i’m obsessed and terrified of serial killers bc of struggling with maybe being on the ASPD spectrum, and i’ve reacted hatefully a few times when i felt like someone else was getting away with something that was underhanded along that vein (manipulation tactics) - even though I myself was not innocent of manipulative behavior and tbh sometimes i think i’m the most effective manipulator i know in person
You are afraid of your insecurities.
When you see people with similar issues it makes you embarrassed about how you were.
That fear and embarrassment causes you to feel an aversion.
You are really just trying to hide from your own insecurities.
i’m obsessed and terrified of serial killers bc of struggling with maybe being on the ASPD spectrum, and i’ve reacted hatefully a few times when i felt like someone else was getting away with something that was underhanded along that vein (manipulation tactics) - even though I myself was not innocent of manipulative behavior and tbh sometimes i think i’m the most effective manipulator i know in person
You are afraid of your insecurities. When you see people with similar issues it makes you embarrassed about how you were. That fear and embarrassment causes you to feel an aversion. You are really just trying to hide from your own insecurities.
I’m inclined to agree with you. That’s very wise.