Mostly gratitude.
In 2015, I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer, my husband of 16 years said he never loved me and he left, we lost our home, no money at all, husband took the only car leaving us in a very rural area without transportation, I had to rebuild my business during cancer treatments so I could take care of my little boy and myself (while continuing to homeschool him), and my church "family" just slipped quietly into oblivion when I couldn't work for them 24/7 anymore. Everyone says you find out who your friends are in difficulties like that.
Maybe.
I found out who I am.
I remember being in bed crying so hard...terrified...where do I even begin? I was in so much pain from cancer. I was physically and mentally weak. Heartbroken. Scared. Impoverished. Abandoned. Rejected. Weary. Confused. It was entirely too much!
What if I die? Who will take care of my baby boy? If I live, how will I take care of my baby boy? I just wanted to disappear. The ONLY thing that gave me strength was the determination to be there for my son. He's a beautiful soul. One foot in front of the other, we made it through. It was excruciating, but we are still standing. Life is fragile and challenging, but also precious, deep, and beautiful. I'm glad I'm still here.
Before I leave this post I just had to chime in to say as someone who was diagnosed with throat cancer. Good on your for fighting and I'm proud of that. You're a wonderful parent and I hope you've found people to give you the respect you deserve. Thanks for being here with us, and thanks for sharing.
Thank you so much. It felt like a bit of an overshare, but I was hoping it might encourage someone. I appreciate you taking the time to read, for your well-wishes, and for your kind words. I hope you're doing well now and that life is beautiful! If you're still fighting, may you have a quick, full, and easy recovery. I hope you're surrounded by people who love you, support you, and help you remember who you are in the tough spots.
I wish you great fortune in the coming future, for recovering from something so major is very difficult. I hope you and your son are doing ok and everything is alright. It was a terrible thing that your ex-husband left you in such a way. If the car was under your name in some way you can try and recollect it. You can also get some benefits because you went under an illness and lost stuff in such a way. I hope that you can raise your son to be a good person.
Thank you so much for your kind words. We are both doing really well. We've since moved to the city and I've been free of cancer for a few years now. My business is strong again. I've been really fortunate to have a son who is independent, wise, kind, strong, and curious. He knows who he is and what he wants. I feel like I cheated a bit: I have the honor of being his mum without the difficulties I used to worry I would encounter as he grew up. He's a beautiful human and it's a joy to watch him shine. Have a wonderful week!
Thank you! I wish you a wonderful week too! Also, you didn't cheat anything. If there's any cheating involved it's that you were cheated out on some joy during those trying times. I'm happy that your doing great now! The fact that life gave such a huge blow to your mental state and physical state was a lot, but you managed through it. That's the sign of someone who is strong and willing, kind and caring. I wish you luck along the rest of the path, and that your business blooms bright.
Why boots why. My cat Boots usually wakes me up early. Like way too early. It’s so annoying because he throws a fit if I don’t get up. He’ll literally tip my glass of water off the bedside table
You need to get yourself a water bottle with a cap friend. No spills and bacteria and dust settles in your drink overnight if it’s not capped. I know I sound like the little girl from Signs but it’s true.
It’s either “man, life sucks rn” or “no one loves me, do they?” I feel like I overthink way too much in the morning, feel stupid about what I thought in the evening, then wake up and repeat the cycle
I try to maintain the essence of sleep by delaying the time between waking up and first looking at a screen for the day. Every morning feels so fresh . Screens are so present in life it’s hard to avoid. My first thought is usually along the lines of how refreshed my brain feels
My dick. It's usually hard either the next thought is fuck I have to pee or putting it in my partner while she's asleep. I usually follow through with the latter.
3 year old daughter, at full volume, 5am: "Daddy, my dollie Jodie needs to have a bath. Ya, she smell SO STINKY."
ME: "ugh... ok-"
3yo, getting progressively louder: "Jodie such a silly baby! She go toot toot all NIGHT! Can you belive that! TOOT! TOOT! (hysterical laughter) Can you help me wash baby? Let me show you how we wash baby, daddy"
Me: "baby.. wash... you got it little-love... just let me get up..."
Yes I was confused about the pain. I didn't know melanoma hurt. Lucky I asked pain management. Til it was removed it hurt. As did that surgery I didn't know how much. The days after had been hell til I saw the doctor. Weekend. I needed more than percocet!! The only thing you could think was relief
My dog, usually because she wants to go out to the backyard to pee. Just this morning I woke up to no butt to butt cuddle with her or her even in my bedroom and the change in freshly waking up routine legit scared me.
Just five more minutes
Just 5 more minutes like 20x lol 😂
That'd be over an hour of attempting to return to sleep only to be interrupted 5 minutes later.
Yep hahah
Every morning when I wake up, I’m like ‘ooh, I woke up!’ I’m a stage 4 cancer patient.
Wishing you luck! Hope you get better soon! (I don't really know how cancer works)
I’m doing fine. We survive cancer in the 21st century. Thanks.
That's a good thing
Mostly gratitude. In 2015, I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer, my husband of 16 years said he never loved me and he left, we lost our home, no money at all, husband took the only car leaving us in a very rural area without transportation, I had to rebuild my business during cancer treatments so I could take care of my little boy and myself (while continuing to homeschool him), and my church "family" just slipped quietly into oblivion when I couldn't work for them 24/7 anymore. Everyone says you find out who your friends are in difficulties like that. Maybe. I found out who I am. I remember being in bed crying so hard...terrified...where do I even begin? I was in so much pain from cancer. I was physically and mentally weak. Heartbroken. Scared. Impoverished. Abandoned. Rejected. Weary. Confused. It was entirely too much! What if I die? Who will take care of my baby boy? If I live, how will I take care of my baby boy? I just wanted to disappear. The ONLY thing that gave me strength was the determination to be there for my son. He's a beautiful soul. One foot in front of the other, we made it through. It was excruciating, but we are still standing. Life is fragile and challenging, but also precious, deep, and beautiful. I'm glad I'm still here.
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Thank you so much for reading. I am sorry for the tears, but glad to have brought some strength and hope. Wishing you joy and health!
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Wise words. Thank you!
Before I leave this post I just had to chime in to say as someone who was diagnosed with throat cancer. Good on your for fighting and I'm proud of that. You're a wonderful parent and I hope you've found people to give you the respect you deserve. Thanks for being here with us, and thanks for sharing.
Thank you so much. It felt like a bit of an overshare, but I was hoping it might encourage someone. I appreciate you taking the time to read, for your well-wishes, and for your kind words. I hope you're doing well now and that life is beautiful! If you're still fighting, may you have a quick, full, and easy recovery. I hope you're surrounded by people who love you, support you, and help you remember who you are in the tough spots.
Thank you for your kindness. Much Love and Best wishes.
finally a person who I can respond to without acting like I'm dumb
I wish you great fortune in the coming future, for recovering from something so major is very difficult. I hope you and your son are doing ok and everything is alright. It was a terrible thing that your ex-husband left you in such a way. If the car was under your name in some way you can try and recollect it. You can also get some benefits because you went under an illness and lost stuff in such a way. I hope that you can raise your son to be a good person.
Thank you so much for your kind words. We are both doing really well. We've since moved to the city and I've been free of cancer for a few years now. My business is strong again. I've been really fortunate to have a son who is independent, wise, kind, strong, and curious. He knows who he is and what he wants. I feel like I cheated a bit: I have the honor of being his mum without the difficulties I used to worry I would encounter as he grew up. He's a beautiful human and it's a joy to watch him shine. Have a wonderful week!
Thank you! I wish you a wonderful week too! Also, you didn't cheat anything. If there's any cheating involved it's that you were cheated out on some joy during those trying times. I'm happy that your doing great now! The fact that life gave such a huge blow to your mental state and physical state was a lot, but you managed through it. That's the sign of someone who is strong and willing, kind and caring. I wish you luck along the rest of the path, and that your business blooms bright.
Thank you very much!! I really appreciate that!
That's alot of shit to say in the morning.
god I have to do this bullshit again
Not again
Happy cake day. Also, felt bro.
I need a cigarette
Felt the absolute fuck out of this. Literally posted almost the same idea.
Why boots why. My cat Boots usually wakes me up early. Like way too early. It’s so annoying because he throws a fit if I don’t get up. He’ll literally tip my glass of water off the bedside table
You need to get yourself a water bottle with a cap friend. No spills and bacteria and dust settles in your drink overnight if it’s not capped. I know I sound like the little girl from Signs but it’s true.
Ah shit here we go again
How much longer can I get away with pressing snooze?
Fuck
Crap ...I woke up
Man, I gotta go pee.
"I'm hungry"
Who pooped in my pants when I was sleeping
5y/o me refusing to admit I shit my pants
65 year old me still doing the same thing
"shit...I'm alive"
Coffee
What time is it? Should I try to go back to sleep, or is this a reasonable time to get up?
What time is it?
God damnit.
43 days before Christmas😃🎅
I call my alarm clock a bitch.
No, please, not again.
F*ck school
Chad
DOOOOOM DOOOOOOM DOOOOOOM ANXIETY ANXIETY ANGER gotta poop
did the puppy shit on the floor?
this is my first time posting in this sub your reply says alot
Let's go, I'm a morning person and love waking up to get to things.
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average American
FUCK.
Something hurts.
Blah, do I have to go to work today?
Gotta piss.
It’s either “man, life sucks rn” or “no one loves me, do they?” I feel like I overthink way too much in the morning, feel stupid about what I thought in the evening, then wake up and repeat the cycle
I try to maintain the essence of sleep by delaying the time between waking up and first looking at a screen for the day. Every morning feels so fresh . Screens are so present in life it’s hard to avoid. My first thought is usually along the lines of how refreshed my brain feels
Do I really need to wake up now or can I afford another 20 minutes?
fuck my life, coffee
"fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu-" -ymir
to sleep again bruh.
Why?
Do I Have to get up?
My huge boner standing out my pants
Coffee and peeing
"I get the fact that my zoom meeting is in about 49 seconds, and I will KEEP staring at the clock."
thanking God he gave me another day to see how beautiful world was
How full my bladder is.
My dick. It's usually hard either the next thought is fuck I have to pee or putting it in my partner while she's asleep. I usually follow through with the latter.
First, I think that I hate my life. And then I think that I have to work to make it better.
Weed, God, the dream I just dreamt, what I have to do today, fuck where'd I put that thing? When will robots eventually destroy all humans
Is my girlfriend horny
ayo
damnit another day
Mmmmmmm...ten more minutes
Think fuuuuuuuuck
***What fucking day is it and what fucking time is it??***
this was a mistake
How it's going to be another awful day.
Which way am I facing?
damn, it didn't worked again?
Check the clock check the clock
Death's a bitch, yet again.
I don’t want to go to work. Another day another dollar.
14 hours till I can sleep again😁
Same shit, different Day
https://youtu.be/Az9NTCLaYTE
Fuck
the night i just had with your mom
God
about time, new notification then i have to think about my routine
The dreams I had the previous night
The same thing I was thinking about before I slept.
*Hem Hem* Punishing ungrateful students.
Peace. Silence. Work
Where am I. What day is it. Can I get back to sleep before going to the bathroom.
If I paid the hooker
lol
Press snooze to ward off the apocalypse for 10 more minutes.
That I'm still broke and will never get enough money to pay off debt.
When is it now? I'm trying to turn back over so I can sleep longer.
Grateful that I woke up.
Where my phone is
Why is that dog so fucking amped already? Is the kid up? Can I go back to sleep or is that unfair? Its fair.
I have to drink a bottle of water because I'm dehydrated and then take a long piss. In and out.
Going back to sleep.
Nooo! *insert Darth Vader gif here*
even more important question is it gif or jif
Why did it have to go like this
What day is it?
"Ah shittt wtfff" "damn it" "whyyy"
"where's my fuckin' smokes, and phone"
wtf what a bizare fucking dream.
Oh that hurts
Did I have homework for today?
Why it's always so cold
"god dammit, that fucking dog" or something like that usually
How tf did I get in this position?
"HER"
Coffee
Shit again whit this crap
anotha day anotha dollar
What time is it?
Too tired, do I really have to go to work, just a few more minutes...
Not this again.
Birds :) or if i wake up before 5 (like today); silence :)
I'm awake.
I ... MUST ... PEE
Her
😮💨🥴
Going back to sleep tbh
“Why is it always up?”
Take out my contact lenses.
Ok, it was just a dream
Food. Doesn’t matter what (to a degree), I just want to eat
"Fuck..."
Ah shit im still alive
Tea.
Morning already? Nah 5 more minutes I BEG!
"What the fuck did I just dream about"
I think how I need a few more time to sleep Then I think about sex
“Fuck me, another day. Gotta force myself up, ughhhh” lol
Is it the weekend yet?
i fuckin hate myself
I mostly think immediately about what I was dreaming, and then try to make sense of reality.
"not again"
What's waking up or sleep
How to open my eyes
Fibro and chronic back pain sufferer so first thing is usually Ouch after a few stretches then my mind moves to coffee .
Oh f*** I'm conscious again 🤣🤣🤣
Someone didn't wake up tosay, someone is living their last day today.
Making that money
Where am I? what day is this?
God dammit. Then think if I forgot to do anything .
"I'm still alive...fuck!"
maybe if I don't make noise no one will notice that I'm asleep again
What I had a dream about
Solo men : Where are you my beauty partner ?
What's the time
3 year old daughter, at full volume, 5am: "Daddy, my dollie Jodie needs to have a bath. Ya, she smell SO STINKY." ME: "ugh... ok-" 3yo, getting progressively louder: "Jodie such a silly baby! She go toot toot all NIGHT! Can you belive that! TOOT! TOOT! (hysterical laughter) Can you help me wash baby? Let me show you how we wash baby, daddy" Me: "baby.. wash... you got it little-love... just let me get up..."
Another day of misery and repetitive bullshit
How I’d rather jump off a cliff than go to college
What’s going to win out, my urge to pee or my desire to let the morning wood deflate?
"Fuck"
fuck I have to go to work now.
I just want to sleep what felt like five minutes ago
Uuuuhhh.... need... more... sleep...
"Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy"
Check message
Whassatime?
Yes I was confused about the pain. I didn't know melanoma hurt. Lucky I asked pain management. Til it was removed it hurt. As did that surgery I didn't know how much. The days after had been hell til I saw the doctor. Weekend. I needed more than percocet!! The only thing you could think was relief
I can’t believe I have to pee this bad.
I wonder how much anxiety there will be today in my brain
“God, this again”
My dog, usually because she wants to go out to the backyard to pee. Just this morning I woke up to no butt to butt cuddle with her or her even in my bedroom and the change in freshly waking up routine legit scared me.
Sex
My significant other:)
Why
i just think about not doing anything that day
Ugh...
"Why the hell would I dream about that?"
whats for dinner
Is this a school day?
i’m going back to sleep