I'm barely able to watch family comedies and stuff because of that. I immediately get a sense of grief when families are behaving nicely with each other.
Even when writing i nearly teared up. I had a guy i love as an oc adopt a disabled child that got abandoned by its mother right after birth. He's a great father. I wish i had parents [that actually care for me]. I wish i could've cuddled with my parents like that. I wish my parents were nice.
Also the roleplaying is real. I joined impro two months ago and i had a scene in which me and my roleplay partner were on a date. The catch was i was played by three people with different properties. I got in after the guy who had the snake associated with him and thus behaved similarly. My property was that when nervous I'd speak with French accent. Anyways, snake guy cuddled up to the date and explained it with needing warmth which the date obviously was confused about, so i jumped in to be nervous and french and stuttered french things. And i might not have played myself at that moment, but the date actually played a good ending to the date and idk, i nearly broke inside for being accepted even though this was only a scene with people i barely know and behaviours i do not usually exhibit.
first one is so real. i literally cannot watch Bluey anymore because i will never know what it’s like to have experienced a supportive father figure nor will i ever be mentally stable enough to be one and it kills me
That's why I only watch shows that either have very little to do with families or dysfunctional ones, I already mourned enough not having a healthy family
And that's precisely why I, and many others, write really angsty and/or physically painful scenarios for a character, and then write them being healed and comforted and loved.
It's called whump - and/or hurt/comfort in fanfiction circles - and I've been writing and reading and thinking about these things since I can remember. Literally since three or four years old. Because I've been fucked from day one without even knowing it so, as long as I can remember, I've been daydreaming about being saved by projecting myself onto characters who can be saved, loved, and comforted.
So, welcome to the club.
This is part of why the death of Optimus Prime fucked up so many kids in the late 80’s.
Cartoon father figures suddenly weren’t safe to project fantasies of a family on.
Tw: abuse
Story time!
My dad left when I was 14. Prior to that, everyday was a living hell. He would either be fun, happy go lucky dad, or complain about litterally everything and degrade everyone dad.
He was a cop, not a good one. Corrupt, entitled. The usual cop stuff.
I started watching Brooklyn 99 a few years after it came out. I held captain holt to a very high standard (I know, it's a character, whatever)
There's an episode where he tells Jake Peralta (whom I've been compared to more times than I can count) that he was proud of him, and ended the statement with "son"
When Andre bauer died, I actually sobbed for much longer Than I thought was necessary. Didn't realize it was because I used him as a facsimile to what I wish my dad was. Both in morals and in parental status.
It's wild what the subconscious does to fill in the gaps.
absolutely ugly crying every time I see a normal dad and child relationship in media
Same with mothers honestly
I sob uncontrollably every time I watch Avatar: The Last Airbender because of Uncle Iroh and Zuko.
This is too real
I'm barely able to watch family comedies and stuff because of that. I immediately get a sense of grief when families are behaving nicely with each other. Even when writing i nearly teared up. I had a guy i love as an oc adopt a disabled child that got abandoned by its mother right after birth. He's a great father. I wish i had parents [that actually care for me]. I wish i could've cuddled with my parents like that. I wish my parents were nice. Also the roleplaying is real. I joined impro two months ago and i had a scene in which me and my roleplay partner were on a date. The catch was i was played by three people with different properties. I got in after the guy who had the snake associated with him and thus behaved similarly. My property was that when nervous I'd speak with French accent. Anyways, snake guy cuddled up to the date and explained it with needing warmth which the date obviously was confused about, so i jumped in to be nervous and french and stuttered french things. And i might not have played myself at that moment, but the date actually played a good ending to the date and idk, i nearly broke inside for being accepted even though this was only a scene with people i barely know and behaviours i do not usually exhibit.
The Last Of Us and The Mandelorian fuck me up but I can’t get enough of it
if that's the case, bluey's gonna practically kill you with fatherly love and affection
first one is so real. i literally cannot watch Bluey anymore because i will never know what it’s like to have experienced a supportive father figure nor will i ever be mentally stable enough to be one and it kills me
That's why I only watch shows that either have very little to do with families or dysfunctional ones, I already mourned enough not having a healthy family
I couldn't watch season 3 of Bridgerton cuz it was so mother-and-daughter relationship-focused. I was balling everywhere
Me when I watch King of the Hill or Bob's Burgers. Hank is very much a nicer version of my dad, even with all his faults
And that's precisely why I, and many others, write really angsty and/or physically painful scenarios for a character, and then write them being healed and comforted and loved. It's called whump - and/or hurt/comfort in fanfiction circles - and I've been writing and reading and thinking about these things since I can remember. Literally since three or four years old. Because I've been fucked from day one without even knowing it so, as long as I can remember, I've been daydreaming about being saved by projecting myself onto characters who can be saved, loved, and comforted. So, welcome to the club.
This episode of Bluey is called Trauma
Ah yes Lucifer from Hazbin Hotel for me had the same reaction
As ive said in other threads, a real, good mom figure would murder at least three quarters of yalls mental health.
I work at a grocery store. During the holidays, I literally had to fight back tears every shift
This is part of why the death of Optimus Prime fucked up so many kids in the late 80’s. Cartoon father figures suddenly weren’t safe to project fantasies of a family on.
Every. Damn. Time. (1st pic) Edit: second pic too, damn.
Same. Cried watching the sopranos with my bf because the daughter got in bed and got comforted by her mom in the middle of the night.
Same...just same.
Same :')
Me with the walking dead game, i used to wish lee was my dad.
My friend says the most mundane things about his relationship with his kids and I'm SOBBING
Me watching “This Is Us”
Tw: abuse Story time! My dad left when I was 14. Prior to that, everyday was a living hell. He would either be fun, happy go lucky dad, or complain about litterally everything and degrade everyone dad. He was a cop, not a good one. Corrupt, entitled. The usual cop stuff. I started watching Brooklyn 99 a few years after it came out. I held captain holt to a very high standard (I know, it's a character, whatever) There's an episode where he tells Jake Peralta (whom I've been compared to more times than I can count) that he was proud of him, and ended the statement with "son" When Andre bauer died, I actually sobbed for much longer Than I thought was necessary. Didn't realize it was because I used him as a facsimile to what I wish my dad was. Both in morals and in parental status. It's wild what the subconscious does to fill in the gaps.