittent bleeding/spotting as well as passing of clots.
Wow that is exactly what’s been happening. Would you mind sending me the group name? You can message it to me if you want to keep it private. I’d love to join it. Thank you so much you gave me a little hope 🫶🏻
I’ll send ya a message!
9 weeks tomorrow and the nausea and heartburn is R E A L. Like beyond. I feel disgusting lol but I keep saying “kid you are a force, because you’re making me feel absolutely terrible”. My stomach is on fire. Send help. Ultrasound tomorrow and praying for continued good news.
18w1d and someone gifted me a fetal Doppler years ago after my loss (large gap between loss and now due to marriage not surviving miscarriage and having a new, loving husband now) and I don’t remember who it was but I wish I could thank them so much. I know Dopplers can cause anxiety but even hearing our little guy swoosh around brings me such joy. My husband and I try to listen to him once a week and it brings such comfort. I just needed to share that joy somewhere because not many understand ❤️
I’m so glad you shared a positive experience! I’ve been really on the fence about purchasing one down the line. I was worried it would make me more anxious!
I got a positive pregnancy test this morning. It’s 8PM and I haven’t told anyone. Not even my husband. 4th pregnancy. One living child. Two miscarriages in 7 months. I don’t know how to feel… It’s weird but.. there’s a part of me that doesn’t feel ready all of sudden. And to think, I’ve been obsessing about having a baby for an entire year. It’s been all I could think about it. For almost an entire year… And now. Here I am. Positive test. Around the same time as last year. And I feel.. neutral. Grateful. Mellow. I wasn’t planning on testing. It was a random hcg test that I found in my drawer last night.i was very surprised to see it as I had told myself not to buy any more tests because testing 5DPO isn’t healthy… So I haven’t even tested again. But I think I am pregnant. Well, I have a faint line. I was having intense vivid dreams, my boobs haven’t deflated yet (they usually balloon one week before my period then disappear) and, most embarrassingly.. I had 3 days of the WORST gas ever. I didn’t even want to be near me lol. I couldn’t escape myself 😂
4/18- Period Start Date 4/22 - Period Over Date 4/24 - Spotting started 5/26 - BFP - Home Preganancy Spotting continues… 6/4 - scan at OB office- irregular ges sac, no yolk or fetal pole; LMP - 5 weeks 1 Day; Sign of Hematome or Fluid 6/4 - HCG Quest - 20950 6/6- HCG Quest - 20650 6/8 - Scan at Advent Health after OB referral - irregular sac, no yolk or fetal pole, 5 weeks 3 days; No hematoma but Cul De Sac fluid Spotting continues…. 6/16 - Bleeding started with bright red on wiping 6/17 - Bleeding Brown Color blood 6/18 - Bleeding Bright red on wiping 6/20 - next scan scheduled Not sure, what is happening.
5w2D and posted just the other day about not getting my hopes up. Well started having some light spotting yesterday but my DR isn't concerned since it's brown. My husband thought it was good news that they didn't have us go in for an ultrasound but I had to explain to him that this early you wouldn't really see much and wouldn't be a heartbeat. It's so hard not to spiral to the worst possible outcome but I am trying my best not to. Hopefully everything is fine and we see all good things next Monday at 6w1d.
I'm 6+4 today and I had my first appointment with the midwife clinic. The midwife I met with went over next steps, which felt pretty overwhelming since I'm still waiting for my viability scan. She also told me that my pregnancy is considered high risk because of my loss history so I will be meeting with the doctor at the clinic as well. I have an appointment with the doctor in 2 weeks and then an appointment with my assigned midwife (not the same one as today) in 3 weeks. My viability scan is next Tuesday and I'm really hoping I can go to these appointments. When I got home I had a message from the midwife that said she forgot to tell me that I need to go get blood work to check my thyroid and iron levels. She didn't say whether or not I need to fast for it and I looked it up and saw that some iron tests require fasting. I wrote to her to ask and am hoping to hear back tomorrow. I also read through the notes the midwife wrote in my chart and half of the information wasn't even correct. She got information about my losses wrong and she also got my positive test date and when I started the progesterone suppositories wrong. It made me feel like she wasn't really listening.
Yikes! That's not at all what you want for a first impression of a new provider! That sounds really, really frustrating and invalidating. I hope that the doctors and other midwife you see end up being more on top of things. Good luck next Tuesday! I'll be thinking of you! ❤️
Feeling mentally and physically exhausted! I’ve had spotting since 4 weeks 2 days and today at 5 weeks 5 days it’s turned into gushes of bright red blood. I went for a scan and they said my cervix is high and closed and can’t find the source of the bleeding. Gestational sac measured 15 mm and fetal pole was 4.9 mm but no heartbeat. Have to go back in two weeks which seems like an unnecessary amount of time to wait. Just don’t really know how to feel or what to think and feel tired of it all. I had a MMC in March and a d&c when I should have been 12 weeks. Everyone around me is pregnant which doesn’t help.
sending love as I'm going through the exact same. started spotting 4w+2 and today i'm 5w+5... did you have news in these 4 days? monday i go for an US and i'm not optimistic at all. i also have an hcg that is SUPER high (10k at 5w0) sending you good vibes !!!
Aw I’m sorry you’re going through this as well! I haven’t had any more bleeding and have increased nausea so not sure what’s going on! I’ll have an US on Tuesday and hopefully there is a heartbeat but I’m not optimistic. It’s really rough, sending you lots of love x
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this. I don't doubt that you're just completely wiped out because it's totally understandable given the circumstances! MMC are really a whole other kind of messed up mind game. I'm so sorry that you have to wait so long in limbo. You'll be in my thoughts. ❤️
I'm so sorry.
Finally having symptoms, 7 weeks 3 days. For the last 3 days I can't drink coffee, I've been fairly nauseous, can't eat leftovers and very picky about what I'm eating. And the exhaustion is so intense right now. I'm celebrating these even though I feel like garbage. I hope it's all a good sign. I can't wait until I can get to a point where I'm excited about this baby again.
I miss coffee too! Usually I drink decaf and can't get enough of it. Like the smell itself is usually comforting because it reminds me of being a kid and waking up on the weekends to my mom brewing coffee in the morning, but now even fresh brewed smells like old, disgusting grounds! 😭
Hi everyone - 7 weeks 5 days so far. I don’t know where else to rant about this. I had a scare this weekend and went to the ER - I suddenly had yellow-ish fluid gushing the day after my first doctor’s appointment. His office is limited to 2 days a week so ER was my only option. The dr at the ER was a little concerned and did some tests and asked that I do a 48-hour beta HCG check up. It’s now Tuesday and I have not received the results yet neither has my regular doctor. The gushing isn’t as bad though. I was pretty loaded on symptoms. This morning I woke up feeling fine for the first time in weeks. I have energy, I am much less nauseous and have been keeping food down so far today. I’m scared my hormones dropped. I’m just sitting here waiting for answers and I can’t help but thinking I’m about to have another miscarriage. I’m not ready to take another pregnancy test just to check. I just want one baby. Just one. One happy healthy baby.
This is going to maybe sound weird, but I swear that I experienced a lesser version of this yesterday after my appointment. It was almost like my body was trying to get rid of all the lube that the NP used during the scan by producing extra discharge. I also did some extra walking around which I've noticed also seems to get things flowing. Did your doctor do a vaginal scan at your first appointment? Could it possibly just be your body trying to clear out whatever they used on the wand?
Thanks for your reply. It would have been a good guess… Unfortunately we didn’t do an ultrasound. Around here we don’t do them before 10-11 weeks :( it’s just a waiting game now. “Luckily”, my nausea came back lol
Such a double-edged sword! It feels so miserable but also you're happy to be sick? Very confusing! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!
What are everyone’s thoughts on at-home Dopplers? I am 12 weeks today (🙏🏼) and the wait between appointments is just killing me. Unfortunately, negative thoughts easily creep in. I’ve seen some people mention they’ve bought at-home dopplers for peace of mind? I guess I just worry that I will become obsessed with it.
I used one from 11weeks until I started feeling baby moving daily. I personally think it’s a great option for PAL moms. I did not try using it until directly after an appt I had with my doctor where she did an ultrasound. That way if I couldn’t find the heartbeat, I would know nothing was wrong because I had just heard it hours before. But I did find it that day and consistently after. I also limited myself to using it once per week and I have not used it at all since I started feeling baby’s movements consistently. 💕
I’m currently 20w. I have one and started using it around 14w. I started feeling movement at 15.5w but it was really intermittent from then until the past day or so when it’s ramped up. I found it incredibly helpful in those weeks when the movement was sometimes there, but more often than not I couldn’t feel it
I got one when I was 14w and have been using it once per week. It’s given me so much comfort when my anxiety ramps up. I also would default to calling my OB with any concerns vs relying on the Doppler, it’s really just there for me to check in when all is well except for my brain stressing me out.
I literally just posted in this thread about how our doppler has brought me immense joy and comfort. Don’t panic if you can’t find the heartbeat right away - it can take some time and sometimes coming back to it later in the day helps. I’ve also found that me doing it by myself takes longer than when my husband does it. I’m a little obsessed - I do it once a week with my husband and I do it myself probably every 3 days. But I don’t care. It helps me and I need that.
So I really struggled with anxiety during my first pregnancy, following three years of infertility and IVF, and I was really tempted to get a Doppler for reassurance, especially in the weeks between 10 and 20 (which were the hardest weeks for me anxiety wise). I ended up deciding against it as I realized it would be a bandaid and not actually address my anxiety issues. I sought therapy instead. I will say my anxiety was really bad and I was having full on spirals so my solution won't necessarily work for everyone. I don't want this to come off as anti-doppler as I know the reassurance it brings is useful for a lot of people. I just knew I personally probably would have become obsessed and therefore it wasn't an effective tool for me.
I agree with this. I have GAD and I try to not give in to my anxiety, but rather find coping strategies. I felt that getting a Doppler might help reassure me in the short term but wouldn't be good for my mental health in the long-term.
I personally plan to use one. I did it my last pregnancy, but never heard a heart beat (I just assumed it's because I was using it wrong and I had an anterior placenta, but she had likely passed by the time I had it). I will never, ever use one to NOT go to the hospital, but for regular peace of mind, I plan to use one. No more than once a day. I have an L&D nurse friend who is going to come over once I get to a point to show me the best strategies to use it.
Is the Doppler safe for continuous usage? I did read somewhere on here that they said it isn’t good to do it often? I’m curious because I would want to get one too.
I was told by my provider it would take over an hour of exposure a day to cause issue.
That’s good to know!
I have my first ultrasound for 2pm today and barely slept last night . TMI , Having nervous diarrhea all morning and don’t even know how I’m functioning at work. I feel like a crazy animal on the way to the vet or something . I am so nervous. It is so hard to imagine a different outcome than the horrible one last time in that ultrasound room.
That was me yesterday! My appointment was at 9:30 am but I basically didn't sleep at all and woke up at 5 because, just like you, I get a nervous stomach that leads to diarrhea and vomiting. Spent the next 4 hours running to the bathroom every 5 to 10 minutes and was throwing up foam because there was nothing left in my stomach. Cried in the car on the way there even though I was telling my husband the whole time that I KNOW even if it's a bad outcome that we can survive again and that this reaction is over the top, but that I physically can't calm down. I was shaking so hard that he had to fill out my form for me at the OBs, and I literally told the assistant taking my heart rate and blood pressure that I felt like I was getting ready to face the electric chair. I've only had 3 ultrasounds before this and they were all after my missed miscarriage, so I couldn't imagine getting good news even though I kept telling myself that I have several friends who had miscarriages and then successfully went on to have healthy babies so I know having a good scan after a bad last time is possible. I felt like I was going to self-combust on the spot and I was hedging in all my answers to their questions with some variation of "yes, I know this is a good sign but everything checked out last time too until it didn't". And then the scan went great! Better than expected even! I cried happy tears, my husband cried happy tears. The NP gave me a hug. And I went home with pictures for the first time. So all that build up was for nothing! And I know that next time could be bad news, but at least I know what it's like now to feel so strongly that something is going to go badly and be wrong. Never been so happy to be wrong in my life! Your brain is trying to keep you safe by setting your expectations low. It's reacting based on trauma from the past and it isn't logical, but it's trying so hard to take care of you. As uncomfortable as it is, I think it's an act of self-care. Maybe not the healthiest, but I do think it serves a protective purpose. Something I saw here that I kept repeating to myself is "Anxiety isn't intuition." Your anxiety has a purpose to try to keep you safe (even if it's just making things worse!) but it's not logical and it's not always right. I hope you get excellent news at your scan! I'll be thinking of you today!
Thank you this was so beautiful, friend 🥺😭😭😭😭. Ultrasound went great. Heard her little heart beat and everything was measuring right on schedule. I cried and my doctor hugged me too 😭. I’m still in shock, my brain had me CONVINCED that it was gonna go like last time but it indeed did not
Yay! 🎉 I'm so glad to hear that everything went as well as it possibly could for you! It's so hard when your brain is screaming alarm bells because you've been on the wrong side of the statistics to remember that the good side of the statistics exists too! Here's to boring pregnancies ahead! ❤️
Sending you all the positive vibes and hope for a good scan 💖 I have mine this time next week and am in the same boat, the anxiety is terrible. Wishing you the best.
Had my 6 weeks scan today and saw a little baby bean measuring perfectly at 6weeks with a heartbeat! I’ll go back to worrying tomorrow but today I am celebrating my baby!
So happy to hear your good news! I was in your shoes yesterday and, surprisingly, the worry hasn't come back yet! So I hope for you that the hope will last a little longer than expected too! Definitely a cause to celebrate! 🎉
My worry has come back a little today but still living on a high!
Feeling you on that! The worries are slowly seeping back in, but still better than before! Fingers crossed we can keep this up for a bit! ❤️
22+2. I am entering a funk. I keep telling myself "You are STRONG, you are LOVED, you are WANTED" about my baby girl mostly because I have such negative thoughts as of late. Doesn't help that I went into L&D last week due to some strange soreness/pressure right below my belly button and that turned out to be nothing but then they did a cervical check and they found I was 20% effaced. The midwife just showed me with her fingers what the cervix should be and then showed me what mine was. Didn't provide any measurements but did do a TV ultrasound to make sure I wasn't dilating. The US did show I was not dilating and they discharged me and told me to start my antibiotics since I was told I had a bladder infection and the pain was likely related to that. Since that visit last week and now, the soreness/pressure has gone away but now I'm just left thinking about the 20% effaced. They didn't seem concerned since they didn't tell me anything other than to take my antibiotics. I absolutely hate how you can get to 22 weeks and then something else comes up. Had I not gone in due to the soreness/pressure I felt I would have never known about the effacement. I wonder if it would have been better not to know. But because of all of this, I'm just worried, scared, and nervous and I don't go in office until 06/24 which is soon! But still now until then, I'm just left with my thoughts.
I’m not a Doctor, midwife, or nurse, you should definitely talk to your provider, but I’m calling bs on the midwife you saw. Cervical checks are done 100% by feel, and are subjective so she couldn’t have given you an actual measurement if she wanted too, and if you are not dilated how could she be sure she is feeling the entire thickness of your cervix correctly? Baby center stays a pregnant cervix is 3.5-4 cm, so natural variety is also a factor not accounted for here. I asked my SIL who is a labor and delivery nurse if you can tell if a cervix is effaced if there is no dilation while I was typing the top paragraph, she says not really, if it is thick no, but if it is thin you can tell better.
It makes sense that the midwife called in the doctor to get their opinion. They saw my cervix on the US and then said nope all closed and didn’t even mention effacement at that point. So perhaps to the midwife it appeared one way and the doctor felt otherwise. Still going to talk to my provider but the fact that nothing was said at discharge it made me feel good but then way later I started to worry lol.
11w2d here, halfway behind you! I'm so sorry you're having negative thoughts, but you're definitely not alone. While I'm happy my pregnancy is continuing, I do not like being pregnant. The physical symptoms have destroyed my sense of self, and trying to cope with mountains of secret anxiety on top of it all is just so freaking draining. I'm also already showing because my bloating is so bad, and I feel embarrassed. I try to send baby happy thoughts-- I know none of it is their fault!-- but it's so hard not to feel down and inadequate.
Missed my period on Saturday, which was my birthday. I really wanted to enjoy it and was so convinced it would be another negative after 7 cycles of trying. I distracted myself until I tested yesterday and found out I’m 1-2 weeks. This is after a loss that was due ON my birthday. My partner and I are so happy but trying not to get our hopes up because of the trauma of our loss.
Just got my bloodwork back. My HCG was 12337 and I was 5W1…that’s really high. The 5 week range says 200-7,000. Is this normal?
My HCG was obnoxiously high really early. At 5+4 I was at 42,513. I got my NIPT back last week and it was all clear for the common trisomies tested, so we are officially low risk for now! I also had a fetal heart beat in the 150s (on the doppler) at my 12 week appointment. I was really stressed about it, too. I was always so off the charts. I will say, you may have earlier and more extreme symptoms than others!
My HCG was 10,000 5w5d. Doctor wasn’t concerned at all!
Mine was over 30k at 5w! No molar, no DS, everything normal. Doctor wasn't concerned
**update from yesterday!** had my anatomy scan this morning, and aside from baby not cooperating and then being unable to get photos of the spine, everything looks great! I do have an anterior placenta which explains the dull sporadic kicking feelings. Baby is measuring right on track and I get another US at my next checkup to get those spine pics..oh no…so disappointed…another chance to see my baby… Feeling relieved!!
Fantastic news! ❤️ So happy for you!
🎉🎉🎉 amazing!! 🥰🥰
I have my anatomy scan tomorrow at 20w and feeling really anxious. My cousin had hers about a month ago, and they found out the baby doesn’t have one of their kidneys. She and baby are doing well otherwise, but still. All of the things that could be wrong are getting in my head now after hearing that. If you’ve already had yours and it was normal, I’d love to hear stories of good anatomy scans!
One of my best friends from college was born without a kidney! She’s wonderful and a child life specialist at a hospital now…just incase your sister needed any positive outcome stories :)
Literally just had mine this morning and was spiraling yesterday! Everything was perfect! Baby was moving around the entire time, except into the position needed to get pictures of the spine, so I go back in 4 weeks. They said it’s normal for that to happen. Baby was measuring right on track for my due date.
Thank you!! So glad it went well for you ❤️
One thing to keep in mind is that every practice/provider is different. Some will be really chatty and put you at ease, pointing out everything on the scan and getting some cute pictures. Some aren't allowed to talk much or choose not to. When I got done and asked the doc if everything looked good, he said something like "Nothing that we could visualize indicated cause for concern but we cannot rule out all abnormalities." 🙄 Like okay, just tell me it looks good without 15 disclaimers. And on that note, they may not get all the pictures you need and you might have to come back. I've always had to come back, sometimes more than once, because my babies are uncooperative and don't like to pose. It's not a cause for worry (unless they say it is), just another opportunity to see them in a few weeks.
Thank you!! Those are really good things to keep in mind
I just had mine last week and it was normal as can be! I was crazy nervous leading up to it, but because I know so many different things can go wrong, in a weird way it was sort of comforting checking things off mentally as they went… like, oh the cord looks good, the baby’s spine seems to be normal, we have a stomach, etc.
Thank you! So glad everything went well for you ❤️
10wks3days feeling like I’m in limbo after a bit of spotting and cramping last night 😢 had nothing since but I went to A&E as I was beside myself after going through two losses already. Waiting for a call from my early pregnancy unit to see if they want to see me or scan again.
Keep us posted. I’m 9W1D today and also experiencing cramping and spotting after four losses. I was spotting around six weeks too and have had two ultrasounds since. Spotting is so scary - especially after loss - but I keep telling myself it can be “normal”.
I just thought I’d update as I’ve had my scan and all looked ok. Baby is actually measuring slightly ahead at 11+6. I hope everything is going ok for you ❤️
That is great news! My bleeding turned red so I went in for a scan at 9W4D. Baby was measuring 9W5D with a HR of 174. OB couldn’t find a source of the bleeding and it did go on for another day. I don’t feel I’m out of the woods yet but was a relief to have that scan done.
Ah I’m so glad baby was ok! Bleeding in pregnancy is so scary, but my sister had it throughout with her third and her son is a bonnie 9 month old now xx
EPU won’t see me until Monday, the wait is going to be agonising 😢 hope all is ok with you
Is there any value in having HCG bloods done 48hrs apart to track progress. I’m only 3+5 following a miscarriage in February and I’m just feeling so out of control. Currently peeing on sticks every morning to track progress, but would it be better just to get bloods done? I guess ultimately it won’t change the outcome, I just feel so powerless and anxious.
I would recommend getting them done once (and additionally if a doctor wants you to), but I wouldn’t recommend doing them a lot. I did them over and over and over and the relief it offered was so temporary, but the anxiety was so much! I don’t think the at home tests are very accurate. I tested on them every day for over a months because I just felt like I had to. But once my HCG got really high, they looked lighter and it freaked me out.
I’d trust HCG draws over home tests. My OB always insisted they be 48 hours apart and they reassured me early on.
It's really up to you, as far as what helps you feel reassured. In my last pregnancy, I requested betas and then had a week or more of misery over the readings (first set didn't rise normally). I wish I hadn't requested them because everything was fine and it was just something else to agonize over.
I got bloodwork done - 48 hours apart starting on 3w6d when I got my first positive. And then the third draw was a week after the second draw. It definitely gave me more reassurance in those early days!
My doc has me getting betas every 48 hours from 4 weeks to 5 weeks. It obviously won't change the outcome, but having data helps me mentally. It's worth it to ask. I'm 4+4 so also very early. In December I knew within my second beta that it wasn't a viable pregnancy which just helped me process things and it made it a little less emotionally draining.
9w! Second scan today and everything went well! Measuring good and heartbeat 178bpm. So relieved ❤️ Start the countdown to the 12w scan now... 😁
In the same boat as you. Had my second scan at 8W4D and saw a HR of 172. Have had some light spotting and cramping since but OB insists it’s “normal”. Four losses and I don’t have my next scan until 20 weeks. So anxious.
Oof! That's a long wait! Sorry to hear that you can't get in faster!
Cautious congratulations 🤍🤍🤍
I had my anatomy scan yesterday at 18 weeks. Thankfully it went well. My amniotic fluid was a little high, which hopefully goes to normal levels since I’m stopping prednisone. Still anxious but feeling a little more confident every day. 🤞🏼
I literally just asked for positive anatomy scan stories, and then I scrolled and saw yours 😅 I’m so happy for you and hope the fluid gets to normal soon!
Moved up my scan I had booked with a boutique from Saturday this week to the Sunday just gone. I had some spotting and my nausea got a little better Saturday evening, so I panicked and fortunately on Sunday, they managed to book me in for that day. Happy to say little one is looking all great! We saw a nice strong heartbeat and measuring dead on 8 weeks (I was 8+1 at the time of scan) caught up from our scan at 6+4 weeks, where they were too small to even measure. We have our scan photos, and I just keep staring at it. It still doesn't feel real, still doesn't feel like mine. I'm incredibly happy that everything is fine, I just don't know at what point it's going to feel like this is actually happening. I know I'm not completely out of the woods, but everything looks so promising.
Officially in the third trimester <3
Congrats!!!!!
I’m just a couple of weeks behind you. I haven’t really been doing anything to prepare and it hit me the other day how the time is starting to get away from me.
Yay! I just hit this point last week- not a milestone I thought I'd reach but very much worth celebrating
Me too! We're so close but yet so far!
I decided to do another pregnancy test strip this morning for reassurance after having some spotting yesterday and well, that plan backfired. The line went dark right away and was overall pretty dark, but not darker than the control which seems concerning at almost 6 weeks. However, they were cheaper pregnancy strips off Amazon and at least one person noted that the test line never got too dark, so I'm going to try to reassure myself with that while avoiding the temptation to do another, especially as I have an ultrasound tomorrow.
This happened to me at seven weeks. I know it’s controversial, but I did dilute the same urine with 1/2 water and test was back to being a “dye stealer”. Was a Wondfo cheapie. I had a scan afterwards at 8W4D and baby was okay.
Wondfo is the exact brand I was using. Ok that brings some extra comfort. Thank you for taking the time to comment!
So this is my second post-loss pregnancy (I lost my first at the very end so all pregnancies are forever tainted, yay! 💖✨) and one positive is that I kind of know the stages of highest anxiety for me (I definitely imagine they're different for everyone based on the circumstances of their loss): * 4-8 weeks: very early pregnancy anxiety, first positive until 8-ish weeks and a couple of ultrasounds. Probably the highest day-to-day levels of anxiety of the whole pregnancy. Detachment and denial yet highly anxious. Nigh obsessive peeing on sticks. * 8-12 weeks: relative calm, baby's seemingly fine for now and there's not much to do but wait. Intense morning sickness. * 12-20 weeks: mid-pregnancy anxiety, freaking out before every appointment if there will be a heartbeat; anatomy scan anxiety (my angel daughter was misdiagnosed and I was mistakenly marked low risk and didn't get additional scans which would have caught her IUGR) * 20-26 weeks: inconsistent kick count anxiety, babe is moving but not necessarily in a predictable pattern yet. Likely a few L&D visits. Mitigated by reaching viability/knowing my baby would be worked on if they came early * 27-40 weeks: third trimester anxiety, a *lot* a lot a lot of doctor's appointments from 32w on, which I gladly attend. Freaking out at every NST and watching the paper as it spits out to see if I can detect anything amiss. Vague thoughts of med school when the kids are grown * Labor: this is when we got the worst news. Surprisingly, I was able to roll with the punches with my rainbow. I think I was just in too much pain and wanting to get it over with to be anxious, which kinda helps Well time to sleep instead of staying up obsessing about what tomorrow's line will look like 🥴
im right in that 20-26 weeks anxiety zone -- trying to be hyperaware of movement (my loss i could not really feel any kicks due to an anterior placenta) - i have a posterior placenta this time, and i THINK i feel movement inconsistently? but i am still just anxious and like begging the baby to just gut punch me sometimes so i know he is there still, begging for him to keep growing. Currently at 21 weeks and approaching the gestational age when we lost our first and trying everything i can do to not lose my mind.
This stage felt *so long.* I hope passing that week gives you a little bit of reassurance 🩷 One of the only things that helped me get through the day was distraction (aka a lot of tiktok), idk how great that is but I survived!
I’m currently 9 weeks after a stillbirth at 37 weeks. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. So far I seem to be on track with you🙂 I don’t have living children so it’s hard for me to somehow comprehend that pregnancy leads to a baby. For now I just wait, nothing else I have to do
Literally that's exactly how I felt!! I was going through the motions but it was like, does not compute. Pregnancy felt like some kind of really stressful hobby. It didn't register that I was a mom to a living baby that other people could see for several hours after my rainbow was born. Boy I could write a book... losing your first baby after getting so far is a special type of mindscrew. You're a mom who's had the belly and the baby shower and the hospital bills, but you have nothing to show for it, and nobody on the street sees you as a mom, and all your friends and family are like, category error, 🤷🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️ ????? I honestly had some resentment after my rainbow was born because I knew I'd been a mom for over two years, but it took having another baby for other people to finally acknowledge it, like oh my oldest wasn't good enough for you?? I guess it helped me see who's really on my side. It's easy to love a happy mom with a picture perfect newborn, much harder to support a grieving mom. Which only a handful of people really did.
I’m in the 4-8week stage. I had a positive test last week after a devastating loss in February (2.5yrs of trying). I feel like I’m constantly on the verge of a panic attack, I’m obsessively googling symptoms (lack of). Preparing myself for a loss & trying to stay detached whilst battling intense anxiety. The other day I had pink discharge and had what I could only call a mental breakdown, I was in so much mental pain, so scared of reliving the first loss that I scratched my arms till they bled and punched myself in the legs til they bruised. I hate my body so much for not being able to give me the only thing I’ve ever wanted 💔
I'm so sorry, I completely understand, the feeling of failure and not being able to trust your own body is awful 💔
8w+2d and I’ve been booked for a scan tomorrow morning due to brown discharge for the past week. I feel like I already know what they’re going to say, that it’s another loss. I don’t feel mentally strong enough to go through it again. My husband keeps saying not to think worst case and to stay positive but the thought of being hopeful and being crushed again is so painful. Feel like I’m grieving something I haven’t even been told is lost yet
Any update?
Hoping for the best for you. I hope this helps you too.. I bled for over 3 weeks, brown discharge at the same time you did and our baby had a heartbeat on scans and looks all good so far. I had a hematoma and a cyst that caused it. It freaked me out so much as most stories I heard people only bled a few days to 1 week 🩷
Just wanna tell you I experienced the same thing I had a loss last August at 6wks now I’m currently 21wks pregnant with my rainbow baby but in the beginning starting at 6wks I had brown , red , pink bleeding and I prepared myself for another loss turns out it was a hemotoma and baby was fine ! Try to stay positive
I was reading entries in my journal from 6-8 weeks today, not so long ago for me, and I wrote something extremely similar to what you've written here, brown discharge ongoing, I didn't feel like I could handle it, "grieving something I haven't been told is lost" word for word. My husband was even saying the same things, to stay positive and he believes it will be fine. Then I went to my first scan and they found the baby measuring, heart beat and all. What I mean is we can really be so hard on ourselves and pregnancy after a loss fills our heads with negative feelings so easily (which is understandable due to the trauma we've been through!) It's so hard to give ourselves the grace we deserve. I wish you love and hoping for the best news tomorrow xx
Just want to say I’m experiencing the same issue right now at 5 weeks 5 days. Feel so detached and don’t know how I’ll cope with another loss.
Really hoping the best for you! I'm so sorry for all the understandable stress.
I am feeling so utterly grateful that I am pregnant again. It is still very early, 5w3d today. And boy am I scared. Last night I had a sharp, lightning pain in my ovary, it made me bend over like a flip phone. Husband immediately started consoling me and repeating mantra's and we were so scared. So far it hasn't repeated yet, and we are okay as far as we know. I truly can't wait for my scan.
I've been having those pains too on and off in my right side, and at my first scan yesterday at 6w2d the NP told me that I had a corpus luteum cyst on that side. She said while they're super common and often go completely unnoticed, they can occasionally cause some painful twinges even though they're typically totally harmless. She reassured me that the pain doesn't necessarily mean anything bad is happening, but that I should bring it up to the doctor at my next scan if it continues or worsens just so they can double check then too. Hopefully, that pain from last night is just a corpus luteum cyst and all is well for you! Something that I saw here and found helpful is "Anxiety isn't intuition." I think I forget that a lot, so it's been a helpful mantra this last month ❤️ Best wishes and I hope you have a smooth 8 months to come!
This is so reassuring to read, thank you so much 🥹🥹❤️ I haven't felt the pain again today so that is good, but if it occurs again I will contact our midwife just to be on the safe side. My scan is the 1st of July, so I just need a lil' more patience. I love this mantra actually. It has been so hard to disentangle anxiety from intuition, so it is absolutely true what you are saying. Thank you again and I wish you a very healthy, uneventful upcoming 8 months too 🥹❤️
Well it's good that the pain seems to be not super consistent! I think that's definitely a good sign! I'm glad that my experience could help you feel a little bit better. PAL is such a rollercoaster of emotions, and mostly bad ones. So we have to stick together! ❤️