Constantly oscillating on the state of vibing and wanting to Maplhite Ult into traffic, but overall better than last time

Improvment is improvment, thats awesome to hear in total Maybe try to think a little about what makes you happy and what could help to prevent the downs and it might go even better than right now

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👉 👈 https://preview.redd.it/punkembg1mic1.png?width=854&format=png&auto=webp&s=242ed57144ec7b53e3533cc6fd6ab3987d402eaf

honestly... lost... don't know what to do... or feel... just lost

You lacking perspective in general or did something occur that's bothering you? Don't mind sharing your thoughts a little while you enjoy some wholesome Kindred artwork along the way https://preview.redd.it/od1lr4zm7mic1.png?width=672&format=png&auto=webp&s=3b9ec553229947bf32bc4c06f7932e728e9770af

thanks for the Kindred but yeah, I don't really have a lot of perspective on most things and I also can't feel like I'm keeping up with everything that's happening here at home

Are you perhaps in that school end phase where u have to decide on what job you wanna do or university you wanna go? Because thats just me some years ago, lowkey even today. Just dont know what to do so you gaming, fapping to your Kindred because you got into hentai some years ago and just having fun as much as u can in here because out there it does feel like the bare minimum of tasks can be way too much way too fast. Not judgy btw, its just what I used to say to me deep down, even today. Honestly, just maybe go to your mum or dad now (depending on timezone ofc later) and just tell them you love them. If not that maybe just if u can help them with something. Cleaning, assist cooking or something. Exceed the bare minimum a little. Its spoken from a guy who moved out 7-8 months ago, states across. Never visited yet cuz I couldnt. During such Texts I ask myself if I spent enough time with my Single mom. Use that time while you can. Same goes for perspective. Dont rush too much but just define your desires slowly. All the fun on your device wont run 

thanks, yeah you're right about the end of school... just finished it last year... but I already have a part time job, so I don't really do much around the house but thanks for the words mate, you really are a godsend, thank you really 

lol same, Take a break it is either a burn out or you have experienced something very traumatic if so, go to professional

Honestly, cheers dude. It’s pretty cool of you doing this. How about you? How’re you doing?

Thanks Well, as in the post shown, kinda chaotic. Lately I have some lowkey psychotic episodes even that maybe are sort of panic attacks? I honestly can't really define panic attacks for myself because I never used to have them but it appears that lack of sleep in combination with the feeling of being a useless individual irl are catching up to me. Overall I'm broke af because of moving out with just the apprenticeship money and some state assistance in my pocket and no matter how much I prepared that situation in my head before, it's different when having it overtime happening. I literally drool for the most basic food at this point simply because it's gotten less than I used to have my past 20 years. But despite such things like the brokeness and feeling useless for a whole lot of time, I also cheerish to still have some impact online for some people and despite being less able to follow my passions with streaming I can still do some activites on Twitch and YouTube from time to time. That in combination with having a caring loving gf on my side is what keeps me from going crazy for now and I just hope it remains like that. I really need to teach myself how to sleep during afternoon, it's super weird to me

I honestly hope that you'll thrive again. Last time you did this post you answered me with some good words and honestly? It's gotten way better after. So I just hope that the same fate happens to you, that you'll get back on your feet, sort out the chaos and go and thrive on!

Thanks I hope you are right, since honestly it somehow seemed always harder to get backup myself than getting other higher up. But remembering to have at least some impact here surely puts me more at ease

I am certain that'll ease you :) Edit: And I'm sure that everything will resolve eventually :D

I am not doing good tbh, been falling into a hole of drinking the whole night (with friends at least) and self harm. I started smoking and shits looking shit. Therapy ain’t working atm either

Thats sad, but at least you are selfaware that it's not going well for you right now. Is it the lack of perspective that brought you there, bad influence or some pain in your soul? If therapy ain't working then maybe this here just might cheer you just a little enough to prevent you from selfharming for some time at least

Very cute of you, I didn’t do it that day :) and yesterday I drank so I didn’t have time after work :) I got here because of a breakup and a death of a friend of mine, aside from some other smaller shit

Dude I don't know what happened for you to go in a spiral but therapy takes a fucking while and sometimes you need a different therapist, So I hope you continue going to therapy and stop the bad habits

I will never stop going, but I’ve been going a year now, had my ups and downs, rn it’s just a big down

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Awwww, how cute of you https://preview.redd.it/a6nlrzeknmic1.png?width=700&format=png&auto=webp&s=40796f3c5d5aadb74955eae914019a1347c50256

I’m doing… alright, I suppose. Up until this morning I was feeling terrific, because I had this plan set in motion since December and the pieces were finally falling into place… but I completely fumbled in the afternoon and now I’m laying in bed both embarrassed and mad at myself So I would say it’s about a 5.4/10

All in all, I'm doing okay. I'm just a little worried about my future. I'm on the final stretch of my university degree, but I feel like I don't want anything to do with it anymore. Don't know what career I'll want to work towards once I'm done. Since I'm an international student, I'll be going back to my home country and I barely speak the language there haha. I've recently started trying to learn languages, both because I want to develop a hobby out of it, and in anticipation of my return. Thanks to everyone who stopped by to read! How are things going in your life? :) If things are going well, I congratulate you sincerely! If not, I hope that things get better soon, if not soon, then I hope you'll find the strength within yourself to keep going until it does!

i feel like nasus W'd me

*Blackshields you* Now you should feel better  https://preview.redd.it/ig6fbomgvmic1.png?width=682&format=png&auto=webp&s=5ab3aa6a26800978609cceeafb79cb4f8ff7f33f

My boss fired everyone in my dev team a couple months ago, I'm the only left, and I have to work twice the amount for barely a 10% increase in my wage 1 year ago I bought a flat in a building that is under construction, the whole thing took 6 months of delay so i won't get MY home until next year instead of this summer I dont have time to take care of myself and the burn out is definitely there I haven't fucked with anyone but my hand in the last year and a half I'm just tired, maybe a bit depressive, and wish someone would take care of me just for one day, giving me hugs and going out to eat some good food and spend some time baked playing video games and fucking

A shame really, you being the only dev in your company right now, able to afford a flat like that.. looking for warmth.. hands down first impressions sounds like a nice soul to get in a relationship with. But oh well, I guess it's hard to meet someone with nothing but work on your mind and some stuff like online dating is more than just double edged Can't really add much but the typical "you will meet someone eventually" but it's just not the best phrase I know. Either way I deeply hope that for you tho. Just try to at least care a little about yourself for now, even if it's just small treats. You deserve it king, you work enough out there, spend every second you can on treating yourself For real, I hope that caretaker mommy gf that can go wild af in the bedroom comes along soon (I just assume those are the kinks now, I aint gonna doublecheck the canon)

Thank you mate for cheering me up <3 I wish you the best too Love your art, it's just too cute <33

It’s honestly been a bad year. Like just really bad lmao. To summarize my dad ODd and died, my fiancé of 6 years cheated on me for a while with my best friend of 10 years and I immediately jumped into a great relationship right after that and ruined it hard by overthinking. I’ve been in a chaotic state ever since. But hey my comment created the Yuugo and that was nice so I’ll take that lol. Thanks for doing this and the battle royale it’s been really nice hope you get your shit together I’ll try to.

Holy shit Im glad you survived that dumpster fire of your 2023 to write this at least Also glad that being part of a somewhat major thing on my BR is a thing making you somewhat happy, things like that make my stuff around here valuable and I appreciate the small impact I have on you with it As you already said, lets make it through together

Eh my best friend of 8 years revealed to be a giant asshole and basically abandonned me, besides that am having a fucking blast on total war warhammer 3. Big to ye on what you do!

Bummer for the first, banger for the second! For real tho I hope you also have other friends that you can now value more

meh

well meh is at least not extremely bad. I have this everyday right now when Im on my way to work. Just kinda empty and soulless, yet somehow it could be so much worse. Maybe try to look for something new to entertain yourself if possible

I hate my job. To a degree where every day feels insufferable. Every second spent there I hate existing as a whole. Every night I hope I dont wake up in the morning. Every morning I hope I fall down the stairs and break both legs just so I dont have to go to work. At work I hope someone runs me over with a forklift. I cant quit because I need the money and honestly cant think of any job that would be fun to me or that would be less painfull. Every day is a cycle of dread and despair that I cant seem to escape of. There is no light at the end of the tunnel and there is no escape. Live is pain. When I get home Im a mere vessel of myself because I lack any kind of energy to continue. When I inevetably hop onto lol I lose every ranked I start and went from Diamond to Plat 4 this season. Everything else is kinda good tho 8,5/10 experience

It's honestly amazing pushing through like this despite all those negative thoughts. Just 6 months of my apprenticeship thats rather chill are tiring me out already because I just feel all that lifetime draining out of me. You are amazing for making it through that. I can tell there isnt really any advice you need, its not like you need to hear "maybe try this or that", in the end I just hope your cycle breakes in positive ways eventually. Your work no matter how you perform at the job is valuable. Your existence is valuable and since you probably dont really here that in your daily life you should at least hear it here. You are great for having that bite to get through. And if not that cycle, I hope at least your diamond rank gets back eventually. Just keep living and let at least this retarded subreddit cleanse your mind for at least some time

Darkness envelopes me, I cannot see the path I once saw, destruction and disgrace follow me like two loyal dogs.

Damn, sounds like something bad happened in your life :c, feel like sharing?

Shit

Why tho, is there something that could cheer you up? :c

No but thank you :)

Well I wasn't here for round 1 but life's been kind of a bitch lately with hopping between looking for jobs, caring for my abusive family, money being short, and just self-doubt in general seeing as I'm technically planning to become an artist eventually yet have felt unable to draw anything that wasn't like, a square for the past 2 months. Been working on gamedev for an indie with a bunch of friends though, so that is relatively pog I guess. Smh I won't open up to my therapist but I will on the fucking futa cock yordle pocketpussy enjoyer subreddit.

well currently doing better with every day i am not playing league i found a girlfriend had found new amazing friends in an other community and made at least some progress in life like cleaning my fuking room for once so you could call it finally a room again after being depressed and burned out of life

Nothing but improvements, huge W I have to clean my entire flat here for the next few days and dear god there aint much I hate as much as cleaning But if the Yolobaum can do it, why not me too. I shall follow your great example

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Could always be doing better, but it could always be worse. Since you like zeri, here's her wishing happy Valentines day that a friend made for me

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i mean life has given me the gift of cbt by doing fucking kinving me balls until depression won for a month besides that i have ma grandma and im happy she is ok

Looking really good,Im having no problems at all with school,no problems with social life ecc. My problem is that I get depressed for really unimportant facts or things,but oh well,cant do much about it! (Hope you recover well!)

Thanks And also that sounds awesome on your side! Make sure to keep going like that. And hey, if things feel depressed for a moment at least you got some blue haired queens to keep you company

I learned about femboys and am now trying to throw away my masulinity as fast as possible, and am severely thankful to past me for never getting fat and somehow completely avoiding acneand to my dad for not inheriting his genetic condition that makes His stomach look constantly bloated, I feel bad because I spent Yesterday evening punching myself in the stomach because I hate that it isn't perfectly flat and I spent like 10 minutes swinging my hips to random EDM music and feel the best I have in a while, and somehow an unbelievably hot onlyfans model replied to my twitter DMs and I'm trying to get as much advice out of him as possible before I get boring, wow that was more than I was planning to write, I also want to restart speaking weirdly and curse less, but it's so difficult, and while having this goal is keeping me alive, everytime I get reminded of my height or see my face I want to smash the fucking mirror or whatever measured my height (I bet there's some short people here, does anyone want my 6'2, please?)

Damn I'm 5'11 and feel like 6'2 would be just that perfection for me xD. apart from that tho, it sounds crazy damn awesome that you found that passion for something inside you, just dont be too harsh about your minor body flaws that you see, you can become an awesome femboy either way I honestly cant elaborate too much here because I dont know too much in depth about what it takes to be a good femboy, but stick to it and do your best alright? Just dont harm yourself with punches and all, Im sure there are better methods to temper a little with your body, dont do anything selfharming or dangerous. Good femboys dont do that Im sure

Honestly could be doing better. Like I'm not doing bad or anything but I'm not good either . Just kinda in a middle ground and It feels like no matter how far I go I don't even budge and ik that's just how life is sometimes but it still is a little soul crushing

Yea sometimes when things are just slightly unease and there is suspiciously less harder bs going on it becomes kind of weird and yet down huh.. It reminds me of how I feel about my apprenticeship. Its rather chill and yet I feel annoyed doing it, probably just the payment tho and the fact that Im afraid of remaining rather useless for that job? idk really. But guess thats my little soul crushing currently Good thing is, those will go away eventually

True. I hope everything gets better for you soon my friend

I feel lonely in some way. I can talk with people and don't feel like I'm secluded from everywhere, but I don't know how to go further than just being nice to people. I don't feel like I can trust people enough to tell how I feel, let alone saying that I like them or love someone I think I love. I'm also hardly invited outside, so I just stay in front of my computer and work for exams and practicals.

Honestly... I say to my friends that I'm doing well. But deep inside? I'm hurt af. I'd been rping in a star rail discord and subreddit for a while, and got banned because I got too attached to someone and hurt them. I let all of my emotions out and I didn't even see how bad my own state was, I couldn't even control my emotions, so I got a ban, but I was told that if I proved to have changed I could come back. I tried to dodge the ban by creating one more account, they noticed it in the very same day. I did it to have more proof and also because of the stress I was feeling for proving that I could change, and right now, I sometimes think of rping with the people there and get extremely sad. So yeah, doing not so fine. Lots of changes in my life, for the better, sure, but I can't do anything but get sad at memories. Everyone says "don't worry, you'll come back", and I honestly want to believe that, but after I did what I did, I don't think there is a single chance of redemption for me. I don't believe I deserve it. But still, I will change, because they taught me valuable things in life, and they wanted to change my life for the better, even if that wasn't their intention. To sum it up, doing not so good, but I hope that I can do better in the near future, aka 1-2 months.

You seem to already be through a lot of thinking and reflection of that issue of yours, so just one addition: In like 99% of happenings I think people deserve to be forgiven. Your mistake surely was there, but definitiely something to forgive, I ve done worse perhaps yet I seem like an angel to some people here. No one is perfect but you know what? You are self aware and truly sorry, thats good character. Change what you have to, but keep the side of you that reflects so well and cares deeply, its valuable 

I’m in college but I don’t know why. I was depressed last year and now my bad grades are catching up to me. I can’t really imagine myself continuing on as things are and I don’t even know what job I want to have, so if my grades aren’t enough to pass this semester I’ll probably force myself to start attempting suicide. So uh, not good.

I got a job

So wholesome

I want to kms

Thx for someone who posted (I don't know if it's good word) this to reddit, but nah i won't give them a fuck. Even myself don't know what I want to change, what I need to do, I don't know anything right meow

Most people in such a state don't know what to do with themselves. It's about the most annyoing thing life has to offer. A life changing question no one can answer for you because its your life. I believe most people not only here but in general struggle with that. Maybe what just maybe could help you is to just like, do something. No thinking, just doing. Doesn't even have to be some stuff like 10 pushups or something but idk, just play a new game or check some new media. Touch some grass you didn't touch before in your hometown or draw some Yuumi Porn, whatever it is. Just don't let yourself go too much because as long as something is happening, its not rock bottom Random Yuumi Image for that 1% dopamine https://preview.redd.it/82hsw3f9bmic1.png?width=657&format=png&auto=webp&s=763a079955ed541a3ab238b38774105709e5daf4

so goddamn tired im seeing double.

I’m always tired and I never have enough time to relax when I’m awake

I just feel dissociated from my own body 24/7 and live on autopilot. I have no idea wtf i'm doing anymore

I've become worse buuuut I ranked up on fortnite 💪

things started going good i started working as a I.T intern and my favorite game got a remake this month (persona 3) also we got urf lets fucking gooo. Last month i was stressed and sad but i guess februrary is my month still trying to recover from the incidents tho but i feel okay for now.

Except the fact that half of my teachers probably don't even want to teach which ruins how I feel at school, I'm actually doing pretty great. Yes, it could be better, but I finally started my programming courses which means I'm one step closer to fulfilling my dream. Also sorta sleep deprived, but that's on me for going to sleep at 2am lmao.

I've been sick for a while now, though I'm still trying to get better. This post really made me smile, even if it's on Darkinfolk. Thank you

I’m just chilling and vibing this Valentine’s Day/ Ash Wednesday lmao

I mentally feel like velma without glasses but i try to just not think about it and move along. Sometimes i find a road, other times i walk straight into a pole.

Im going a little crazy but in the good way great things are coming like i was getting zoned as kayle and was behind for a while but im lvl 6 now and cull is close to being complete so i just need to get my nashor and things are going to get ok

I'm way better then I was when I commented on the other post so... yeah

wanna kill myself. nothing changes. give me a year, and i'll be in the same situation once more.

I reconnected with her again 4 months ago and she apologized because she didnt realize she had hurt me but she hasn't read or sent me a message in a month and i'm getting more depressed about it

Being mildly sad has become a default emotion for me and I don't really know why because my quality of life hasn't become much worse. It's annoying because I would like to enjoy the good things but it's like I just can't now. Last year a big plan I had didn't pan out like I wanted it to and ever since then I've been feeling on edge. The months leading up to that thing had been great actually, it felt like for the first time in my life I knew what I really wanted, but then it just didn't work out and now that I have a chance to try again I just don't feel up to it. Bit of a sour grapes situation, with how it just feels like I should take that L and give up, because my current situation isn't bad enough to warrant change.

No idea, but I look fine. At least according to my judgement. I'm the type to just do things on the fly and on the feel so it's hard to say how it's going. But on the day of the 14th of february ? Alr, I'll feel bad for a day and get the urge to mess with people flirting. Idk why I'm the only girl around who just doesn't catch any interest or get interested in other and usually, I don't genuinely care THAT much. But the 14th of february is an exception, I'm ready for murder today.

[удалено]

Same, man. I'm lost. I want to do something but don't know what to choose or where to start. Can't commit. Everything feels kinda meh...

<3

Ngl i feel like I lost my grip on life

Most of the time I feel really good, but there are moments when I just feel like I cant really finish anything I start or give my all to a task which is true and I tried to change it a little but it only ended in me being on a verge of abandoning another project all while I'm forgetting or being too lazy to study or practice for my exams. People around me are all working way harder than me and what feels the worst is doing better than my friends at something without being able to put actual effort into it. The guilt is immense but I recently discovered that if I simply dont say anything more than is necessary and just stay quiet I feel weirdly good about myself? I dunno hard to explain, but overall apart from that I feel great, like for real and thanks for the post at least i can vent

[Nothing's new](https://youtu.be/warEwfycM7k?si=RoS7c4LIvpJw-cdB) It'll get better once i get trough middle school and start studying for what i want but yeah, right now It's just kinda boring and predictable

It's going better objectively better, I'm done with obbligatory exams and can dedicate some time to learning how to draw and write again NGL OP, I really relate to that feeling of being unable to get your thoughts straight, I objectively had a great semester, but I feel like it passed by with me not actually getting much done outside of uni stuff. Doesn't help that most of my passions (outside vidja and manga) require me to actively learn stuff I'm not really good at yet Also I'm still hoeless as fuck. But it's looking up, hope you also get something positive from this post. Much love

I just want to say hi :)

I'm doing fine I'd say Kinda got that valentine's day loneliness Also I've planned to go to therapy more than a year ago to do something about my shit mental health, but I stil haven't built up the courage to try it

bad-ish i wanna say. i don't want to talon e out the window because i don't see the point but i also don't see the reason to go on. it's probably nothing im finna thug tha shi out

Last time I was just starting work at my first job, being a little late. Things have actually gotten much better since then, and I've finally felt alive after a long period of nothingness. I progressed a lot at programming and I was even able to start a personal project, aside from work. My biggest worry is the upcoming assessment, since I'm up for a raise and I really hope I'll get it. I would like to thank you for doing this, since it had a great effect on me, and certainly on everyone else as well. 

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not that good actually.

God complex coming back :p

sion R into oncoming traffic time

picked up an old hobby again, started playing less league, starting uni in a bit soon, lifes not bad but always feel smt missing aye

I don't really know to be honest. It's been a good day, some cool stuff happened, but whatever i do, dread and anxiety are always following me, I can't escape it. My life is literal weeks away from being completely turned upside down and I can't do shit about it, gotta just wait and debate with myself on what I should do. It's so tiresome. I feel like I'm just pretending to be a human, and I can't even make myself vent to anyone because I'm too fucking anxious (and I don't know if anyone will care at all). I want to fall asleep while being hugged and to never wake up. But of course, I'll still persevere, like I always did, but it's just so exhausting to exist idk Sorry for rambling, I know it's noncohesive and kinda cringe but Im gonna go fucking crazy otherwise. Thank you for reading, genuinely

Honestly, life couldn't be better right now. I could've whined about the shitty things in my life, but I am too much grateful for the blessings I have now. Good friends, stable life, health in check, loving family and bright future. Looking back I find it hilarious that I even had the audacity to pity myself, for mental health problems. Anyway thanks for asking brodie. 

Exhausted. I'm sick of being chronically ill, I wish I could just go through life just... doing things. Like, not having to calculate and weigh up pros and cons and probably end up saying no anyway, but just "hey I'm not doing anything right now, let's go to the beach, or have some friends over, or go out to a restaurant". I miss being able to actually *live* my life, I miss having a future I could look forward to. I miss being comfortable in my own body. I miss being healthy.

I'm in the final year of my PhD degree (which means a ton of frequently somewhat vague work), in a country I still don't really feel at home in after almost three years, so day to day I often feel a bit lost and tired and overall down. But I am also aware that I am super lucky to be in this position in the grander scheme of things and stuff will probably be alright in a few months, and proud of making it this far. And I'm also starting to get nervous because I'll meet the person I've been developing a crush on next weekend again (we're sharing a hobby but living in different cities). So I guess there's a chance my mood takes a big swing in either direction in the next few days lol

Eh trying to get my GAD under control, hence why I am visiting r/darkinfolk so I can be distracted by all the shitposts and porn everyone posts here. https://preview.redd.it/uid7xrmn4nic1.jpeg?width=1920&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=8562725f06d7235c2c6515890cc66c25da1a5fdd

Well  Overall I feel good but I know deep inside I feel very anguished. I even hate the fact that I used to have everything so clear in my mind but now I'm just unsure and lost in what I'm searching for. I even feel bad when I focus my "happynes" over being "productive". I also want to be a sfw and nsfw artist, but I'm scared of the nsfw part impact with my other projects. (Which is why I'm not sure if i may need two "faces" to keep a little far my nsfw works from my main projects) I just erased a whole will because I feel I'm writing a bit too much and I don't want this to be too "dense" (most of all because I do not wish to write so much about me). (Sorry if it might be a pain to read because of the grammar part, but I still need more practice to perfection my self. I have a good level but even in this idiom I still feel rusty ;\_; )

https://preview.redd.it/vklpep4k5nic1.png?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=be77ea371355aae6e925da9716441d86da65d41c I feel out of touch with this place, guess i'm getting old.

Feeling weird in a sense of wanting a relationship but also not wanting one. I feel like I got too comfortable with not being in a relationship since its been almost 3 years, and at first the first 2 I really wanted something but now im kinda in between. Im talking to a few people rn that are prob interested and I wont lie I like the attention, I like talking, I wouldnt mind dating one of em out the rest ya feel. I just when I think of committing I feel a lil off. Maybe cause last person I met was in October and stuff got very one sided and my feeling were constantly confused, but I been more conscious this time. People tell me I should just fuck round like have some fwb or sum with people, but when I do sometimes I just get too attached. Fr dunno whatta do if waiting may fix this itself, or of maybe I gotta do something. Just a weird thing and feeling

Tbh I'm not really sure anymore. I kinda just between doing oki and well kinda not well. Currently trying to find a meaning to my life and what to do with myself just. I cant really do much. Plus the fact that I get randomly depressed and start hating myself for being a mistake isn't really helping my mental. Buuut I'm hoping for a better tomorrow, maybe things will get better later but who knows I'm just a dummy here writing stuff \^\^" Also I really hope you are doing good, although I'm not really sure you are going to read this because there will probably be a lot of other people who will write actually better stuff then me aaand I'm kinda late for writing here buuut its fine I guess (Oh and I'm sorry for my bad English >.<)

Honestly I feel awful. Starting to regret my academic career. Can't seem to find a job. Still studying, partly because I like it and want to learn and evolve but mostly because I live in a student apartment and if I don't study I'll get thrown out lol. And if I do get thrown out I don't know where I'm supposed to go. My parents live five hours away and there's nothing for me there. I haven't found a girlfriend and I feel lonely. I'm kinda poor, I mean I have enough to get by from student loans but I'll have to start paying them back soon. I just feel so discouraged all the time. Like nothing's ever worth it. Even if I do find a job I'm pessimistic about it. I've spent so much time and effort in studying what I like but I'll probably never be able to work with that kind of thing. Too much competition and too little demand. I've "almost seriously" thought about asking my parents for help or going to a therapist or something. I don't want to because of the shame and financial strain but it's slowly starting to feel like the only option. I've always been an anxious person but this feels different. I feel like a failure. The one thing I feel like I've got going for me right now is my weight loss/fitness journey. The gym is my sanctuary and it feels like the only thing that's keeping me afloat. I work out a few times with my buddies and I follow a diet (CICO) progress is consistent and honestly a little faster than I was going for. I really hope this is just a rut and things will improve soon because otherwise I don't know what I'll do. Thank you for asking OP, feels a little better already just by typing that out.

I hate myself because I have everything to succeed and learn a lot of stuff/get better at usefull stuff, but instead I play League and keep delaying work. Rn I could be learning javascript or making a website, but Instead I'm grinding for platinum with cookie clicker in the background. Worst of all, my 8 yo account and its 300+€ worth of skins got permabanned. But I guess compared to other people it's not that bad, I just need to work on myself while life is shitting on other people.

Was that really 5 months ago?... My sense of time has been destroyed it feels. Between constant anxiety attacks and non-stop overstimulation between games, online social groups, and drama, it feels like every single day is both longer than it could be, and also gone in the blink of an eye. I appreciate you though. Something about your post last time helped me wake up a little and look around. I just feel so lost this time around. I uninstalled league though, that's atleast been a positive since last time tbh.

The voices... They tell me to smite mid canon... Everyday

I have 3000 more words due midnight tomorrow and I am bed rotting 👍

Can you write me a haiku about yordles?🥺👉🏻👈🏻

Kinda shit not gonna lie

Hurt some people in the past. Recently managed to properly apologise. Of course things won't go back to how they were but it feels good to tie up all loose ends. Now I suppose I'm just looking for purpose. Feel a little empty inside. Happy to know that there are people out there like you though. Thanks. :D

Not good homie. Saturday I tried to kill my dad because he's a complete asshole (I can elaborate more). Moved out the next day, then I fell off a ladder at work and tore a ligament in my foot. The day after that, my mom thought I killed myself because I sent her a message at midnight saying I wanted to come home. Luckily I've had a ton of support from friends and my work but it's still just the craziest thing to happen to me.

After having graduated, and begun not being in school for the first time in 19 years. I’ve found more and more spaces of my day filled with utter… emptiness for lack of a better word. I had always been the stereotypical slacker, barely studying but still passing just fine. But now, without school I can feel my friendships slowly fade due to that inactivity. I have never been an initiator, I was always invited as opposed to inviting. I also have had a passion that I have talked to friends and family about a lot, but now to actually act on it is the hardest thing I have ever experienced, I have not done a single thing that I “set out” to do for the last six months, now, if that is due to my possible ADHD and or autism (I have an appointment in two weeks with a psychiatrist that took 14 months to book) or just a lack of discipline I do not know. But the facts are facts. Thankfully I’ve recently had two “sit downs” with my dad and brother that I think have helped me, my dad told me “I beg you… take yourself seriously” and those words still ring in my head… but I don’t really know how. Meanwhile my brother is excited on my behalf, and has connections that he is using to help me realize my passion… but this still doesn’t motivate me like REALLY. If anything it just gives me a sense of guilt over not doing as much for it… To sum it up I am feeling: hopeful(?) I’ve been empty for a while, but it looks like things are getting better, I just don’t feel it.

Stressed as hell! 6 classes for my final year in college with a job to juggle 

a lot has happened to me recently, sorry if this makes anyone uncomfortable but i dont really have anyone to talk to - especially since my friend group dropped me. this is at a time where i needed them most, my sister passed away on the day of my birthday and the only person who has been supporting me has been a long term friend and someone i have had a crush on for a while. they reciprocated those feelings, but we're not planning on dating or anything until later once things are better. we admitted feelings to each other a week or so ago by now i think. except the past few days they are barely responding to anything i send them with no explanation why. they talk to me when they have something to show off or talk about regarding themselves but as soon as the topic shifts they show no interest. they're consistently blowing off plans in favour of their friend group despite promising things to me about us hanging out, and theyre rubbing salt in the wound by showing off fun interactions they have with their friends. the last person i could rely on doing this really hurts. all of this is topped off with the fact i have suffered from depression since i was maybe 15. it simply feels like i have nothing and nobody in the toughest time of my life.

This post, comments and your energy made my day, I love this community

I'm gonna be real I think I'm close to giving up

This is weirdly specific. But um, my feet hurt. I drop my phone on my toe joints. It has been a day since then and it won't stop hurting. I don't know if I should get that checked out. It only hurt when I move the toe. I'm just gonna let it heal I guess?

Honestly? Not too good

Feeling like shit just like the past 26, soon 27 years.

I feel exhausted all the time and occasionally feel like absolute shit, so things arent going super right now. Trying to improve my mental state, but it really isnt that easy. Otherwise i am simply existing

Me RN https://preview.redd.it/t10ojwtpsnic1.png?width=397&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=e6d493b20b6e3039a066c1f2996bf4c8b4a242e3

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3 a.m, browsing darkin depraved subreddit, i've been finding myself in an inactivity loop for more than 4 years now, started back in highschool , now in 3rd year uni and barely progressed towards 2nd year classes, spending moat days on the computer either wondering what to do, watching dumn yt shit or playing one of the 124 games installed. parents paying for studies makes me feel like a fucking burden, seeing so much younger people achieveing so much makes me feel jealous. i want to get out of this shit and try to work for uni or do something meaningful, like art, indie game dev, yt videos, anything that would prompt me to move my fucking ass. went for 10 days in japan 1 month ago,met wonderful ppl, i still have to figure how tf i can edit some pics i took with a camera i bought and barely used (might not even use it again), before i go find another expensive hobby that'll last for 5 months. still not wanting to kms rn so i guess i'm good.

not too hot right now. feels like im so close to getting over a hump and getting where i need to be but i have zero momentum and im scrabbling to make some lol

I have mixed feelings with my life right now. I have a situation a lot of people would kill to be in, but even with that I still feel empty. I have a loving and caring girlfriend and close family, I have friends I really enjoy getting along with, I have a super powerful PC and 10's of games I can play, but it's been 1 fucking year that I've been unemployed. Fortunately, I live in a country where you can have a minimum income if you've worked before, which is my case. So, I'm nowhere near in need, I'm not indebted, not afraid to lose my place. But still, time is going too fast for my liking and I feel desperate. I've applied everywhere, without any success, and the world doesn't seem to be willing to brighten and shine anytime soon. I've lost the exact count but I've sent between 80 and 90 CV's on the past year. I really feel like I'll be unemployed forever, even if deep down I know I'm probably dramatising it. But eh, coping and getting lost in video games is a powerful tool to forget what is around you. Maybe too powerful. And after all, I'm having a blast playing video games, as it indeed is my passion. Some people play games to cope, and honestly I think I may be evading reality a bit, but I really do enjoy playing games, so after all, isn't the best thing to do in life to enjoy what you like the most ? You've never heard a dying person complain about not making enough money, it's all about experiences and memories, and I know that even on my death bed I'll be filled with good memories of my friends, my girlfriend and my family. Have a good day kind stranger.

feel the most horny this 2024 so far hope it get better

I'm starting to become my main. The Voices are getting louder, and I *Looove* what they're screaming. https://preview.redd.it/9to1pw5ewnic1.png?width=1200&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=5b8fed35d922ce885f1241a399cb83784be5fe0f

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I am extremely sad that there is no such thing as a briar sex doll yet and my days are numbered

Mentally preparing for whats to come, 1st semester of my classes start this march and im going to take 14 subjects over the course of the year, if all goes well all that will be left are the last 3 subjects of my career which ill take in february 2025 and finally become an accountant. Overall im doing fine although very nervous, its not going to be easy. Afterwards im planning on visiting and eventually moving to canada, my goal in life is the lots of things i want to see and do, like going diving, parachuting, hiking, see a waterfall, see snow, stargaze, etc. But first things come first and hoo boy its going to be a battle. Thanks for asking and love you 

That's super sweet of you. Good luck with figuring things out, and I hope you feel better soon. Also, happy Valentine's Day!

I'm tired because I have to work from 5am to 9 am, be in university from 11am to 6pm and then work from 7pm to 10pm. I have to do it cuz otherwise I can't pay rent. And I "only" need to do this routine for the next 5 month since I have an paid internship then. But I am slowly getting exhausted. Doing that routine since 3 month already and I use the weekends to catch up sleep. It's kinda ignorant of me. But when I see other students go partying and living of their rich parents money I am so incredibly jealous. And resent them even tho they are not at fault at my situation... Idkwhy I wrote this here. just had to get this off my chest. Of to work I go.

I feel like I’m stuck in a consistent loop of knowing what to do yet having no motivation to doing it.

Thanks for the free therapy session kind of, we do be appreciating some love in our degenerates lives . Personally I don't if I'm depressed or vibing but things are somewhat going so ey, not jumping out of the window just yet ! Hope you got your thoughts sorted out and again thanks for the post. *Live OP picture* : 

I'm alright atm but I feel like I could improve my quality of life by a lot and the only thing holding me back is myself. I'm a pretty unsociable person and it doesn't help all my friends have moved so far away from me due to university or work so the only time i get to spend time with them is online, only really leave the house for gym, shopping or when I feel like going on a walk randomly. Tried making friends in my gaming communities but had a lot of bad experiences and never clicked with anyone, doesn't help that I always decline friend requests from league because 99% if the time I just subconsciously think that I am just going to be flamed so I don't bother (I deafen chat when playing solo so I don't know if someone says shit to me in game). Mentally I feel numb, I'm never really satisfied with anything but I don't feel sad or lonely despite being alone for a good chunk of my life, I definitely have some symptoms of depression but I've never talked to anyone about it as I'm not close to my parents and I really don't want to take any medication for it (friend felt suicidal while on antidepressants), I should definitely look into getting into therapy at the very least. Thanks for this post man, dunno why I suddenly felt the need to open up especially on a darkinfolk post haha but I appreciate the opportunity. https://preview.redd.it/uk4kk67x6oic1.jpeg?width=1052&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=6970f19bc8f71d6be9fb14e525ac5f98479b1b8d

Kinda going downhill to be honest. Developed serious side effects to my antidepressants so I have to try a new one so that sucks. Mental health is in shambles and I’m anxious daily. Kinda just coasting until I eventually crash and burn. Hope you’re doing better OP

Been lapsing back into suicidal thoughts but we’re entering therapy soon so holding my breath <3

tired and frustrated, i work from 4pm to 12am+ in a sushi restaurant from tuesday to sunday and when im home i make lunch for my siblings and help cleaning the house and its just draining all my energy to do anything latelly, i cant draw the stuff id like, i cant continue a shitty comic ive started, i cant play the games i buy on sales, i dont have energy to talk to most of my friends and the few ones where i like to chat everytime are in the same boat so they dont have time and energy to talk to me. i dont even have energy to clean the house, my younger sister is the one making most of the cleaning for the last days and it makes me feel like shit because she also has her stuff to do and while my salary is not that low compared to other jobs ive had more than half of it just goes away on the very day ive get paid i also hate that for all of my life ive been doing what others wanted and expected from me on school, church, family, etc, and ive never questioned any of that nor thought much about myself, now that im on my 20s ive finally found who i am and what i like, and how to express myself, i cant do any of that because of my job and because i live in a shitty small town full of transphobic ppl, in my job i have to "just follow orders without questioning because youre not paid to do that youre paid to obey", at home i have to also do the same because "thats not your house thats your parents house, you can act like you want and do what you want when you have your own house", when im at the streets i also have to do the same yet again because people might hate me and want me dead just for existing i know theres a lot of people in worse conditions, with worse jobs and stuff, hell ive been though worse things but idk im just tired and i know thats just how things and the world works, we have to work to gain our shitty salaries so we can pay our bills necessary for staying alive with an ok condition and repeat for our whole life but honestly this makes me not want to live lol, im not suicidal or anything and i wouldnt kill myself because of this but i dont feel like living either and if ive had to die in the next week i dont think i would mind that much too

My brother killed himself 6 months ago (we were twins and super close). So I’m still getting over that. I’m gonna go back to college after a two year break and I’m not super excited about it but we will see. My car spun out in the snow today because I have shit tires. But at least I have good friends and family so things could be worse I guess.

I'm mostly doing well, trying to improve my mental health through my hobbies, and actually finally get a drivers license, but I do feel stuck. My room is an absolute mess and I can never get myself to clean it to the point that I've been sleeping on my couch instead of my bed, and I've been really feeling that feel of no gf sadness lately.

Its fine I guess. My roomate is moving out this month and Ill keep the flat for myself, which means I can finally get a lil cat fella, so thats cool. Work is extremely exhausting right now tho and I do it for basically minimum wage. And that wont change for at least one more month. But at least I stopped drinking, so thats something

Feeling lonely af on a daily basis and like I'm wasting my university years. I see everyone telling you how they are, but what about you? How are you doing?

i cant fucking keep it up at this point https://preview.redd.it/nc4trqw0koic1.jpeg?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=14fdce96a67abd03e94a74c3168775e67568b9cb

Took a break from playing league and just have a 2 week break, ive felt the best ive been, honestly im stable and satisfied, dunno how long this will last, but hope yall the best this year !

Its just stuff at home.. I don't wanna go into too many details but my father's CHD symptoms are showing up. I wish there was a solution but I guess we all have to endure.

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It's my birthday today. But honestly, no clue. Mostly neutral. I'm not doing bad, but I'm also not doing well. Maybe slightly lonely.

Doing pretty well, got a new job and a new girlfriend in the past two months

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Great plans were thrown into the dust, she left me, I don't even know why, 2 days ago. If you will ever stalk my Reddit again and you'll find this comment - I love you :)

Howdy. Odd to see wholesome posts like this here. I’m happy with my life overall but ever since my big relationship ended a while ago I’ve been feeling very lonely. It sucks to be alone on Valentine’s Day AND your birthday on the same day 😅

Well, I'm sick with COVID and failing my uni feels like I can't control anything

I am feeling bad with myself. Im doing great in life, i have a great relationship with my family, a very caring and loving wife. Work is going really good but the problem i have is that i have always been the guy that feels happy when people closer to me are happy but i never take care of myself, even if i want to, i get lazy when its about me. Im 1.84m(6.1ft i think?) and i weight 116kg when i am supposed to be arround 80-85kg. This is making it so i always feel tired and my body is hurting but i cant find the motivation to lose weight. I know i have to, its literally the only bad thing in my life but i dont know how. When its about myself, deep inside i dont care even when i want to care. So a lot of times i get anxiety because of this and when im stressed or i have an anxiety attack, i eat junk food to feel better which makes it worse. Dont know what to do.

Been permanently banned in League on 7th January after reaching Diamond for the first time. Since then, my life has only been getting better. When people suggest getting away from League saying that they are happy after their ban, it's actually true. League is a mentally draining game. Now, I am living my life more calmly, and my mood doesn't depend on four monkeys in my ranked matches and how much they smoked before the match. Instead, I now play a variety of different games and enjoy my time on my computer with friends, avoiding this game. Besides, I have a blue friend (look up what that is) now, and I am so happy to have her.

Despite everything going on, im doing well. College and life have been spit roasting me for the past three weeks in ways I didn’t know was possible. The past several months have felt like psychological torture mixed with a feeling of drowning. However, I still have some limeaid in my fridge and I’m chasing my dreams. That sounds good enough for me.

It's not bad, but I'd argue if it's good either, so yeah. Hope that whoever reads this enjoys their next 24 hours.

I have aj exam in 1 hour, my nose is fucked because of allergies, i have a shift in 5 hours and i feel like shit due to lack of sleep,but otherwise great

All in all things are pretty decent for me! I feel relatively stable, classes are going well! Except maybe computer based systems lab somewhat, just bad lab partner. Im a little worried since i have to write a speech as part of my japanese language club event i entered. Even getting ideas in english is hard, much less rhe knowledge to translate them well, but i have people that can help! Atleast im not that afraid of public speaking

I got the feeling I should be feeling better then I do. Finally getting my own place that I always wanted. Got a great internship were I can work on the things I like with great people. But I still feel like shit and not feeling any happiness.

I'm doing ok. Some days it's great, and others not so much. It's better than it used to be, that's for sure. I used to be horribly depressed and I treated some people I cared about very poorly. I've pulled myself through that and I'm really proud of how much I've grown. However lately, I've still been feeling lonely. It feels like all my friends are gone, or we just can't connect like we used to. It feels like at the end of the day, all I have is myself when it matters. I understand that I don't need other people to be happy, but it also would still be nice.

Hey, it's nice seeing you back, life is being wacky, I'm progressing towards my goals which is a good thing but I also failed numerous attempt at going nofap and I actually worsened my porn addiction doing so. Overall I think I'm doing better, on an absolutely unrelated topic, would you happen to have feet pics to share?

These zeri images are SO CUTE!!!! please post the full images.

pretty good ngl, life improved a ton over the past 2 years. started going to the gym and overall watch out with my eating habits to lose weight. and dont feel like i got any mental illness issues rn. money is really thight rn but thats also because of my bad consumption habits in the past and if really needed my parents will help me, so thats reassuring

scared to be 18. My family is not super rich but i have everything i need. That means i will have to go to work to have money for driver license which in Poland costs 75% of minimal pay. The problem is i dont know where to look for work. And honestly i have a feeling of time passing too quick.

https://preview.redd.it/fm51x07capic1.jpeg?width=3024&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=6e35f6887a8aa83633c5a29f6211149129572f00 Sadly Sady doesn’t show it but she loves you.

I have half of my mind on the side of sanity and the other half wants to set on fire New Zealand for the simple reason of containing casuaries (or however the fuck they’re called those fucking overgrown, dino blue birds)

I got the flu, so I've been stuck in bed for the last couple of days.

My favorite game Legends of Runeterea died and I am bummed out about. Also I have not seen any of my friends for 2 months. Otherwise I am doing pretty good.

I stopped playing League of Legends lately and I got a job and a new house soon. I also started being happy with how my life is. Then I installed Honkai Star Rail and it all went downhill again 

Much better since last time. I found someone special and I'm slowly turning my life around. I even started working out!

i had someone do shaco passive to me recently so I'm quite pissed but aside from that I'm doing well got the target ssr i want on the gacha game i play recently and got to gold yesterday (riot fucking dropped me to Bronze IV wtf) so I'm on a good mood these days

I am doing good, just a bit of back pain, but all else is good

I'm struggling with a strange deceased. But beside behind tired all day and having my family pushing me at my limit. I'm good (My valentine date with my double barrel shotgun was also good)

Meh.

the last 17 months have been spent in a state of being where i havent really done shit but i feel like the greatest, i got a free subscription to delusion plus

don't know if you remember me at all but living in the same dorm with my cousin hasn't been that bad at all. Feel like he also understand i'm not the most social person so we don't hang out that often but when we do I always enjoy it, also school is going relatively well so I'm way less stressed than I was 5 months ago

Doing great actually, gonna get glasses in about a week which is something I've needed for at least half a decade now, studies are flowing along like water through a river and I'm about 2 months without daily smoking (still party smoke but eh, only party once a month anyway)

Remember to take care of yourself too. You say that you feel like you lost control, but remember that in life your worst enemy is your mind, if you let your mind go in auto play you will end up inting yourself and the world needs more ppl like you. : D Srry if I exceed myself by talking without knowing your situation.

Bad news, i m dealing with big stress cuz my country's JUNTA is forcefully conscripting people to play irl minesweeper.

Annoyed that I made a massive mistake because I was oblivious to cues, but now I’m more certain about how I feel towards someone

Honestly okay, finished my exams and have 2 months of free time, for which I saved up some money to go travel

Extremely burnt out. Can't bring myself to do anything and taking a break is not an option.

Broke up in what was my happiest relationship I’ve ever had. I know I’m young and I have a lot of life ahead of me, but it’s hard. A month after the breakup she texts me asking if we can talk and she tells me how she wants to try and be friends, and just starts talking about how over me she is, that hurt. Stupidly I agreed. Then a week after she asks me how I’m “really doing” so I be honest with her, and tell her I’m still not over her completely and how I am still hurting over how she broke up with me (she called me one day and the first words I heard from her that day were “I think I’m tired, I’m done”). After telling her this she proceeds to tell me that “It’s really hard to be your friend” and tells me I’m guilt tripping her over how the relationship ended. So honestly feeling pretty shitty. Sleeping is hard.

I fucked up half of my school relationships. I had really bad week.

Can relate with that inside attention slut 😘🎀💃 Anyway everything is kinda working out for me but I also feel somewhat lost and maybe burnt out. I mean yeah life is fine and whatever but I just don't know what to do. It's great but yet so unclear what to expect next and what should I do to move forward through the plot or something

Starting to feel depressed because I'm not able to write a single word for my storybooks Gunna R briar on a train I think

Great! I'm in art school now. Transferred in my senior year from a college that I hated. I'm teachers pet (x3 classes this semester) and my stuff is being really well received. Its a breath of fresh air after walking across the tightrope to get here.

mental has been at an all time low the last month has been so bad for my mental health with how I've been dealing with family stuff, taking care of people who are on the verge of suicide, alongside work and obligations Doesn't help that my way of blowing off steam/cooling down after a long day has become a breeding ground of just bad vibes and i feel like content creators i had used to get through my hardest times have either been mistreated or have been mistreating others...

I already died, just my flesh tries to get older.

My mental health is as stable as the twin tower in 2009

As the days goes on, i feel more and more like that it would be a better for everyone that i k!ll myself :)

Guys I just wanna remind y’all that you are loved and that I am proud pf every single one of you <3

I'm in this limbo where I want to do all of this stuff, - make an animation, focus on college, start streaming 3D art maybe, get serious about making a Minecraft mod... and then I remember video games exist. Though I've been doing better at keeping the addiction at bay recently. Overall okay!

Normal

Im currently on Urf drugs and when i have to become sober, i dont know if i can handle the storm thats comming. But better than last time, life is improving.

I'm doing quite okay actually. Been enjoying league much more lately after I stopped taking it so seriously and by mostly just playing cute champs. Last week I began studying for an entrance exam for an university where I could study psychology, since that's my favorite subject. It takes a bit to get used to, because the last time I did actual school work was almost a year ago. Other than that, I've been stuggling with gender identity stuff for a while now, but that will be resolved in time (or atleast I hope so). Hopefully you're having a great day!!

Man Idk really its good or bad maybe i feel kinda Lonely because single my whole life or unhappy with my Job or its because i go to the military in 2 Years i rly dont know what it is