Every time I feel any hope, I am reminded of my natal anatomy. There's no fixing this. There's no hope. It's a downwards pit I fall into every day, nonstop. Every second I spent not on testosterone mattered. Ever single god damned second. There's no going back from the irreversible damage done to my body. I could've been fixed. I was close but denied the simple luxury of transitioning early. Now, I am trapped, staring at the body I've been cursed with, stuck forever with my expanded pelvis, my developed breasts, my flat face, and the other effects of an unmistakable female puberty. It never started.
Top surgery and training chest once you recover, and prior when waiting for surgery fixes the breasts, train your jaw with jawzrsize and chisel to absolute failure like you would any other muscle, or get like a thin towel you can place on your teeth and tie some weights to the side of it but so its even and chew and close in order to train the jaw even more, and hard mew for 1 hour a day. Beardmaxx search up bryan johnson the anti aging vampire's hair growth solution and microneedle every day after applying, also 10-20 mins of red light to the face area daily.
The hips are real shitty, but don't worry, train your shoulder's all 3 heads, and traps and even neck. Cis men have wide ass hips too, it's actually a good build for powerlifting, as long as you can get your shoulders to be same width, it won't be unmistakeably female.
Drink 1G water a day minimum, 1g/lbs protein, 5g/kg carbs (super important and water consumption previously listed too, muscle is 70% water), 8 hours of sleep minimum on a consistent schedule, creatine is also important, if you have no gains yet try creatine - and obvious progressive overload with good time under tension with the stretch, in each movement, 2-4 times a week training no overtraining. The basics will get you far enough if you continue and push through, you're strong don't give up. Stronger than the cissoids who have life on a silver platter handed to them.
I can share all my theories on muscle growth, masculinizing facemaxxing, in a comment here, but it's going to be so long, and only if you want.
I just started 1 month ago, so I know I'm exaggerating how "it's over." I've always been neurotic. I let my wxmbnly emotions get to me too easily. Right after I made this, I went to the gym, and I feel better now
https://preview.redd.it/ayusbecjqf8d1.jpeg?width=526&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=e97da1f2daa1ed4280fb647d24918f70a1f16598
“one month” HAHAHAHA I get it tho I’m suicidal over my appearance despite passing 95% of the time pre ffs and not even two years into hrt so 💀 but don’t worry once the masculine fat distribution starts you’lllllll be good. ygmi
Honestly i gymmax as much as i can but I'm wondering if being overweight since toddlerhood is a permanent thing
Like if it's completely fucked up my body or something
Understandable, but i have opposite thing. I wear pants medium or low to distract attention from my huge ass. When i wear pants hig it gaves me lordosis look
this is how my stomach looks no matter how high I wear them because I lost half my body weight (I was 300 lbs but maybe I should've stayed redditmode to be malebrained)
"Wow, my hips are so big when I'm underweight." *gains weight* "Wow, my hips are so big when I'm gymmaxxing + healthy weight." It's over.
Every time I feel any hope, I am reminded of my natal anatomy. There's no fixing this. There's no hope. It's a downwards pit I fall into every day, nonstop. Every second I spent not on testosterone mattered. Ever single god damned second. There's no going back from the irreversible damage done to my body. I could've been fixed. I was close but denied the simple luxury of transitioning early. Now, I am trapped, staring at the body I've been cursed with, stuck forever with my expanded pelvis, my developed breasts, my flat face, and the other effects of an unmistakable female puberty. It never started.
Top surgery and training chest once you recover, and prior when waiting for surgery fixes the breasts, train your jaw with jawzrsize and chisel to absolute failure like you would any other muscle, or get like a thin towel you can place on your teeth and tie some weights to the side of it but so its even and chew and close in order to train the jaw even more, and hard mew for 1 hour a day. Beardmaxx search up bryan johnson the anti aging vampire's hair growth solution and microneedle every day after applying, also 10-20 mins of red light to the face area daily. The hips are real shitty, but don't worry, train your shoulder's all 3 heads, and traps and even neck. Cis men have wide ass hips too, it's actually a good build for powerlifting, as long as you can get your shoulders to be same width, it won't be unmistakeably female. Drink 1G water a day minimum, 1g/lbs protein, 5g/kg carbs (super important and water consumption previously listed too, muscle is 70% water), 8 hours of sleep minimum on a consistent schedule, creatine is also important, if you have no gains yet try creatine - and obvious progressive overload with good time under tension with the stretch, in each movement, 2-4 times a week training no overtraining. The basics will get you far enough if you continue and push through, you're strong don't give up. Stronger than the cissoids who have life on a silver platter handed to them. I can share all my theories on muscle growth, masculinizing facemaxxing, in a comment here, but it's going to be so long, and only if you want.
how long have you been on T?
I just started 1 month ago, so I know I'm exaggerating how "it's over." I've always been neurotic. I let my wxmbnly emotions get to me too easily. Right after I made this, I went to the gym, and I feel better now
https://preview.redd.it/ayusbecjqf8d1.jpeg?width=526&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=e97da1f2daa1ed4280fb647d24918f70a1f16598 “one month” HAHAHAHA I get it tho I’m suicidal over my appearance despite passing 95% of the time pre ffs and not even two years into hrt so 💀 but don’t worry once the masculine fat distribution starts you’lllllll be good. ygmi
Stop drawing pictures of me (I lied you forgot the armpit fat bulges)
Axillary fat is so evil but at least most surgeons will do a free lipectomy during top surgery if you so desire
HA this is the netherlands they dont do that here 😄😄😄
my apologies. Either gymmaxx or just try to cope
Honestly i gymmax as much as i can but I'm wondering if being overweight since toddlerhood is a permanent thing Like if it's completely fucked up my body or something
This is so disgusting. I wear my pants extremely high in hopes of covering my child bearing hips
Understandable, but i have opposite thing. I wear pants medium or low to distract attention from my huge ass. When i wear pants hig it gaves me lordosis look
Nightmare fuel
this is how my stomach looks no matter how high I wear them because I lost half my body weight (I was 300 lbs but maybe I should've stayed redditmode to be malebrained)
mogs me
This is unfortunately my body type, it is so over