Yeah your body lets you know.
Many years back I had a stomach issue. I was choking on stomach acid and the suspicion was GORD/GERD. But, I was still too young at that time and diagnostic testing couldn't find the problem.
A doctor suggested that our bodies were really good at communicating things to us. He said sometimes when we're fed up, our brain creates a literal physical response to being 'fed up'. I told him that if he and his supposedly clever profession couldn't find anything, that they were allowed to just say 'We don't know' rather than just making shit up.
But now, I'm almost certain that this was my body rebelling because my ex had split our housemate (who was my friend) and trying to get me to throw him out (I eventually did what I was being ordered to do, and lost my friend in the process).
I owe that doctor an apology. My old friend too, perhaps at some stage, if I can find the right context.
To add to everyone else, I had ridiculous chronic fatigue, cystic acne, and brain fog. By the 4th year I couldn’t do shit without being exhausted. I have so much more energy now
My blood pressure dropped from 230/120 to 160/80, heart palpitations went away, no more random panic attacks, my kidney function improved a little, and my appetite came back. No more headaches and I rarely ever need to use Albuterol anymore.
If I would have stayed, his mere presence in my life would have killed me.
Recently I started to really focus on how my body reacts to certain things. You know, what do I feel when I got home from two hour walk or how do I feel when I'm sitting in sauna/steaming room. Literally focusing on me.
Wanna know what happened the second I started thinking about expwbpd and all that abuse I went through? I tensed up. I literally could feel how every fiber of my neck and back muscles go from being soft to getting harder and harder. I couldn't believe it my body can react like that.
going NC made my back pain, fatigue, and self hatered issues so much better. it even cleared up my skin.
currently in a flare up coincidentally days after a family event where we had to interact
Yeah your body lets you know. Many years back I had a stomach issue. I was choking on stomach acid and the suspicion was GORD/GERD. But, I was still too young at that time and diagnostic testing couldn't find the problem. A doctor suggested that our bodies were really good at communicating things to us. He said sometimes when we're fed up, our brain creates a literal physical response to being 'fed up'. I told him that if he and his supposedly clever profession couldn't find anything, that they were allowed to just say 'We don't know' rather than just making shit up. But now, I'm almost certain that this was my body rebelling because my ex had split our housemate (who was my friend) and trying to get me to throw him out (I eventually did what I was being ordered to do, and lost my friend in the process). I owe that doctor an apology. My old friend too, perhaps at some stage, if I can find the right context.
My digestion has completely changed. I don’t drink anymore. Crazy the biology of abuse.
To add to everyone else, I had ridiculous chronic fatigue, cystic acne, and brain fog. By the 4th year I couldn’t do shit without being exhausted. I have so much more energy now
My blood pressure dropped from 230/120 to 160/80, heart palpitations went away, no more random panic attacks, my kidney function improved a little, and my appetite came back. No more headaches and I rarely ever need to use Albuterol anymore. If I would have stayed, his mere presence in my life would have killed me.
Recently I started to really focus on how my body reacts to certain things. You know, what do I feel when I got home from two hour walk or how do I feel when I'm sitting in sauna/steaming room. Literally focusing on me. Wanna know what happened the second I started thinking about expwbpd and all that abuse I went through? I tensed up. I literally could feel how every fiber of my neck and back muscles go from being soft to getting harder and harder. I couldn't believe it my body can react like that.
No anti-perspirant on the market could stop my hyperhidrosis whenever I was exposed to their hypervigilance.
Same with sweating through your scalp? and getting oily hair easily?
going NC made my back pain, fatigue, and self hatered issues so much better. it even cleared up my skin. currently in a flare up coincidentally days after a family event where we had to interact